The Desire 'A Klaus Mikaleson Love Story

by EpicElle1

On Star's 18th birthday she had found out that she is the unum praeditos, that her purpose for being on the earth is to fight the evil that will be unleashed into our world. For over 500 years she had lived lonely life until the day she met Niklaus Mikaelson, she fell deeply in love with him. Until Star discovered what Niklaus and his family were...

22. A Thousand Years

Klaus P.O.V

I walked away from the one woman who I have ever had any kind of emotion for love yes that four letter word could make me the Original hybrid weak. I once said that a vampire greatest weakness is love, and that is true, my one weakness was Star the woman who I love more than anything. More than my own family, more than this child that about to enter my life, from the moment I laid my eye on her I knew she was the woman I wanted to spend eternity with. It strange to think from seeing someone for the first time that you can feel not only an attraction but also a connection. I had walked this earth for 500 years at that time, and I never felt that connection with any women I had been with. Even after another 500 years when I thought my Star was amongst the angels in heaven, because that where she truly belonged. I couldn't get her out of my mind that I knew within myself that I would never find anyone like her.

When I look over the last 500 years, when Star death took place I changed, I turned into more of a monster than I was already, I need something to keep me from breaking from losing the most precious person I've had in my lifetime. So yes turning into the Original that everyone feared that wouldn't give any mercy, worked for me because I couldn't show not anyone one how I was feeling not even my own family. Because deep down Niklaus Mikaelson the Original vampire was a broken man. The wounds I had would never be healed, because the day when my wife Star died. a part of myself went with her, the part of me that was still good.

With this revelation of me becoming a father I knew it upset my Star that why she fled from the mausoleum when Hayley confirmed that she was with child, from that moment I knew that Star had turned her humanity on. She wasn't the cocky vampire that she was throughout the day, where she would flirt with Marcel, the man who I considered as my son. But from that moment when we all heard the rapid heartbeat of my unborn child it was like the world stood still, the look upon the face of my wife tore me apart knowing that all she ever wanted was a child of her own.

I remember in 1490 after we married that it was spoken of having a family, how could I turn around to her and tell her that would never be possible, so I kept telling her in time we would have a family one of many lies I had told her. When I saw her once again after 520 years I felt more than just being overwhelmed, it was like everything I had kept behind the flood gates all came to the surface. That my Star wasn't dead that she still walked amongst us. I recall that one night when I came face to face with the woman who I've longed for 520 years, I wanted to hate her, every part of me wanted to, but I couldn't. When I looked into her eyes all I felt was the love and adoration I had for her, and still had for her, hate couldn't even come into the equation not one part of me would allow that. So why I'm allowing her to make the choices? Why I'm allowing her to dictate to me how I should chose my life? Because I know in my heart that I will never feel complete not having her by myself.

Elijah had convinced me to stay to help the witches with their plan to take down Marcel, I saw how Marcel had taken over New Orleans how he respected by his under piers. Marcel was the king of this city, and I'm going to take that thorn back. With my new heir coming what I king needs is a queen by his side. So I made the decision to go back to Mystic Falls to convince her that I can't be without her and it was the truth, I lived 520 years with the pain of not having her how could I live my years knowing she out there and I never fought for her. I'm not going to back down, I shouldn't have backed down before. I saw the hurt in her eyes when she told me that she didn't care about me, I knew Star was lying to me but I was too coward enough to press on the matter. How could I spend the rest of eternity and have this child that is part of me without her by my side. I know my wife well enough to know that every word that came out of her mouth was a lie to me. So I will not leave Mystic Falls until she finally admits that, she can't live without me as much as I can't live without her.

I arrived at the Salvatore home I saw that Damon car was there, I wondered if Star had actually here she was upset I'm sure she would of returned here. Well there was only one way I would find out, I approached the house and walked through the front door, and there stood Damon looking as amused as ever to see me.

"My least favourite Salvatore." I walked further into the parlour and glanced around room. "I was hoping on seeing Star. Do you know where she might be?" I turned back to him and he began to smirk, oh I loathed when he did that but I had to remember this is Star friend. I technically can't hurt hut him without hurting Star.

"Why? So you can corrupt her some more Klausy." I clenched my jaw I hated to be called by that name, but I had to keep my temper under control for now. "Sorry I have no idea where she can be." He drinks some bourbon, he looks at me with a smirk. "But if I see her I might tell her that you stopped by." I had enough of his attitude the nice approach wasn't going to work with Damon, I super-sped to him and grabbed him by the throat.

"You do not make those decision Damon, and what happened was out of my control." I tighten my grip around his throat. "I have no time to be playing your games, tell me where she is." I raised my voice to make the older Salvatore clear I weren't going to play his games, Damon was choking still manages to smirk sarcastically which annoyed me more.

"I don't know, and even if I did. Why the hell would I help you?" He snarled at me I was beginning to lose my patients and I could feel myself turn.

"You have approximately 2 seconds before you have a nasty bite, you do recall how that feels don't you Damon?" Damon has had the tragedy of it happen to him once before, he knew how gruesome a werewolf bite can feel. "So tell me or would you prefer me to have to compel it out of you, your choice Damon." Damon glared at me he knew he didn't have a choice in the matter as both option didn't go in his favour.

"She's upstairs. I think that she went to bed." I let go of him, why did Damon always have to be so difficult?

"See that wasn't that difficult." I left Damon behind and super sped up to Star room, but she not there, I heard a noise and follows which lead me into the study. That where I saw Star near the window, I could hear her sobbing quietly. I approached her and then I could see she was holding a wooden stake over her heart.

I could barely say her name as I was frighten to see her with that stake in her hand, that she was in such a bad way she was going to kill herself. I tried speaking to her with cation I didn't know if she was going to drive that stake through her heart if I got any closer. Star held the stake firmly against my chest while she looked at me with such sorrow in her eyes all I wanted to do is take the pain away from her, it broke my undead heart in to tiny piece seeing her like this. Seeing her with tears rolling down her cheeks, I couldn't believe what she was telling me that she wanted to kill herself this weren't the woman I know she wouldn't dream of saying such a thing. I kept going closer to her and she began to back away from me I raised my hand in surrender that I wouldn't hurt. She needed to know about who she was hurting not only me, but even the Salvatore would be distort if anything was to happen to her, Rebekah and Elijah too there was people who cared and loved her and she needed to remember that.

Star held on to the stake tight and took in a deep breath, I had to stop her the only way I could I used my speed and ripped the stake out of her hand held her in a tight embrace. She looked up into my eyes, all I could see in Stars eyes was hurt, sorrow and torment not what I wanted to see in the eyes of the woman I love. Star broke down crying these were the moments I didn't like when I would see my Star so sad, I knew I could help her with the pain she is feeling right now I didn't know if all of this was down to Hayley being pregnant with my child or there was more to this.

"I can take it away." I pulled away from her so I could see her clearly as I spoke. "I can take the pain away from you, but it will not lead to your death. I could do that for you, but I know that you are stronger than you think you are Star." I could make it all disappear? My concern was that Star wasn't human when she turned so would an Original be able to compel her?

"Why do you care? All I do is hurt you." I watched as her tears flowed down her cheek it pained me to see her like this, but I need her to know why I would never give up on her. I caressed her cheek.

"Because I can't stop thinking about you. I know you told me that I don't mean a thing to you, but I love you Star I will love you will my last dying breath and I can't walk away from you. I've tried... but I can't" I meant every word I couldn't walk away from her, knowing that I couldn't take down Marcel without her by my side. That the fact I was going to become a father and not have her there. I will give all that up for her any form of revenge or the chance of being a father for Star because none of that would not mean a thing without her.

"Why can't you let me go? Don't you see? It will be so easy for you once I'm gone. You can have everything that you always wanted Nik. Power and an heir. You still want all of that, right?" she cries "To be king? If I'm gone, you can have everything that you always wanted. So please let me die so I can never hurt you or anybody ever again" I felt a lump in my throat hearing of my wife not wanting to be here anymore.

"What would all of that mean to me without you by my side Star? What would be the point of being a 'king' when he don't have his queen by his side?" I cups her face between my hands "Your all that matters to me none of that means nothing to me without you beside me. So if a choice of me living another 500 years without you and having the power the hire, i choose the option where i have you. Because it will always be you Star why can't you see that" All I want is her I meant everything I told her what would be the point in having all of those thing without her? I would be a miserable bastard that I had been for 520 years and I didn't want to live like that anymore, Star was alive and I wanted her to be part of my life like we always said Always and Forever.

