A/N: Sorry for the lateness Y_Y! I've been really busy with my AS exam and work experience. Speaking of which, all my exam results were really bad :(:(( (despite how hard I work, and I quoted from my IT teacher, 'like a dog-_-') This is annoying -_-;
A/N2: I am really sorry if there is any grammartical error or a bad use of English. A very big thank you to imSiriuslyLupin4you for proof reading it -3-. Hope you enjoy ^_^ !
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter.
What, what?:
Sirius threw himself onto the big sofa, after he had finally shooed the children away to unpack things in their new room. He was surprised to see that the children only have a few things with them, even their clothes.
Finally! Sirius had a chance to finish all of his paper work. There was a knock on the door and Sirius sat up straight, before answered "Come in."
The Butler entered. Behind him was the smallest of the three, Romulus. looked around the room enthusiastically muttering something to himself. Probably something along the line of, 'Wow, its sooo big! Just wike our owuld house!', Romulus had said something like that aloud when they were having breakfast. Leaving Sirius to wonder just how big their old house was.
By the look of their clothes and all of their belongings, Sirius was sure that Regulus had led a different life then he used to have in Grimmauld Place with Sirius and his parents. He must have such a hard time feeding his wife and three children.
Stupid little brother.
"Mastew Siwius?" Sirius frowned at the name. He hated it when people couldn't pronounce his name correctly. 'It's not that hard to say… Be patient Sirius, be patient. He's just a boy, learning how to speak. This squeaky little boy will develop his pronunciation soon, just be patient.' Sirius told himself silently while forcing himself to smile awkwardly at the boy.
"Yes?" The little boy walked over and situated himself on Sirius' lap. Sirius heard the Butler chuckle softly but when he turned to glare at him, Chopin just bowed his head and left the library.
"Wemus wanted me to give dis to you." Romulus handed Sirius a piece of paper. He unfolded it and found unfamiliar handwriting, which was probably Remus'.
"Why didn't he give it to me himself?"
"Wemus is hewlping Wo right now." The boy answered, "Wemus is always kind to Wo and me, even when he's tiwed. He still hewps Wo with school and me cowouring pictuwes. I wove dawing pictuwes, especiawy famiwy pictuwes. I daw Mama, Papa and Wemus in the middwe, howulding Wo's and me's hands."
"But… but I don't undewstand why Wemus has diffewent eyes and haiw he don't look wike Wosaline at all. But Papa and Mama said dat Wemus is my brudder and Wo says dat when Wemus was wittle he used to had the same eyes and haiw wike the west of the famiwy but it changed because he fewl in paint. But I don't bewieve hew, people cant get changed by falling into paint. I asked Wemus why he had diffewent wooks, but he didn't answew… he just gave me a sad smiled made me wanna cwy."
Sirius grimaced at Romulus' terrible pronunciation, but still decided to talk with him… he could do with a break right now anyway, and they were going to be living together now... the least Sirius could do was speak with him, right?
"So tell me Mini-Black, how do you like your sister?" Sirius gently interrupted the little boy's monologue.
"Wo is ama…amazing! She is the best sistew evew!" The Master of the house could not help but smile, at least somebody liked that mischievous little girl.
In Sirius' opinion, Rosaline, or 'Ro' as she was known by her siblings, was the most… hellish of the three. From the past three hours of knowing this girl, she was the one he dreaded living with the most.
Since she had called him an 'Old Man' and snapped this morning Sirius was of the conclusion that her personality was fearless, yet caring, like the type of person who would willingly to beat the Hell out of somebody who had bullied someone they loved. Sirius was pretty sure that if the girl had not stopped Remus from comforting Romulus, the three of them would not be wandering around the house as they were now.
"… She is wovewy and cheerful and funny…" As far as Sirius knew, he had never seen the lovely, cheerful, or funny side of Rosaline at all… But since they would be living in the same house from now on, he'd see it someday.
