"I'll be here when you wake up." Dov assured her. He kept his hands in his pockets so Chloe couldn't see them shaking. He didn't want her to know how scared he was.
"Dov, you don't have to." Chloe said. "The surgery is going to take more than a few hours."
"I know. I want to." He replied earnestly.
Chloe smiled.
"Well, then I will see you later, Dov Epstein."
Dov smiled. "See you later."
Dov kept thinking about that last conversation he had with Chloe, right before she was wheeled into surgery.
What if there are complications? What if her heart stops again? What if I lose her for good?
He couldn't help but think of the worst possible scenarios. His mind kept flashing back to the last time he was in this waiting room; seething with hatred for Wes and fear for Chloe. About how he watched her die. Right in front of him. His Chloe. His amazing, beautiful, hilarious girlfriend.
"I should have told her I loved her." He said out loud to no one in particular. He had been thinking about that a lot. How he never really got to tell Chloe how he felt. Not without yelling it at her anyway. He didn't even know how she felt about him. If she still loved him after everything that happened between them. After all the months they spent apart. After all the anger he sent her way.
"She knows." Dov turned around and saw Andy walking towards him. "She knows that you loves her."
"What are you doing here?" He asked her.
"Oliver told me. He thought that you might not want to be alone." She sat down in one of the chairs. "Now sit down. You look like a lunatic pacing around like that" Andy sat down and pointed to the chair next to her. Despite his wrecked nerves, Dov felt grateful that Andy was there. Oliver was right. He didn't want to be alone.
"Oliver and Sam will be here later. And Nick too. Gail might even swallow her pride and make an appearance too."
Dov laughed. Gail put on a good show, but he knew that she cared for Chloe, no matter how much she annoyed her. After Chloe was shot, Dov saw Gail bringing her flowers one night. She didn't put her name on them or anything but the sentiment was there. Through all the insults and stern looks, Gail still cared about Chloe.
Dov checked his watch. Two hours into the surgery and it already felt like seven. He was desperate for an update, even just to know that she was still alive. Andy noticed Dov's worried expression. She put a hand on his shoulder.
"Seriously,Chloe knows you love her." Andy stopped talking for a second, and smiled. "You know, all those months that you guys were broken up, she never looked at anyone but you." Andy had caught Chloe absentmindedly staring at Dov from across the bar on more than one occasion. The two women had never been terribly close, but Andy cared about her all the same. It was hard for Andy to see the sunshine of a rookie so broken after the breakup. She was beginning to worry that Chloe would never recover.
"It's not that." Dov had stood up again and started to pace.
"It's just. I thinking about last time. I mean the last time I was here with her, when she died. She died, Andy. Right in front of me. One minute she was joking with Oliver and the next, her heart stopped. Just like that. There was nothing I could do."
His voice started to crack as he remembered that night.
"Later, Chloe kept asking me if I was scared. But I wasn't. I couldn't feel anything at all. It's like my whole world stopped. I can't go through that again." Dov said sincerely.
Andy nodded. "I know how you feel."
"You do?"
"Yea. When I was in the ambulance with Sam, I didn't know if he was going to make it or not. I couldn't think of anything but him, how much he meant to me, and how different my life would be without him. But he made it. And so will Chloe. She's tough."
Andy got up and pulled Dov into a hug. Her strong arms wrapped tightly around his back. Dov softened at her touch and hugged her back.
She's gonna make it. He told himself. She has to.
A few hours later, the waiting room was filled with 15th finest. Oliver, Sam, Nick, Chris, Traci, and even Gail had all come to wait for news on Chloe.
"Anything new?" Oliver asked Dov as he walked back into the waiting room. "Nothing that we haven't heard before. Her vitals are stable, they are still having trouble navigating around the scar tissue." Dov replied.
"Well, she's a tough kid. She'll pull through." Oliver stated fervently.
"Why didn't Chloe say anything?" Andy questioned from her seat next to Sam. "I mean, Chloe Price, open book, managed to keep something this big a secret. From all of us? Why?" She was hurt that Chloe didn't mention the surgery to her. Andy would have been a little nicer to her, maybe brought her a donut or something. "Seriously, she could die and wouldn't have even known."
"Maybe it was just her way of internalizing it. Maybe Chloe was scared." Traci replied sensibly. She was seated next to Chris who was tapping his foot nervously.
"Please. Chloe doesn't internalize anything." Gail scoffed. "I swear to god the centers in her brain that filter words are broken."
A few of the people in the waiting room chuckled. Everyone knew how much Chloe loved to talk.
I thought that I would end it there, so I could at least get something up this weekend. I'll try to get out the chapters faster this time around. Things have been SO busy for me since school started! I hope you guys liked the chapter. The comments and suggestions really helped! Especially the Anon who described how the rookies might be feeling! I loved that comment so much! Thanks again for reading guys! More suggestions would be so appreciated!
