The sound of the clock ticking was a constant reminder that time was still going, it was a real thing and was always counting down the seconds and minutes, the hours of how long things must last. And Kaiko had to admit, she hated the time, for she wanted to spend all night laying within Luki's arms and she wanted to stay there, where her heart skipped crazily and he made her hot with passion and lust. However tonight it was different, tenser, more strained between the both of them as they laid there in her bed.
Lately, Mikuo had been very different and it worried the both of them, his eyes had a glazed over dead look to them though he still smiled bright but it was like a twisted, ugly shadow of his usual smile. He would point out the most disturbing things ever and even had boughten a little knife key chain that he insisted was just what he was like not something cute when Kaiko and Luki insisted on buying something different, then he mentioned how he and Kaiko were supposed to be married and quite soon too, seeming totally unaware of how close Luki and her were now.
And if anything, Mikuo scared them because he was barely going to school and when they called his house his mother said he was in his room and refused to come out, then when they called his cellphone it just went straight to his voice mail and he refused to truly talk unless they got together, which was now rare. Kaiko's lips tightened into a pale line as she laid against Luki's chest, which slowly rose and fell gently underneath her cheek and she sighed gently nuzzling her cheek into his chest where the electricity burst between them.
"Luki, I'm worried about Mikuo." Kaiko murmured as her breath tickled his chest and he stroked her short blue hair softly.
"I know, I'm worried about him too. I don't understand what caused this sudden change in him, but I'm worried that it's not good. Maybe I'll stop by his house on my way home, see if he'll talk with me." Luki said thoughtfully as he stroked Kaiko's hair and she sighed contentedly when Luki shifted up into a sitting position. "But I do have to go."
"Noooo don't go yet!" Kaiko whined as she wrapped her slender arms around his shoulders tightly. "I don't want you to go yet."
"I have to. I'll be back tomorrow night." Luki kissed the tip of Kaiko's nose affectionately and he slid out of the bed pulling his coat on and he smiled at her as she got up out of bed in a fluid movement and he stepped forward kissing her deeply, her heart beating crazily in her chest as she wrapped her arms around his neck kissing him back with ever ounce of passion and lust she had for him when he pulled away and she gasped struggling to clear her spinning head. "I'll see you tomorrow."
"See you tomorrow then." Kaiko murmured making Luki chuckle softly and he kissed her forehead before walking to the front door and Kaiko hugged her arms around her waist watching him walk out.
She sighed walking to her bedroom again changing into good pajamas and just as she slid her shirt, which was white harboring a bright rainbow on the front and just as she walked to her bed to go to sleep for the night a soft three knocks on the front door got her attention. She furrowed her brow softly as she ran through the small apartment to the door and when she opened it, the sound of cicadas filled her ears but what got her attention was Mikuo, standing there smiling gently at her despite the dead look in his eyes still.
"Mikuo!" Kaiko's surprise was a real, almost touchable thing as she looked at Mikuo who now had tears gathering in his eyes and she shut the door as he stepped in and she instinctively moved her arms around him. "Mikuo what's wrong? Is there something I can do? Talk to me!"
"Kaiko I...I...want you to.." Mikuo's voice sounded choked as she hugged him tight and pulled back stroking his tears away quickly as she looked into his face worriedly.
"What? What do you want me to do?" Kaiko asked insistently and worriedly as she looked at him and he looked back at her intently.
"I want you to hold me. Like you hold him." Mikuo said flatly as he looked at her and she felt shock ripple through her.
"Mikuo what do mean? I can't! Mikuo if there's anything else I can do I'll do it!" Kaiko exclaimed as she looked at him, the worry still evident on her face as she stared at her aqua haired friend then, she saw a glint of light reflecting off of a long, sharp knife making her freeze.
"Hold me. In your bed, like you hold him." Mikuo repeated his words, only a bit slower as he looked Kaiko who looked up at Mikuo with fear but he didn't seem concerned in the slightest bit as he looked back at her blankly.
"Okay. Okay fine, come with me then." Kaiko slowly said watching Mikuo put the knife in his pocket surprisingly and they walked to her bedroom, where Mikuo laid out on the bed holding an arm out for Kaiko to rest on.
The blue haired girl crawled on the bed a bit hesitantly, moving into his side and when his arm closed around her, it felt strangely right like it had with Luki but not as intense. Mikuo seemed to relax visibly as his cheek rubbed against the top of her head which made her close her eyes softly as he held her a bit tighter and she hesitantly lifted a hand up moving it through his surprisingly silky hair softly and slowly. She moved her fingers through his hair softly and continuously, her cheek pressed tight to Mikuo's chest as they laid there, his arms around her waist and her hand in his hair, softly stroking his head gently. Something about it felt right, content like, but it didn't feel right because in her chest, her heart screeched that because this was not Luki this wasn't something she was to do.
She held Mikuo tight all the same, like she was trying to force her best friend back together again and out of his scary trace he was in more and more, to pull him out and laugh freely, to have that sparkle in his eye that he always had once before and for his playful attitude to come back but as she held him tightly she felt like the damage, what it might be, was permanent. Her Mikuo wouldn't come back, it was like the old Mikuo had been killed off and drowned deep inside of this new Mikuo who was very clearly mentally unstable, but she still found herself loving him intently as she always did.
She wanted the old Mikuo back badly, she didn't like this new side of Mikuo and it's almost like Mikuo's feelings were in tune with her thoughts for something warm landed on her shoulder following it with another warm drop and it made her heart clench, her arms unintentionally tightening as tight as possible around Mikuo as her own eyes felt the weight of tears. This was Mikuo! He was her bright, funny, sweet, excitable, adorable, loud, sarcastic, loving, compassionate and pouty Mikuo, but at the same time he wasn't the same. But even so, just like Luki was hers, Mikuo was irreplaceable, hers to keep in her heart even if it wasn't as a lover wise.
But as he trembled lightly sniffling gently, his warm tears hitting her shoulder and his tightening arms, Kaiko felt deeply, truly, that what had started between the three of them was irreparable and she could feel the friendship they all held dissolving and tearing away leaving each of them broken in some way. And that, that very feeling, was what made Kaiko's heart hurt more than realizing that when she was younger, her father had just snapped from pressure, work, marriage, whatever it was he had snapped and her, her mother and him had been irreparable and torn apart permanently.
That's what was happening to her, Mikuo and Luki, they were being torn apart slowly, like the seams of their friendship was slowly becoming un plucked one by one and while Luki and Mikuo grew more distant besides Luki trying to reach out to the aqua haired teen, Kaiko felt like she was desperately trying to fix and sew their bonds but they kept snapping and she didn't know if she could fix it right. There wasn't going to be happiness, there wasn't going to be a "let's all be friends again!", there wasn't going to be a happily ever after.
There never was in these situations, someone will be crushed, someone will be burned and one will be ultimately broken, but the only question was who it was going to crushed, burned or broken. Kaiko sighed softly as she held Miku tight, her lashes lowered slightly as she listened to Mikuo's strong heart beat. Yes, there's always some punishment when it comes to a love triangle such as this and she had only a guess as to who would be punished and who would be broken. She only wondered if there was a way to change it but she knew, with the tightening of her stomach, that there was no changing this fate she unraveled in starting, there never was after all.