Hey guys I'm back sorry about the wait but here I am with another chapter. Thank you to everyone that reviewed the last chapter and I hope you enjoy this one.

Disclaimer- I don't own Victorious

(Jade's POV)

"ELIZABETH ANN DOUGLAS" I screamed slamming the door behind me as I marched into the art department. Throughout the past week, I have been getting more and more pissed off as the days go by. And Lizzie has completely pushed me over the edge.

"ELIZABETH, WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?" I heard all of the other art nerds duck their way past me in fear. A growl passed my throat as I stormed into the back of the department, becoming even more pissed off when I saw her standing there with a paint brush in hand. Her back was facing me and her earphones were in. Walking towards her, I yanked her earphones out causing her to face me.

"Oh hey" She said smiling at me before returning to her work.

"Don't hey me," I growled snatching the brush off her "What are you doing with Tori?"

"We hung out on the weekend and watched movies, and she hangs in here during lunch" She said eyeing me curiously. I felt my heart plummet slightly, so that where she's been hiding. I feel like a complete idiot for not thinking of looking here.

"Why didn't you tell me she was here?" I asked trying to hide the hurt I was feeling.

"Because she was here, and not with you. So I thought that something had happened between the two of you" I heard Lizzie say, she's been avoiding me. God I've screwed up.

"Oh" I said softly wrapping my arms around myself. I have to find her and explain to her that I didn't mean it. She had to know that.

"Wanna talk about it?" I heard her ask me, but it was like I couldn't hear her. Everything had gone blurry. The only thing I could think about was Tori, who I haven't seen since Saturday. God it hurts, it hurts the fact that Tori is hurting because of me. I could see her so clearly in my mind, so happy and relaxed as she curled herself further into my side. As soon as it came into my head, it was ripped away and replaced with the image of Tori the night she came to my house in the middle of the night. The image where her makeup was smudged, and clothes were ripped, cheeks were stained and her eyes filled with panic and fear. My jaw clenched and I willed myself to forget about the image.

That was months ago, forget about it. Tori isn't like that now.

But what if she is, what if I made her like this. That all it took was one push from me and all the progress she's made is gone.

"Stop it" Lizzie said placing her hands on my shoulders. "Stop thinking about what happened to Tori" I moved away from her touch, narrowing my eyes glaring at her. Her hands moved fell from my shoulders to fall at her sides, I tried not to focus on the hurt look on her face.

"I'm sorry for yelling at you" I said quietly, it felt weird for apologising but something was different between us since Dad come back into our lives. I feel the urge to protect her and knowing that she was leaving to Chicago with my shit as a father.

She half smiled at me "It's okay, I didn't exactly hear you yelling anyways. The beauty of earphones," She said "Something happened between you and Tori right?" She asked me softly and all I could do is nod. "And I'm guessing that it's really hurting right?" Again I nodded, not knowing what she was doing.

Lizzie removed the paint brush from behind her ear and grinned at me. "C'mon" She said grabbing her bag and walking towards the exist. I stared at her retreating figure confused by what had just happened. I should be going to find Tori and try and make it up to her, I had to tell her I was sorry and that I didn't mean what I said otherwise the guilt would take over me. But it was quite obvious that she didn't want to see me and no matter how hard I looked for her wouldn't change the fact that I hurt her deeply. And even if I did find her and she allowed me the opportunity to explain myself I don't even know what I would say. I sighed and followed her trying to calm the erratic beating of my heart.

"Where are we going?" I asked from the passenger seat. Lizzie had insisted that she be the one to drive, so I reluctantly handed over my keys and we both sat there in silence with the only noise coming from the radio.

"It's a surprise" She said grinning.

"I hate surprises"

"I know" Lizzie said as she pulled off the road and started driving up a dirt hill.

"If you break my car" I said before Lizzie interrupted me.

"I won't, okay" She said as she turned round another corner. "Here we are" She said as she turned off the engine and got or, grabbing her bag while doing so. I followed her out looking at where we were. We were in a clearing on top of a hill that was overlooking the city.

"Did you bring me here to kill me?" I asked as I walked over to the blonde who was currently lying on the hood of my car with an arm behind her head.

A small smile appeared on her face "My plan ruined" I smirked slightly as I climbed up next to her and lied down. Wepay there not saying anything, I didn't know what to say to her. All of my life I've tried to ignore anything to do with the girl, but here I am lying down next to her wanting to tell the girl everything that has been going on. I opened my mouth to speak but the blonde beat me to it.

"I leave tomorrow," She whispered, all sound of joy and happiness were devoid from her voice. I looked over at her my eyebrows furrowed, why was she only telling me this now? She didn't look at me just continued to stare at the sky. "Look out Chicago here I come" It was meant as a joke but no laughter escaped her mouth. The more I stared at her, the more I understood her. Lizzie had been around for such a long time and she has always been making jokes. It had always annoyed me when she did that, always too laidback. But now I get it, ever since she came into our lives she's used her humour as a defensive mechanism, a way for her to hide the pain she had been feeling.

"How long have you known?" I asked my voice the same tone that I used around Tori.

"Three days" She answered.

"Three days? And you're only telling me this now?" She shrugged. "Does Cat know?"

"She's coming round later. I'll tell her then. I haven't told Tori either and I don't think I can"

"You're gonna have to tell her"

"Can't you do it for me" She asked finally moving her eyes from the sky to me. Her blue eyes were filled were sadness and I felt the urge to hug her.

"It's complicated" I said looking away from her, I couldn't stand seeing how depressed she looked.

"But it's you and Tori. Don't try and deny but the two of you are madly in love with each other" She said. And I shut my eyes tightly. Don't think about the pain you're making her feel.

"It's still complicated"

"Explain it to me" She said softly and when I opened my eyes to look at her, my green eyes met her blue ones. I had to tell someone about this, someone would would understand. Someone like Lizzie.

"Three months ago Tori was raped" I said softly.

Well there we have it, chapter 19. So what do you guys think? I'm not a massive fan of this chapter but what else can I do. Please review and I'll see you all in the next one.