"How are you feeling now?" Shane asked me as we were walking the streets of New York from his apartment to our training session which Shane had informed me would be Muay Thai.
We made it to his apartment late last night and I was shocked by how little had changed. I felt as though I had been sucked back in time. I had even noticed a couple of pictures of the two of us that he had kept. Shane offered for me to stay in the guest bedroom the previous night even though all I truly wanted inside my head was to climb into bed with him and cuddle closely to him.
I didn't know what was happening between Shane and I. We had kissed and we had spent the night in bed together yet we were the most awkward people that I know. I had found that the more I wanted something to happen between us the less it was happening. I knew that I needed to sit down with Shane and have a talk about our future but I had no idea how to begin that chat with him and how to deal with if he said no.
"Shane for the millionth time I'm absolutely fine. I've taken much worse hits over the years" I told him as we pushed our way through the crowded streets. I had suffered quite the headache following the Undertakers tombstone and the pedigree from Stephanie at Raw however I had definitely suffered much worse injuries especially with matches against people like Askana in the past who many of my fellow divas considered unsafe to work with.
"Okay if you're feeling so much better then I'll believe you however I do hope you know we're going to work you so hard today" He told me sending me a cheeky wink as we slowly approached the building.
"You've told me that before" I winked back knowing he couldn't say anything else as we entered the building.
Two hours later
"Ugh I'm going to be sick" was something I had said for the last two hours however for the last two hours I had been told to suck it up and deal with it.
I have new respect for Shane McMahon as that two hours was the hardest thing that I've had to do. I could also see why Shane was so fit these days. From the moment you were in until the moment you were out you worked your ass off. It was amazing watching Shane as he kept up only have one or two moments of weakness where as I felt as though I would throw up after the first 20 minutes until I had finished. Every time I went to stop I was quickly told to get back to it.
Now to add to the torment Shane was making us walk back to his apartment before our second training session tonight. Tonight we would be heading to work with Renzo Gracie well known for jiu jitsu and currently I had no idea how I was going to make it through.
"How did you find that then" Shane asked me however the feeling of throwing up was still strong and I didn't know if I had enough oxygen in my body to talk. So instead of words I used a simple which screamed how I truly felt.
"Yeah I know the feeling. I was exactly the same the first time I went" he said attempting not to laugh at my obvious state of exhaustion. After a moment the feeling of nausea had finally began to pass and I believed that my body knew what oxygen was again I finally found myself asking "what made you start this training? Was it after you had the meeting with your dad about taking on taker at mania".
"No I had seen a few articles about myself, people telling me that I had gained weight and looking older than my dad. That hurt for some reason and I found myself in a new unfamiliar job, we had just broken up and i had become just generally unhappy. So when I stepped back from you on demand and moved back full term to New York I decided that I was to look into some new training exercises and well I've never looked back since". He answered as we walked into his apartment.
Stepping in before Shane I found myself walking straight over to his sofa I was more than happy to lie down on the comfortable piece of furniture. As I was relaxing I felt the sofa dip and Shane join me. "I'm so tired even more than when Colby aka Seth Rollins introduced me to crossfit for the first time"
I could feel Shane slowly run his hands up and down the bottom of my legs. I felt a funny but good feeling run through my stomach. Sitting up slowly I knew that I needed to have the dreaded talk with Shane and finally find out what was happening between the two of us. I knew that we needed to have the talk however I was so afraid of rejection. I would not know how to handle it if Shane said no.
Sitting up slowly Shane turned to me giving me his usual charming smile looking increasingly handsome.
"Shane can we talk for a minute" I said already feeling stupid.
"Eh oh that's never a good starter"
"What are we. I mean I understand if we're friends its just that friends don't kiss and they don't act the way that we do"
"I understand what you mean but before I answer I want to know how you feel? Do you want something more or do you want to remain friends and colleagues" he asked me managing to turn the question back onto me.
"I never wanted us to break up. I wanted a future with you Shane. When we broke up I didn't know how to continue every single day I woke up trying to work out what I did wrong and what I should have done to be a better girlfriend. So thats why I will say this once to you Shane. If you don't want a future with me then I don't think we should see each other outside of work. I don't want to be messed around with. I want to be love someone who will love me back with the same unconditional love that I have for them". It was an incredible feeling getting all the feelings that had been attacking me for years. I no longer wanted to be the ex-girlfriend of Shane McMahon who was now his friend"
Looking at Shane I could see he was in deep thought and this frightened me.
However my mood changed quickly when he grabbed the back of my head slamming his lips against mine.
I automatically smiled into the kiss after what felt like a lifetime but I later realised was only minutes Shane pulled back i had a smile that I couldn't wipe off my face. A feeling that I hadn't truly felt since the last time Shane and I had been together.
"I was a fool to ever let you go. When we broke up I felt as though I was doing you a favour, that you would never feel as though you were stuck with me whilst I was out trying to live my life. However it was one of the worst things I'd ever done. I hope you know that now i've got you back I'm not letting you go again. I'm sorry for all the heart ache and pain I caused you and I just hope that you can forgive me".
"I'm afraid Shane McMahon you are stuck with me now" I told him leaning in to kiss him again. I was in heaven!
Super short chapter but I'm in hospital and trying to write it on my iphone so probably a million mistakes but all I can do is apologise!
Thank you to every single person who has either left a comment or sent me a private message. I know I normally leave a lost of names but unfortunately my phone won't tell me! So please leave a review and I'll try and get another chapter up but unfortunately I'm may still be in hospital and it may be short and full of mistakes like this one!
Love to you all Dani x
