Chapter 11
Christian POV
Ana looks so amazing and beautiful as she walks upon the stage. I begged her to perform this song for me as month ago but she refused; saying that I had to hear it for the first time alongside everybody else, not even my puppy dog eyes worked for her let alone my pout. I was sitting next to Ray and the rest of our family waiting for Ana to start singing. She would be amazing but though all of us knew she was performing only me and Ray knew she was singing, but the question was, was she any good.
Jared began his bit in the guitar and some other guys joined in with other music to make the beat, which, to be fair, sounded amazing. Ana opened her lips and an angelic but powerful voice rang loud through the auditorium.
ANA normal
Jared in brackets
When I get chills at night
I feel it deep inside without you, yeah
Know how to satisfy
Keeping that tempo right without you, yeah
Pictures in my mind on replay
I'm gonna touch the pain away
I know how to scream my own name
Scream my name
(I love me)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(Hey)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(I love me)
Can't help myself, no, I don't need anybody else
Anytime, day or night
(I love me)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(Hey)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(I love me)
Can't help myself, no, I don't need anybody else
Anytime that I like
(I love me)
I'll take it nice and slow
Feeling good on my own without you, yeah
Got me speaking in tongues
The beautiful, it comes without you, yeah
I'm gonna put my body first
And love me so hard 'til it hurts
I know how to scream out the words
Scream the words
(I love me)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(Hey)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(I love me)
Can't help myself, no, I don't need anybody else
Anytime, day or night
(I love me)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(Hey)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(I love me)
Can't help myself, no, I don't need anybody else
Anytime that I like
(I love me)
Ah, la la la, la la la la la..
Anytime that I like
(I love)
I know how to scream my own name
Scream my name
(I love me)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(Hey)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(I love me)
Can't help myself, no, I don't need anybody else
Anytime, day or night
(I love me)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(Hey)
Gonna love myself, no, I don't need anybody else
(I love me)
Can't help myself, no, I don't need anybody else
Anytime that I like
(I love me)
Ah, la la la, la la la la la...
Anytime that I like
(I love me)
She was amazing and we all, the entire audience gave her and Jared a standing ovation. People were clapping, whooping and whistling, they were that good. I think, my entire family was shocked as well as all her friends by how amazing she actually was at singing. Damn, she was the entire perfect package and she is all mine. Mine? What the hell am I on about, she is my best friend, that's it. I can't risk trying to take this further and end up losing her because she didn't feel the same way. Forget about it, and concentrate on Ana.
I looked to the say he and smiled at Ana who was beaming. She looked at Jared and took a bow before walking off the stage. I couldn't bare waiting to see her and excused myself from every on mumbling an excuse y by the knowing smiles I was receiving I knew that they all knew where I was actually going. Although, I couldn't bring myself to care as I rushed off to find Ana.
I reached backstage and, when I was about to reach her I felt someone bump into me. I looked up and saw no one. I looked around but the bulky guy that I walked into was no longer around. On the floor though, I saw a picture. I picked it up and straight away recognised who it was of, where it was taken and when. It was of Ana and it was taken a while back when she was preparing to perform her cheerleading routine but, couldn't as it was cancelled. The photo was taken from a distance as well as obviously without her permission as; she was talking to other people, the image was a little too pixilated, meaning it had been zoomed in. Ana's face was circled in the picture in red.
"Hey! Christian!" And rushing my way came the owner of that voice. In that moment I made a quick decision, I would hide the pictures from her – she didn't need the extra stress and worry – but I would give it to her dad alongside my own and I will protect her at any costs.
I tucked the photo into my back pocket and tightened my arms around her as I congratulated her on her amazing performance. "I'm so proud of you! I had no clue you were such an amazing singer." I squeezed her one last time before releasing her from my arms.
"Thanks Christian. It was good right, I was ok?" I knew she would be worrying, the person who was always perfect and amazing seriously doubted her own talent.
"You were awesome, Ana. Simply mind-blowing."
She grabbed my hand and pulled me toward the room where she kept some of her stuff. She wanted to grab her things so we could go straight to our families. When we had gotten her things, we made our way to the seats.
"Ana! Darling who knew you had such an angelic and powerful voice? You were divine!" MY Mother said to her while Ray wrapped her in his arms.
"Amazing as always, Annie." She slowly pulled back to look at the rest of us.
