To Obsessive Imaginings: Yes, it should say "Diana/Audrey" in the summary, and I'm glad you brought this up. Unfortunately FFn doesn't have a character listing for Princess Audrey... the "Diana of Themyscira/Wonder Woman" is the listing for her character alone, haha. You're right, it looks like I'm saying this is selfcest, but it's not my fault!
Also, thanks to Mimico Florido for pointing out that Diana would most likely have had wine on Themyscira before; I updated chapter one to reflect that.
CHAPTER TWO
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
You have every right to delete this the moment you read it, as late as I am delivering it to you. You must be so upset with me. The truth is, every time I read a new message from you, I have to take a few minutes to cry. That's probably disappointing to you, since you seem to view me as this completely invulnerable super girl. (but I'm not Supergirl. Get it? Flash keeps telling me I should "grow a sense of humour", but I don't think I need to. Do you?)
I do read them all. I'm not ignoring you, I just can't talk to you anymore. I don't know how. So I've been concentrating on work, trying to save the world and spare myself from confronting my emotions.
But I'm going to reply today, because I can see that it is hurting you for me to stay silent. That isn't right; I needed time to understand my feelings and why I felt angry, and sad, and extremely confused. But I didn't mean for it to leave you feeling abandoned. For that, I must apologise… I promise I wasn't trying to ignore you on purpose. How can I explain?
This is the eighth time I have started this electronic letter to you. I wanted to tell you so many things, so many times, and I wanted to ask you things, but I absolutely could not. Even this one might get deleted if I lose my nerve again.
Audrey… your kiss felt sweet and beautiful. Part of the reason I was so shocked was because it felt familiar — which you explained when you filled in the gaps in my memory from the night at The Sophistry Room. Thank you for that. But nothing about the sensation was unwelcome. I just didn't understand how to return feelings like that, and was not expecting them.
I have only known a kiss like that a few times in my life. Once, another of my sisters on Themyscira and I tried kissing, and we just ended up giggling a lot. Also… well, it was partially because of our mutual "friend", Vandal Savage. I encountered a man in the distant past who charmed me, and we shared a moment while running from Savage's forces. It was fleeting, but tender.
In yours, even though it was a surprise, I felt as much tenderness, and urgency, and fear of what I would think. And all of that without me ever expecting it, without me realising our friendship might also be of that nature. It caught me more off-guard than with Steve, which was the reason I was so shocked. I didn't think we might end up as anything other than good friends. Throw the Lasso of Truth around me and I'll say the same!
Before you ask, I was not worried about you being a woman, even though it seems like that is unusual in most parts of Man's world. It is not in mine; on an island entirely populated by women, it's impossible for some of them not to want to be wed to each other, to make lives together. We don't require it, but we don't discourage it, either; it simply is love if they feel drawn to love. Had I not been called to the outside world, it's as likely that I would have made a life with one of my sisters as that I would have remained unmarried. Either way, I'm not concerned about outward appearances, such as your gender.
No, I simply did not have those feelings for you. Not for my good friend, Audrey, who I misunderstood. I'm not sure if that is still the case now, but I know thinking about it and trying to figure it out is… very difficult for me. Because even though most of my feelings remain the same, I also enjoyed kissing you. Maybe too much.
Again, I'm sorry for how long this has taken. I'm going to send this now before I talk myself out of it. I hope you're doing better than you were in your last message.
Diana
To: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
Maybe you aren't concerned with outward appearances, but I am. Which is why I'm even more shocked that we have done what we have. I love men! I always have, I've always wanted to tease, and roll around in the sheets with them, and date them exclusively. Being a lesbian, or bisexual or what have you, it just never came up in my mind. Why fix what isn't broken?
But while you were maintaining radio silence, I figured out a thing or two. If you don't want to know, you can stop reading, I'll understand.