"…But Wemus said Wo is a bad example, Wemus said Wo says bad words." Sirius allowed himself to laugh; of course she would have to swear. It was just so Rosaline.
"What about Remus?"
Again, the petite boy answered eagerly, "Wemus is nice! He always hewps me draw pictures and he always sweeps in the middle!"
Sirius smiled softly. Remus was such a heartwarming brother. The boy was shy, polite and He was always the last to speak, always nodding and when he did speak it was only in a soft voice when Sirius or his servants asked him a direct question. His personality was like that of a shy girl, and his figure was rather… effeminate.
Hell, if the boy were to go out in drag, Sirius could easily mistake him for a girl and willingly take him out for drinks. The thought made his cheeks flush a dark shade of pink. Sirius mentally smacked himself to calm down and tried to clear that creepy fantasy away.
"Mastew Siwius?" The said man looked down at the boy on his lap and raised an eyebrow. "Can I call you Uncle Siwius?" Those words magically made Sirius' heart fill with warmth, and he felt so right… so good and loved. He never felt this way before, so he smiled at the little boy.
"Only if you allow me to call you Mini Black."
By the time lunch was prepared, Remus and Rosaline had showered, and changed in more comfortable clothes though they still looked a bit dirty.
"Tomorrow, you three are to go into town and buy some new clothes." The only one who seemed to be excited about the shopping was Romulus. Beside the small boy sat Rosaline Alixa Black, who looked just as alarmed as Remus who sat opposite her, at Sirius's right hand. Rosaline had just opened her mouth to speak when Remus kicked her under the table and glared at her like he knew she was ready to snap at him. The girl groaned but let her brother do the talking.
"Sir, I think…" he paused as if to find right words before continuing, looking rather uncomfortable with Sirius's idea. "I think that you do not need to spend your money on behalf of us. Your kindness of letting us stay here is enough for us."
Sirius frowned, " All your clothes together are still less than the number of clothes I have, and you absolutely have to buy new ones that aren't so old and dirty."
"But-"
"No buts." The older man cut the young boy off, sounding irritated. Remus quickly averted his eyes to stare at the food on his plate instead. Sirius felt guilty about making the boy uncomfortable, but he didn't know what to say or do to made the boy feel better… he had never taken care of someone else before in his life!
"So tomorrow, shopping alright?" His voice softened and Sirius had to force himself not to grin when Remus looked up and smiled softly at him.
"Uncle Siwius!" the smaller boy at his left squeaked and Sirius turned to him.
"The food is yummy!" Sirius saw Rosaline nod in agreement and muttered something to herself under her breath, as if she wanted to comment on the food as well, but was too stubborn to talk politely to him.
Remus, on the other side of the table, added shyly "It was delicious, Sir."
This time, Sirius couldn't help but smile… it seemed as if he had never smiled this much in one day. Regulus's children really did have an effect on him, didn't they?
"I shall give Chef your complements." With that Sirius stood up, excused himself, and went back to work.
Sirius put his fountain pen down with a sigh, he had finally finished his work, and it was suppertime now. Sirius told Sioned to tell the children that they could start eating supper without him. The man was about to stand up and get ready for the meal when he remembered the piece of paper Romulus handed him earlier.
Sirius unfolded the paper. Remus' handwriting was neat and easy to read unlike his own untidy scrawl. It was written in black ink and there was a stain at the bottom of the paper, as if something wet had dropped onto it.
Dear Master Sirius,
I am grateful that you accepted Father's request to adopt us. Father always told us that you were a kind-hearted person and I agree with him. I do apologize if we are a burden to you, especially me. Since I am just an adopted child and are not related to you by blood, I have decided that I will try to be as least troublesome as I can.
Therefore, I will only be staying here during my summer holidays and leave the house as soon as University starts. Then I shall not be a burden to you or your money. I do ask for your permission to come back and visit my brother and sister, as the two of them are the only family I have left.