"Thanks Dad, and you too Grace. I was so worried about the whole thing. I nearly walked off the stage when I first walked upon it."
Mia then came bouncing over, pulling Elliott close behind her. "Looks who I found lurking around outside?"
"Hello son. You just missed Ana's super performance." Dad said. He then turned to Ana to continue, "Ana you were astonishing. Who knew you had so many talents. You've grown into a beautiful young women."
Why was he saying all that now? I looked towards Ana; Herr eyes were glassy, full with brimming tears, just waiting to fall.
"Thank you, Carrick. That means a lot to me. I wrote the song to... to kind of put what I wanted to feel in words and make a song to cheer me up whenever I need it. A sort of pick me up song." She gave the cutest shrug and had an adorable shy smile on her face.
"Ana! You wrote that song too?!" Mia screeched, her voice audible only by dogs. She is too hyper for her own good.
"Uhh, yeah. I did it with Jared." Ana blushed blood red.
"Oh, Ana darling. You are so talented. You never fail to amaze me." Mom said to her, holding onto her face in reverence
Next I guess it was Elliott's turn, "Banana, from what I heard outside I guess you were not all bad." I could see him smirking before receiving a slap up the head from Dad, leaving me smirking. Even Ana and Ray were fighting smiles.
"Uhh, thank you?" Ana replied, her voice laced with mirth.
"Oh! I think we missed the next performance." Mom said.
We all then turned to continue watching the showcase. I bet Ana will win without a doubt, no matter how good the others were.
Once all the performances had concluded all the performers made their way backstage and we all awaited the results. I knew that this was a little but of harmless fun, just a little showcase/ talent competition but, Ana had to win. She deserved to, she was the best.
Mr Morgan and Mr Smith, our co-Principals had stood on the stage to announce the winners. "In third place is,... Riley Davies with her stupefying dance performance." The girl walked upon the stage, received her congratulations and applause before sitting back down. "In second place... " They continued, taking turns to speak, "is... Emily Carter and Justin Parus for their wonderful flute and clarinet composition." Again, they both walked upon the stage, received their congratulations and applause before returning to their friends and family. "And now, the results you've all been waiting for. In first place, after their powerful and mind blowing duet, Anastasia Steele and Jared Walkers."
All at once our entire family, the entire cheer squad and all of Jared's friends and families simultaneously burst out cheers, screams and thunderous applause. Ana and Jared ran into the stage. Ana shook the principals' hands and started jumping up and down squealing.
After the Ana had received her share of congratulations from everyone she knew or who knew her, we finally left the school premises. I took Ana, Kate and Elliott in my car with Mia with Mom, Dad and Ray as he chose to come down straight from his office with my Dad.
I am so fucking proud of Ana. She stood on that stage, regardless of how terrified of the whole thing she was and performed for everyone there. As we walked to my car Elliott ran to the car while calling out, "SHOTGUN!"
Ana then turned to look at me with her big, guileless blue eyes and pouted. "Please Christian! Can I sit shotgun, I want to sit next to you?" She said and deepened her pout. I would have done anything for that pout so "Sure." Was all I said in hope to keep at least some of my self-esteem.
I walked to the car, Ana by my side. "Elliott, could you quickly check my tail lights? Someone said they may be broken." He eyed Ana as she stepped into the backseat door behind the passenger seat.
"Okay." Was all he said before walking off to the back.
I quickly got into the driver's seat as Ana gracefully climbed over the console and sat in the front passenger seat, smirking as she did it.
"Oh, hell no!" Was all we heard coming from the back of the car as Elliott paced to the front side window and banged on it. Quickly, I locked my and Ana's car doors.
"Sorry bro!" I apologised as he sat in the back seat, next to Kate.
"Oh you better be sorry, Christian. And you Ana, because I will get my revenge." He them went on to evil laugh causing us all to laugh as I peeled out of the school's exit.
All the drive home, Elliott and Kate just spoke to one another in their own little world's so I spoke with Ana. I really need to speak with Ray and Dad about what I found. As I turned onto the road leading to the Bellevue neighbour hood I notice a car, a little behind but I remember seeing the same car behind us quite a few times; when we left the school, when we stopped for drinks and now here. Where live. P
Creeped out but wanting to keep it from their others, parked outside my home and got out. Quickly, so that I could go and open Ana's for her too. Elliott did as I did but for Kate, I could see as clear as day that they were on each other's radar. Elliott was pulling out all his trademark moves; the gentlemanly assistance, complimenting her and all his lines. I could see Kate reciprocating, she fluttered her eyelashes and flipped her hair, she even pulled out the over- giggle.