Men are like the toys in your toybox when you were a little girl. I like taking them out, playing with them, seeing which ones make me laugh. And then I throw them back in the box. That's all they've ever been to me; momentary diversions. That probably sounds terrible, but it's the truth. Fun for a fling and then gone.
You're more like my stuffed bear I had, all the way up until I started becoming a woman. You make me feel safe and secure, important, as if I'm the only person worth being around. That probably isn't how you really feel, of course, but I can pretend you do when you and I are alone together.
How could I have been so dense?! I didn't even see that I was developing those kind of feelings the whole time! I really am a blonde, haha!
You do not have to return the feelings. I'd never say you do! But the way I can't stop thinking about you anymore seems like a pretty clear sign I have a massive crush on you. These are such strange words, I've never felt this way, about you, a man, a woman, or anyone, and… here I am, telling the object of my desire that the desire exists. Either I'm suddenly very brave, or an idiot.
But thank you for telling me you enjoyed the kiss. God! I have been squealing like a fool for the past hour, when I'm not sobbing into my pillow! Even if you don't return my feelings, that has made my entire year.
Themyscira sounds like a wonderful place. I'd love to visit sometime, a perfect paradise like that. Kasnia does not have a very progressive government. We abolished our anti-homosexuality laws a decade or two ago, even though those mostly only punished gay men for "sodomy". But we also don't legally recognise same-sex marriages, or protect the citizens from discrimination outside of punishing the specific crimes, like vandalism or assault. I always thought that was unfortunate, but not my problem.
Looks like it is now. Because I have to say… for a straight girl, I sure have spent a lot of time this past month thinking about your legs. And your shoulders. And, well, I'm going to stop this message here before it gets any worse!
Audrey
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
The past two days, I've been walking around trying to consider what to write to you in response. And all day today, Flash, Green Lantern, Hawkgirl, and Superman have been asking me why my face is so red, and why I seem distracted. I'm running out of excuses.
You really find me that physically attractive? Even though I'm not the gender you normally think of that way? That's very flattering. And I don't mean that as in, "It's flattering but please leave me alone". I honestly don't know if I'm just flustered because it's new, or if I really enjoy knowing that. Again, I'm trying to sort things out. Be patient with me, if you can.
It also occurred to me that I should tell you that you're attractive. When I reread my last letter, I realised that I told you I don't care about appearances, and I didn't want you to think that meant you're anything other than beautiful. It's just not something that matters to me. I like you because you're a sweet, stubborn, impulsive woman who somehow doesn't seem to care that I'm basically a flying battering ram who is completely baffled by modern society. You just appreciate me for who I am (even if, in our case, that's a cowardly woman who can't respond to your emails because she doesn't understand her own feelings).
Also, you're the kind of person who would turn down superhero protection because it's the easy way out. At the time, I was really worried, but I now see that as being noble. Hopefully, your country is doing better now; I haven't heard of an outbreak of war there recently, so that seems like a positive sign.
My island isn't as perfect as you imagine it. There's a prevailing attitude there that men are lesser beings than women. I have spoken out against that attitude… and it's partly why I'm banished from there. But they are a good people, despite their flaws. Proud and righteous, maybe to a fault? I know they are learning, just as Kasnians are learning. No one is truly perfect, not even Superman.
I must go, Hawkgirl is asking if I borrowed her leg wax.
Diana
To: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
DID you borrow her leg wax? Why? Is it because I said I like your legs? You don't have to do anything special for me, I already think they're fantastic the way they are!
I sound ridiculous. Let me try this again.
Thank you for reassuring me that you don't think I'm an ugly old hag, haha. I didn't think that before, though. I mean, not caring about someone's appearance is a weird concept for me personally, but if that's how you are, then I think it's lovely. It's part of what makes you, you!
As for the rest of what you said about me… I wish I could see myself the way you do. But it does feel nice to read your words. Life could be so much easier if a Kasnian man were to say the same things to me; I'd be asking him to be my groom.
