Chapter 4 The will

In my story, Cristina did her M.D. in Harvard and she's Lexi's senior. In this AU, Cristina is rich, like crazy rich and crazy genius, both at medicine and at investing. She bought a property wherever she goes, so she has 3 houses- in Boston, Seattle and Beverly Hills. The Beverly Hills one is from her stepfather. Her mother divorced her father and remarried when she was 3, and her father died when she was 9. At the 6 year time slot, her stepfather and her mother don't have children, her stepfather didn't have any child in previous marriage, so both fathers see her as their own daughter. She still doesn't get along with her mother. She was 20 when she finished her first degree and spent only 9 years total to finish med school and residency due to her talent ( this will be explained in Chapter 6). So she was 29 when she first came to SGH. As for why she came to work as an intern? Check it out in Chapter 6!

English is not my first language, so please put up with my grammar mistakes, and I know nothing about medicine, all the conversations regarding med information are from wikipedia or the show, if there are mistakes please ignore them, thank you!

Disclaimer: GA and all characters belong to Shonda and ABC

At the office

" Morrison, I'd like you to know that I've changed you as my health proxy and I would like to leave some instructions for you. "

" Ok, Cristina what happened? It's not like you to make all those arrangements for some hypothetical disaster. "

" Well, I guess you could say Seattle changed me. "

" Clearly it did. Ok, back to the topic. What are your instructions? "

" Firstly, do not sedate me after any surgery, no matter how major and serious the surgery maybe or how it could ease my pain, I would like to stay conscious as soon as the surgery finished and anesthetics went off. And I would like to see you as soon as I woke up, in case next potential surgery won't work so I can make some arrangements.

Secondly, I would like you to allow them to do anything they can to save me, including incubation, chest tubes and organ transplant. However, I would not accept any organ from anyone I know. In particular, Meredith Grey, Preston Burke, My mother or my step father, Miranda Bailey or any of my fellow interns. I would not live on an organ from any of the people from Seattle Grace Hospital or my relative. If I am unconscious and they need you to make the call for me, I would like you to know that. Even if that means I die, I wouldn't sacrifice other's health to save mine.

Thirdly, if there's a complication or anything happen after the surgery that makes me in coma and breathe on the machine, I would like you to withdraw the life support from me if I don't show any brain activity in 2 weeks. "

" Okay, the document is drawn. I will call in my colleagues as witnesses of your instruction, as soon as you sign under me and other 2 witnesses, this instruction will be effective immediately, ok? "

" Thank you, Morrison. "

" Okay, now let's talk about my will. How many cash do I have in my trust fund right now? "

" Your biological father left you with 25 million, plus your step father gave you 50 million after you turned 18, with all those years' investment into stocks of Microsoft, Facebook etc, your fund is now raised up to 550 million now. Wow, Cristina you are full of surprises, how could you manage to succeed in all those investments while you're a surgeon? "

" Well, when I invested my money into those companies I was still in high school, so not as busy as I am right now, plus I have Gambin to help me, and my father worked in wall street, those stocks and analysis were like toys to me in my childhood. Thank you for your compliment. I will leave 50 million to my step father, 200 million to Meredith Grey, 200 million to Preston Burke, 20 million to George O'Malley, 20 million to Alex Karev. And the rest 10 million, leave it to run the fund. After I die, the fund will be transferred to Preston Burke."

" Ok, would you like to transfer them the money in document or in check? "

" I would like to do that in check, but I would like to have 4 spare checks for each, because I'm worried when you hand them the check they would still be grieving and do some crazy things like tear the check or refuse it. I know this sounds ridiculous, but can you make sure that all 5 checks are the same before they are deposited, and if any of them is deposited then the rest will no longer be effective. I will renew the checks once a year since they are only effective for 1 year. "

" I guess the bank will probably say yes to your crazy request because you're their VVVIP, I can tell them later when we go to the bank together. "

" Ok. Here comes the next, I have 3 houses, one in Beverly Hills, the other in Boston and another in Seattle, right? "

" That's correct. "

" The house in Beverly Hills goes to my mother, the house in Boston goes to Meredith Grey, and I want to make sure that Alex Karev, George O'Malley, Isobel Stevens have equal share in the house in Boston. "

" Okay, so all your properties and cash are taken care of. What's next? "

" Next, I want you to help me film these videos and keep them, gather them in a hospital conference room as soon as I die and play those to them. After they saw the videos, you tell them about my will. "

" Do you want them to watch the video and know the will separately or together?"

" Together. Also, I want to donate all my organs except my skin, and I want my ashes to be spread in the OR sink."

