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Chapter seven.
They are in a supply closet. Meredith has always hated small places, and she knows she should talk so they could get out of there soon. But neither of them open their mouths. On her side, all she can think about is that she is scared. Scared of realising that saying yes had been a mistake. Because by being this close to him, she can feel his thoughts running on his mind. And it's making her anxious.
Meredith it's not a patient person. She hates surprises or not having the control of the situation.
And she feels so vulnerable when she is with him it makes her head explode– not literally, but almost.
"Derek." She sighs, leaning on the wall.
"You didn't say anything." He says. She didn't. She just— she hates being Ellis Grey's daughter. "You had a lot of opportunities to do it."
"I know." She clears her throat, thinking quickly what's the best thing to say right now." I guess I just wanted to be with someone who didn't— " she pauses, breathing softly." Who didn't see me as Ellis Grey's daughter."
She just wanted to stay in that bubble.
Everywhere she goes it's like she is always in her mom's shadow.
Derek's eyes finally meet hers, she can feel his emotions on her own skin. "I know... You want to run. When things get complicated, I run." She laughs nervously." I would understand, if you ran too."
She knows Derek wants to run. She can see it in his eyes. But even if she has been rejecting him this whole time, She doesn't want him to run.
"Meredith..." Derek takes step forward; the med-student can feel her own heart pounding on her chest. She is nervous. Derek makes her feel nervous.
"I want to run." He says. Meredith feels a wave of dissappointment through her body, she doesn't meet his eyes this time, they stay locked on the floor.
"You want to run." She repeats, hoping to hear the but.
Derek sighs.
And they stay in silence for at least fourty-five seconds. "But— I can't. I can't run now." He finally admits. Meredith looks up to him, a small smile forming on her lips. She is not used to this. People wanting her.
"You know it's gonna be complicated, right?" She asks, trying to make sure. Because she doesn't need second thoughts. At least, not right now.
"That's all I've been thinking since I saw your mother. Or since you told me you study at Dartmouth." He laughed harshly. She licks her top lip. She didn't forget about that. Once the winter break is over she has to go back. And well— she has never done this... dating thing, and both know it's not even an entire year, and that she'll be back for her internship. But the reality is that he is an intern, and she is a student. How do you make time for a long-distance relationship between all your duties?
"I know... Me too." She whispers.
Derek sighs again, his hands messing his perfect hair.
"I just wish it wasn't that complicated."
She does too.
"What do you want to do, Derek?" She asks. She needs an answer. She can't stay waiting forever. They can't be thinking about how they are going to make it work.
"I want... " he shakes his head." I want you. Since I saw you on that bar... That's all I want." He groans.
He wants her.
"I want you too." She whispers.
Derek's eyes darken. She can feel her breathing becoming irregular.
Correction, she loves-hates small spaces.
She takes another step towards him, putting his hands on his chest."I... I want you." This time... She can feel that Derek actually wants her. She can also feel his heart. It's beating so fast. Just like hers. They kiss. She is not sure about who started it; but it doesn't matter. Their lips move together in a perfect armony. Derek pushes her against the wall; a soft moam escaping Meredith's lips, letting his tongue into her mouth. He is kissing her hard. She doesn't think that anyone else has ever kissed her like that.
Then, once their lip's contact breaks, she can feel his heavy breathing against her mouth. Her fingers tangled on his curls.
Derek doesn't like people touching his hair. But loves when Meredith does it.
"I..." Before she can start talking Derek is kissing her again, leaving soft kisses on her neck. She can feel his hands all over her body. And she loves it.
she is hot.
She knows they need to talk. But she can't concentrate on the talking thing when Derek is touching her like that.
The supply closet is dark; the room is supposed to be dark. But then she can feel an annoying light on her face.
Then she realises that someone has opened the door.
"Nice shade of lip-stick, Derek." Amelia laughs, her arms crossed over her chest. Meredith feels like she is ten years old once again and has been caught doing something she shouldn't have been doing.
Amelia should be mad; yelling, instead, she has this amused look on her face.
She looks at Derek, who tries to take the lip-stick out of his lips. But it's not on his lips, it's...—
"Not there." Amelia twitches her eyebrows, she points her own neck with her index-finger so Derek can see where he actually has a mark of Meredith's lips.
Meredith blushes. This is the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to her. Or at least, it comes close to when she got caught doing the nasty nasty with Jake Parker at the back of his car by Jake's mom.
"That's it." Amelia smiles when Derek finally gets it right.