I straight away looked over at Ana and we both fought to keep our laughter at bay but Ana was the only one who succeeded, as I chortled and walked. "Coming, Lovebirds?" I called out as I walked away, Ana not even a step behind me.
We all went to my house and began to wait for Mum, Dad, Mia and Ray. I once again gasped at Ana, transfixed in her beauty and enchanting smile, while she laughed at a both one of Elliott's antics.
Outside I could hear the tell - tale slamming of car doors as Mum was probably finally home.
As all of the employees here had been given the night off, Ana jumped up like electrocuted and ran towards the door calling out, "I'll get it!" as she did I got up and followed her, `JUST for her safety' I told myself.
As I neared the door I saw that Ana already had it open but no one was there. Confused, she turned her head to look in all directions but saw no-one. I walked towards her and asked, "Hey, what's wrong Ana? Who is it?"
She looked around and was stepping out as she spoke, "No one, I think." As she stepped out she tripped over a little package. Ana bent to pick it up before walking back inside and closing the door.
"What is it, Ana?" I was getting impatient.
"I don't actually know, although it is addressed to me." Before I could say anything else she had already ripped open the package to see what was inside. As saloon as she looked at it the colour drained from her face, and with trepidation she opened the accompanying envelope. If possible she became even paler. She dropped the package and letter, while she escaped up stairs.
"ANA! ANA, WHAT'S WRONG?!" I thundered after her, completely forgetting about the package near my feet.
"Hey, Br-" Elliott walked out the room but, after one look at my face as I rushed upstairs shut him up, and Kate walked forward.
Once upstairs, I automatically knew what room she'd be in, my own. I went up to the door and knocked but there was no reply but for her sniffles. I tried to reason with her but she wasn't listening. I tried the handle but it was locked. I tried one last ditch effort after hearing more crunching of the gravel and the slamming of car doors. That is when I realised it, when Ana went to open the door, we only heard one door opening and closing.
"Ana please let me in! I won't ask you anything, I will not brother you at all but you need to open the door so that I can see if you are alright. And so that no one else worries too much about you being alone." My head fell to the door as I gently knocked and awaited a response. Just as the front door for the house opened Ana, pulled me in and locked the door once more, all with the fluidity and grace of a dancer.
One look at her tear stained melancholy face had me pulling her into my arms, while rubbing the stress from her back. I felt her sag in exhaustion against me. "It was a Carousel." She answered my unasked question but I didn't understand it's significance.
She looked up at me, her eyes were red – rimmed from both, exhaustion and her relentless tears. I felt my heart jerk at the sight. But all she probably saw in my own, was the utter confusion – why did she have such a harsh reaction to the souvenir? I could practically see her debating how much I knew versus what more she could physically and mentally bear telling me.
"It's fine Ana. You don't have to tell me anything now." I said making the decision for her. I rubbed her back some to soothe her.
"No, I want to but it's hard. Urm... I can tell you some of it... I think." She sighed and straightened "Just... I was only ten at the time you know. Okay, here goes."
To make it easier for her, I pulled her to sit on the sofa in the corner. "It's okay, Ana. Take your time, take as long as you need." She was sitting on my lap, I could still feel her tension so I resumed my actions of rubbing her back - to make her feel more relaxed.
"He, you know Morton took me to the local fairs every Saturday without fail, it was what he'd do with me. It was our little thing." She shrugged and released a mirthless laugh. "... Our thing. Urm... So well once he took me there and met up with someone else. I never really saw the person but I knew it was a woman. Anyway, he told me that he wanted to show me something I'd never see anywhere else, near the back of the ground." At this point she began to shake but I didn't want to disrupt her so, I kept quiet. "Well, it wasn't a new ride or activity like I initially thought. On the way he gave me a snack. A pretzel and as I was hungry I ate it. I started to feel dizzy so, I told him. He just smiled and said it was all okay, he then picked me up."