I do apologize on behalf of Rosaline on her behaviour earlier. I've already spoken to her about it and she promised to be less stubborn and more obedient. She may be quite an annoyance when you met her but she is truly a very funny and cheerful girl with a sunny personality and has a sweet nature once you get to know her.
I'm sure Romulus was probably the happiest to be adopted. He adores you, sir. He has a small problem with his pronunciation but he seems to get better. He will need somebody to be there for him and since I'm at boarding school and Rosaline will have school to attend, he will be lonely. He'll need attention from everybody, especially you, sir.
As for me, all I ask for is a place to stay for now.
Father has already begged you to adopt us three, but I beg you as well.
Please take a good care of my two siblings.
Yours Sincerely,
Remus John Lupin
Sirius realized that the stain at the bottom of the letter was a dried tear. Remus probably cried while writing it and had accidentally let the tear drop onto the page. The poor boy didn't want to leave his little siblings.
The letter tore him apart, and for some unknown reason it made Sirius want to cry. It made him want run out of the room and find the owner of that letter, and explain to Remus that he was willing to adopt him and take care of him.
The thought of Remus walking away from the house made his heart ache. Sirius don't know why, but he thought it was because Rosaline and Romulus loved the boy so much and they would cry when the boy left… this would upset everybody, including Sirius. Sirius was more than happy to let Remus stay, even though he was to go to university… but he could still live here, just as Romulus and Rosaline.
He wanted to see the shy boy's smile… the smile that made him want to smile back. Sirius doesn't want Remus to go. Standing up, he folded the paper neatly and put it in his drawer. He needed to talk to Remus as soon as possible, and ensure that he would not leave this place and live another tough life all by himself. Sirius didn't want it. The boy had had enough to bear.
When Sirius reached the dining room Remus was not there. He frowned, where could he be? The Master of the house settled himself at the head of the table, his usual place. Romulus waved at him whilst the girl just glared at her him before returned to her plate.
"Rem's asleep." Rosaline informed him in a monotone, as if she could tell by the look of his face that he was worried about the eldest of the three.
"Has he eaten yet?"
"Not yet, he went to sleep an hour ago. Don't disturb him!" Her voice suddenly became loud when Sirius turned to his butler to tell Chopin to go wake the boy up.
"I'll bring the food up to him when he's awake, just please let him sleep." There was a pleading tone in her voice, which immediately softened Sirius. Rosaline may be irritating but at least she cared about her brother.
Romulus finished his food, and thanked Sirius and the maid, before jumping out of the chair and running out of the room, followed by Sioned who had been told to look after the three children.
This left Sirius alone with Rosaline. As soon as the dining room door closed, silence filled the room. It was awkward and uncomfortable, yet neither of them dared to end it.
Rosaline was doing quite well keeping quiet. The girl just continued eating without looking at the person who sat at the head of the table. Sirius, on the other hand, tried not to show his uneasiness. He forced himself to look only at his plate and eat. The silence nearly drove him mad, he was used to being alone sitting and eating his meals all by himself. But Sirius was not used to silence between himself and others.
"Thanks."
A soft murmur interrupted the silence. Sirius looked up and saw Rosaline sitting with her head bowed down. The girl has already finished her food. He was about to ask what she was talking about, but was cut off when she continued.
"For taking us in…and Rem. He was so worried that you wouldn't adopt us." Her voice was so soft that Sirius wondered if she was talking to herself or to him. He could hardly believe that this girl was the same girl who snapped at him fearlessly; her soft side contradicted what she had done to him earlier. Yet Sirius was deeply proud that the girl had revealed this side of herself.
"I know you hate me and probably want to murder me, but you can't because I'm your brother's child". Rosaline stood up, and for the first time they had known each other, she smiled at him. A sweet, cheerful smile that chased away those uncomfortable feelings between them. Sirius had to admit that she looked pretty when she smiled like this.
Rosaline Alixa Black walked over to him and put her hand on his shoulder. "Don't worry Old Man… bear with me for a few more years and I'll be gone to the university for both our sakes."
