Hello readers, it's been a while. An entire month. I am super sorry about that. But here I am with chapter 20. I decided to do something a little different in this chapter and you'll know it when you see it. So enjoy.

Disclaimer- I don't own Victorious, but Lizzie is mine.

Something changed between me and Lizzie after I told her what had been going on these past few months. The air around us became less tense and there seemed to be an understanding between us, one we didn't have to talk about but we both knew it existed.

I told her about Tori being raped, how she came to our house in the middle of the night, how I promised to look after and not hurt her. I told her about how she promised me not to tell anyone about what happened and how I didn't no matter how hard I wanted to. I told her about how I slowly developed feelings for her. I told her about the time Tori had harmed herself and how I held her while she slept. I talked about her nightmares and her family. I talked about the kind of date we went on and how she kissed me and I kissed her back. I told her what I did on Saturday when I talked to her on the phone. I told her how much I've screwed up and how much I've hurt her.

It hurt talking about it, hurt a lot. But I had to talk to somebody about it and Lizzie didn't interrupt, didn't ask questions, she just sat there and listened and I'm so glad that she did just that because if she did then I don't think I would've carried on. All the bad memories that I tried to repress from my mind and focus on only the good ones. But now they were fresh and it was painful to remember them again. Lizzie must have sensed how much it hurt for me to remember, so she suggested we head back home. I was thankful for that, yeah I needed to get it off my chest but I was definitely not ready to answer any questions she might have.

Mom wasn't at home when we arrived, and Lizzie went straight into her room leaving me alone with my thoughts. I pulled my new phone out of my pocket and hovered over Tori's number. U want to call her, I desperately want to call her. But I know she wouldn't pick up even if I built up the courage to do so. I shoved my phone back into the pocket, I had to do something to distract myself. I walked into the kitchen, thinking that food could help distract me. Opening the fridge, I frowned in disappointment when I realized that Mom didn't go shopping. I sighed heavily and closed it, leaning against the countertop. I had to do something that stops me from thinking about Tori, it's like all I can think about is her. The girl that I screwed up entirely.

I heard footsteps walk towards me and I looked up to see Lizzie standing there, fresh paint already covering her arms and hand. After tonight she'll never be able to do that again. The thought saddened me more than I thought it would.

"What's up?" I asked watching as she wrapped her arms tightly around her body.

"Cat's coming over," She said and I nodded in understanding. "I have to tell her don't I?"

"Yeah you do" She said and she nodded and I could see the tension leave her body.

"Hello!" Cat's voice yelled through as she let herself into our house. Something she had done a million times before hand. Lizzie's eyes brightened as she heard Cat's voice and in that moment I realized how much she was hurting by telling the small red head about her leaving. Cat entered in the kitchen her eyes immediately looking at Lizzie, a bright smile appearing on her face. No matter what Cat says I know she has some sort of feelings towards the blonde artist.

"Hey Jadey" Cat said after finally noticing I was in the room as well.

"Hey Kitty" I said smiling softly at my best friend, but my smile soon turned into a frown as she marched over to me, a furious look on my face as she jabbed a finger in my chest.

"Look whatever happened between you and Tori, fix it" She snapped at me, "Jade please fix it. Tori is really hurting and she needs your help. You are the only one who can help her"

"Okay, okay" I said grabbing her hands in my own, "I'll try. I promise Cat" I said softly and that was all Cat needed for her to calm down. "Now go talk to Liz" She nodded and turned her head to look at the girl who was leaning against the doorway staring intently at the two of us. Cat's slid out of mine as she walked over to Lizzie and took hers.

"Talk to you later Jadey!" Cat said happily as she dragged Lizzie away. I stole one last glance at her face and saw how comfortable she looked as with her hand entwined with Cat's. Once that was out of sight, I smiled. Maybe the two would end you together. A part of me wishes that they would end up together. Out of the two of us, one of us deserves to be happy.