"Nik please I don't want to hurt you anymore. Just let me die because I am a curse from the minute that I was born. I have done nothing but caused you pain. Think about it, Nik" she began to sob uncontrollably "I faked my death. I used you for sex while my humanity was off. I said that you meant nothing to me!" she began to raises voice "Why would you want to continue to be with someone like me? Why, Nik? I don't deserve you or anyone! The only thing that I deserve to do is die!" raises the stake once again and I snatches the stake out of her hand I refuse for her to do this.

"Why are you so blinded Star? Why do you think so low of yourself? I may not agree with your choice of friends but Damon needs you, Stefan too for Christ sake your oozing with negativity" I snapped the stake in half out of anger "So instead of facing your demon you chose you run and die, you're not the person i thought you were" I turned to walk away but stops I need to tell her why I couldn't give up on her "You want to know why i can't give up on you? Because as you know as well as I do to fall hopelessly in love with one person in a thousand years, you don't give up on them you forgive them for their mistakes. We maybe supernatural creatures now but we still have our human traits Star and that not to give up on the people you love" I looked directly into her eyes "even when they have given up hope" I adverts my eyes from her knowing that maybe I weren't getting through to her "Dose that answer your questions?" Star says nothing and just cries "I'm going to be in Mystic Falls till sun down" I began to approaches her "Now if you truly believe your life not worth it, that you are better off dead than alive" I placed my hand on her cheek "Why don't you take a look around you first, and if you still feel that you don't want to be here. Then i will not stop you as hard as it will be not to have you in my life or on this earth, if it sadden you so much I chose not to be selfish and let you go" I began to wipes away her tears "Please think about what i told you before you will do something that can never be undone" She still hadn't spoken a word I didn't know if this was a good sign or bad "I shall leave you to ponder on my words" I hesitated to lean in to kiss her as I wondered if she would rejected me, but took the chance and kissed her. I felt the same sensation as I felt every time I've kissed my wife, the flutter in the pit of his stomach making him feel alive for that moment. I wanted this to go further but knew what states my wife mind is at the moment, I pulled away after a few moment and rested my forehead to hers "I'll be at my home till sundown Star let me know your decision then" I kissed her forehead she turns away from me quickly keeping her face hidden "Well this is farewell for now" I supper speeds out of the room as I couldn't take see her like that anymore, every part of me ached for her I had never seen her in this state before. All I wanted to do is take her into my arms and tell her that all the thing that she feeling will fade away, and I did and it did not work. With whatever decision she decides it all down to her I can't force her or compel her because I couldn't live with that on my conscience, as much as it will pain me till the end of time if she chooses to die and walk away I have to respect her wishes.

Stefan P.O.V

I haven't seen Star from the moment when she came into my room looking all seductive I still can't shake those images out of my mind, she looked too tempting I had to fight back my urges from wanting my way with her. Even after all this time 147 years she still did thing to me that I really thought were long and gone, no matter how much I tried to bury those feeling when Star was in my presences it was like it all came to the surface. When I began to kiss her it felt tiny sparks the same kind of sparks I felt when I was human, the rush that she gave me when her lips touched mine. Maybe that why I couldn't shake her off even after all these years there was something about Star that wouldn't allow me to do that, it could be due to the fact that she was my first true love when I was human and that a big deal. But I didn't know what happen one moment we were in each other arms embracing, reconnecting once again, then Star freaked out on me demanded me to stay away from her. Star screamed at yelled at me like a total crazy person I really didn't know what to do with her, she left my room and I wanted to go after her to make sure she was ok and I did eventually but when I did the front door was open and no sign of her.

I felt confusion with what happen I didn't know what to think anymore all I knew right then was the fact I was still in love with her, but I also know I was still in love with Elena. Before I couldn't never understand how Katherine could say she loved Damon and I at the same time, and now I think I finally understand. With Star there was that spark from the very moment I met her I weren't just attracted to just her beauty, but over time when I got to know the real Star I kept on falling in love with her that little more. We both wanted the same thing out of life to see the world to live our lives, how we wanted not the way people wanted us to. Star was the only woman who I ever considered to spend my life with I wanted to marry her, to share a fruitful life with her.

Then there was Elena the girl who I fell hopelessly in love with when I first came back into Mystic Falls yes she looked identical to Katherine, and when I saved her I did think she was actually Katherine. Once I began to watch her and her behaviour I knew it weren't her that I needed to know this girl, and from the moment I had the courage to interact with her I knew I wanted to know her more. With Elena I felt a connection that I hadn't felt in 147 year the same kind of connection I felt with Star, but they were two very different people. Elena is caring and think about all that are around her she lived a life where she was loved, with two parents that adored her a brother who at times didn't appreciate her but loved her still. She had Jenna who gave everything up to bring up Elena and Jeremy, even that dick John loved her more than anything all the wrong things he did do was always to protect her in his own way. With Star she had the total opposite to all of that her parents were murdered she was lied to by the one person who she considered family Alana, then the day came when she fell in love with Klaus who hid his secrete of being an original vampire which lead to Star faking her death. Star life was quite a tragedy when you look back on it but then so was Elena life too, she had lost everyone she cared about for being what she is a Petrova doppelgänger.

Could my attraction be to these two girls be to the fact that I want to protect them that the love I had for them was more compassion, or was it real love? That the real question there because both girls are also in love with other men one being my brother and the other being the man I loathed. I don't know how any of this could be possible I mean this stuff don't happen in real life, where there three love triangle! At times I feel that Star wanted to be with Klaus because as much as I hate to admit it I see that Star good for him, she bring out that tiny bit of humanity he still has. With Elena when I look at her all I see is confusion I know she has feeling for me still, but then I see how she looks at Damon with adoration. The one thing Damon has made clear is the fact he will not allow another woman come between us anymore, he was willing to give up his feeling for Elena to save what we had that one thing I thought he would never do.

After not be able to find Star I knew I had to make amends with Damon that all he was doing was defending her, the one thing about Damon he will always protect and defend Star no matter what. He did this not because he had an attraction to her but due to the fact he looked at her as part of our family, that she was like the sister he never had Damon will protect Star till the end. The one thing I know about my brother he feared that he may lose her again that maybe she would runway and there would be another 147 years till he to see her again. Damon hid his emotions well from the world but when it came to me I weren't fooled by his sarcasm or his witty comments, I could see beyond all that and see that my brother hurting. With Star coming back to Mystic Falls all them months ago she brought back the Damon I recall from our human years, that when we looked at each other now there weren't hatred but that brotherly love. So maybe with Star coming back it may of screwed with my emotions or the way I felt about the two girls, but the one thing I'm thankful for is the fact that she help Damon and I build a relationship again whether she knew she had done that or not.

I knew of only one place that I would find Damon and that would be in the Grill dinking away his sorrow, I think Damon hated to fight with me as much I as hated to fight with him. I walked into the Grill and I was right there was Damon by the bar with a glass in his hand, I began to approach the bar.

"Looks like my baby bro joining, another glass" Damon requested from the bartender, then he turned to me and smirked "Come to apologies I hope" once again Damon masked his hurt with sarcasm and I think I need to let him win this fight, I took a seat next to him and poured myself a drink.

"Ok I was a dick" I drained my drink and poured another "And I shouldn't I fought with you over it" I drained the next shot as I don't think I've apologies this much before to Damon and I knew he was ravishing in it right now.

"Well… Well you never seize to amaze me baby bro I think that the first time you've apologies in I don't know maybe over 100 years" Damon was loving every moment of this but I did need to apologies for my actions, I shouldn't of doubt Star we have all been there where we turned our switch off she weren't herself and Damon was the only one who stood by her.

"Damon it was just hard for me to see her like that, you know the Star we know is sweet and kind and wouldn't do anything like that it just I couldn't and can't believe that she would do something like that" Damon nodded his head and poured us both a drink, I think it was the same me that we both couldn't wrapped around our heads how Star behaved.

"Look I'm not going to give up on her and neither should you Stefan" he turned to me Damon had a serious expression upon his face "I never told you this before because…because I didn't know how you would take it to be honest I didn't take it too well when I heard it all" he sighed and then drained his drink, what had Damon so stressed out and not able to tell me.

"What is it Damon?" what had he been holding back from me?

"It's about Star" he paused for a moment "Look before we headed on the island to get the cure she told me about her purpose of being Unum Praeditos" he poured another drink for himself I wanted to asked him a dozen question but the way that Damon was behaving he looked like he had the weight of the world on his shoulders. "You recall that the whole purpose that Star was born was to take down some big evil" I nodded my head I recall there was a short conversation about it "Well the only person who could wake up Silas from his deep slumber was the blood of Unum Praeditos not just a drop of blood the whole lot" I knew that Star was the Unum Praeditos so she knew that she was coming on the island with us and not returning.

