Chapter 5 people. Thank you so much for the positive reviews I am over the moon you are all enjoying the story so far. So I said this story was estimated to have about 5/6/7 chapters so it is coming to a close soon, but don't worry, one or two more chapters will be arriving.

I want to apologise for the wait as I was trying to bring this chapter together and nothing seemed to be working, but I have a plan and I am working on the ending and such.

If anyone wants to suggest a story idea to me at all that they would like me to write they can PM me or leave me a message when reviewing. I only do Meredith centric stories though as she is my favourite character and I find it a lot easier to right from her perspective.

On with the show and I hope you enjoy.

Derek frowned when he got a page to Richard's office, hoping that he had talked some sense into Meredith and she was wanting to be admitted again. Much to his dismay, she was not in his office when he arrived.

"You paged chief?" Derek stood behind his desk, Richard putting down the paperwork he was reading, offering Derek a seat which he took.

"You know I respect you Derek, not just as a doctor but as a friend as well"

"And vice versa Richard. Where is this going?" Richard sighed heavily and looked Derek dead in the eye, concerning the surgeon.

"I would never ask this as your boss Derek because as much as it makes you both very happy it is inappropriate but, can you please try and talk some sense back into her, as her boyfriend she is going to listen to you"

"Richard me, Addison and Cristina have been trying all morning. She doesn't want to be kept in and we can't make her" Richard frowned shaking his head, grabbing the forms for Derek to look at.

"Not about her discharging herself, about her quitting" Derek froze, shaking his head as she ripped the sheets from Richard's grasp.

"She never told you? Why would she quit like that without consulting you?"

"Because she is resenting me. This is going to far Richard, if I wasn't concerned before I am now!" He expressed, standing to pace stressfully.

"Derek what is going on? This is more to do than yesterday isn't it?"

"We think she did it on purpose" He shouted, the words tumbling out before he could stop himself.

"I'm not following" Derek leant against the cabinet at the back of the office in distress.

"The water yesterday. We think she went in on purpose. It's a mess really. She almost drowned herself in the bath yesterday and I didn't think anything of it then I found her in the water and- she is a good swimmer Richard. This shouldn't have happened"

"Have you asked her?" Derek looked up from the ground in confusion, Richard walking around his desk so he was opposite Derek.

"Derek, have you asked her if it was intentional or not?"

"No but- would you want someone asking you that?"

"I would want to know someone cares enough to stop me" Derek paused, knowing Richard was right and that he should have spoke to Meredith before going behind her back.

"I don't want to lose her Richard. I can't lose her"

"Derek, when Meredith was 5 years old her mother tried to kill herself. A 5 year old Meredith had to call for an ambulance and sit while her mother bled out right in front of her. She sliced her wrists right in front of her. Then her mother disappeared off the face of the earth with Meredith and that was the end of it until Meredith came back here for her internship. The woman had to grow up with her father, her mother gets Alzheimer's then when she comes here she starts her internship and what do you know, her attending boyfriend has a wife. She almost blew up in an OR, it keeps getting better and better. She has survived a lot, a hell of a lot, more than anyone should in a life time, and while working the job she has practically grew up with, you accuse her of trying to kill herself. You need to suck up and talk to her" Derek sighed heavily, nodding his head. He left the room, dialling Meredith's number which, expectedly, went straight to voicemail.

"Damnit" He got the the reception and, to his surprise, caught Meredith as she was walking out the door. He ran after her, catching up and calling her name.

"Meredith!" She stopped and turned to look at him, her face red from crying.

"I'm going home" She stated, Derek stopping in front of her.

"You quit" She rolled her eyes, taking a step back from the man.

"Yes I did. Chief told you" He nodded, running his hand through his hair.

"What are you doing Mere, this isn't you"

"I'm moving past it Derek" She said sarcastically, Derek's jaw dropping as she turned away from him.

"Don't worry, I'm not on my way to drown myself again or slice my wrists if that is what you are worried about" She shouted back at him, turning the corner to her car, Derek standing in the middle of the pathway gobsmacked. Cristina come up behind him, tapping his shoulder, snapping him out of his haze.

"Is it true? Did she really quit?"

"She overheard us talking" He said dully, Cristina taking a sharp breath in.

"What did she say to you?"

"That I shouldn't worry. She isn't going home to drown herself or slice her wrists. She is moving past it" Cristina sighed, her head falling into her hands in annoyance.

"Derek we screwed up" He nodded, no words seeming right for the moment. They had screwed up, that was all the moment was saying to him. You screwed up.

"Addison is finishing her shift, should I send her to Mere's?" Cristina offered, Derek nodding, following the woman back into the building.

"We built the wall, now it is our turn to knock it down"

Addison made her way up the porch steps, glad that she had a key and didn't need to knock or anything. She opened the door and walked in, the smell of pizza blocking her senses. She looked into the kitchen, an empty pizza box abandoned on the side. Meredith had definitely been home.

"Meredith?" She called out, no sound coming from anywhere inside the house. She went upstairs, all the doors being open, showing that Meredith definitely was not home. She went into her's and Derek's room, finding a note addressed to Derek saying that she had gone out for a jog and would be back soon. Deciding to wait at least till she got back, she made herself comfy on the end of the bed and pulled out her phone, updating Derek who was finishing his shift in 5 hours.

Meredith isn't home, she left a note saying she was going for a jog and would be back soon. I'm going to sit and wait for her to come back so come home when you can. Addison.

4 hours later

Derek walked into the house, glad that he managed to get out early. It meant more time speaking to Meredith. He went straight upstairs, finding nobody downstairs and frowned when Addison was asleep on his and Meredith's bed, her coat and bag still attached to her arm.

"Addison?" She jumped slightly, almost falling of the bed as she sat up/

"Derek? Why are you home so early?"

"Addison it's been almost 4 hours, where is Meredith?"

"She hasn't come back from her jog" Addison said slowly, Derek groaning and looking at the note on the side.

"That was not where I left the note"

"That's because it is a different one" Derek kicked the cabinet in annoyance, slumping down next to Addison, throwing the note down onto her lap.

Staying at the Arch Hotel, didn't want to disturb Addison. Be home tomorrow.