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Te Numquam Dediscam- I will never forget you
Te Numquam Dediscam
How long has it been? Two years now? It seems like forever ago.
When you were still here with us. With me.
I still remember that day. The fire, the smoke, the devistation. I see it when I close my eyes.
You know what else I see when I close my eyes?
You
They told me you died. I can still hear those words like it was just yesterday.
But it wasn't just yesterday. It was two years ago.
You
You've been haunting me for the past two years. You'd expect time to heal me, but it isn't working.
Your face
I see it every time I close my eyes. Every single detail is ingrained into my memory. Every curve, every dip, every single inch. It's all there. The clouded grey in your eyes. The pain that they held. They always showed when you forced yourself. They'd always speak the truth louder than your mouth spoke its lies.
Your lies
You'd always put up a wall, put up an act. You said you were trying to protect everyone, but how many people did you actually protect. How many of your comrads were hurt? I knew you were lying. Your stupid chin thing that you'd do was too obvious. It hurt. I could tell when you were lying right to my face. Why couldn't you tell me the truth? Because you were trying to protect me? 'Cause thats the stupidest thing I've ever heard.
How easy was it to lie to me? 'Cause it was hard for me to accept it. I trusted you enough to let you past my walls, but I still couldn't get past yours.
I let you in. I lets you see me. The actual me. And what do I get for that? Your lies and your disappearance. Do you think that it was worth it? 'Cause I don't.
I still remember when they told me. I never believed that you died. I never became accustomed to the lack of your presence. I still wake up imagining that you're still here. I still walk into work thinking that you'll be there. I still look up, expecting you to be there looking at me, expecting my stomach to start fluttering, expecting my heart to start racing, all just from one look. But then I remember.
You're gone
The person I loved.
Gone
But I will never forget you. I will never put you out of my mind. You will haunt me until the day I die. My memories of you follow me wherever I go.
And you know what? Thats okay, because memories are better than nothing.
But just one last question.
Won't you come visit sometime? We have coffee. It'll be just like the good old days.
Just like the days that I'll never forget.
Just like I'll never forget you