"Hold on. You're telling me Star knew that getting the cure would lead to her death?" I needed to get all of this clarified I watched as Damon nodded his head solemnly "And you didn't tell me because?" I raised my voice slightly at him I was annoyed because Damon knew that Star was going to die and didn't think I should know.

"Don't get your panties in a twist Stefan you know how that ended with the doppelgängers tag teaming on her and turning her into what she is today" he spoke a little bitter he really resent what Elena had done to Star, and I'll admit it was a moment of craziness but she didn't know what Star had planned that she was walking into her death.

"So your blame Elena for Star becoming a vampire?" I needed to know if Damon held a grudge against her for that, Damon got up from his seat and placed his hand on my shoulder.

"Elena didn't deserve what Star did to her, but Star didn't deserve the fate that laid upon her now. You weren't there Stefan when she told me that she wanted to be at peace that she didn't want to walk around this earth for another thousand years not able to have the same things that every girl her age want, a happy life a family she wanted it over with" I notice that Damon eyes gazed over "Star will always be important to me and I will always put her first, and that even before Elena" he patted me on the shoulder "Elena was always meant to be with you I see that now, just be there for her Stefan because I'm not going to be around much longer" before I could even say anything Damon was gone, what did he mean by he won't be around much longer?

After the conversation with Damon down the grill he kept out of my way I wanted to know what he meant by that, was he planning on leaving town. Was he hurt once again so many question went through my mind but Damon weren't going to give me the answers. So what I did to keep my mind occupied was check in on Elena, she seem a little better in herself but I could still see the fear she still had that night. I spend the whole night with her and it felt good it was like all that stuff that had happen with her turning into a vampire the feeling she had for Damon, that Star hadn't returned and confused everything it just felt 'normal'.

I woke up and I had Elena in my arms it felt good to have her beside me once again that it felt normal, even Elena commented how it actually felt nice to wake up next to each other. But reality kicked in and I knew that I needed to find out what Damon meant about leaving, and also find out where the hell Star head out. Elena was understanding and I told her I would be back later she told me her day was going to be filled with old movies, I think she still feared going out Star being on the lose still even though her humanity was on/off I didn't blame her.

When I arrived home Damon was in the parlour he kept pacing back and forth I asked what had happen and he told me about finding Star on the sofa and how she was behaving strangely. That she spoke of her father and how she need to find him what worried Damon and I was the fact that Silas has approached Star and we didn't know if that was a good thing or a bad thing. Then Damon informed me that Klaus had taken Star away and he admitted that I was right that Star fooled him about having her humanity on, this would be one of those I told you so moments but Damon was beating himself up enough. So apparently Klaus had somehow brought back Star humanity and that he came to the house demanding to speak to her. Damon didn't go into detail what happen but shortly after Klaus left he and Star got into a debate, and now she had run off he wanted me to search for her as he was concerned that he would drive her further away.

So I left him and began to search everywhere for Star I had a gut feeling that she was still in Mystic Falls and I went and looked in the obvious places but not sign of her. There was only one other place that I could think of and I made my way there. I got to the top of the falls and saw Star sitting on the rock that we both use to go to in the 1860, we would both talk for hours on end about everything our hopes and dreams. I approached her and she hadn't even notice I was even there that she was that deep in thought which worried me.

"Star?" I was little worried as I weren't too sure which version of herself would respond, with her turning into a vampire her emotions were all over the place.

"Hi Stefan" she smiles half-heartedly at me I sat down beside her,

"So what brings you all the way up here?" I gave her a half smile I wanted to go into Star but I saw so much sorrow in her face and thought it's better take it easy on her rather than go crazy.

"I needed to get away from my babysitter, who is probably very pissed off with me" turned and smirks at me "And I needed to think" she gets up and stares at the falls "It's so beautiful here and peaceful too. Nobody to bother you for miles and miles" she looks at me with a smile "Remember when we used to come here just to get away? We would talk about our hopes and dreams" she smiles but it doesn't touch her eyes and they are full of pain and sorrow I wondered what had gotten her this upset I wanted to ask but maybe I should take baby steps.

"Babysitter... you mean Damon" I chuckled lightly as I knew how protective Damon would be with Star "He worried about you Star like we all are that all" it was the truth Damon was concerned about her that why he told me to find her as he didn't want to upset her any further, I looked out to the scenery it looked so peaceful "But your right it pretty amazing up here i remember showing you, i think it took us half a day to get up here and now we can do it in under a minute" I couldn't help but laugh "So from the way your behaving your humanity on then" I smiles at her she smile sweetly back to me.

"Yes it is and that is pretty amazing. And Damon will be ok. He always forgives me" I was a little annoyed with that one comment like she knew that no matter what she did Damon would forgive her or I would but I think Star needed a reality check.

"Of course we should always forgive you Star" I got up and she turned to me frowning "That what we are all meant to think everything you do is fine, like torturing Elena of course your forgiven for that. How about walking away from us and turning up after 147 year…. You're forgiven for that too? How about the fact that every time I'm near you or with you, that you screw with my head one minute it Klaus next you're all over me" I was trying to keep my temper under control but it was proven to be difficult "Your meant to be forgiven for that to?"

"I don't blame you for being mad because all I have done is play you, Stefan" she adverts eyes away from me "Why do you love me anyway?" that was a question that I would never hear from her why was I in love with her and it threw me off guard.

"Why do i love you?" I began to reflect back to all of the reason why I fell for Star all them years ago and why I couldn't let her go till this very day "You have you have to remember you were the first woman I've ever loved" paused to think about what I was going to tell her "So many reason Star we wanted the same thing in life, that we both wanted the same outcome" I looked at her "But I'm sure becoming vampires weren't on our bucket list" I gave her a small smile "Why can't you be true to your feeling what are you frighten of Star?" I wanted to know why couldn't she just be true to herself for once, I wouldn't hate her for whatever choice she decides I will stand by it.

"I don't deserve you Stefan. I never did" she spoke with sorrow in her voice where did that come from?

"So that your answer, after all this time that all you can say? You go around loathing Katherine for what she did to Damon and I" I looked directly into her eyes "but your no different from her you've played Klaus emotions and mine too" I tried to be the sensitive brother but I couldn't do I tried to walk away from her but she intercepts me.

"Stefan wait please I don't blame you for being angry because you are telling the truth. I did play you and Nik. And I am so sorry for doing that. You will never know how sorry that I am. But I don't want to do that anymore. I'm tired of always hurting you and him" I could tell in her voice that she meant all of that but maybe it was a little too late maybe I've been played one to many times.

"So why can't you decide who you want to be with? I know about Klaus and the history you have with him, but does he know about our past? Would he still want his precious Star if he knew she fell in love with another man?" I backed away from her I knew if Klaus knew about the past that Star and I sheared he may look at everything a little differently "I know how it feels to be in love with two different people and how it tears you up" I began to reflect on his feeling for Elena and Star how they were to two different people but I was very much in love with the both of them "Maybe the reason why you never told Klaus is because he the one you want to be with, that maybe what we had in 1860 should be left in the past" maybe that why I never told Elena about Star maybe because I didn't want to ruining what we had.

"I'm confused ok? I don't know who I want. I am torn, ok? I didn't want it to happen. But it did and I can't go back and change it now. I love Nik and you. Sorry but it's the truth" she sighs in frustration "I can't do this anymore and I won't. I refuse to put you and Nik through this anymore. It's time for me to make a decision" what did she mean by that speech?

"What that meant to mean?" Star had me more confused than ever right now, I couldn't never understand her these days, back in the 1800 it was easier to talk to her now it like I hardly know her at times.

"I am going to choose between you and Nik" I was taken back by her response I never thought I would hear of Star finally making the choice between Klaus and I.

"So when do you plan to make this big decision?" I spoke to her softly I knew I had been hard on her but didn't realize how genuinely torn up Star was about all this.

"Today" she spoke softly while she looked out to the falls I didn't know what to say to her.

"Okay then, well you know where to find me when you know" I stepped to her and kisses her on the cheek, then walks away from her. Whatever choice that Star makes today it wouldn't matter because after speaking to her I had finally made my choice about who I want to be with and shared my life with I just need to find the right word to tell her.

Elena P.O.V

From the night when Star took me from my home I haven't been the same person I've tried to be the Elena that everyone knew me of, but when Star brutally tortured me I felt I left a part of me back in the jail cell. Stefan kept on checking on me which was sweet I forgot what life was like when it was just about me and him, as crazy as it sounds I didn't even think about Damon not once. Did that mean what I actually felt for him was actually down to the sire bond like everyone told me, or was it due to the fact that of what his best friend had done to me.