Her tone was not sarcastic; it was almost like she was talking about things that weren't important, just a normal conversation. The girl smiled again to reassure him that he did not need to worry about it, but Sirius still felt guilty.
"By the way, since I'm going to be living with you for years you better start calling me Ro instead of 'Rosaline'. My brothers call me Ro and your servants also called me Ro now, so please do me a favour and call me that too." Rosaline withdrew her hands and began to walk away. She reached the dining room's door and was about to open it only to be called by a voice behind her.
"Ro, you don't have to bring the food upstairs to your brother… I'll do it." The dark haired girl paused a second as if she was unsure about the idea. But then she grinned and answered.
"I'll leave Rem to you then, old man."
Remus shifted slightly. He had been awake for the past ten minutes, laying on the bed with his arms and legs spread wide. He didn't normally have a bed all to himself. Rosaline probably told Romulus not to come in his room. The little boy must be sleeping in the other guest room or with Sioned, whom he already was very fond of.
Sirius had three rooms prepared for them, but the children decided to sleep together like they used to when Father was still alive and when they were at the orphanage.
'Father…'
The boy felt hot tears forming in his amber eyes… how he dearly missed his Father. When Remus was little, Father would always hold him on his lap and sway with him to comfort him, asking why he was crying and whispering sweet reassurances in his little ears. And at the end, when he eventually stopped crying, he would always give Remus a little bit of chocolate.
Chocolate was one of father's therapies, no it was not a 'therapy'. It was just a way of showing his love. Remus, Rosaline and Romulus would always receive chocolate when they had made him proud, by being a good students or helping him around the house. The children received chocolate when they stopped crying, or when Father just felt like treating his children. It was not the most expensive gift, but it was enough for them.
The blonde boy started when he heard a sharp knock at the door, he quickly wiped his tears away with his cozy warm blanket and sat up quickly. "Come in." The door slowly opened to reveal the owner of the house. Holding a tray of food, Sirius slowly made his way to an empty writing desk near the big bed and put the tray down.
"You missed supper." He said softly, there was no sign of anger or irritation in his tone. But it still frightened Remus. For some reason Sirius always scared him. Because of his shyness and unsociable character, he always struggle to make friends or talk to strangers, unlike Rosaline who would throw her hands over people's neck and talk as if they had known each other forever or Romulus, who wouldn't stop talking.
When it came to a matter of Sirius, Remus found himself rather uncomfortable. Perhaps because he was not related to his adopter by blood, or he thought that Sirius probably adopted him because he was told to do so… but either way, he was scared of Sirius.
"I'm really very sorry Sir. I was exhausted." He tried to avoid making any eye contact, knowing that it was rude not to talk by making the eye contact, but too scared to bother being polite. One glance from Sirius sent a chill running down his spine.
"I brought you supper." Sirius tried to make the conversation last a little longer but failed miserably. The boy was either too shy or too scared to talk to him.
"T-thank you, sir." Remus stuttered and sat up, going over to the chair in front of his meal. It was still hot.
"I told Charles to re-cook it for you, so you could eat it while it was still hot." Sirius informed him, as though he was able to read the boy's mind.
"You don't have to go to all that trouble for me, sir. I can eat it when it's cold, I'm used to it."
Sirius gave Remus a look. "Why would you be used to eating cold food?"
"Ro used to have to sneak into the kitchen to bring me food because I missed dinner. Sometimes the chef was there and she would beg him to re-cook it… but I'm still used to eating cold food, it's better then having nothing to eat."
"Why did you miss it?" Sirius was not happy about what he had just heard. This explained why the boy was so skinny… didn't the staff bring food to him when he missed it? Didn't they check who was missing and who wasn't?
"I was tired, sir. When I'm at the orphanage I always revise for my subject in the morning and work at the afternoon then revise again at night." His routine did not please Sirius at all.
"You need to work?"