But you go too far when you call yourself a coward. You are the bravest woman I know, Diana. Never a coward. You just didn't know what to say to me right away. I respect that you wanted to take some time, to choose your words. Please don't be so hard on yourself, alright?
Talk to you soon.
Audrey
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
If I told you about the worries I've been having lately, you would laugh. My first thought when you said I could be your "groom" if I were a Kasnian man was NOT that I could never be married to you. Or even that I'm attracted to you but I don't think it would work out. No, thoughts like those would be normal!
My first thought was, "I don't want to put Audrey in the same position Superman puts Lois." That is their choice, and I know that sometimes, love is more important than being afraid of its consequences. But I don't want you to be hurt, or to be used against me as a pawn. That's unfair to you. Anyway, that isn't a thought normal people have in these situations, and it just further confirms that I'm not in a very good place to start dating anyone. Not as long as I regularly place myself in harm's way for the good of humankind.
But you're right about the "coward" comment. I was being unfair to myself; I know that confronting one's fears is bravery, not cowardice, and that there's nothing wrong with healthy fear when dealing with something new or unusual. I just… forgot to apply that logic to myself, I suppose. Thank you for keeping me grounded.
As for the leg wax, there's a saying in America that goes, "I plead the fifth". I'm going to use that now.
Diana
To: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
So I know it's been a few days since your reply, and that it might seem ungrateful for me to go from complaining about you taking too long to, well, taking too long myself. But I did that on purpose. I didn't want to say a lot of things because I was overexcited, things I could never take back.
In your last email, you kind of said that you're attracted to me, and that your feelings… MIGHT be love? And that you were thinking about dating me, even if your thoughts were mostly "no, don't do that, it's not very smart". You didn't state any of that outright, but the words came out between other words. So I didn't want to rush to send a reply demanding you to clarify how you felt, or being excited when I didn't have a right to be excited yet. That would be bad.
But I also didn't want to pretend not to notice, and just sweep it all under the rug. You might not have meant any of that the way I read it, and I could just be so infatuated with you that I'm starting to imagine simple phrases have deeper implications. What do I know? I've never been in love before. Not with Vandal, and not with anyone else. Maybe not even with you.
On the other hand… maybe with you? There's so much I want to say but I don't want to burden you with it. I'm glad I waited to respond or you'd be getting a long paragraph about how much I like you and think about you, but waiting helped me be able to keep this short.
As for waxing… maybe I waxed more than just my legs before your last visit. And maybe it had something to do with the kiss at the club. But I wasn't making any assumptions, I promise. Just… like I said, I get too excited about things sometimes. I'm probably even reading too much into your email... I need to calm down, take some deep breaths, do some yoga. Ignore me.
Audrey
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: The Flash (nyoom (a) watchtower .jl)
Okay you fine piece of Kasnian royalty, let me level with ya. Princess Amazonian Grumpypants has been a complete mess about you for a long freakin time. We've all noticed her sit around here watching Judge Judy and doing nada besides wait for global alerts to go off, or some huge bomb to threaten a little lost puppy or whatever. I know from the timestamp on your last email to her that it's been five days since you sent it (and before you ask yeah I just ran past while she was reading it for the thousandth damn time, sorry I'm nosy - that's also how I got your email address)
Anyway, normally I find the idea of two chicks getting together pretty hot, especially if it's to make a Flash sandwich. But I mean at the end of the day Wonder Bread is my teammate and I want her to be happy, right? I'm not a total jerk, no matter what Lantern says. You make her happy and anybody who can't see it either doesn't know her or has a serious vision problem. She's just scared of what you and she are gonna mean further down the line. You'd think they don't have "one night stands" on Chick Island.
So here's where my crazy scheme comes in. She's got a birthday, like most people; took some digging but I found out when it is, thanks to Batman's totally neurotic files (even though he doesn't exactly know he helped). It's not for another month but like you guys aren't making any headway so I doubt much is gonna change between now and then. If you don't mind a trip into space… how do you feel about crashing? Semi-formal, BYOB, ya know.