I just felt confusion right now this isn't want I wanted I never wanted any of this to happen I know what I did on the island to Star to attack her, and when I look back at all that she was right I didn't know Damon like she did. Maybe I'm another Katherine that played with the Salvatore brother's emotions but what I did worse that Katherine, it that I could never admit to the fact I played the same game as her. Maybe I didn't want to admit that to anyone because I try so hard not to be like Katherine, but it was in our blood Petrova doppelgängers are known to play at brothers hearts. I didn't want to do that again I didn't want to come in between Stefan and Damon anymore I will not be the one who destroys their relationship, I would rather live in a world alone without neither of them by my side than ruining something they been trying to fix for 147 years.

Stefan had been sweet he has been with me since it all happen he even stayed the night when I woke up in his arms it felt natural, like what had happen over the last few months had disappeared. It felt like the first time once again that that butterfly feeling in the pit of my stomach when I looked at him, my Stefan the guy who I instantly fell in love with. Even with the fact of him being a predator and a ripper I could never give up on him I stood by his side through it all, so what changed that all where did all of that love admiration I had for him go? Oh yeah I turned into the one thing I never wanted to be a vampire that when it all went wrong, when the Elena that Stefan fell in love with died. But deep down inside I knew she was still there it was just because my feeling for Damon confused me, now when I think of it was my feeling for Damon ever true?

Stefan had left and assured me he would come back to make sure I was ok I didn't want him to worry too much about me, I didn't want his life revolving around me. I knew even thought he was here to protect me from the possibility of Star coming back for round two, I also knew he was worried about her too. I still recall the day when Rebekah had compelled us all and Stefan had admitted to the history with Star that he was going to ask her to marry him, but she fled all because of Katherine. That kind of love Stefan had for Star don't fade away or disappear I believe behind this façade that Stefan portrays, his still in love with her because like I was told once love like that never dies. So he had left me alone I felt a little on edge but it was daylight I didn't need to be scared of anything I mean Jeremy was sleeping upstairs and I just need to relax that all. So I put a DVD on and sat on the couch to watch some romantic comedy, well I weren't really laughing much I cried more than anything. I think it was due to my emotions being all over the place I needed to shake this off.

"Elena" I heard my name being called by a voice that made my whole body shiver in fear, I turned my head and there she stood Star with a normal expression upon her face "I'm just here to talk" she spoke softly while she raised my hands in defeat.

"What do you want?" I demanded as I got up at super speed I will admit I was frighten of her, who wouldn't be after every awful thing she did to me in that jail cell.

"I've just come to talk" Star spoke nervously "I just want to apologies for what i did..." why would she come here to talk there was nothing that needed to be said.

"Why? We have nothing to talk about" I didn't want to talk to her or relive what she did to me "Please leave Star" I tried to keep my voice calm as I didn't know if I shouted that she might attack me.

"Elena please I just wanna apologies I should of never done that to you, I know my humanity was off but what i did was brutal" I looked at Star who began to get teary eyed "but you didn't deserve that and I'm so sorry" then tears began to flow down her cheeks was her humanity back on? Did she want me to forgive her for what she did?

"Are you serious right now, Star? You tortured me and you expect me to forgive you just like that?" I went to the door and opens it "I want you to go now" as frighten as I was about her reaction I couldn't show her how frighten I was of her, Star walks towards the door and stops in front of me I could feel my heart racing with her being so close to me.

"To be honest i didn't expect you to forgive me, but i wanted you to know that I'm sorry and that i will have to live with what i did to you until the day i don't exist anymore" she steps out of the door and turned to me "I know that it not my place but you have two men who care about you a great deal whoever you chose to be with please look after them" she gives a small smile and walks away I couldn't believe what she had told me, she wanted my forgiveness I don't think I could ever forgive her for what she did to me. I shut the door and took in a deep breath I was trying to process what just happen in my mind, but it got interrupted with a knock at the door I opened the door.

"Just leave me alone" I shouted thinking it was Star but I came face to face with Stefan who looked a little startled with my response "I'm sorry I thought… don't worry come in" I opened the door further and gestured for him to come in, he gave me a small smile and walked in "I thought you would of come later I didn't expect you to be back so soon" I spoke as closed the door and I walked into the kitchen I notice that Stefan seen a little different.

"Yeah well there something I needed to talk to you about" I turned to face him and Stefan had a serious expression upon his face "You see while I was gone I went and did a little soul searching you know thinking about where I want my life to go and who I wanted to shear that with" I could feel my heart beating a little faster as I dreaded to hear what he was about to tell me, Stefan was a good man too good for me and with him soul searching I don't think that would lead to a life with me. He would pick the girl who tore out his heart and stamped upon it to the girl he once wanted to marry would he?

Silas P.O.V

From the moment I left Ophelia I had been kicking myself for telling her everything that I was her father, I didn't take in consideration how it was going to affect her. And I watch as she fainted right in front of me of course it was all overwhelming for her, to hear that her father was still here that everything she had been told was a lie. The way I felt right now I wanted to be back in that tomb rotting away with the hope of seeing my Amara and Ophelia, not turning my daughter world upside down. But the damage had been done now I've confused my own flesh and blood I sense her mind was filed with confusion before I even opened my mouth, now I've left her with even more confusion what kind of father would do that. Ophelia was the apple of my eye those years I had with her before the whole Qetsiyah revenge, nothing was more important to me than her and Amara to see my little girl hurt it tortured me more than being encase in stone not able to touch her.

I need to do something to keep my mind distracted from this problem I had created so I went to pay a visit to the witch, of course I never showed her my true form that was only for Ophelia. The people of this town didn't need to know yet of my connection with Stefan Salvatore, not until the time was right. I need to know when we were going to drop this veil I was losing my patient with her but unfortunately I couldn't harm her, as she was consumed with expression the only magic along with Unum Praeditos but I refuse to have Ophelia to cast that kind of magic. Knowing now she is my daughter I would never ask her to do such a thing not against her will like before. My conversation with the Bennett witch was short apparently we needed a full moon for this spell to be performed, as luck prevails tomorrow night would be a full moon.

A day dawn and this was going to be the day where I would finally be at peace and be in the afterlife with my Amara, the only thing that troubled me more than anything is my Ophelia. She weren't dead like I thought she was she was very much alive for 2000 years I thought that she was on the other side with her mother, but she here in the flesh. But my little girl appeared to be troubled that she had so much on her mind that I sense a part of her didn't want to be here anymore, all I could see in her eyes was sorrow I wanted to intrude her mind but I vowed to Amara I would never do that to our daughter. I knew I had to see her soon to talk to her to see if she want to be part of retuning as a family, but I feared this conversation that maybe she has adapted to a life without her mother and father.

Before I even think about this matter I need to have a beverage or two to confront Ophelia our last encounter was a little tense, and I'm sure this time round that she will have a million questions. I didn't blame her either I wanted to go to the Salvatore home but I'm far too coward to face her yet or I fear that she may reject me now she had a clear mind. I knew there was a drinking establishment and right now he need something to clear his mind, I walked through the square and I saw my Ophelia sitting on one of the green benches lost in her thoughts. I hesitated to approach her I couldn't hid from her forever and I need to stop hiding from her, I walked over slowly to her.

"Ophelia" I saw that his daughter was deep in thought it took her a few moment to even notice I stood before her.

"Stefan, what are you doing here? I thought..." she stops because she realizes that I had called her Ophelia "Daddy?" I couldn't help but smile with hearing her call her daddy, I took a seat next to her.

"Ophelia why do you seem to have the weight of the world on your shoulders?" I was concerned about her mind was filling with so many questions about if she should be here or not, I didn't do it intentionally but I knew it was to do with the connection that we sheared.

"Daddy, is it really you? I'm not crazy or imagining things like Damon said?" she stares at me in wonderment like she had seen me for the first time once again, of course Damon would tell her that he knows me to be the bad guy 'Silas the big bad'.

"I'm not a figment of your imagination Ophelia" I wanted to assure her that this was me I moved her hair from her face so I could see her more clearly "The reason I'm here is all down to you my child" I still hated the fact that Qetsiyah had used my daughter as the only source to wake me and I could never seek revenge on her for that "As pleases as I'm that your alive I never wanted to wish this fate on you" not only of the fate that her blood had to wake me but I couldn't believe that my little girl was the one thing I loathed a vampire a lower being of what she should be, but she is my daughter and will always be no matter what she is. She moved away from me as she looked at me with a confused expression.

"No this has to be a dream or I'm going crazy because why would my best friend lie to me? You're not real and I am just seeing you because I want to see you. This is not real and it's all just a dream. I'll wake up and I'll be in my bed back at the boarding house" she sound delouse as she spoke I need her to calm down, I got up from my seat I need to convince her she weren't losing her mind as Damon quoted.