I made my way into the living room and saw a notebook on the table. I haven't written in a long time. To wrapped up in Tori to even consider placing a pen to paper and let the creativity flow to form sentences. It's been so long, and now seems like no better time than to start writing. I picked up the paper and pen, and let my mind relax as I began to write.

Who knows how long I was there for, but when my phone began to ring I noticed I had written at least three and half pages. I'll go over that later. I dug my phone out of my pocket and looked at the caller ID.

Tori.

My throat went dry and my hands began to shake. Why was I so nervous, I had answered Tori;s calls countless times before. But now felt different. After a whole week of her not talking to me, after me fucking up. It felt different though this time though.

I steadied my breathing and answered.

"Tori?"

(Lizzie's POV)

My palms were sweating, and my leg was shaking as I was sat on the edge of my bed, watching Cat who was looking at my latest paintings. Neither of us said anything to the other, we just sat in a comfortable silence. It was something the two of us were used to. It was something that I was going to miss.

"This is really amazing" She said as she pointed to one of my recent paintings. It was a painting of a girl with her hands covering her face, the colours were all grey and white, with blackness seeping in from the edges. "Then again no matter what you paint or draw it always ends up amazing" I smiled softly a red tinge on my cheeks. She placed the painting back to where it was, before she went to sit by my side.

"I'm guessing Jade finally told you about Tori?" Cat asked me and I nodded.

"I wish I had known before hand. I could've helped" I said softly. I wasn't able to say any of this Jade. Not when she was coping with so much. What she needed was my support, and that was what I gave her. A pair of arms wrapped around me a small body was pressed against my own and I immediately began to relax. I don't know how I was going to survive Chicago without Cat.

"Hey don't think like that, you know now. You can now help, both of them are going to need it" Cat said and I really wanted to believe what she was saying. I shook my head.

"No it's too late"

"Why is it too late?" She asked me her voice soft, god I loved that voice.

"Because I'm moving to Chicago tomorrow to work in my Dad's company" I whispered. Cat didn't say anything, but I know she heard me. I could feel her body tense against my own. But I stayed silent, and so did she. We would've stayed like that for a while but the sound of the door slamming broke the tense silence. Cat moved away from me so I could look at her face. Her eyes were murderous, that I couldn't help but shy away from it.

"Why?" She asked and her tone was deadly quiet and I know she was angry, really angry.

"He didn't want me to begin with, he wanted Jade to come with him. But I persuaded him to take me instead"

"Why would you do that? You know what he does to you!"

"I wasn't thinking, I just thought that I would make everything easier. Mom wouldn't have to work so much to pay for both me and Jade to go to school. They didn't want me anyway"

Cats hands found my own and she held them tightly, I didn't realize they were shaking. "They may not have wanted you all those years ago, but they do now. You Mom wants you. Jade wants you. Going with your Dad is only going to make the situation worse"

"You don't understand, I could get an apartment for myself after a couple of weeks. And the only time I would see is at work, and he won't do anything then. Please Cat I know what I'm doing" I tried to reassure not just her but myself. She still seemed a little reluctant but she nodded none the less.

"Okay, but I expect skype calls, and texts and visits" Cat said and I nodded with a small smile. I didn't want to tell her how I had to give up drawing or that I now had to go by Elizabeth, I knew that if I told her she would never be okay with it. "Does that mean you're not going to finish Hollywood Arts?"

"Unfortunately, but it'll be okay" I said slinging an arm around her shoulder and hugging her.

"It better be, because I don't know what I would do without you" She said looking up at me and I smiled at her.

"I don't know what I'd do without you either" I said just as my phone rang. I sighed as I looked at who was calling. Why was Jade ringing me?

I answered and put the phone to my ear "Hey Jade what's up?" I could hear her mumble something on the other end but it was hidden underneath the sobs.

"Jade?" I asked my voice laced with worry. "What's wrong?"

So what did you guys think? Did you enjoy having a section in Lizzie's POV if so I may do more, I may not it's up to you guys. Do you think Cat and Lizzie should get together? Leave your opinions on that and on this chapter in a review because I do love to hear your feedback on this story. See you all in the next one :)