Flashypoo
To: The Flash (nyoom (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
Hmm. You're a very direct person, "Flashypoo". I admire that. Not enough to help you with your sandwich-making, but enough to be grateful.
Since I got your email, I've spent the past two days thinking it over. And I agree, that sounds like a potentially beneficial plan. Except for a few details, which I think you and I can discuss over the phone. My name is in your database, apparently; call whenever Diana is off the station and we'll figure something out.
Audrey
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
Again, I'm sorry for my cowardice this past week. You won't see it as that, but I can't help but feel that way. Why am I so bad at confronting my feelings?
I realised that at some point, I started feeling a certain way toward you. And that it's part of what's getting in our way. I hope you aren't disgusted when I tell you about it, but I feel it's very important for me to get this off my chest so we can move forward.
You're still someone I need to rescue. I hate that, I know in my mind that we have moved past that facet of our relationship. You are definitely more to me than the kidnapping victim you were when we met! But every time I see you in my mind, alongside my newer affection and respect, I also see you being grabbed and swept up toward that helicopter, or falling from the Eiffel Tower, or standing at the altar next to Vandal Savage. Imminent danger. That's a lot less pronounced than it was a year ago, but it still lingers. And that's partly to blame: I don't want to marry or date you purely because I want to protect you. That isn't a good enough reason. You're not a damsel in distress, you are my friend, and an incredible one.
However…
Oh Audrey, I'm sorry. I really do like you more than as "just a friend," but I can't tell you how much more, or how much of that is because of my "saviour complex", or if I can ever do anything about it. I'm not good at this. All I'm good at is fighting megalomaniacs, and taking up space in the Watchtower when we aren't doing that. Figuring out my feelings is hard for me.
But I do want to move forward in one way or another. If you want to move forward from me because you're tired of waiting, please tell me. I won't be offended, it's a very understandable reaction. If not... I promise I won't stop trying. This is too important to me to surrender.
I hope you're doing well.
Diana
To: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
I'd be your damsel. Anytime.
Don't worry, I do hear what you're saying, why you have a problem with needing to "save" me; I'm only half-kidding. Really, I loved being saved by you, it felt wonderful, but I don't want that to be the basis of a relationship, either. Thank you for being honest. I think it's something we can work around, but I want you to tell me things like that. What you're worrying about is a big deal.
We both really care for each other. Maybe if I give you a little more time, you can figure out how to be like that with me. More openly? Something.
You mentioned seeing me at the altar. Throwing that tank through the wall to stop me from marrying Savage was one of the most thrilling moments I've witnessed in my life. At the time, I resented your interfering, and was scared, so I shouted at you… and I have already apologised for being so thick-skulled. But I didn't tell you how it made my heart race, how excited I was to see you, and to know that you wanted to stop my wedding so badly you picked up a TANK and threw it into the chapel! You really elevated my pulse!
And for just a second... this is silly, but I thought you were going to object to that greasy pig marrying me because you wanted to take his place? But then he was electrocuting you and you were being imprisoned, so I never got the chance to think any more deeply on it.
Wow. I really am oblivious sometimes.
Maybe that was the moment my feelings changed, just on a slight time delay. But it contributed. One of my favourite fantasies when I was a little girl was having a handsome prince ride in and save me from a villain. Funny that the villain was my husband-to-be and my prince is a princess.
Audrey
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
Actually, your prince is a Prince. (Haha, get it? Again, I'm trying to be funny... let me know if it ever starts working)
Of course I had to stop the wedding. Do you think I could let someone as beautiful and of so much worth to so many people as you are be tainted by that Cro-Magnon man? Of course not. That it was a woman very dear to my heart was an added bonus, yes, but not a requirement. I would have done it for any other person if I saw their plight.