She started to fidget and I could see a tear rolling down her cheek. I rubbed it away and made her look at me. "Ana, I'm here for you. You only tell me as much as you want because no matter how much I may want to know, your comfort matters all the more." I smiled encouragingly at her.
"Well I don't actually remember anything after that until I woke up in this room. I was all alone, I slowly got up and looked around all the while wondering why my head was hurting so much. The room had red walls with black labelling surrounding it. I didn't... I had no clue where I was so, sat up on the floor where he left me, I... I tried to think about what was happening. I felt cold and, when I looked down I realised... he... took off all my clothes. I was only in my underwear. I wrapped my arms around myself and cried and cried. After I don't know how long I heard a clang on the other die of the door so I ran into the corner furthest from it , behind this chaise thing." She was shivering and full out crying by now.
"All around the room were a these things. I didn't know what much of them were at the time but, know I do. He had... whips, canes, paddles, belts, and this big St Andrew's cross in one corner. Gags, blindfold , ropes and cable ties lined the other wall. There were also these... drawers spread around the room. The whole room looked like a torture room. The door was opening so I burrowed into myself, trying to make myself as small as I possibly could.
"He walked into the room with a collar and leash in his hands, calling out my name. I was so scared I just... refrained from saying anything, making sure that my breathing wasn't so loud that he could hear me. But.. it was fruitless, he knew exactly where I was hiding. Apparently, he knew me too well and it was obvious where I'd choose to hide. I pleaded with him. My nice Uncle Stephen. I begged him to give me my clothes back, to let me talk to my Mom and Dad, pleaded that he would take me home. And you know what he said. That, that was my home for now. I was so cold I was shivering so I huddled up into myself even tighter. He said that I didn't need to be shy or scared of him... he was now going to take care of me. He stroked my cheek and said that I was special to him, but that I needed to listen to what he said, and he wouldn't let me get hurt at all."
She was in another world, her arms wrapped around my neck as she remembered that horrible time, all that she went through. I kissed her cheek to encourage her, to let her know that I was still here, and that I would be for as long as she needed me. She gave me a small, sad smile before continuing once more.
"He wanted to train me. He put a collar around my neck, he said it was to show that I was his and that, this way I'd remember who I belonged to. I was so scared, I mean I thought he was friend and now... I had to call him master, he was... doing this to me so, I simply nodded in acquiescence. He then attached the leash and told me to crawl to follow him. So when he stood to walk around the room to the bed with rich, purple satin sheets, I crawled and follow. I thought that if I listened to him, sooner or later, he'd let me go.
He then made me sit on my knees, by his feet. He... told me all these rules he had for me. I wasn't allowed to leave the room unattended, I wasn't allowed to cry and I had to do whatever he said – no hesitation just straight away. I nodded and he said that if at any point I broke any of his rules, I would be punished."
She was a statue, barely breathing but still, continued to tell me what actually happened to her.
******TRIGGER WARNING******
"I did what he said for the first day, he dressed me, combed my hair and fed me. He watched me sleep, but didn't let me put on any clothes, though he had no problem with me covering myself with my hands. The next day, when I awoke he wasn't there but there was this woman, I couldn't see her face as she had it covered. She gave me food and took me toilet when I asked to. When I walked back into the room, in front of her – only my hands covered me – She pushed me onto the bed. She straddled my back and slapped me, repeatedly. She got off me and brought back a stick, she neat the soles of my feet and every time I cried out, she added another hit. At the end she said that I'd better not let sir – aka HIM – know what happened before she left the room.
I was exhausted emotionally and physically so I huddled into a ball and wept and wept until I fell asleep. Later on the door opened once more, it was HIM and he brought me food. After he fed me he said that I needed to take a shower. He walked with me crawling behind into the bathroom. He said that I had to take off my underwear and get in the shower. I did barely hesitating, my hands my only source of modesty, as I waited for him to leave the bathroom. Standing on my feet hurt so much that I squeezed my eyes. I opened my eyes when I heard the door shut, thinking that he left the room but all he did was close himself inside. He... he... wanted to wash me."
I was no longer touching Ana as, I was clenching my fists in anger. But, when I saw her frantic, panicked eyes and her shallow breaths I pushed my anger back and resumed stroking her back to keep her grounded. She instantly calmed.