Derek's cheeks are red too.
"So, while you two were... Well..." She clears her throat."On the supply closet." Amelia pauses softly, looking at Meredith awkwardly, but with a funny smile. "Mom and the rest of the Shepherd squad is here."
The shepherd squad?
"The Shepherd squad?" Meredith asks, sightly confused.
"Oh, my sisters." Derek laughs." They are... Rough."
"Oh." Although it is Meredith the one who wants to run now.
"Oh my god, Mer!" Amelia exclaims, Meredith and Derek look at her with fear, scared about what she is about to say. "You totally have to come to Derek's birthday party!"
Meredith's fear increases to turn into panic.
"I... To meet... Derek's family?" She looks a Derek, begging him to do something.
Do something! — she yells at him with her eyes.
"Amelia." Derek finally speaks." I think it's too soon... You know how the sisters are, especially mom." Derek mutters." We are not... There. Yet."
He says yet. Yet. It doesn't top ringing on Meredith's head. What's that supposed to mean? That he plans on them being at some point?
Meredith is more of a present person. She is good with the past too, but she is not a good friend of future talk. She freaks out easily. So she hopes he just said that to stop his sister from making assumptions.
Because everything is way too complicated to talk about meeting his mother.
"Oh, right." Amelia sighs, nodding carefully. "Well, my advice right now is that if you don't want to meet Derek's entire family today, you should go." Amelia says." Because they are on their way."
Meredith shoots derek a look.
"I... Right. I have to.. Um, go." She says nervously. She smiles to amelia and then glances at Derek. "We need to keep... Talking."
"Meredith. I plan on having a second date." Meredith looks at him surprised. "I do." He nods." We can do a lot of talking then."
"I... Okay." She whispers. "Just... Text me." She tells him.
After hugging Amelia softly, Meredith leaves.
When Meredith dissappears, Amelia raises her eyebrows at her brother, who rolls his eyes. "Don't say anything." He asks her when she tries to open her mouth. He doesn't need that right now.
"I was just going to say happy birthday. I wanted to do it before all the family arrived." She explains, hugging her brother softly.
"Oh." Derek smiles, pulling his little sister close. "Thank you, Amy." He whispers.
"You are welcome." She giggles." I love you big bro." She breathes, gently pulling away.
"I love you too." He laughs. They are not emotional people. Derek is cheesy; but they don't express their feelings that easily. But Amelia is his little sister. And definitely his favourite. Everything changes when it comes to her. Sometimes.
After a short moment, where Amelia decides she'll talk to his brother about his relationship with Meredith later and that she'll talk to Meredith too at some point.
She doesn't want to interfere. But she needs to know what's happening. It's not her place. But she is going to anyway. If it wasn't for her they wouldn't be together.
they head to the parking lot where their crazy family is supposed to be. Amelia and Derek know how the rest of the female part is; they are loud. Derek doesn't want the whole hospital knowing they are here.
Ameli also decides that she is the 1# meredith and derek stan.
Both siblings walk to meet the rest of the Shepherd family. Derek loves his family, he swears he does. Especially his mom. He even loves Nancy; but like he said, they are rough.
"Mom." Derek mutters, trying to breathe." You can let go of me now." The moment he walked into the lobby, his mom threw herself at him.
"Sorry, sorry." Carolyn smiles, caresing Derek's cheek." You are so grown." She sigs." and thin. Are you eating alright?" She asks worried.
Derek had forgotten about how his mom is when one of her children is doing their internship.
"Mom, I am great." He manages to say between all the hugs and the birthday wishes. Nancy and Kath are hugging hin at the same time; Lizzie is talking about how much he has grown since he was baby and Amelia is just laughing in a corner.
"I am an intern. I don't have much time to eat or sleep but I am doing great." He asures her; kind of half-lying. Because the truth is that he is overwhelmed. But that's not something he wants his mom to know. Not really.
"Derbear will survive it. We all did." Nancy says, patting him on the back.
Derek nods, realising that a group of nurses are staring at them. He doesn't want to be the king of Seattle Grace's gossip once again. "Uh, I am going to get changed, we can go have lunch. I have the rest of the day off." He says quickly.
"Ah, here is my favourite family!" Mark shouts, making his entrance like always. Everyone turning to look at him.
"Markie!" Lizzie exclaims, hugging him closely.
Now that Mark has stolen his spotlight, he can dissappear.