And I do want to talk more about this, but we have a peace summit on a distant world to attend. I hope your own Kasnian versions of same are going as well as can be expected. Talk soon!
Diana
To: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
Hope your peace talks went well. I'm just getting back from another conference with the E.U., and it looks like we are on track to join. This is great news for Kasnia!
Last night, I had a dream that I would have been scared to tell you about before now. But I think it might be alright, with how honest we've been lately.
It was the wedding, and Savage was at the altar with me. You threw an elephant through the wall instead of a tank (honestly, I don't know what to think about that — something I ate?). But this time, he did not shock you with a Taser to stop you from interfering further. He demanded to know what you wanted, and you told him that you could not let me marry a man like him. That he was beneath me. I thanked you, crying on your shoulder, and you embraced me while Savage glared at us. Then Batman arrived and tied him up, which was very satisfying to watch. You swept me up into your arms and we kissed again, and oh, it went on and on! Then I asked if you would consent to marrying me instead of him, since we were already in the chapel.
Unfortunately, I woke up before I could hear your answer, haha. Crazy dream, huh? As I said, the marriage would not have been recognised legally by Kasnian law. Though I have introduced a bill to change that. It's meeting strong opposition from the conservative citizens, but I think it can still be pushed through. The world is changing.
Audrey
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
You dream is very… telling, to say the least. But it's not telling me anything new, so I can't be that shocked. Just amused, and oddly pleased. Who knows anymore?
I would have turned you down if you asked that of me at the time. But if we were already to the point of kissing so deeply... hmm. I'm thinking too hard about this. It was just a dream.
Everything went satisfactorily with our peace talks; we were able to resolve everything, though not without a little strong-arming by Superman. But that's happened before, of course. Sometimes, diplomacy alone is not enough to guarantee your words are heard.
Princess, listen to me. I want to try an exercise with you. Just say whatever you want to say that's in your heart about me. We can do this with the understanding that it is an exercise in honesty and openness, and that nothing has to change about our relationship purely because of this exchange. Maybe it will, but it doesn't have to, and we won't hold any of it against each other. You can start or I can start, but I won't do it right now just in case you don't want to do the exercise. If you want me to start, just send me a message telling me to start, and I will.
That last paragraph seems very… I don't know, repetitive. But I'll leave it as is.
Diana
To: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
You can start. I'm not sure what you mean exactly, so that makes the most sense; I'll take my cue from you. And it's good you guys came back victorious! Huzzah for the Justice League!
Audrey
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
Most nights since the kiss, I lie awake thinking about you. I think about what you and I could be to each other if I hadn't been born an Amazon, and you hadn't been born a Kasnian heir. If we were just two average women living out our average lives… would we mean as much to each other? Or would we mean more?
Your pale blue eyes are so inviting, and your precocious smile fills me with a desire to be reckless, to give in to desire instead of always choosing the righteous path, the solitary one. Thinking about your lips makes me want to touch them again, with my fingertips, with my own lips, or to feel them against my neck, my chest. I may not care much about physical beauty, but I think of you as "beautiful" when I remember your easy laugh, the piercing looks you gave me that made me feel like a nervous little girl again.
All of those feelings are so strange… but I cherish them. Our memories together are already some of my favourites, and we haven't spent a lot of time in each other's company. Once we figure out a few things, like boundaries and intentions, I want to fix that. I want to spend more time with you.
And I want to try kissing you at least one more time. Doing it on purpose, under my power, and not being surprised by it or too drunk to remember. Even if we try it and it's not something I enjoy, it's better to know. Especially after all of this.
That was so hard to write! It's your turn. Take your time, please.
Diana
To: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
I did take my time. Almost a week to stop blushing and slamming my head against the fine marble pillars in the new palace's entryway. My guards have been shooting me funny looks, haha.
But I won't comment on what you said; I think that's what you meant, right? That we can say whatever we want, and not have to worry about how the other person will respond. So I won't, darling... unless you ask. I'll just start with what I'm thinking and feeling.