"Damon Salvatore i take it" I couldn't help but smirk, Damon Salvatore was a real charter "I've heard a lot about him and he does have a reverting mind, but even with those faults Ophelia he cares for you deeply. He trying to protect you from me" the look upon my daughter face pained me I had to look away from her for a moment "You know my reputation not a very good one from what the story books tell. But I'm not like that Ophelia all I've ever wanted is for us to be united but Qetsiyah wouldn't allow that, so she killed your mother and put me in a slumber. Then had you taken from your grandmother to be used as a pawn to awake me when the time was appropriate" I began to approached her slowly "Do not be mad at Damon for protecting you it was very honourable of him to do so" For Damon to do such a thing proved to me he wanted to protect my daughter as much as I do.

"Why are you here? What do you want from me?" Ophelia spoke with confusion of course they were appropriate questions to ask me but I only had one answer for that.

"I would like us to be a family once again" I smiled at her that what all of this was about to be together once again as a family.

"Why? Why now after all of this time? Why do you want to be in my life? I don't understand. You had all of this time to find me so why now Dad?" Ophelia glares at me she really weren't taking everything I told her in, I need for her to know it weren't my choice for her to be in this world alone that wasn't what I wanted for her.

"You think it was my choice that you were taken from me and your mother. You think i wanted you to live that last 2000 years not know where you're from" I had to stepped away from her as I felt myself getting a little angry "Did you hear the part of the story where i was in a tomb for 2000 years. Don't you think if that wasn't the case i would have looked for you Ophelia?" I watch as her face harden she really was a suborn thing.

"Really, Dad? Do you really think that we would have been a happy little family?" she began to smirk "Do you not know what my main purpose is? To stop the great evil that is coming. It's the only reason that I exist. To stop you, Daddy" she sneers the word 'daddy' I knew that anger would eventually come to the surface but I need for her to understand one thing,

"Yes your mind been filled with wise-tales. Qetsiyah used your blood in the spell to in tomb me Ophelia. She had it all planned that to awaken me would lead to the death of the most precious gift in my life. Alana filled your head with Qetsiyah story with what your destiny was meant to be but your fate weren't to take me down. Yes you're meant to take down a greater evil but I'm not it" I was hurt by the way my daughter behaving that she still believe I was the evil that she was mean to take down "But i will be gone soon..."

"Wait a minute. Are you trying to tell me that I'm not supposed to stop you? If you're not the great evil, who is it? And how can I find them?" so many questions she had she had walked this earth for 2000 years and still didn't know her potential.

"You're the Unum Praeditos Ophelia you can sense evil. Now what do you sense when I do this" I touched her cheek, she gasps as she knew my intentions weren't of the evil kind only of a man wanting to be with his family.

"Daddy please don't go. Don't leave me again please. Please, Daddy" I watched as my beloved Ophelia breaks down, I embraced my daughter tightly.

"I want us to be together once again Ophelia as a family, and i know how we can all be together and happy once again" I was still determined to bring the veil down to reunite my family once and for all.

"How?" she asked pulling away from me with confusion in her eyes.

"I know your unhappy Ophelia that your feel your life here is done, that you want to be at peace. And if we bring the veil down we can both pass on and be with your mother in the afterlife as a family" I moved away from her as it was more difficult than I thought to talk to her about this "I'm not going to lie to you with the veil coming down it will unleash all the supernatural being in predatory and they will roam the earth" I looked into my daughters eyes "but it will be worth it to be with you and your mother we can finally be a family"

"You want me to help you bring the veil down?" she looked at me a little stunned but I need for her to know that it will be the best thing for all of us to be together.

"Yes Ophelia, your more powerful than i ever thought you would be, unfortunately i can't use magic until i take the cure and I'm mortal again. With the three of us together isn't that what you ever wanted to be with your mother and father?"

"Yeah but it's the supernatural beings that I'm worried about. I mean I would bring back every supernatural creature that ever died. What would that mean for the people that i care about?" I began to frown at her it appeared that her 'friends' appeared to be more important than her own flesh and blood.

"You are concerned about your friends i understand that, but your mother has been wait for us for 2000 years Ophelia. Does that mean anything to you?" I felt myself lose my temper slightly that I thought my Ophelia had the same family value of when she was a child that it was family above all.

"Of course I want to see my mother" she spoke while frowning I knew I had hurt her feeling and that weren't my intension, but I needed her to understand the importance of this.

"So help me bring the veil down. We can be united Ophelia" I wanted to know why my daughter was hesitant and hold back and I did the one thing I thought I wouldn't do ever I read her mind, it was filled with so many question so many thought but one person kept on come to the fore front of her mind "Oh... you're in love" she really did have very strong feeling for this person I would say as strong as what I felt for her mother a love that she couldn't shake off.

"Please don't do that again" she sounded a little annoyed but I needed to know that was the true reason behind her doubt for seeing her mother.

"But that is the reason why you've not chosen to end your life because your love for this one 'man' I'm correct?" she looked away from me "Ophelia I know the love you have for him is strong is he the reason?" she turned to me with tears in her eyes, which confirmed to me that she wouldn't go ahead with this that her heart belonged here with him.

"Daddy I love him, I love him so much but all I do is cause hurt and misery and I know I should end it all and be with you and mother but I don't know if I can walk away from him" could I let her walk away from a man who she loved so deeply for my own selfish needs to have her on the other side with myself and Amara, I know Amara would never forgive me for tearing our little girl away from the man she loves.

"I understand and that why I think you shouldn't give up that you should be with the man whom you truly love Ophelia" I touched her cheek "I've been apart from your mother my one true love and you my precious little girl for 2000 years I know the pain of not being with the one you love. I can't have that fate for you I will not allow it" she began to wipe away her tears "tonight the full moon and the witch is going to drop the veil she has enough power within her to do so" Ophelia backed away from me wide eyed.

"You're going to leave me" her voice trebled "You're going to kill yourself to be with mother and leave me here alone once again" she began to cry uncontrollably I went to embrace her but she pushed me away "No…. you say you love me but you don't… you say I'm the most precious thing to you but I'm not" how could she even say those words to me of course she mean to world to me and she was important.

"Ophelia please…" I began to say but she cut me off.

"Don't you want to be in my life daddy don't you want to know the person I've become? I've lived for all this time alone with no family and now my own father choosing to walk away from me" as she was wiping away her tear more came flooding down this was like torture seeing her upset like this, I didn't know what to do or say to make this any easier on her.

"Ophelia you have a life a head of you with the man you truly want to be with, having me in or out of your life won't make a difference" she began to shake her head it felt like whatever I told her was the wrong thing I really weren't very good at this fatherly talk.

"Why can't I have you be part of that daddy? I know you love mother and you want to finally be with her but you have to choose…. It either dropping the veil and being at peace with mother and lose me or you could finally get to know your daughter" it felt like my whole world froze in that moment that I was given a choice by my daughter to pick her or Amara "I'm sorry daddy but you going to lose one of us because you made one thing clear to me and that the fact I can't be without the man I love so that reunion you been wanting will not happen" she walked over to me and kissed me on my cheek and looked into my eyes "The choice is yours, you know where I am when you decide" before I could say anything she disappeared right before me, how could I chose between the one I love and my own daughter?

Damon P.O.V

Mystic Falls why did I came back here? Oh yeah to free that bitch ex of mine Katherine from the tomb, at time I wish I could go back in time and slap myself for that. My life before coming back here was great minus the part pining away for her, but I lived this carefree life where I could do what I wanted and be who I wanted. I didn't have to care or worry about anyone I lived the life of a bachelor, where I lived along brought as many girls back to my place without having to worry about what 'people' meaning my brother thought. I used to drink blood right from the vein and now I'm drinking out of blood bag! What the hell happen to me? Seriously coming back to Mystic falls had corrupted my way of thinking, I went from the vampire who didn't give a dam about anyone and wanted to destroy this town for what they did to Katherine to wanting to be the hero and save it.

Was it down to me wanting to do because I felt it was the right thing? That partly true but I think part of me did it for one person, that was Elena the splitting image of Katherine but in hindsight Elena Gilbert was nothing like Katherine Pierce . Elena was sweet kind and caring she showed compassion for everyone even an ass like myself, she didn't give up on me even at time when I did some incredibly stupid things it was like Elena could see all pass that and see the good in me. Not matter how much I felt an attraction to Elena she was with my brother and I tried to accept that so many times, but something wouldn't let me let her go I fell in love with Elena without even knowing it.

