June 4, 2014
I haven't written in a real long time this time! something really weird happened to me, though, and it was really scary. I was playing with Diamond and someone said something really loud right behind me. They said 'you are being silly.' So I jumped up and says 'who is there?' and but nobody answered me. So I went back to Diamond and the voice said 'Why won't you play with me instead of that stupid cat?' and I said 'Diamond isn't stupid!' and they said 'yes she is.' So I looked around some more but I was scared and I was by myself so I went to Mrs. Hudson downstairs and she came up with me and we looked all over but we couldn't find anyone so she went back to her tea. So I was playing with Diamond again and the voice said, 'Why did you tell Mrs. Hudson?' and I said 'Who are you?'
And the voice said, 'I'm your friend, you don't need to worry about me.' I said 'go away, I don't want you here,' and they said, 'we're here to stay, you can't get rid of us.'
I was really freaked out so I was going to call out to Mrs. Hudson but the voices wouldn't let me. they said 'No, Brooklyn, don't call Mrs Hudson, we know just what you're scared of,' and suddenly I got real scared and they were saying 'there are a lot of us, we'll be with you forever. We have always been with you you know,' and I remember that for a while I have been hearing all sorts of voices but I can't ever tell what they're saying but now they're talking to me!
There are lots of them and they are all different and they can be lots of fun! But at night when I'm by myself they tell me to go outside and sit next to the street and watch the cars, and if I dont they'll tell me bad things. It's really scary and I don't know what to do because the streets are dangerous but I don't want to know bad things but it's all I can do so I go out to the streets and I cry because I'm scared and if I fall asleep the voices wake me up. But when I'm sad they sing to me, and they sing real pretty, even thow the voices don't sound very nice a lot of the time. Most of the time they sing ring around the rosy, which sounded real nice at first and then they told me what it meant and I got scared and I didn't want to hear it anymore so I covered my ears and then it got louder and Daddy found me and said I had a bad dream. I think I'm having a bad dream all the time but the voices won't let me wake up.
Last night was really scary, because the voices told me to get up and turn on all the lights and lay on the couch and it made me sad because the voices told me all about my mommy and they said if I ever told anyone about them they would make me crazy. I'm scared because the voices never stop talking and now they are mad at me for writing this but I can't say anything so I have to go now and try to go to bed… I'll write more later