I stared at the suriel, Tamlin's blood? Is it worth it? Would Rhys even look at me the way he used to if I did this? I know Tamlin would hate me… "You can't ask me, so can I take the robe and return to my home?" the suriel asked. I nodded and winnowed back to the spring court manor. "Feyre!" Tamlin called and ran up to me, I could see his wanted to embrace me, but he didn't, why? "I'm fine, call off the hunt. You know I hate being trapped." I said calmly. How could I ever take blood from Tamlin? Even if he was an idiot, and a bastard who knocked me up. "I know, but you're pregnant. I can't lose the, I mean you." He sighed and brought me close to him, I almost felt bad for thinking about taking some of his blood. "I love you." I said against his chest. He let out a chuckle, come on, it's time for some rest." I knew what he meant, if I went with him, I would not get any rest. Did I have a choice? Was Rhys really worth killing a baby and losing my ties to the spring court? I shook my head against the thoughts, but they wouldn't leave. I had to do this. Rhysand was my mate. I love him, not Tamlin. I didn't have any other choice. I was going to do this. There was only one doubt; would Rhys forgive me for doing this? He had too.
Tamlin carried me, bridal style, to my bedroom and laid me on the bed. His lips trailed from my chin to my waist, he tore the light blue dress off my body, and I felt the cold on my skin. "I love you." He said on my skin. "I love you too Tamlin." I lied, my thoughts lingering to the ash knife in the drawer of my night stand. I kept it there, waiting for an attack. _"WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING?!"_ I winced as Rhys screamed through the bond. _"I can't have this baby. You have to understand Rhys, I hate him! Having his children, raising them, letting them grow up, you… you can't understand…_ I seethed. _"So you're planning on what, killing unborn children? For what, so you can be with me? Did you ever think I wouldn't forgive you for this?"_ Children? I'm having more than one? _"YES FEYRE! YOU'RE HAVING TWINS!" "I love you Rhys."_ I replied and blocked him out. I felt him trying to break through, but I had mastered the ability to block him out. To block everyone out. My hands flew to Tamlin's hair as his kisses had trailed to the dark triangle in between my legs. He would do this for the next nine months, I know he would. To prevent in injury to the child, he would tease me, torture, me I wouldn't have release. Not until these brats were out of my stomach. Where had those thoughts come from? My heart was turning black; it wouldn't mend until I was back in Rhysand's arm, forever. So yes, for my love, I would take the blood of my former high lord.