Remus nodded. "Yes sir. I have to work, or else I don't have money to buy myself and my siblings food or clothes or other things. I work at the cafeteria during lunch and supper period, and cleaning up in the afternoon, Rosaline help me with my afternoon job. At school, I earned money from tutoring the younger years and as a librarian assistant." This was probably the longest Remus had ever spoken to his adopter, but even now he still avoided making eye contact. He was staring at his food instead of the pair of grey eyes.
"Who pay for your school's bill?"
"Rosaline and I got a scholarship, sir." This pleased Sirius. Regulus really had smart children, and even Sirius was proud of them. That little of brother of his was probably smiling in the heaven now.
Sirius decided to let the poor boy eat, and stopped asking questions. It took Remus a good ten minutes to finish all of the food. The portions were bigger than the orphanage or even at Father's house, and the food was hot and delicious. It reminded him of Father when he still alive.
Once again silence filled the room, but this time it was a peaceful silence, which Sirius always welcomed. He just stared at Remus, observing every detail as much as possible. But for Remus, it was a dreadfully awkward silence. He could felt his adopter's eyes scanning over him; this only made him bow his head even lower in nervousness.
"I read the letter." Remus now preferred the uncomfortable silence between them. He knew now why Sirius brought him food… to confront him about the letter. His adopter's tone was emotionless and there was no hint or any sign of feeling at all. That frightened Remus as it made him unable to read the man's feeling.
"Ah." It was the only word he could muster. Remus was panicking. He looked up a bit and was disappointed that he was still unable to read Sirius's eyes; even his face's expression was blank. 'Oh crap, he's probably furious about it right now...' Remus' letter probably reminded the man about being forced to adopt him and he knew Sirius did not like that idea one bit. 'He's going to kill me now, oh God! Where is Ro?'
"You said you want to leave for university." Sirius' voice was cold. Remus was more than sure that the man hated him and was furious. He mentally cried to himself, he really needed Ro to come and save him. "What made you think I don't want you here?" Sirius felt guilt spreading through his body when he saw the boy's pale face looking up at him. Remus was trembling as if he dreaded him. The older man's face softened and lifted a corner of his mouth to smile, reassuring the boy. "Just because you aren't really Regulus' biological child doesn't meant you aren't his child, you know? He really loved you as one of his own. Regulus asked me to taken care of the three of you, not just two."
Remus started… he was speechless. He winced when Sirius' hand grabbed one of his and squeezed it gently. Remus felt himself blush. He did not dare move his hand, fearing that he would make the other man angry.
"Stay here." Sirius was shocked, his own voice was pleading. Begging the boy as if his life depended on Remus' decision… just imagining Remus walking away somehow made his heart feel broken.
Remus had absolutely no idea what to say. He was happy that Sirius allowed him to stay but was Sirius really willing to let him stay? "Sir…I…" he stuttered incoherently, unable to get the words out of his throat.
"I honestly want you to stay, Remus." If the boy said no, he just didn't know what he would do. Regulus wanted him to look after his child and even Sirius himself was torn apart when Remus wanted to leave.
"I- if you want me to Sir, I will." The boy murmured softly but it was loud in Sirius's head. Those sweet words echoing in his head drew a smile to his face. Without thinking, the Master of the house stood up and pulled the boy into a tight embrace. Remus led out a small yelp with surprise. "Sir!"
Sirius sobered. He immediately let go of the boy as if he had just touched an iron or a stovetop. The pair stood with awkwardness, before Sirius remembered another question he wanted to ask Remus. "Why didn't you use the Black surname?"
Remus smiled, and it was the saddest smile that Sirius ever seen. It made his heart ache with a desire to embrace the boy, whispering sweet nothings into his ear and promising him that he would made sure that Remus would forget how to smile with so much sadness.
"It was the only memory I had left of my true family."
A/N: Sorry again for its lateness TT_TT but thank you for still reading it :') R&R is appreciate ;)
A/N2: How are all of your exam results for those of you who's doing A-Level and GCSE ? I hope it's all fine :D