For a year and half I've been trying to impress Elena Gilbert we sheared a kiss and there was that moment of passion in Denver, that one night I knew that Elena had feeling for me but she was too afraid to admit it. With my brother being all ripper mode I think Elena leaned on me more maybe that why it all happened, because his mind was occupied with blood lust and pleasing Klaus to do his bidding. Stefan will never forgive Klaus for doing that to him making him turn off his humanity well I didn't blame him either, with Klaus doing that slowly Elena fell into my arms. When Elena died with vampire blood in her system everything changed she recalled all the time I had compelled her that I had confessed my love to her, she knew of every moment and it feared me because I'd not shown that venerable side to anyone apart from Star.

Star Mikaelson the only girl who I had ever told all of my most intimate secret too the thing that I had never told another soul, you know like how I felt after my mother passing the pain I felt. Star understood as she didn't have a childhood like mine with her parents being taken from her from such a young age, I could still remember my mother face whereas Star couldn't recall what her parents looked like. I think we both kind of felt sorry for each other that where it all started with me telling her about what my life been like with my evil father, and her story of her childhood then losing her husband to the 'war'. When Star left my life back in 1864 I felt like my world turned upside down, yes Katherine distracted me with her womanly ways and it worked until the day when I died and woke up with vampire blood in my system. When I chose not to live a life without Katherine thinking she had burnt in the fire in the Fells church….well we all know how that story went… not too well.

Then after 147 year Star came crashing back into my life like a comet burning though the sky crashing down to the earth, I recall that first day when she came to Elena home and stood there. Nothing had changed about her she still look like the girl I spent my days with in 1860, ok maybe her clothing was 'very' different I mean I never knew that Star had such a figure. Star was back in my life and I felt like it was a sign that maybe she came back, that thing would change around here that maybe there would be some fun put back into Mystic Falls.

Boy I was sooo wrong about that instead I found out the girl who I cared about as a sister was part of some suicidal mission, that she was the only one who could get the cure by her blood awakening the bad dude Silas. When she told me about her having to die for the cure I felt like my world had shattered once again like the day when she never returned, I was going to lose her once again but this time she would actually be gone. I couldn't deal with losing her but then when she explained how she didn't want to live this life anymore how she could never be normal, it really pulled on my heartstrings which made me decide to let her go and accept her wishes.

From the moment we step on that island I knew something bad was going to happen not the fact that my friend was sacrificing herself, but something in the pit of my stomach I knew something big was going to happen. Finding out that this Silas dude was actually Star dad that Star weren't actually Star she was Ophelia the daughter of Amara and Silas. The one thing that worried me was the fact that Star had no clue about any of this, she and Jeremy had been taken by that psycho professor shady. Those two days on the island were one of the worst events of my life and the moment when Stefan and I found Star dead in the chamber, I felt like someone had staked me in my heart my world came crashing down.

I thought she was dead and gone I remember thinking how was I going to tell Klaus where would I lay her body to rest, then everything became a blur. One minute I'm mourning the death of my friend the next I see her move and gasping for air. The whole reason for this was down to a fight that Elena and Star had and Elena heal her with vampire blood and Katherine played her part by killing her. Would you believe it the two people that Star hated had turned her into the one thing she never dreamed to be a vampire.

Star didn't take to turning not well at all from her massacring six people in the grave yard to the moment she did the one thing we all had done, and that turn off her humanity. Yeah that didn't go well either she went on a vengeful vendetta taking apart one of the doppelganger's (Elena) that turned her into what she is now. I still can't shake the images from my mind of the way we found Elena she looked like a broken toy, I wanted to feel some form of compassion for her and I tried but deep down I couldn't. Because none of this would have happen if she didn't let her jealously take over, if she weren't jealous of the friendship I sheared with Star this wouldn't have occurred. But none of that matter now Star is what she is now and Elena has turned to my brother for emotional support, maybe it all did work out for the best in the end.

So with all that going on I made the choice to leave town to spread my wings and fly I hated it here now and I had nothing really to keep me here, there was a wide world out there that needed exploring once again. Elena and Stefan had each other and I knew they will look out for each other, they didn't need me around like a bad smell. Then there was Star who I didn't know if she was here or there she weren't going to let me babysit her for all eternity, I needed for her to go out there and make her own mistakes and when she needs her friend I'll be there. I knew Stefan didn't take my news to well and before he could probe me or make me change my mind I had to leave, Stefan my only family and I know he wanted us to stick together but I don't think I could do that well not for now.

So pretty much right now I have a best friend who losing her mind and her psycho husband dealing with her, and a brother who I want to see happy and smiling again. I got the impression that he and Elena are reconnection once again and even though part of me hated that, I didn't want to lose my brother again so I chose to not be selfish.

I think before I leave this crazy town I'm going to have a drink in the grill for the final time, when I arrived I compelled the bartender to keep the drinks coming. It weren't that I was depressed about leaving is the fact that I need to get drunk to walk away from the people I cared about.

"Damon, what's wrong?" I heard Star voice say I looked up and saw her looking at me with a concerned expression.

"Oh isn't my BFF still having some kind of break down or did the dick hybrid help you" I drained my drink but notice that Star expression was hurt by my comment, I wanted to kick myself the last thing I wanted to do is hurt her before I leave.

"Ok you're being a dick and I wonder why? So what's up Damon or do I have to drag it out of you" she spoke in a teasing manner then a smirk appeared on her face, I smiles at her grabs a glass and places it in front of Star and pours her a drink.

"What could be wrong my life just Peachey" I pours myself a shot "You know i kind of wonder at time how foolish i was to come back here" I drains my shot it was true I came back here over a girl who weren't even worth the time or effort.

"I'm going to take a stab in the dark in here and guess that Elena Gilbert is the reason why you look so depressed" I cringed from hearing Elena's name "That is what I thought. Do you want to talk about it?" what was there really to talk about there weren't going to be an Elena and I and I've decided to move on and that what I'm going to do.

"There nothing to talk about really" I sat back in my seat and looked at her "You know what is it about the allure of the Petrova Doppelgänger I've been asking myself that question all day" I grabbed the bottle of bourbon and took a swig from it "You see I'm tired of it all Star i can't fight something that not mean to be. I'm tired of fighting with my bother over the same girl" I began to chuckle at the fact that Stefan and I fought over these girls like this "We are actually fighting over the same girl Katherine... Elena both the same. I just want out of the game because I'm tired" which I was I'm sick of this game and I really wanted out for good.

"What does that mean Damon?" Star seem a little worried after I told her that I think I need to break this to her gently.

"It means that I want to leave all of this behind. That I want to be the person I once was the guy you first meant" I couldn't help but smirk at that thought "Ok scrap that because I'll never be him but I want to be Damon Salvatore once again the one who lived for the moment who saw the world. The Damon Salvatore that didn't have to tip toes around everyone I want be me again... that what I mean Star" I hope that I made it all clear to her I just wanted to be the man I once was I don't think I was asking for much.

"I don't understand what you are on about. What are you trying to tell me?" I got up from my stool Star weren't making this easy on me.

"I'm leaving Mystic Falls moving on go where the wind takes me" I spoke with sarcasm but I notice sorrow in Stars eyes, and that killed me I hated to see her sad.

"What? Why? No, Damon you can't go. Where will you go? How will we ever see each other again?" she began to get teary she threw so many question at me which I didn't know the answers to, I cupped Star head and kisses her forehead then looks at her.

"I don't know yet but I'm leaving tonight, but i will always be there if you need me i will always drop everything for you that what I've learnt that friends do" That one thing I had learnt in the last few months that I value our friendship I thought that I was close to Star in 1864 but now I felt even closer to her with all the secret let out. Yes she had her crazy moment but who hasn't and I could never give up on her even if at time she gave up on herself.

"Damon please don't go. Please" she cries I hated to see her begging me not to leave but I'm doing this for me because I want to lead the life I want.

"I'm sorry Star i just can't be here no more" I had to get away from her before she somehow changes my mind, turn to walk away but then turns back to her "Let leave the farewell for later" I smiled at her and walks out of the grill for the last time, I took a look around the square of Mystic Falls for the last time. It's the time to say goodbye to my old life and embrace the new life I'm going to be living.

Star P.O.V

Within the last 24 hours I've felt like my world has come to a total halt I didn't know if I was coming or going right now. With finding out that Nik having a child with that she wolf I shouldn't really be hatting her but I do, because she was giving Nik my husband something I could never give him and it pained me. Then with myself imagining that I spoke to my father that he looked Identical to Stefan I was completely losing it, Damon was right I had lost it. I didn't know why I envisioned my 'father' as Stefan maybe it was due to the fact that I admired Stefan so much, I loved him but there was something about Stefan that made him so special to me. After the talk with Damon I sat down and thought about the last thousand years of my life, it weren't much of a life I lived in fear for over 900 years of it. I only enjoyed two moments in my whole life time and that was the moment when I met Niklaus and the Salvatore brothers.

