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(Jade's POV)
It hurts whenever I leave her side, it feels as if my heart is being ripped apart whenever she's not near me and it scares me. I have never felt this way around anyone and it terrifies me. I know I've made a mistake becoming this invested in a person, that would probably abandon me like everyone else has. If that happens I know I would die inside, because it's come to that stage in life where Tori has become my entire world and I don't want her to be. All this should've been was me trying to help her cope with her raping. I was never meant to develop feelings for the girl. I hated it.
This has become on my list of the things that I hate. The way I feel about Tori Vega. I slammed my locker shut with a groan. A week has passed since we had shared our past with each other, and the thought of Tori staying in that house alone cause my insides to twists, so she either stays at mine or we both stay at hers. Mom absolutely loves Tori and keeps asking me to ask her if she wants to stay with us over the Christmas holidays, I haven't bothered asking as I kind of already know her answer. But other than driving Tori to school I have yet to see her and it was already lunch. I frowned and made my way towards the asphalt cafe, maybe she's already there.
"Where's your other half Jade?" Someone said beside me and I looked up to see Beck half smiling at me.
"I dunno" I answered.
"It's strange seeing you alone," He said as we made our way to our usual table. My frown deepened when I noticed that Tori had yet to show up. Where was she? "Most of the time the two of you are joined by the hip"
"What's it to you?" I scowled at him sitting down, pulling out my phone to text her.
"Nothing it's cute" He said smirking slightly.
"I'm not cute" I growled my eyes narrowing at my ex-boyfriend.
"But you think Tori is?" He questioned me his eyebrows raised. Ever since we broke we've been on relatively good terms. When he goes out on dates, I don't get jealous anymore and I'm fairly certain Tori has been a major help in that area. But we've started to become friends again, and I was glad. I had missed his presence. Apart from now, now I wanted him to get hit by a bus.
"No" I lied, stopping myself from imagining everything that makes Tori cute. Boy there's a lot of them.
"Liar" He grinned and I just glared at him before turning to my phone sending a quick text off to Tori. I admit that I do miss the brunettes presence, but I would never admit that to Beck but the knowing look on his face tells me he already knows. I'm thankful that he doesn't say it aloud, admitting it myself is one thing, but admitting it to everyone else is another thing entirely. Robbie came to the table, and I have been able to tolerate the boy a lot more now that he had decided to get rid of the puppet. He sat down next to Beck, and the two lads began to have their own conversation that I didn't really care about. I kept stealing glances at my phone, waiting for Tori to text me.
Andre was the next to arrive at the table, with Cat giggling next to him. I frowned when I didn't see Tori with them. Cat sat down next to me leaning into my side, it was something she always did but now the touch felt different. It didn't feel like Tori.
"Where's Tori?" I asked her, my voice low so no one else could hear.
"She isn't with you?" She said her head tilting to the side. I felt my heart plummet as thousands of worst case scenarios race through my head. My hand clenched into a fist, as I tried hard to regain my temper. I couldn't afford to lose it at school. I shook my head to answer Cat and she too frowned. "Maybe she's with Lizzie?" I nodded slightly already sending a text to Lizzie.
Jade- Tori with you?
I sighed and placed my phone back on the table, and turned to my lunch. I didn't have the appetite to eat, but I carried on stabbing my salad with the fork that was clenched tightly in my fist. My phone buzzed and I quickly looked towards it reading the text I had just got.
Lizzie- She was ten minutes ago, said she had to go meet you. Why?
I didn't bother texting her back, already out my seat to go find her. I ignored everyone else calling my name all I could focus on whether or not Tori was safe.
(Tori's POV)
I don't know what possessed me to go to the art department at the beginning of lunch, usually I head to my locker and wait for Jade or Jade is waiting for me. But this time I didn't bother waiting for her, because I knew she wouldn't want me talking to Lizzie after she revealed her past to me. I walked into the unfamiliar area and smiled a little at the creativity the kids seemed to have. Every available surface was covered in paint, and Peoples artwork that I couldn't help but stand there and stare at them.
"That's ones mine" A voice said beside me, and I turned my head to look up at Lizzie she said who was pointing towards the painting to my left. I shifted my attention towards it to see a painting of a giraffe.
"It's a giraffe?" I asked raising my eyebrows up at her.
"The assignment we had was to do a painting on something about us, so I did a giraffe that represents me" Lizzie said grinning wiping her paint stained hands on a rag that she was holding. "So what brings you to the art room, without Jade?" She asked leaning against the wall beside me.
"I wanted to ask you something" I said fiddling with the hem of my shirt.
"Ask away" She said giving me a comforting smile, obviously sensing my discomfort.
I nodded slightly and said "Why does your Dad prefer you to Jade?"
Lizzie's body tensed up slightly at my question, sighing she ran a hand through her blonde hair "So Jade finally told you?" She asked and I nodded feeling guilt for even asking the girl this who had done nothing but be nice to me. "He doesn't like me at all, he thinks me wanting to be an artist is a useless aspiration for life. Hell he likes Jade more, he thinks writing is a lot more useful than painting pictures"
She shifted on each foot, before taking a pen out of her pocket and began drawing random patterns on her hand. "When I go away for the weekends, it's me going to live with him while my social worker comes round to make sure I'm being looked after. Then he sends me back home" She frowned before looking at away from her hand towards me and gave me a half smile "Sorry about being all depressing on you"
I smiled back at her slightly "It's fine, I shouldn't have asked" I said to her just as my phone went off, alerting me that I had a text. I knew it was from Jade probably asking me where I was.
