And I am blessed with a night of internet. So I had the chance to upload this chapter. Thanks to everyone who had commented on this story so far, we're so close to 200 reviews it's unbelievably. When I started this story a year ago I had no idea this would get the response it did and it's down to all of you guys and you're all so great. Anyways please enjoy this chapter.

(Tori's POV)

I was tired. Exhausted even. Everything had just been taking it's toll on me lately. But it was a different tired then before, I still wanted it to be over but I now know there can be a different way. Whenever Jade would tell me that I would get better and that everything will be okay. There was times that I did believe her, but I often thought that I was to broken that I would never get fixed. That I would stay this empty shell of a person until I just decided to end it all. I didn't realize how wrong I was though, not until I woke up to the sounds of the beeping of the monitor and I knew I was still alive. And I knew why I was still alive. When I was four and my Grandma had passed away, I remember crying to my Aunt when she told me that 'No one chooses whether we live or die Tori, only God does' For very long, I had gone by what my Aunt had told me. Except God doesn't decide if I was to live that night, Jade did.

Jade is the one who called the ambulance. She was the one who rushed over to my house when I had hung up on her. She was the one who held me in her arms as I lay there bleeding. It was just Jade, and the thought of the dark haired girl still made my heart ache but all for different reasons. I still loved her, after everything that has happened I was still in love with Jade and I now know that she loves me back. I just wish it was enough. No, it had to be enough. God I will make it enough if I have to. I won't be alone again. I won't.

I could feel my breathing pick up and I knew I had to calm my thoughts down. Everything is okay. Everything will definitely be okay. Jades back and so is Dad. I can make this work. I won't be alone no more. Just the thought of it brought a small smile to her face. Right now, even in the situation I was in I felt content. There was a small knock on her door, and Trina popped her head around. Well I was content up until this moment.

"Hey sis" Trina said, smiling softly as she walked further into the room and sat down on the chair beside her. "How are you feeling?"

"Much better" I said and it was the truth.

"I saw Dad in the waiting room, how long has he been here for?" Trina asked, moving the chair further towards my bed.

"Since I was brought in" I answered "Trina, he wants to make things right again" The hopeful smile was back on my face.

"To right he should" Trina said smiling back at me, until it slipped off her face and turned into a sad frown "I'm sorry Tori. I just left you all alone and went to college. I just had to get out of that house. I was just so focused on me that I forgot all about you"

I could tell by her tone that she was being sincere, and I couldn't help but understand where she was coming from. If it were me in her situation, I would want to get out as well. "I know you did" I didn't say any more, instead I reached over and grabbed her hand and squeezed it softly. She looked up at me and smiled and I smiled back. Even though my sister was annoying as hell, I did miss her and I was just glad that she was finally back.

"So, besides the obvious. What's been going on with you?" A devious smile formed on Trinas face as she looked at me and I could feel my face heating up slightly. How much was I supposed to tell her? Only a little bit? Everything? I hadn't exactly talked to anyone about my feelings through out these past few months and I really, really wanted to. So I did.

I spent the last hour, telling Trina everything who surprisingly stayed silent throughout the entire time I was speaking, only opening her mouth till I was finished.

"So you and Jade huh?" Trina asked a shit eating grin on her face and I rolled my eyes at her.

"Yes, well I think so" I said, fingering the bed sheet that I become accustomed to over the past few nights.

"You love her. She loves you. Just give it a few days until all of this is sorted out." Trina said smiling comfortingly at me that I couldn't help but believe her words. "And Jade has a sister?"

I nodded "Yeah, Lizzie is great"

"Not to be rude, but out of the two sisters you had to fall in love with the sarcastic asshole" Trina joked and I couldn't help but laugh along with her.

"Well yeah, but Lizzie is in love with Cat anyways so it never would have worked out" I said grinning widely.

"Why is everyone falling in love with each other and I'm still alone?"

"Because you haven't found the right person yet to cope with all your awesomeness" I said.

"True" Trina said, nodding as if she was deep in thought as I heard the door open slightly.

"Hey Tori" I looked up to see Jade standing there smiling at me. I smiled back just as she noticed Trina in the room beside me "Bye Tori" She said, turning around to walk back out the door.

"Jade come here" I said trying hard not to laugh. Jade sighed and turned back around walking over to the opposite side of the bed that Trina was sitting at and quickly kissed me on the cheek.

"Hey" She whispered, smiling at me.

"Hey to you too" I said smiling back at her.

"You two are so cute, I think I'm going to vomit" Trina said and Jade quickly flipped her off not even bothering to look over at her direction.

"Lizzie is in the waiting room with Cat trying to smuggle food up here at you expense" Jade said smirking as she entwined our fingers together.

"Oh yeah what food?" I asked shuffling closer towards the dark haired girl.

"A tub of ice cream" Jade said and I couldn't help but allow the laugh that escaped her mouth. "It's a nightmare, I don't think they have any clue what they're trying to do" Jade kept a straight face until she too broke out into a laugh as well. "I told them not to, but she seemed fairly determined to do it"

Before I had the chance to reply to what Jade said, the door sprung open and Lizzie jumped into the room, hopping from foot to foot.

"Is it cold?" Jade asked smirking up at her sister and Lizzie glared at her just as Cat walked into the room laughing.

"Cat! Help!" She said and I watched as they somehow managed to pull out a tub of ice-cream from underneath Lizzie's shirt and a few spoons. "Ha Jade! Suck it! Knew I could do it" Lizzie said proudly smiling as she held the tub above her head.

I leant over to Jade and quickly whispered into her ear "Should I tell her that the ice-cream is pretty good here?" Jade looked at me and laughed loudly and I swear I wanted to live in this moment forever.

So what did you guys think? Trina has finally made an appearance, do you guys want to see more of her? I also decided to leave it on a light hearted moment because of what had happened the last few chapters. So please review, hopefully we can get up to 200 which would be awesome and I'll see you all in the next one :D