Help, somebody… I need my friends, I need Fairy Tail, I need them all back.

They have done unimaginable things to me, and it has been one month. I don't even want to remember. The pain, the agony, the humiliation, but I still haven't lost all hope. I keep trying to fight back. Even though every time they still knock me out.

I need my scarf. I can't reach it. They got it all messy. It was the only sign of comfort on me. I still remember when I blacked out and woke up in here. I miss regular food. The food here is unspeakable, covered in wastes, and god knows what. But they still make me eat it, and watch me do it. They said if I don't, they'll cut up my scarf, which I have been begging for to have back with me.

Now two months have passed. The food tasted disgusting and horrible. But it was worth it for my scarf and Igneel. I wonder if Igneel knows what's happening to me. I think I'm started to have a death wish. Death is sounding better than life right now.

I don't remember what fresh air smells like. I am becoming numb, thankfully. The first few days here was torture. Now I don't even scream. I really need sleep. I get one hour per day. I used to love sleeping. Now I am so stressed and constantly having nightmare. Every single time my eyes shut.

Where are you, Igneel? Fairy Tail? I thought we were family. Do you guys know I've gone?

They have been recording my hellish experience in a notebook, they're so sick.

I can't use my fire dragon slayer magic, they have placed some sort of magic disabler on me. I think it might be in the foul food they throw at me. I don't even remember what fire tastes like anymore.

Can I still call myself a wizard?

I hope my friends find me. But I think I'm going to lose my mind soon. I can't even speak complete sentences now, or think straight except one sentence.

I miss Fairy Tail.

It has been three months since I was caught. I'm getting skinnier and skinner. I wonder how Happy is coping with my disappearance. Did they find any clues as in to where I am? Makarov, old man, are you concerned about me? Gray? Erza? Wendy? Mira? Lisanna? Laxus? Jet? Freed? and the list continues and continues. I think that's a blessing that I have so many people I care for and love. But it creates more pain for me when I have to leave all them.

I can't continue remembering them. It will only make me suffer more. I need to forget about the joyful times I had with them. Then I'll not continue lingering on those memories and mourn with self pity.

How are you, Lucy? I miss you, so much. You and Happy. Igneel. I don't want you guys to see me like this, you'll probably laugh and think that I'm an utter failure. Which is probably true.

I need to forget about everything.

I stopped counting now. It's not worth anything. I'm losing hope that I'll ever see sunlight again.

It's too painful.

I'll die alone.

I'm losing my mind.

I want to kill myself. I really want to kill myself, but they're not letting me. I miss… them.

I don't bothering to care about how many months I've been in this hellhole, and I think I don't care about anything anymore. Until...

I got out. Lucy, Fairy Tail, Erza, Gray. I don't know who they are, but I feel safe with them. We're going to somewhere called Fairy Tail. I think it's my home.

And as I reach the outside, with those people at my side, supporting me, using that one little part of mind my mind that I haven't yet lost, I blame the bright sunlight for that stray tear that escaped my eye.

Ok so I hope you guys enjoy my little thing! And the new chapter is going to come out soon! I promise! And thanks for the positive feedbacks!

A/N: I do not own Fairy Tail(probably obvious), I would LOVE to though.