After a week of convalescing Jaimie had realised two things. Firstly she did actually need quite a lot of time to recover she didn't realise how much the whole incident and subsequent injuries had taken out of her and secondly she did quite like watching tv and having time to play on her iPad and with her X box. Particularly after Addison (unusually) had bought her a game for it. However now she was beginning to get restless she wanted to get fitter and get back to work. Addison had been quite insistent about her staying in the house but now she wanted to at least go for a walk and maybe a swim she would broach this subject on Addison's return.

"Addison are you off tomorrow? "

"Yes you know I am it's Saturday. Why do you ask?"

Jaimie hesitated she wasn't sure how Addison would react and she didn't want to get this wrong. Although she knew she could go out at any time really, she wanted Addi to come with her and also to be alright with it.

Addison could see something was bothering Jaimie but she wasn't sure what. "Come on love spit it out"

"OK I want to start going out can we go for a walk on the beach tomorrow?"

"Of course we can why the hesitation?"

"Well you've had me cooped up in here all week, hardly allowed to move, I wasn't sure you'd be OK with me going out"

"You make it sound like I've held you prisoner" Addison smiled "A walk will be good for you but we'll take it easy"

At which point she walked forward and gave Jaimie a big hug and kiss "You're a funny old thing at times."

"Well it's hardly surprising everyday you've reminded me not to do too much, not to leave the house and generally rest as much as possible. But I feel a bit stir crazy I need to get out but I wanted you to be OK with it."

"And if I hadn't said all those things I know you, you would have tried to do too much and even may have gone for a walk. Your body needs time to recover. But you've done well and I'm sure a little and I stress little walk will do you good."

So the next morning Addison armed with a rucksack with a few supplies in it including pain killers and water set off with Jaimie for a stroll along the beautiful beach. For Jaimie this was heaven allowed out at last the sun on her face the wind in her hair and her beautiful girlfriend by her side.

They'd been walking for about 30 mins happily chatting when Addison looked at Jaimie and could see beads of sweat on her forehead

"You OK Darling" she said concern etched all over her face.

Jaimie for her part had been feeling a bit sick for the past few minutes but didn't want to say anything as she was so enjoying the walk.

"No I'm fine" she lied.

"I think we should stop for a minute" which Jaimie was secretly happy with as she was beginning to feel really rough and her ribs were aching.

And then it happened Jaimie threw up. She felt awful. And sat down crying. Addison was immediately by her side rubbing her back and making soothing comments. But Jaimie couldn't stop crying.

."I'm sorry she blurted out"

"It's OK darling it's my fault we shouldn't have come so far, here have some water" Jaimie gratefully took the bottle and began slurping it.

"Not so fast, you'll be sick again" Addison laughed.

Then all of a sudden it was like the flood gates opened Jaimie was in tears relaying the whole incident, the pain she felt, the guilt at Ricky being shot, the frustration at not being able or allowed to do anything around the house, the fact that she wanted to go back to work. She went on for a good half hour and Addison just held her gently rocking her and stroking her hair. By the end of it Jaimie was exhausted there was no way she would be able to walk back. Addison phoned Rachel she arranged for a squad car to come to their location and pick them up. By this time Jaimie was nearly asleep.

Back at home Addison helped an exhausted Jamie to the sofa laid her down on it got her a pillow and wrapped her in a blanket. Her eyes were nearly closed but she managed to mumble thank you and sorry.

"Don't be silly darling. I should have known that was too far and as for the crying and outpouring of all your feelings that's fine. Good to release it all. Now you have a rest and we'll have a BBQ later. I love you" And with that she heard the steady breathing indicating that she was sleeping.

Addison nipped out to the local store to get some provisions for the BBQ. She got minted lamb one of Jaimie's favourites, sausages, chicken, rolls, some salady bits, although she'd be lucky to get much of that down her and some beers. She then rang Rachel to see if her an Morgan were free to join them. They were which was great she knew they would cheer Jaimie up. They were always good company. And she thought Jaimie could do with seeing people. One of her work colleagues had popped in in the week but other than that she had seen no-one.

When she returned she was still asleep so she left her and busied herself preparing for the BBQ. A while later a sleepy Jaimie entered the kitchen.

"Hi how you feeling?"

"A bit groggy and my heads killing me. I'm sorry for earlier I can't believe it. What are you doing anyway?"

"We're having a BBQ" she answered cheerily,"Rachel and Morgan are coming over"

"Great I look like shit, I ache all over and I feel lousy"

" Well go jump in the shower they'll be here in an hour"

"Do I have to?" She whined.

"No of course not but you were just moaning you looked a mess"

"Well I can hardly be like this when my boss is coming over you could have asked me before you did it. You make me stay in alone all week not able to do anything, you've been late home every night, the walk today was far too long and now you invite people over without even asking me." She shouted at Addison. She was beside herself and just let rip. She gave no thought to the fact that Addison had looked after her all week, done all the cooking and shopping, comforted her in the night when she woke up in pain or had a bad dream. No Jaimie had just had enough of it all and let rip at the one person close to her who really cared for her but at this point she just didn't care. And at that she stormed out of the kitchen slamming the door behind her. Addison had stood and taken it all, she was pretty tired and fed up with this herself, she didn't want to be her girlfriends nursemaid but that was all part of the relationship deal. She sighed, she knew she was in pain and fed up but really this was the limit she almost felt like walking out herself.

Jaimie got into the shower she was still mad but more with herself than Addison she'd been great all week and now she'd just let rip at her for no apparent reason. What was happening? She finished her shower as best she could she still ached and washing her hair was difficult. Addison had helped her all week but she didn't feel inclined to ask her now. Shit she'd been really out of order earlier.

While she was drying herself Addison came in. "Need some help gorgeous "

"Oh God don't be nice to me Addi when I've been a complete arse. Instead of shouting at you I should be thanking you" and with this she started to cry. Addison came over to hug her "No don't. I'm going to cry more and I don't deserve it"

"Look just come here" and as she did that she opened her arms and Jaimie fell into them sobbing and for the 3rd time today said sorry to Addison.

"I'll cancel them"

"No don't do that I've showered now and they are fun. I just might not make the whole evening"

"That's OK baby they'll understand"

Addison then went back downstairs and Jaimie went to find her phone. She quickly rang Morgan and asked her to pick up a bunch of flowers on her way over. Morgan guessed they were for Addison she knew how headstrong her friend was and guessed this last week had been particularly difficult. "Shall I get a large bunch"

"The largest" Jaimie replied smiling to herself her friend knew her well.

A while later they arrived. Morgan winked at Jaimie and indicated that the flowers were in the car. Jaimie mouthed thank you. They all went and sat on the decking with a drink, Jaimie and Morgan had beers while Addison opened a nice bottle of red for her and Rachel. Shortly Jaimie sneaked out to their car and found the flowers. She called Addison into the house gave her a big hug and kissed her lovingly and longingly.

"Darling thank you for everything you've done for me over the past week. I know I've not been the easiest of patients but you've been brilliant" with that she took her by the hand into the kitchen where the flowers were. Addison had a tear in her eye as she saw them.

"They're gorgeous thank you sweetie" at which point she took hold of Jaimie and held her tight. Yes it had been hard work, yes it had been difficult but it was much better than the alternative which she shuddered to think about.