Even when I looked back at those happy memories they were filled with sorrow too, I knew in my heart in 1490 that I couldn't spend my whole life with Niklaus that was before I knew he was an original vampire. I made him fall in love with me knowing that I would have to eventually leave him, that wasn't right of me to do that to him. Then I made history repeat itself once again and I did it to my precious Salvatore brother, Stefan who I let fall in love with me and Damon who let me into his heart. I didn't deserve any of them I didn't deserve to even be here I never wanted this life and I came to the point where I knew within myself everyone would be better off with me gone.

So I chose to end it to drive a stake through my heart I knew it was going to be painful but the pain of living this life and hurting all the people I cared about pained me more. But that moment of me ending my life was stopped by Nik where he told me to think about what I'm doing, that I would cause more pain to the people I loved by taking my life. The one thing about Niklaus I couldn't never understand is the fact that he is known to be this bad guy, the man without any emotions who only cared about himself. Then why did he care when it came to me even after all the horrid thing I had done to him he never could let go, I needed to know why. When he told me that he could never let me go that the kind of love he had for me only comes once in a life time, it left me completely lost for words. My head was spinning even more as he tried to reason with me, he requested that I took a look around me before doing something I couldn't take back.

Before Niklaus left he told me that he would be leaving by sundown that he wanted to know which path I was going to take, at this point I was still convince that I was going to end it all that nothing he told me didn't matter. I was fooling myself because what Nik thought did matter to me and I was trying to convince myself it didn't. So I went to a place that I hadn't been to since the 1800 that was the top of the falls, I used to come up here with Stefan it used to take us most of the day to get up here but it was always worth it as I cherished those moment with Stefan. While I tried to sit there and reflect over my decision I had a visit from Stefan, he seem concerned about me and I knew it was down to Damon why he was here. Stefan was still mad at me for what I did to Elena and I didn't blame him it was barbaric, to let her go through that type of pain and torture I really don't know till this day how I could of done that to her.

He asked me what I wanted and I that I should follow my heart Stefan made it all sound easy as I didn't know which direction my heart wanted to go. I didn't know but the one thing I knew is the fact I weren't going to take my life that I couldn't walk away from everyone I cared about, Nik words went through my mind of how I would pain them more by doing such an act. I knew that today I had to make a choice that I let my heart finally decide who it wants to be with, that I couldn't keep playing this game. One thing Stefan said was true that I did play him and Nik just the same way as Katherine did and Elena I weren't any better than the Petrova doppelgängers. I assure Stefan by today I will know which man truly held my heart, Stefan was very sweet about it all and when he kissed my cheek it weren't like other times. There was something different in Stefan approach there wasn't that spark or zing, maybe I was reading it all wrong but that how I felt.

Once he was gone there was one thing that played on my mind a lot and that was Elena Gilbert, the one thing I needed to do was apologies to her for what I did. I didn't know if she would be forgiving actually I didn't even know what kind of state she was in, I was to frighten to ask Damon about as I knew deep down he loved her. Well the only way I would find out is seeing her for myself. So I left the falls and used my sped to make my way to Elena I was going to knock on the front door but I knew that Elena would probably slammed the door in my face, so I chose to go through the back door instead. When I came face to face with Elena all I felt was guilt for what I did to her she looked so frighten and fragile, I hated myself for what I did to her. Yes she did wrong in attacking me on the island and she and Katherine are the reason I'm a vampire, but the old Star wouldn't have tortured her she wouldn't let anyone go through that kind of pain. So when Elena rejected my apology I kind of knew it was coming.

So I needed to clear my mind I needed to think long and hard about what I wanted one thing I knew was that I didn't want to stay in Mystic Falls anymore, that whoever I chose I would want them to start a life with me somewhere new. I could feel my blood lust I hadn't had any blood since I attacked that poor bartender in New Orleans, I had to try and control myself I know that Damon and Stefan would drink alcohol to control their urges. I made my way to the grill I was about to walk in but I notice that Nik car was parked outside, I backed away I weren't ready to see him yet so I walked over and sat down on one of the benches to wait until he left.

While doing that I came face to face with my father it weren't a figment of my imagination he was really here, that my father was Silas the man that I had to take down once and for all with the help of a member of the five. He told me of how he wanted to bring down the veil of the supernatural purgatory so that we could all be united together as a family. I couldn't believe the length he was willing to go I knew he loved my mother more than anything but this was crazy talk. So I did one thing to my father that I thought I would never do I gave him a choice to choose between living the afterlife with my mother. Or to choose to stay on this plane to get to know his daughter that he had longed for 2000 years, to finally live a life to get to know me his Ophelia. I thought it was a fair enough request to make to him some may see it as selfish but wasn't it selfish for my father to walk away from me and be with my mother?

I had to walk away from him I was frighten to the fact that he would tell me straight away that he chose my mother, I think it due to the fact that I've long for a family all these years and it was in reaching distance and it might be snatched away. Nik car was gone now and I made my way into the grill I saw Damon by the bar he looked upset and depress, I knew it was down to the fact of one person Elena Gilbert. As much as I didn't like it Damon was in love with Elena and I should be a supportive friend to him rather than tell him what I think he should do. When I went and sat down with him I knew he was drunk he spoke of what was the allure of the Petrova doppelgänger, that when I knew I had been selfish and been thinking about myself all day when my dear friend had been hurting. Damon had told me that he is leaving town that he wanted to go back to the man he once was, I tried to protest with him, I didn't want him to go out in the world alone I wanted to tell him that we could do it together but Damon didn't give me the chance he left before I could. But I knew I had until tonight to convince him.

I left the grill and made my way home I walked into the house and it was empty I went straight into the basement and grabbed a couple of blood bags and went back up into the parlour. I sat on the sofa and began to think of this crazy day, everything was getting to me right now from Nik and Stefan to my father hen Damon. Four men that were turning my world upside down four men who all mean the world to me. But two of them I had to make a choice about that who I truly loved more than the other, so I sat there and thought about the pros and cons of each man and there was one that ticked all the boxes. I couldn't believe how I had been blinded for all these years of course I love him more than the other, was I to frighten to admit it? Was I scared to let my feeling be clear? Well I'm not that person anymore I've got the chance to start a new life and be with the man I love, I just hoped that he still wanted that with me.

I got up from the sofa and made my way to the door, I opened the door and tries to leave to go tell the man I love that I will always love him. Only to be startled by the unexpected arrival of Silas my father.

"What are you doing here?" he smiles weakly at me I didn't mean to come across rude but I didn't expect him to turn up like this.

"You told me to come and see you when i made my mind up" I folded arms as a defence mechanism as I was frighten to hear what he had to tell me.

"And what is your decision? Have you decided who is more important to you, Dad? Me or the woman that you love?" I knew I sounded like a bitch but I felt I gave him a far choice, he sighed and looked at me worrisome look.

"Could i please come in? I don't think the whole neighbourhood needs to hear this" he smiles at me once again I felt strange with him looking so much like Stefan, I nodded and opens the door wider he walks into the parlour "You gave me a choice Ophelia" he turned to me "You or your mother" he sighed again I knew this was difficult for him but I had to make him realize that he will lose one of us "You know i love the both of you just as equally, you know that don't you?" I didn't say nothing and keeps her arms folded as I waited for him to get to the point "You definitely have my traits" he chuckled lightly and walked over to the bar "May I?" I nodded my head "You know i thought it was going to be the hardest decision ever to make" he pours his drink and hold it in his hand "But it wasn't i pretty much made up my mind up from the moment you walked away from me" he drained his drink I could feel my heart accelerate knowing he had made his choice, but I needed to know.

"What have you decided Daddy? Just tell me please because I have something to do" I looked at the clock I knew my time was short as I wanted to be back in time before Damon left.

"You know the one thing ran through my mind was if your mother was in my position what would she do" he walks over to me "Your mother is my one true love but you Ophelia are my daughter my little girl. So the choice weren't heard because you're what important your here right now, and I'm not going to drop the veil to be with your mother" he clears his throat "I wanted to know my daughter and be in her life... if she will let me" I was taken aback by his words. Did he really say what I thought that he said? I felt my throat getting dry and my eyes instantly fill up with unshed tears. I didn't trust myself to speak.

"What did you say?" When I did speak, my voice is barely heard above a whisper, I looked at him he smiled at me as he came closer to me.

"I chose you Ophelia. I have memories of you mother but i have hardly any with you, so i wanted to build a father and daughter relationship i wanted to be part of your life" I couldn't believe it he chose me? That he wanted to know me he chose me over my mother his one true love

"Daddy" I went to him and buries my face in his shirt, soaking it with my tears, I felt so much joy with knowing that my father was going to be part of my life he hugs me tightly it felt natural to be in my father's arms.