"Jade cares about you, by the way" Lizzie said and I looked up at her surprise on my face.
"She does?" I asked quietly, still unsure that Jade had cares about me as much as I do her.
"Why would you even question it, she makes it so obvious to begin with, you're the only person she would touch, let alone cuddle with on the sofa. Cat's her best friend and the only thing the two of them can do is hug. She is constantly by your side all the time, and hates it when you're not around. She texts you all the time" Lizzie said grinning at me, I swallowed nervously not liking the way my thoughts were racing through my head.
"I'll let you get back to Jade," She walked towards me holding out an arm before retracting it "I would hug you, but paint" She said smiling at me one more time and I smiled back before she walked back down the corridor and I made my way towards the asphalt cafe. I sighed and considered Lizzies words.
I guess Jade did treat me differently than she did anyone else, but I always thought that was her feeling sorry for me. Treating me like I was some fragile thing, and I guess a few months ago I was fragile but not no more. Jade was the reason I became stronger, her and her bloody sweet side. It was that side that made me fall the girl. My eyes widened and my steps stopped all together.
What? When did that happen? My breathing quickened and hurried into the nearest bathroom. I clutched the sink tightly until my knuckles went white. No, no, no. I can not like Jade West. It's something that is never happening. So of course the one time I want to forget about her, she's the only thing I can think about. I had always known the girl was beautiful, that was obvious from the start. Though it's her personality that was the reason that caused it, even if her looks helped. Before I had only know the harsh Jade, the one who answered with a sarcastic tone or a harsh comment. Now, it was the sweet and protective Jade.
The one who enjoyed Disney films, and cuddling on the sofa. The one, who held my hand and kissed my forehead. The one who held me when I was sad, and cared for me when I had nightmares and when I had cut. That was the Jade that I had fallen for, and I have fallen hard. I sighed and rested my head in my course I had to like Jade West, and now that I have admitted that's all I'm going to be thinking about. That and what it would be like to kiss her. I groaned into my hands.
"You okay Vega?" Someone asked behind me and of course it had to be Jade, who was looking at me with her green eyes filled with concern that it caused my heart to flutter.
"Yeah I'm fine," I said smiling at the girl, the girl who was the only person I smiled properly at. Jade smiled back at me, moving to my side.
"Where did you go?" She asked me slipping her hand into mine, and I felt as if my skin was set on fire by the simplest touch.
"I went to talk to Lizzie, why did you miss me?" I teased.
"Maybe" Jade said a light blush creeping onto her cheeks.
"Well I'm sorry I took too long" I said reaching over to quickly place a kiss on her cheek letting my lips linger there longer than necessary, resisting the temptation that wanted me to kiss her a lot more than just on her cheeks.
"It's fine," Jade said clearing her throat slightly before squeezing my hand. "Come on let's get to Sikowitz's class" I nodded a smiled on my face as Jade let me out of the bathroom. Her hand still linked in my own. We walked into the classroom, thankfully not the last ones to arrive, even though I could now stay with large groups of people as long as Jade or Cat was with me I still didn't like loads of them staring at me. The two of us sat near the back, moving our chairs closer together so that our legs were touching.
Her hand was still wrapped up in mine, and I'm pretty sure my heartbeat had yet to go down to it's normal pace. Cat walked into the room and sat in the seat beside me, giving me a bright smile.
"Hey you found Tori" She said twirling a lock of red hair around her finger.
"She was never lost Cat" Jade said beside me, her thumb stroking the back of my hand, moving closer to me.
"Well you acted as if she was, checking your phone every second" Cat said giggling before going over to talk to Robbie. I looked over at the raven haired beauty, seeing a blush creep onto her cheeks. She was actually adorable when she did that.
"Don't say a word" She said to me, her eyes narrowing. I smiled at her but didn't say anything else as that's when Sikowitz decided to enter through the window, a coconut in his hand which he took a sip out of.
"All right acting without speaking" Sikowitz said signalling the beginning of the lesson.
"So, are we doing anything tonight Jade?" I asked as we walked away from our lockers towards the car.
"Want to head to your house?" Jade asked and I nodded as she held the door open for me.
"Such a gentleman" I grinned, kissing her cheek softly before sliding into the passenger seat. Jade rushed round to the drivers side and turned to me a smirk on her face.
"I can assure I am no gentleman" She smirked at me pulling the car out of the car park and driving me towards my house.
"Is that so?" I asked tilting my head to face her, raising an eyebrow at her.
"Trust me on this one Vega" She said winking at before putting her focus on the road ahead.
I smirked slightly "Only this once now Jade" I smirked triumphantly when I saw the flustered look appear on her face.
So there is the end of chapter 15. I'm not really a big fan of chapter 15, for me it was more of a filler chapter. But anyways what did you guys think? Review please and I'll see you all in chapter 16.