"I cried and begged him not to, I said that I could do it myself but, he said that he wanted to." She took a deep breath. "I cried throughout my 'shower' and unbeknownst broke two of his rules. I cried and hesitated so he dealt out my first punishment. He took me back into the room and played some music, a fairground tune. Then he bent me over the couch, naked. On the way in, he picked something up, a cane. He told me to count and I knew what was coming. The first strike from the cane had me crying out in pain, by the third my bottom was on fire, by the sixth numb. He hit me with it a total of ten times, five times for each rule I had broken. I counted though he had to remind me to when the pain became to much.
When I was done my face was streaked with years. He made me stand up, and turn around, the pain from my butt was far worse than my feet. It felt like it was in fire. I looked at his face but it angered him so he barked out that I wasn't to ever look at him without being told to, like a good submissive. Ugh... so I diverted my eyes straight to the floor. He said that I better listen to him from now on or things would only get worse. He left the room then so, I went and lied face down on the bed - crying my eyes out before wearing myself out into a fitful sleep. I thought that nothing would get worse but... God only knows why I thought that. After that he never punished me because I never gave him reason to. But whenever he left that woman would come in and beat me but, she'd either do it so it wouldn't leave any physical marks or, she would do it on my feet.
I think it was when I was there a week when he in and said that now I needs to get serious training, proper submissive training on how to... please my master. He attached his leash to the collar he placed around my neck and dragged me to the foot of the bed. He stood directly in front of me and... he... dropped his trousers and his... thing was just there. He told me to open my mouth and I did, I was ten. I didn't know why her wanted my to do that so I just opened my mouth a little. He said wider and when I did... he... he... put his... thing in my mouth. He told me what to do, when to suck, what to do basically until he released into the back of my throat. He fell back onto the bed and smiled. According to him I was a natural as well as a fast learner. He left the room but promised that I would be rewarded."
What the ever loving fuck? What? How could this happen? To Ana? How is she okay? I was clenching my fist but I never allowed my right hand to stray from her back, as angry as I was, she still needed me. I clenched my teeth and closed my eyes to try and reign in my anger.
"His reward was a pair of leggings and a vest. He actually gave me some clothes, I was so glad to get some but obviously he had a stipulation; whenever he was in the room, I had to be in just my underwear. She still came back, every day without fail she was there during what I guess was the days but I could never be sure. He... he... came back twice more and made me relieve him orally, ads he put it. Every night I would cry myself to sleep. I prayed that I'd be back home with my Mom but it was useless. When he came in again, he said he was going to teach me my next skill. He said to get on my knees but on the bed. He put it in my mouth again and I did what He taught me to do... crying alongside. He then.. made me.. lie down. He tied my head to the headboard of the giant bed and took off my underwear. He.. spread my legs and lied on top of me."
Mine and her breaths became ragged alongside one another. God, NO! This couldn't of happened to her.
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RAY POV
I'm so proud of my Annie. She won. Me, Grace and Carrick got her some of her favourite pizza along aside a cake just for her, in congratulations. Mia has barely stopped talking on that damn phone of hers gushing about Ana winning and cheer, anything and everything.
We've finally arrived at the Grey's house. Thank God! I can't wait to see Annie's face when I give her the Pandora charm bracelet her Mom and Bob sent for her. She's finally happy, God does that girl deserve to be happy. Especially, after everything she's been through.
We walk into the house to see Kate and Elliott looking dumbfounded. Elliott looking at the stairs and Kate at the package I her hands. But, where is Annie and Christian. I looked to Carrick and Grace who, seemed to be just as bewildered as I was.
"What's wrong? And where's Christian and Annie?" I was really starting to get worried when I saw the looks on their faces.
"Elliott! Kate! What happened?" Grace shouted.
"Ana, she opened this box. It's addressed to her but when she opened it she dropped seconds later and ran up the stairs. Christian ran after her. Like just now, right be for you guys came. We heard tires and Ana said she'd get the door." Kate was the one to answer us.
"But it's only a carousel! What could that have done to Banana?" Elliott asked.
As soon as he said carousel, I felt my heart drop. Carrick took the souvenir off of Kate and wound it. Oh no! Oh fuck no! It played the exact same song. No! He knows! He's probably even here. I looked at Carrick but he was looking at something near my feet. I looked down and saw a note. I picked it up and read it.
You haven't completed your training...
SM
I need to go to her. She can't be alone during this. I was about to race up the stairs when Carrick pierced me with his gaze. "Christian is there."