"But there something i need to do first Ophelia" he pulls away from me "The travellers will continue to do Qetsiyah bidding and i need to stop that, i need to go back home to end it all. Because i don't want to be looking over my shoulder all the time when I'm trying to build our relationship" I couldn't believe that he was leaving me that he chose me but leaving I didn't understand.

"You're leaving me again?" I glares at him while backing away I couldn't believe I was fooled by his words.

"I'm not leaving you I'm ending all of this once and for all Ophelia i will return before you even know it" he spoke to me calmly i don't know why but I believe him that he didn't want anything to come between us anymore, if he could stop Qetsiyah followers come between us who I am to stop him.

"Ok I understand. And that makes my decision even easier. I am leaving Mystic Falls Dad" I need for him to know that if he returned here I wouldn't be here, I looked at him and he smiled at me widely.

"I knew that Ophelia your following your heart" he came over to me and kissed me on my forehead "I'm keeping you from telling him, go and tell him how you truly feel and don't hold back Ophelia because the love you have for him only happens once in a lifetime" walks away from her to the front door I never thought he would be so understanding.

"Bye, Daddy" I called out to him as he left I couldn't help but smile knowing that my father wanted to be part of my life that I felt there was something worth living for.

Right now I needed to finally tell the man I wanted to be with who I wanted to shear eternity with I'm praying that when I do finally confess that he him that I want, that he won't turn around and tell me it too late. I rushed out of the door and made my way to the Mikaelson mansion as I got closer I saw several removal trucks, I could feel my heart beating at 100mph as I got closer Nik was leaving what if he had gone already. I went into the house and walks in the parlour. I notice that everything was being packed and my heart was pounding. I couldn't even begin to comprehend that Nik is leaving. I started to panic. No, no no he can't leave me I told myself, I tears through the house looking for him.

"Nik!"" I called out while searching for him through the crowd of people moving thing around the room.

"Be careful with those there from the 14th century" I heard him call out my eyes darted over to far left of the room there stood the man who held my heart, he slowly turned around to face me I felt I was looking at him once again for the face time like with a fresh pair of eyes like the moment when I fell in love with him at first sight "I see you've come to bid me farewell" he spoke a little smugly and smiles at me then turned away to look at one of the workers "So how was your day sweetheart" he see of the removal people with a statue and looks like they were about to drop it "If you want to live i wouldn't drop that if i were you" he growled at him I felt like I couldn't speak a word I want to blurt out to him 'I love you'.

"Nik..." I felt my lips tremble. As it was too late he is leaving I shook my head fiercely I'm not going to let him leave me. If he wants to go, it would not be without a fight because I'm not going to let him go easily.

"Yes Star..." he spoke to me casually like the words he spoke to me earlier didn't mean a thing, but I knew Nik he was being like this was a defence mechanism.

"You're leaving? Just like that? You're going to call it quits on us?" I asked him while I approached him Nik seemed a little nervous as I walked over to him I didn't know is it was my presence or the fact that Nik was concerned with what I was going to tell him.

"I told you I would be gone by sundown Star I don't understand why you seem so surprised" of course he did I knew Nik was leaving to go back to New Orleans, he walked over and pours two glasses of scotch and hands one to me I felt a slight spark as his hand touched mine "As i recall from our previous conversation you were the one who was planning to 'give up' corrected me if I'm wrong" he drained his drink I couldn't believe how much of a dick he was being. I took the glass and tosses the drink in his face and then slaps him.

"You bastard! How could you do this to me? How could you do this to us? You weren't going to wait to hear my decision" turns from him to hide my face but why should I hide from him? I turned back around and glares at him "I made my decision and I choose you Niklaus Mikaelson" I shouted at him the whole room stopped but I didn't care "Because I love you and I want to be with you in spite of everything. But you'd rather leave than stay with me. Damn it, Nik!" I began to raises my voice "It's you. It has and always will be you!" I totally broke down as I had finally let out my feeling for him and he was being a total jerk, Nik wipes away the drink from his face he looked a little annoyed not the way I envisioned this at all.

"With your behaviour from today you made me believe otherwise" he spoke softly as he approached me "But you real chose to be with me. To live a life with me in New Orleans you will stand by my side" I watched as his eyes began to glaze which pained me because I think Nik had convince himself that I was going to leave him and chose to die.

"I love you, Nik and I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry. I have been alone for most of my life and I don't want to be alone again. I can't let you go. You are the one. You're my soul mate. You complete me. Nik" I caresses his face and looks into his eyes that I adored so much "You are the only man that makes me weak and breathless. I feel dizzy when you kiss me and I can hear the angels sing when we kiss. You may be the devil sometimes. But you are an angel in my eyes and you have captured my heart. I am nothing without you. Please Nik I love you and I will do anything to make it right. So if you want me to go to New Orleans with you, then yes, Nik I will stand by your side as your queen until the end of time because that is how I love you" Nik Stood there speechless like I had spoken those words to him for the first time but I mean every word he was my one true love and I only came to realize that after 520 years and I didn't want to go another moment without him.

"I course more than anything in this world i want you by my side" he cupped my face and leaned towards me "I love you more than you will ever know Star Mikaelson" he kissed me my knees started to buckle the minute that Nik's lips touched mine. My heart thudded in my chest and I thought that it was going to explode. Nik was a great kisser. His lips was so soft to the touch and I could taste the scotch that he had drank earlier. But it didn't bother me underneath all of that was sweetness. Our lips moulded together and it seemed like they belonged together and that was true. Because the only man that I wanted to kiss was Niklaus Mikaelson. I didn't give a damn that he was a feared hybrid and people hated him. Or that just the sound of his name caused fear. He could be a dick sometimes. But none of that mattered to me now because I was finally where I belonged. I was with my husband and I would never leave him again I pulled away from him

"I want to go with you Nik. But I have to do something first before we go" Nik looked at me frowning, but a smile creeps up on his face.

"That fine I'm happy knowing that you are coming with me" I smiled against his lips a few more times and pulls away again when he tries to grab me

"Not now" I told him with a smirk "I have to go. But I will be back. I love you Nik" I kisses him again and left before he can stop me.

It was difficult to walk away from Nik but I needed to get to Damon before he left town, I couldn't have him walk out of my life like this. I used my super speed to the boarding house I saw Damon car and then I saw him putting his bags into the trunk of his car. He looked up and sees me and smiled I couldn't believe he was actually leaving.

"Hey i don't want any crying" he spoke with sarcasm I knew he did that to hid how he was truly feeling, I tried to hold back my tears as I approached him.

"Damon wait please don't go not until we talk, ok?" I needed him to hear me out Damon closed his trunk and looks at me.

"What there to talk about I'm leaving…. I don't want to be here anymore Star" I knew he didn't want ti be here anymore I didn't even want to be here anymore but I couldn't live a life without my Damon.

"I'm not going to tell you to stay here because I agree that you should leave. I am leaving too, Damon. I am going to New Orleans with my husband and I want you to come with me" that what I wanted to be in New Orleans with the both of them as selfish as it sounded this big change of move with Nik I needed my best friend by my side because deep down I knew I would need him.

"Whoa you've choosing to be with the hydick" Damon laughed then he notice that I weren't amused with his comment, he cleared his throat "New Orleans Star really and me come along? How will your hubby feel about all of this?" I knew that Nik wouldn't be overly happy about it but I also knew that he would want me to be happy and having Damon with me through this new life I was going to have would accept it.

"Damon, I love him and yes, why not. Think about all of the fun that we could have. I can't think of a better place to start over again for you and you can move on and find somebody better than Elena Gilbert because she doesn't deserve a guy like you" I hoped my plead to him worked because I didn't know if I could go throughout the whole ordeal of Hayley being pregnant with Nik child alone, Damon weren't aware of all of this but I knew he will be my tower of strength through it all. I looked at him and his expression was contemplating which concerned me then a smirked appeared on his face.

"New Orleans..." he spoke in a teasing tone I didn't know if Damon was playing me right now or I may have convince him to come.

"New Orleans and I need my best friend. Besides who else can I tell all of my secrets too and have sleepovers with" teases him smirking a smile crept up on Damon face.

"You know it kind of sounding appealing... You know waking up in the morning annoying the hell out of Klaus" we both began to chuckled as I knew Damon would make it his life mission to annoy Nik "New Start that what your suggesting?" I nodded my head in agreement while I smile widely, Damon put him arm around my shoulder pulling me to him "I think I like the idea of creating some havoc in New Orleans with my dearest friend" he kisses me on the cheek "count me in"