My mind is not used to thinking about a woman the way it does now. That throws me off a lot. The blushing and the drooling (figuratively, not literally!) and the sexual hunger I usually direct at famous men in the news, and men I see when in Paris or London, or another famous city… it's all for you now. Which is crazy! I'm going crazy with this, I know it's mostly me making things go faster, but I don't mind telling you that it's really weird.
I'm so confused that in a lot of my… fantasies… you are a man. Just a man with a trim, girlish figure and a perfect feminine face. I hope you don't feel offended at that, I don't mean to say you are one or I want you to be one. Ahh, what am I saying?! But I'm accustomed to thinking about men towering over me in bed, pinning me down and having their way with me. Or letting me pin them, riding them hard and bouncing up and down... but still riding a man, not a woman. And I'm putting you in that "role" in my dreams now, even if it might not be a role you want.
Both waking and sleeping dreams. Some of these are very detailed lately. Ordinarily I would stop here, but since we're being honest…
When I'm awake, sometimes I do picture taking off your dress, exploring your body. When I'm asleep, it's always you doing it to me. (dream-Diana is very good with her tongue!) My point is, it's never anyone else now. Always you, and I'm happy with that. Actually happy!
And I miss you. Not just making out with you, but I miss your friendship so much… oh well. At least we're talking again. I'm so relieved we're talking again!
I'm too embarrassed to even hit the "send" key while I'm looking at the screen, so I'm going to look away, hit it, and then leave the room.
Audrey
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
That was… a very interesting exercise. Extremely interesting.
Maybe we shouldn't keep being that honest. It seems to make it harder and harder to reach a level-headed decision about how you and I should define our relationship. Or maybe that's good, because it keeps me from being lazy about deciding. I don't know. But I'll tell you one last thing in the interest of being open with each other, and you can tell me if we should stop.
Reading your last email prompted a physical reaction I've rarely felt for another person before. I've felt it as a purely normal feeling, part of being human… late at night or early in the morning, or during my monthly parting of the Red Sea. But not because of a person, not this strongly. I felt ready to mate with someone, even though I was entirely alone. Is that what it's like for you, the "sexual hunger" you spoke of?
Diana
To: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
I am so honoured (and blushing, always blushing lately) you would confess that to me. I can tell it wasn't easy. And yes, that sounds pretty similar to how I feel in those situations, haha. It's how I started feeling at The Sophistry Room, with your soft lips on mine and your firm, toned body on top of me…
Again, probably too far. Tell me to stop anytime. But I'm alright with us continuing to be honest.
Audrey
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
Something you said happened in your dream has been stuck in my mind lately. On Themyscira, you come to hear a lot of things from the other women. So even though I have no personal experience "with my tongue", I know what you meant by that… and it raises some pretty potent mental pictures of what you've been dreaming about.
Would you want to try that with me?
I'm sorry if that question is TOO honest. Wow, I feel a flush all over my face and neck. This is insanity! If I hadn't known you for over a year, I would suspect this was a plot by one of our archnemises to cripple my ability to think straight! It wasn't supposed to be asking if you WILL try it with me, just if it's something that would interest you! I am not propositioning you at this time. I'm sorry, I'm going to send this and stop stumbling over my words like an ignoramus.
Diana
To: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
Your ability to "think straight"? Was that meant to be a pun or just a funny coincidence? Haha maybe Flash is wrong about you needing to grow a sense of humour, I think it's naturally-occurring.
About your question… I am scared to answer it, but my answer would have to be "yes". And now we're both feeling a little exposed, I think. But as you said, we're just talking, darling; not actually saying we really WILL do these things. So it's harmless, right?
By the way, on the same level of hypothetical interest, I wouldn't mind returning the favour.
