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(Tori's POV)

All the trees were tightly-knit, just one strand in a massive web of life. Green leaves, yellow leaves, red leaves. It was a rainbow of rich, autumnal colours. The scent of earth and water drifted through the air. It was a picture of serenity, one which would endure for many long years. Bt right now I couldn't care about what surrounded me. Because there Jade was. Even though her back was facing me I knew it was her, I had the same feeling in me that I get every time I'm near her. The faintest smile appeared on my face before it turned into a grin. I felt my feet move towards her, one step after another. An action I didn't recall doing, but this was Jade. Opposites ends of a magnet that attract each other, that I didn't even bother to fight the pull that I had for the raven haired girl. She was sitting down beside a small pond, dangling her feet in the crystal clear water causing ripples to disturb the clear surface.

My heart was beating faster as I got closer, watching my step cautious to not step on any of the flowers that were surrounding the girl, Jade hates flowers so if she voluntarily sat next to one then it must be some important flower. The smile still evident on my face as I sat down beside her, crossing my legs over each other watching the ripples on the water slowly getting bigger. A comfortable silence sat between the two of us, it was easy doing this with Jade. When we were in the others presence we didn't need to create sentences and phrases, both of us was contempt in sitting down and just doing nothing. I turned my head slightly to look at her, the girl who had stolen my heart. She had a plain white dress on which was something that the goth wouldn't usually wear, but the colour of the dress against her pale skin made her seem as if the girl was in fact glowing. Black curls was deprived of her highlights and it fell in gentle waves down her shoulders. Our eyes locked and I took a sharp intake of breath as I stared into her emerald eyes. She was beautiful.

"What took you so long?" She asked me, her voice soft and angelic. She relaxed as she kept staring at me, her shoulders un-tensing when a smile formed on her face.

"Not my fault your text was incredibly vague, 'come to the pond in the forest'. Do you know how many ponds are in this forest?" I asked nudging her gently with my shoulder and I'm pretty sure I felt my smile grow.

"Always the dramatic one aren't you Vega?" Jade teased as she placed her arm around my shoulder pulling me in closer to her. I rested my head on her shoulder, welcoming the heat that came from her body.

"It's a talent" I laughed moving beginning to play with the fingers that were on my shoulder. "Why did you decide to meet here?" I asked curious about her motives. Usually we would meet up at each others house or a coffee shop. But this place was new.

"Why not?" She said answering my question with a question of her own. She must have noticed the pout that had replaced my smile as she reached over kissing me lightly. "Why do you think I chose this place?"

I shrugged not really knowing the way Jade mind works "Flowers?"

"I hate flowers." She said and just to prove her point she picked up the closest flower, crushing it in her hand. I couldn't help but smile slightly as I watched the damaged petals fall slowly to the dirt.

"You hate a lot of things Jade"

"I don't hate you though" She said recapturing my lips with her own. A part of me thought that this was all wrong, that was the logical side of me. But my heart thought that kissing Jade, holding Jade, being with Jade was right. So right that couldn't help but kiss her back deepening the kiss. She smiled against my lips and wrapped her arms around my waist pulling me closer till I was sitting on her lap. Tangling my hands in her black curls moaning slightly as I felt her tongue enter my mouth.

Kissing Jade was amazing, something I could never tire of. Her hands moved there way to my hips where they stayed as she pried her lips off of mine. Her thumb moved in circles across my tanned skin causing shivers to happen through my body, as she rested her forehead on mine.

"Maybe I only brought you out here so I can do that" She whispered her green eyes twinkling.

"Well as much as I love it when you do that, why did you have to go into the middle of the forest to do so?" I raised an eyebrow at her, still wanting to know the reason as of why we were here.

"Less of an interruption," She said grinning at me "More of a romantic setting"

"A romantic setting?" I asked confused.

"I'm full of surprises Vega. I may find all this romantic stuff a load of bull, but you don't," She stared at me in silence for what seemed like the longest moment of time before saying "I heart you"

"You heart me? What is that? Is that like 'I love you' for pussies?" I asked her watching the her lips stretch into a grin as she pulled me in closer to her.

"You just quoted Orange is the New Black? Does that mean you watched it?" She said and I'm fairly certain I've never seen her this excited before, but the mention of that TV show she acts like a puppy during playtime. I did watch the series in my spare time after her telling me time and time again that I just had to watch it.

"Just a few episodes" I said before I felt a pair of lips being pressed all over my face.

"It's great isn't it? Don't you think Alex is super hot" She said kissing my face after every word she spoke.

"Super hot?" I raised an eyebrow slowly leaning away from her, trying to make sure my amusement show on my face as she began to panic.

"Well yes, but no-she kinda is" She stuttered out, her cheeks going red. "She is hot, but you're hotter" I smiled softly at her before kissing her cheeks.

