I've had some of this wrote for a while now and I've only just got around to finishing it and this is the last part of the story. I'm not going to make promises of writing more for it because it might not happen.
And for those of you that happen to read Prison Blues please know that I will have a chapter up for you within the next few days.
Enjoy!
Looking through the window into the sea of pink and blue bundles of babies, Zoe leaned into her husband, her eyes glazing over as they watched their little grandson. She wanted to be selfish and keep the little boy, but she couldn't do that no matter how much she really wanted to do it. Her son and his girlfriend had made the best decision for them and although it hadn't been the same one she had made when she had Zach she couldn't fault her son and her little grandson was going to have a happy home where Zoe and Wade would get to be apart of his life like the grandparents they were to the little boy.
"You doing okay?" Wade asked his wife. After going through so much when he was a teen with Zach he knew that it wasn't easy and Zach and Cora had to make the choice that was best for them and giving their little boy up had been the right choice to make. But that doesn't make him not want to march straight into the nursery and take his grandson home. Just like he loved his kids when they were born with every fiber in him, he felt the same exact way once he had been able to hold little Kayson for the first time.
"Even though we would've been there to help him out and that I love that little guy, he's doing the right thing for him and that boy right there," Zoe said, gazing at the little boy in question lovingly, "he's going to be loved and we're going to be in his life. I can't be upset about that. I do want what's best for him and our son."
"That's why we have to go through with this," Wade told her. "This is the best thing for both of them. Cricket already told us we can be in little Kayson's life as much as we want to be, because we will always be that little boy's grandparents and it's only fair that he knows all of his family."
"I know," Zoe told him, leaning her head on his chest. "I'm happy that they had stepped up and acted like adults in this situation. It's not even about them missing out because I know they'll experience it all when the time is right. They're doing a good thing, but look at him," she whined slightly. She couldn't put into words how she really felt about it, proud that her son was doing the right thing and helping Cricket and Jaysene out, but at the same time she felt sad because she wouldn't be able to see her grandson as much as she liked and she knew that was selfish. She was already told by Cricket she could see and spoil Kayson as much as she wanted to, because they wouldn't keep him away from them.
"I'm looking at him and he is perfect."
"Yeah, he is perfect," Zoe said softly, moving them away from the nursery window. They walked down the long hallway not saying anything. They came across a waiting room where they saw their son pacing around.
"Everything okay?" Wade questioned his son.
"Uh yeah, can I talk to you, Mom?" He asked, his nerves playing across his face, the toe of his show digging into the carpet.
"I'll go get some drinks," Wade announced exiting the little waiting room.
"Is Cora okay?" Zoe asked, moving to sit down.
"She's sleeping, but good as can be considering," he replied with a slight shrug, sitting next to his mom. "I know that giving Kayson up is the best thing for all of us especially Kayson, but I'm starting to feel like it's the wrong choice. I can raise him, Mom!" He stated determined to take his son back, unfortunately it didn't work that way after you already signed the papers.
"I know you can, Zach," she told her son, putting an arm around him. "But you shouldn't have to. You are doing the right thing by letting Cricket and Jaysene adopt him. He will always know what love is and that you did what needed to be done and love you for that. Giving him a loving home, is nothing you need to feel guilty about." It broke her heart to see him so tore up over this. Saying goodbye to his first born wasn't an easy thing to do but it needed to be done for both of them.
"I get it, but it hurts, Mom," he confessed, burying his head into her shoulder the best he could with the arm of the chairs between them. Zoe kissed her son's head, running her fingers through his hair to get him calm and relaxed the way she did when he was younger.
That's when Wade walked back into the room with three cups of hot cocoa from the vending machine by the hospital's dining area. He quietly placed the cups on the table that was by Zach's chair and sat next to his wife, his arm going around the back of her chair as she sat comforting their son.
"Did you guys ever think about giving me up?" He asked lowly, playing with the now empty Styrofoam cup.