" Okay. Do you want me to help you film the videos right now? "

" Yea. Right now. "

For Burke

Preston, this is the first time I'll call you by your first name, and maybe the last time. By the time you see this video, I am no longer existing in this world anymore. I don't know when you will see this yet, maybe by the time you see this we are already married and have a bunch of kids, maybe you will see it tomorrow. I know you are hiding your tremor from me lately, and I guess the reason you didn't tell anybody about your tremor is that you don't trust anyone, including me, and that hurts. Sometimes loving you hurts. Preston, I love you so much that it scared the crap out of me to admit it. I want you to know that you can trust me, I want you to know that I won't betray you or leave you like Katey did. Even if you can't be a C.T. surgeon anymore, you're still the love of my life. Listen up, I will only say this once, Preston Burke, three words, eight letters, I love you, always have, always will. I will love you from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health until death do us apart. You are my first and last man, you teach me how to love. My heart lays in your palm and it only beats for you. I love you, I do, and I just want you to know that.

Be with Katey and be happy. I know you still love her, and I don't have the courage to give up on you and make you really happy when I'm alive because I'm selfish and I don't want to loose you. But now that I'm gone, I want you to fight for the one you love. Be happy with her. But please don't forget me, think of me once in a while.

For Meredith

Meredith, I'm sorry that I can't be with you anymore. I can't laugh at you about Mcdreamy dramas anymore, I can't dance it out with you anymore. I know I promised that I won't leave you alone, but fate tear us apart, and I can't do anything about it, so please don't be pissed off. But there is one thing I can do, I can find someone who can be with you when I can't. I never told you that I met your half sister-Lexie in Harvard. Actually she is the reason that I paid attention to you at the first place, you're both Grey. She's really smart, considerate and has photographic memory. She can be annoying when she's rambling, but you will start to like her when you really get to know her. Lexie should be graduating in two months and she would do her internship here in Seattle Grace. Meredith, please, let her be with you when I can't anymore. I am not your only sister, and you can have a real sister instead of talking to a cold grave. You deserve a real sister, so just open up and let her be your sister, let someone love you.

Now that Mcdreamy is divorced, I can finally say that, be with him, marry him. I know that it sounds scary, but he's the love of your life, you can never get over him just like I can never be over Burke. So believe me, you will never be happy without him. You know what's the problem between you two? He always thinks he's right and he doesn't accept you as who you really are. Sure he loves you, but he only accept the bright and shiny you, not the dark and twisty you. So open up to him, tell him what you really think, talk to him like you talk to me, show him how you love him, and be a better person for him, be bright and shiny for him. Because love is compromise, love changes who you are. You can't just stop letting him love you because he chose someone else over you. Give him another chance, and give yourself a happy ending.

For Izzie

Izzie, I'm sorry that Denny didn't get the heart, I'm sorry that you lost the love of your life. Since you already has the check he gave you, I won't leave you with one more check. I know you always long for a home, so I give you equal share as Alex and George on my house. You have a home together with them now. From now on, nobody can throw you out of your house now. Izzie, I've talked to my mentor in Paris, his best friend is a world-class OB/GYN surgeon, even better than Addison. You can transfer your internship there if you want to change an environment. And I'm not saying you have to, it's just an additional option for you.

Someday you will recover from the loss of Denny. If that day comes, deposit your check and look around you, look for someone that can take care of you, find someone else that can make you happy. I hate to say this, but although Alex is evil spawn, he cares about you, he cares about you a lot. So give him a shot, give yourself another chance to be happy. You are a good person, izzie, so you deserve to be happy.

For George

George, you are a good guy and a good friend. Don't panic about the check I gave you, you deserve it. Although I always said you're not hard core, I didn't mean it. You are not 007 anymore, and one day you will be a brilliant surgeon, maybe not as good as I am, but you will get there. You have your moments, you saved a life in an elevator, that is something. You just have to have faith in yourself, follow your gut and trust yourself that you can do it.

Callie really loves you, so embrace that, cherish that. It is hard to find a woman who can love you as Callie can, so don't let her go easily. Maybe you couldn't love her back right away. But as time goes by I believe you will, just as I believe Burke will love me one day eventually. So don't let her down, don't hurt her. Take care of her, and take care of yourself.

For Alex

Alex, you are like a snail. You hide yourself under your ass shelter so that no one can touch your soft inside. Don't deny it, because I was just like you. Our difference is that I know how to love someone now, but you don't. So quit being so stubborn and let someone love you. Not everyone is like your mom and dad. I know you love izzie, the way you look at her gave you away. You long for a home as much as she does. You came from similar background, you both suffered from hardness, so you're meant to be. Just be patient with her, and stop being an ass.

You chickened out in the elevator, but that doesn't make you less eligible as a surgeon. Everyone scares, I'll tell you a secret, when Meredith saved her first patient, she vomitted outside the hospital. When I finished my first solo surgery, my hands can't stop trembling for an hour. Scary is normal, it is a respect for life. So turn it into your motivation for saving lives, follow your instinct, and be frightened after your surgery. You have all the qualities to become a good surgeon, you think fast, you move faster. Keep up with that and be a damn good surgeon.