Once the chaos of his family is gone, he has time to think about what happened with Meredith. Like always, he can't get her out of his head. They have a lot of things to think about before doing this. But if he is sure of something it is that he wants a second date or whatever. Maybe not something fancy; but somewhere they can talk. Because he likes her. A lot. And he wants to see where this goes. He doesn't want to wake up one day and wonder...
What if?
Besides, it's almost christmas; which is something Derek loves about his birthday. When he was younger he liked to think he was a gift. Maybe, that's why he is so arrogant.
And in almost christmas everyone deserves to be happy.
Derek sighs, taking his scrub off an putting his street clothes on. They are a little messy since he was late and left them quickly on his locker but they can work.
When he is back, everyone is laughing at something that Mark is saying.
"Derek!" Nancy says." Mark was telling us that you saved someone in an elevator." Derek rolls his eyes. Again.
He likes the spotlight; he does. But the truth is that he was just doing his job. It had been going on for months, everyone talked about it for months. It had been great at first, now it was...
"Yeah." He shrugs.
"That's amazing!" Lizzie exclaims. "Why didn't you tell us?"
"I was just... Tired and busy. I guess I didn't think it was important." He says shooting Mark a death glare.
"You work too much. Like your father. You are exactly like him." Derek feels his heart skip a beat. His chest becomes tight for a few seconds.
"Thank you, Ma." He smiles softly.
"So, since it's the loser's birthday, where do you want to eat?" Nancy asks.
Meredith is nervous. She paces when she is nervous.
"Dude, what's your problem?" Alex asks from the living room where he is watching a soccer match.
She can't believe Alex is her person. He is a great guy. But he's changed since he started dating this izzie girl. She needs him. And he is not there. He has always been like a brother to her; now it's like he is back at the starting line where he was a complete asshole.
"What's my problem?!" She groans."You are my problem, Alex."
"Me?" He frowns, finally, focusing on her and not on the tv.
"Yes, you. You are so focused on yourself, you blew me off the other day, and if it hadn't been for A– " she trailes off shaking her head." I thought you were done being an asshole."
She hears alex's sigh. He leaves the beer on the small table and turns the tv off. "Izzie dumped me." He mutters.
Then Meredith sees is. How could she not see it?
She is used to the Alex who is like her. Who doesn't do relationships. They are both so screwed up by life it feels normal. But Alex did love Izzie. By the look on his eyes... Alex is that kind of guy who doesn't let himself feel. Her Alex would never blew her off for some girl. Except that Izzie was not some girl. And she broke his heart.
She tends to do stupid things when she is sad. Alex tends to be an asshole.
"I am sorry." She whispers, hugging him softly.
Alex doesn't say anything; but he hugs her back. "For the record, you are enough for me. You are my best friend. " she whispers.
"Thank you, Mer." He tries to smile. He pulls away softly. " Now, seriously, what has you pacing?, you are going to make a hole on the floor." He asks, handing her the beer. Meredith takes a long sip of it.
"Thanks." She gives the bottle back to him. "I just... " she closes her eyes." I met this guy- Derek." She says. She doesn't know where to start. Relationship advice? Not her thing. Especially not from Alex.
"Do you need me to kick his ass?" He asks. Alex protects her; Meredith knows he would do anything for her.
"No, it's not that." She shakes his head. "He is... An intern. At my mom's hospital." She explains.
"And what's the problem?" He asks, sightly confused.
"What's the problem?, that my mom is his boss. And I can't date him. And he lives here. I live in Boston. How are we supposed to make it work?"
Alex sits straight on the couch." Seriously, Mer. Since I met you you are always living by your mom's expectatives or choices. He is your mom's empleoyee, so what? Screw her. " alex shrugs.
"But what if my mom finds out, Alex?" She shakes her head. This was a mistake. Dating Derek.
"Tecnically, she can't fire him because he is in love with her daughter" alex points out.
"You know my mom." Meredith sighs. "And he is not in love with me."
Alex rolls his eyes." Look Mer, if you like the guy... Go with it. Live a little. It won't hurt you. You deserve more than the guys you sleep with."
She had already slept with Derek.
But she knew alex was right. He was always right.
"You think so?" She asks unsure.
"I do." He smiles, patting her on the back. "Now can we watch the game without you making a hole on the floor?"he pulls her close and turns the tv on.
Meredith laughs.
And wonder what Derek is doing right now.
She can't stop thinking about him. She feels like she is inside some Taylor Swift's lyrics.
Soo, what do you think? Next episode Derek's mom learns about something important happening on derek's life. And also.. Merder second date!
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