"On more than one occasion," Zoe honestly said. "I thought about it all the time before I moved to live with Grandpa. I was scared, I had no idea if I would find your dad, but once I found him things worked out the way they were suppose to," she elaborated.
"What made you change your mind?" Zach asked, looking at his mom.
"You did. I heard your little heart beat and it was powerful and made me cry the first time I heard it and I was sold on keeping you. And then you were born and I held you and I knew that I was making the right choice in keeping you."
"What about you dad?"
"The thought crossed my mind, but I supported your mom. But the second I saw you, was able to hold you for the first time, there was no way I could let go, I couldn't walk away. Keeping you was one of the best things we've ever done, Zach. Giving you up, it really wasn't a choice, just a thought and nothing more. But what was right for us, isn't going to be right for you."
Zach smiled, getting up. He was going to see his son one last time, it hurt and he felt guilty but doing the right thing wasn't always easy. He wasn't his parents and he didn't doubt that he could raise Kayson, but keeping him that would be the selfish thing to do.
It amazed them how fast a year had past them by. Not much had happened in the past year but they had been able to watch their grandson grow bigger each day, they had taken him over night most weekends giving Cricket and Jaysene a time to spend with each other and catch up on their weekly sleep they had missed. Of course they had to wait a few months before the sleepovers could start but they still spent plenty of time with their grandson. They were patient while Cricket and Jaysene built a bond with Kayson.
"It's really nice of you to close this place down to get it set up for Kayson's party," Zoe smiled, slipping her arms around her husband's waist from behind.
"I couldn't let our grandson have a party in the rain," he replied, turning around, holding her close. "I do however expect a reward later," he husked, pulling her closer. "The whole town will be here anyway, makes sense," he played it off.
"It's okay to be a little on the soft side," she giggled, pressing a kiss to his shoulder. "I wouldn't love you any less," she commented on a serious note.
"Is that so?" He pondered out loud. Zoe rolled her eyes, removing herself from her husband, ready to get the Rammer Jammer setup for a kid's first birthday party.
Wade stayed back watching his business get turned into a little kid's dream land. Balloons, streamers, candy, an array of food, and somehow they had got a bounce house into the place, he wasn't going to ask how either. He even noticed the different types of birthday games for all ages. The alcohol that was off limits, no one needed to be getting drunk at a kids first birthday party.
"I came over to swipe the birthday boy, but I see you've lost him," Wade joked, hugging Cricket and Jaysene, the two women that had easily became apart of their family, spending holidays and monthly dinners together at one house or the other.
"You're boy is with him," Cricket easily answered. "Should be here shortly." Wade nodded, looking around the place smiling seeing just how full the place was for one little birthday party. Showed him how perfect of a choice his son had made.
"One of his mom's told me you were looking for this little guy," Zach announced, walking up behind his father. Wade turned around plucking his grandson from his son's arms, smiling as Kayson giggled, smacking Wade's cheeks.
"Papa," Kayson gurgled every time he saw Wade or Zach.
"That I was," Wade smiled, ticking Kayson's little tummy. "Cora not coming?"
"After breaking up a few months ago, we don't really talk but the last I knew she wasn't coming; this whole thing is still hard for her."
"I can understand that," Wade told his son. "Why don't you go have fun," Wade suggested. Zach nodded, pressing a soft kiss to Kayson's head walking off into the crowd.
"There's two of my favorite guys," Zoe smiled, walking up to her husband. She had been watching the two of them for a few minutes as they talked, Wade making Kayson laugh, Wade's smile never leaving his face. "They're going to let him open his presents before having cake," she informed Wade.
Wade nodded, they'd slowly make their way to where the presents were at, but for now he was going to keep Kayson out of the chaos and hold him a little closer.
It may not have been the life he suspected that his grandson would live, but he had to admit just how happy everyone was and that his son and Cora had made the hardest decision of their lives and it had been the right one for everyone involved.