"I'm only teasing you" I said before kissing her quickly. "I heart you too by the way" I kissed her again moving closer to her and I felt her arms tighten around my waist.

It felt perfect.

My hands found their way to her hips, as hers and made her way to tangle in my hair slightly pulling on it. I moaned quietly, only moving her head away when I felt the need to breath I moved my head away. I kept my gaze locked on Jade, who had her eyes closed and a dopey grin on her face.

She looked so beautiful.

"I could stay like this forever" I whispered quietly closing my eyes sighing with happiness.

A pair of hands wrapped tightly around my neck making me gasp in surprise. My eyes snapped open as my hands moved there way up to claw at the hands that were there. Hands that I had become so familiar with. Emerald green eyes stared back at me, but they were now cold and filled with hate. All the love and happiness that was there before had vanished. Her grip tightened as a cruel smirk appeared on her face.

"Jade!" I choked out. She pushed me backwards till my back hit the dirt below. "Stop please" The corner of my vision began to go dark, and more force was applied to my throat as Jade sat on top of me.

"This is your fault you know," She snarled above me. As much as I wanted to I couldn't move my gaze away from her. "All you fault!" It felt even harder to breath and my struggling was becoming weaker and weakened. My vision darkened, the last thing I saw was Jade a cruel smirk still on her face.

My eyes snapped open and my hands reached up to claw at my throat, I had to get the hands away from me. I have to stop her from strangling me. Nothing was there, no hands that I was familiar with. I reached a hand up to my face to feel my cheeks that were wet with tears. I didn't even realize I was crying. It had been the same thing that I had been dreaming about for a weak. Jade hurting me, killing me.

After I wake up from the nightmares, I'm tangled in my sheets, covered in my sweat or tears. It's always the same thing though. Me going to Jade, being with Jade then it's her with her hands around my neck, trapping me from air. It's always Jade. No matter how hard I try my thoughts are always brought back to girl who stole my heart and broke it. Sometimes it's all too much. The nightmares were getting worse, much worse and it's getting a lot harder to stop them. I hate it.

I hate how they have such an effect on me, how they leave me traumatised an shaken. I hate that I wake up alone after them, the emptiness of my house is a constant reminder how alone I am. I picked up my phone, my hand still shaking from the nightmare. There is was a limited amount of people that I could call for help, my first thought was Jade but I couldn't call her not for a long while at least. I could try Cat but no doubt she'll go straight to Jade afterwards, the girl was so focused on getting the two of us at least talking again. So Cat wasn't an option. There was always Andre who I have missed dearly over the past few months, but calling him would be having to explain everything to him and I don't think I'll be able to handle re-living it. There had to be someone I could call, I can't spend another night alone.

There was always Lizzie who I could call. I wouldn't feel obligated to tell her anything, and she doesn't seem like the type of person to push any answer me. Before I knew what I was doing, I was dialing my number and waiting for her to pick up.

"Hello?" I heard her voice say, and I felt myself get calmer when I heard her voice. The only person who could ever have that effect on me is Jade, maybe it's because I know they're related.

"Are you there?" I heard her ask me and I was finally able to find my voice.

"Lizzie?"

"Tori?" She asked confused but I could hear the happiness in her voice. "It's two in the morning, are you okay?"

"I'm sorry for waking you up, I was just wondering if you wanted to hang out?"

"Now?"

"Yeah now"

"Did you have a nightmare?" Lizzie asked, her voice soft.

"Yeah I did" I whispered, squeezing my eyes shut to block out the images that were flashing through my mind.

"Say no more, I'll be there in ten" She said and I hung up the phone, still unsure of what I was doing but I didn't care. At least I won't be alone for the rest of the night.

Exactly ten minutes later, there was knock on the door. I got up from my seat on the couch and opened it. Lizzie stood there grinning at me, she was dressed in black skinny jeans and a paint stained hoodie.

"Hey" She said as she walking inside throwing her bag carelessly on the couch as she sat down beside it. "So, I brought along a couple of movies that I thought you would like to watch" Lizzie said giving me one last grin before rummaging through her bag. "I have Star Wars, The Lion King but that's Cats. Twilight, the third Harry Potter and the Breakfast club" She said chucking them into a pile beside her.

"Your choice" I looked into her eyes and saw understanding inside of them. I knew she wasn't going to ask any questions. and I knew she wasn't going to make me do anything I didn't want to do. I knew she wasn't what I needed or wanted, and Lizzie knew that too. She didn't look at me as if was somebody who needed to be pitied, Jade didn't either. Maybe forgetting Jade would be easy.

There we have it, Chapter 18. What did you guys think? Leave a review and I'll see you all in the next one.