"Sippy Cup"
Mommy is really good at hiding her pain. She likes to dress up in fancy jewelry and makeup to hid her face. She has gone to the hospital and come back with marks. She has done a great job with decorating the house. Outside, flower gardens brighten up the beautiful brown and pink outdoors. However, just like mommy, the inside is ugly from what we bring inside. No matter what she puts outside, she will never forget what she brings inside.
Mommy buys pills offline to loose weight, but she doesn't tell the doctor. Mommy tries to kill herself. It's all for daddy's attention. Mommy eventually stopped eating, and I would catch her putting cotton balls down her throat. I think Mommy just got tired of all the work she does.
One night, Mommy found Daddy with the neighbor girl again. I followed Mommy down the hall, and came across the bloody sheets covering Daddy and one of his girls. I began to cry very loudly, louder than I usually do. I was scared Mommy was going to hurt me next. There was Mommy smothered me to keep quiet and took me back to my room. She gave me some of Brother's special medicine. I don't remember anything after that.
Mommy used all of Daddy's money to get Brother and I nice clothes to cheer us up. She wore a smile, pretending like nothing had happened at all. But it doesn't matter how hard she tries to make every little thing to be covered up, he is still dead. Now, Mommy drinks from my sippy cup to feel less guilty about her life. But it's still the yucky syrup. Even though Daddy's gone, she still drinks it.
I realize now just how long Daddy has actually been gone.