A/N: Liar by Mumford and Sons

10.

The finale. We're watching it, and everybody is tensed. I'm holding on to Gale's hand as we watch. At first, I wanted to turn it down, since we both were still mad at each other. But he wouldn't have it and he practically forced his hand in mine, with the words; ''You're not the only one who is feeling betrayed.'' Everybody is holding their breath, as Katniss and Peeta are at the lake, waiting for something to happen.

We can see the boy from 2 getting chased by mutts, and I wish I could tell Katniss to run for safety now. Look up a tree. The boy, Cato I believe, comes crashing through the trees. They all run to the Cornucopia, but Peeta is low because of his leg and gets bitten again. I grit my teeth and stop the circulation of Gale's blood in his hands when they climb the Cornucopia. It takes a few minutes, a few heart wrecking minutes, before it really begins.

The fight begins. I often feel like burying my face in Gale's chest, to block it all out. Maybe even run away. But I can't. I'm stuck here. As much as I want to, I can't move. It's like I'm frozen in place, forced to watch. When he is holding her, I feel like panicking, and I'm almost certain she is going to die, when Peeta saves her. Cato gets him in a headlock. And Katniss is torn. ''Oh no,'' I whisper.

I look up to Gale, and see he is frowning his familiar looks so tensed. So unbelievably tensed.
The seconds go by, and we wait for Katniss to make her decision. Only it feels like hours. Then, she shoots Cato in the hand and Peeta pushes him off the Cornucopia. I gasp and clench Gale's hand. They did it. They won..

Not yet, though. No cannon sounds. Cato is wearing something protective, so it will take a long time. Night goes by there, when it's only 9 pm here, when Katniss receives her last arrow from Peeta's tourniquet, and shoots it, out of mercy. They climb off the Cornucopia, and they go to the lake, Peeta unbelievably pale, and probably close to death. I wonder why they haven't announced the winners yet.

I look up to Gale, and he looks back, the same questioning look on his face. And then they do it. They announce only one can live. And I feel so bad, that I wished Peeta dead. Because now he will die. And we wait, and we see Katniss raise her bow. But she won't do it. And Peeta threatens with suicide.

And this is when she takes out the berries, and I can see my world crumble.

So this is it. This is Katniss Everdeen, the girl I loved, the girl I would've risked anything for.
I would've died for her. And now, she is going to do the exact thing for someone else.
I have felt pain. Many times. But not like this. This goes way deeper than pain.

Just when the berries have passed their lips, and I'm on the edge of breaking down, they announce they have won. But, while everybody around me is cheering, I can't help but keep on staring at the screen, feeling too numb to move, talk, live.
''They won!'' Gale says, smiling somewhat. I nod and give an unconvincing smile. I should be happy. I should be celebrating. I should be crying of happiness. But I don't. Instead, I cry of heart break. I quickly run to my house, not planning on coming out for the next couple of days. And I'm not going to watch the interviews. I refuse.

Just like I refuse to eat, move, and I even barely manage to breathe.
Dad comes in, concerned several times, but then gives up. I'm unmoving. Even Gale visits me. We only exchange so many words, and he doesn't mention the interviews, which I'm very thankful for.

A week goes by. And then they're here. And I don't want them to. I don't think I can handle seeing them holding hands right in front of me. So I don't. My father gets mad at me, Gale gets mad at me, and Prim just gives me looks of sympathy.

I stay in bed, just like I did the week before. Watching a spider move slowly on my ceiling. Gale crashes through my door, and I sit up, shocked. ''You're coming, now,'' Gale says with gritted teeth. I shake my head, and when he reaches for my arm, I kick him in his private area. ''I told you no, Gale. I'm not coming. I'm not. I.. I can't,'' I tell him. ''She was looking for you,'' he says, bending over from the pain. I shake my head and lay down again. ''Just go,'' I say, barely audible. I close my eyes, and a single tear rolls down my cheek, just after I hear him leave. More tears follow, though.

(Katniss p.o.v)
My eyes fly through the crowd, looking for a particular blonde girl. But no matter how hard I look, I can't find her. I wait until the cameras are all gone, so I can go to her house. I knock on the door and find it still open. I softly come in, but I find the house empty.

I walk up the stairs, and go directly to Madge her room. But just before I'm about to open her door, I stop. A nervous feeling settles in my gut. I take a deep breath and open the door with shaking hands. Madge quickly sits up, and her eyes widen at the sight of me. I smile and softly say; ''surprise.'' I walk up to her bed and sit on the edge of it. I'm too blinded by the happiness of seeing her again, that I don't notice the signs.

The vacant and distant, but mostly, accusing look in her eyes, her hollow cheeks, her arms that are too thin. Her still wet cheeks. I pull her in a hug, but stop when I notice how stiff she feels in my arms.

''Madge..?'' I mutter as I pull away. Her chin is quivering. ''What's wrong?'' I ask, dumb founded, my throat thick.

Why is she doing this? ''How dare you,'' she whispers with a hoarse voice. ''How dare you walk in on me like this, obliviously, like nothing happened?'' I look at her with wide eyes, as the pieces are coming together. ''I watched you nearly die, Katniss! I watched.. I watched you fall in love!'' she spits. I'm taken back by this. How could I, indeed, be so oblivious? I can feel the tears welling up behind my eyes. ''It wasn't real, Madge-'' I try to get a hold on her hand but she won't let me. Her eyes are unforgiving, and are reflecting so much pain.

My heart starts to hurt too now, and one tears manages to make its way out. ''Liar,'' she hisses. ''I have eyes, Katniss. I saw how you looked at him.'' I try to talk myself out of it, try to get a hold of her, and I'm seriously crying now. ''Madge..'' I beg, tears spilling from my eyes. ''Go away!'' she yells at me. ''I loved you Katniss! I loved you with everything in me, and the worst thing is, I still do!'' she yells with a cracking voice. I'm sobbing and I can't find the words. They all seem so meaningless, compared to hers.

So I stand up, and walk away. In the doorframe I turn around, and look at the mess that was my girlfriend. ''I do love you Madge,'' I mumble softly. She looks up at me, and she looks so accusing at me. I managed to hurt her even more than I already did. Just before I close the door, I can hear her mutter one last word.

''Liar.''