Audrey
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
That will teach me to ever open my email while the rest of the team is in the Watchtower's main situation room. Everyone asked why I suddenly groaned out loud at reading your words, and I had to make up an excuse. The smile on Flash's face indicated he did not believe me. Even Hawkgirl was smirking and trying to look over my shoulder, asking if it was from "a boy".
All Flash said was "I doubt it," but I'm still going to give him a good pounding once I get my hands on him.
Is it normal for me to feel scared to even try kissing you again, but still exhilarated at the thought of either of us using our tongues somewhere else? Shouldn't I be even more scared of that thought? It's almost as if because we both know we're too afraid to go that far (yet?), it makes it easier to entertain the fantasy. Despite me barely being able to think of such things without feeling light-headed.
I'm sorry for all of this again. You seem both more and less comfortable with this discussion, and I'm just afraid of everything, and… this must be very disappointing. Again, I don't feel very courageous for someone who is supposed to help protect Earth.
Diana
To: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
HAH! You and the rest of the League sound like you have a lot of fun, even if it's fun that makes you want to knock Flash senseless. I envy that.
Ohhhh Diana, you don't know what you do to me. There have been a few meetings with the members of my cabinet that have required them to snap their fingers, so that I will pay attention to the state of affairs. They don't know that I'm thinking about your body being spread out below me. They CAN'T know that; it isn't very regal and worthy of respect.
But I am not ashamed of it. I want your tongue on me. In me, maybe? God, I am glad Flash reassured me that that both of our connections are highly secure; I'd hate to imagine anyone else reading these!
Come to Kasnia again. See me, be with me. Find out how this is going to go. We might both be too nervous to do anything about all these crazy feelings racing around in our heads (and other places), or we might find some little drop of bravery in the bottom of our cups. But even if nothing happens, I still miss you so much that I can't bear it. I just miss you.
Audrey
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
You've spoken to Flash about the security of our connections? That seems prudent. I just didn't know you were in contact with him.
I have a confession to make. Last night was the second time I have flown two thirds of the way to Kasnia, then turned around and flown back. I'm so nervous and I keep talking myself out of it. But I wanted you to know that it's not just me sitting around, refusing to go… I'm trying. And I will go, soon! I can't stand not seeing you!
And now you have me intrigued. What else did you think about in front of your entire cabinet? I was laid out below you. On your bed? Don't be such a tease; finish the story!
Diana
To: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
From: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
You're actually encouraging that we keep sending these things in our letters. I'm so proud of you, my dirty Diana! (that's meant to be kind of a joke… I'm teasing you a little but not actually meaning to insult you, please don't be offended and let me know if I should stop with that, okay?)
You were lying across my bed, wearing that ball gown you wore when we had coffee. The red one with the slit up the side? My hand took advantage of that slit, going from your ankle all the way up to your hip… you were so confident, even though I was above you, smiling up at me and waiting to see what came next. And then I slid my hand around to the front, feeling how firm your thigh muscles are. Then…
Well, that really is the whole story. I got interrupted by Joakim before my brain could go further. Does it meet with your approval?
Audrey
PS: Don't feel bad about getting cold feet and going home. I wish you had come to my window, but it's okay. Next time you will, and I'll keep you, little bird.
To: Queen Audrey (queen (a) kasnia .ksn)
From: Wonder Woman (ww (a) watchtower .jl)
I'm not offended by the teasing, though I am not sure how I feel about "dirty Diana". I know how you mean it, but it still makes me sound like a prostitute. Flash would probably say I'm "no fun" for telling you that, though.
Your imagination is very active, and spins quite a tale. One that has me breathing hard for a reason other than my morning run through the the streets of Albuquerque. With a creative mind like yours, I wonder if you need me to be there in person at all! (joking, of course.)
Can you finish the story? I know that's all you daydreamed of during your cabinet meeting but if you can think of more, I would love to hear it. You paint such vivid mental pictures that I just want to bask in them. Become part of them. Only if you feel like it, of course.
Diana
~ To Be Continued ~