Yes he is. He'll be there to support her. Maybe she will tell him everything now? But I cant just sit here. I was lost and I knew that Carrick could see it plain as day on my face.
"Ana will be okay. She has Christian. But, Ray do you want to come to my office. We can maybe talk somethings through." I nodded, incapable of replying to him but glad he offered me a way out. "Gracie, why don't you make sure everyone else eats and is settled. Put the cake away for tomorrow and maybe leave the pizza for Christian and Ana to have later on."
It seems like I'm not the only one incapable of speaking as Grace to simply nods and make her way to the family room with Mia, Elliott and Kate following close behind. I too followed a Grey to his office and collapsed in his couch a glass of scotch in one's hand, that note in the other.
And this night started off so well.
Christian POV
NO! It didn't happen to her. It couldn't have. I realised that my hand had stilled on her back so I brought my self to continue but, it wasn't enough for her or me so I pulled her close to me and wrapped her in my arms, relieved when I felt her reciprocating.
"Ana, he didn't did he?" I couldn't stop myself from asking her.
"What? No, he didn't. He came pretty close to but... but that woman, with the mask still on, came running into the room. 'They're here, they're her. You said we wouldn't get caught. I'm out of here.' She ran out the back door and HE jumped up. I pulled the covers over myself to cover me as he ran to the drawers near the bed. Just then in came the police. They grabbed HIM and pulled him away before someone came to me. I was bruised all over and tearstained but I managed to mumble out a thank you. I felt so light headed with relief that I fainted."
I breathed a sight of relief knowing that he didn't take away her innocence. I was opening my mouth to say something when she continued.
"I woke up the next day with all my family around me: Mum, Daddy, Bob and Carrick – surprisingly. He was my lawyer for the case. I had been gone for a month. I had no broken bones or anything but I had bruises and a lot of mental trauma. It took three years of hard work and therapy for me to come to terms with what happened and another year for me to become how I am now. I still have weekly visits to ensure that I stay sane."
I don't know what to say. All this happened to her and I wasn't there to help or support her in any way whatsoever. But she did say that Dad knew so at least she had decent representation.
I asked the first question that came to mind, "Ana, that woman, was she ever caught? I mean she did so much to you to so she is in jail right?" She better be, if not I will find her and hunt her down.
"Yes, she was. Turns out her name was Abbey, Abbey Whitmore. Stephen sold her out straight away to try and get a deal but it wasn't happening with Carrick as the lawyer."
I sighed a deep breath. Thank God! "But what.. why did you have such a bad reaction to the parcel?"
"The Carousel, it was the only ride I went on that day and the music it played, it was what HE played in that torture cell of his." She shivered so I brought her into my arms once more to warm her up.
"Okay? You, Ana, you are amazing. All this happened to you and you powered through it all. I have never and will never be prouder of you." I couldn't help but burst out. Ana the. Looked up at me. Our faces were so close and I could feel the electricity surrounding us. It was palpable.
"Really?" She breathed out. She leant a little more forward – so close that as she spoke her lips brushed mine.
"Of course I am." I breathed out in the same tone. "You are so strong just inspiring."
I darted my gaze from her eyes to her lips, trying to warn her of what I was about to do but even when she didn't jerk away I couldn't bring myself to press my lips against hers. Luckily for me, she made the decision and pressed her lips to mine.
It was explosive, I could feel it in my toes. I felt joy, content and possessive all at once. She pecked at my lips and I deepened the kiss slowly, giving her time to tell to stop if she so wished. Although, she didn't she swiped her tongue across my lips and teased them open. As sol as I felt her tongue caress mine I felt all my nerve endings burst in pure euphoria. I sucked on her tongue and fought for dominance with my tongue. I don't know for how long we kissed but I do know that it was both the best and the hardest moment of my life. Happy, that I finally got to do what I only dreamt would happen. Hard, because what would this mean for our friendship. Either we have surpassed it or, we have when and truly fucked it over.
But for right now, I couldn't bring myself to care very much. Because at least it was with her and finally happening.
I wanted to get a longer chapter out as a little late Christmas/ happy holidays/ new years gift to say thank you, for all the follows, faves and reviews. Also, how do you like the little kissing scene. It was Christmas and there relationship is in the works, changing and developing at all times.
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