Kim certainly wasn't the only one that was over-thinking the situation but at least she had work and a morning looking at new apartments to distract her. Adam had nothing and he barely slept; he was up early and at Antonio's Gym unloading a lot of nervous tension and energy onto an unsuspecting punching bag. He tried to zone out but it was impossible.

"Whoa, you are here early. Did you wet the bed?" Antonio was surprised to see Ruzek when he came in. He was more an after shift guy and never on a Saturday morning. If they weren't working he was usually, like the rest of them nursing the slightest of hangovers from relaxing on a Friday night at Molly's to mark them making it through another week. The sun had barely cracked the horizon and usually the place was only filled with the serious boxers this time of the morning.

"Funny guy."

Antonio leant into the bag, holding it steady for him. "You stewing about something?"

"How can you tell?"

"Well you are beating the shit out of this bag, it's barely dawn and you look like you haven't slept."

"Thank you Detective Dawson." Adam stopped and shook out his arms before ripping off one glove and grabbing a drink and wiping his sweaty face.

"Shall I take a stab in the dark at what's got you all hot and bothered?"

"I would really rather you didn't."

"I bet, but I will anyway. Burgess?"

"Burgess." He repeated as he pulled his glove back on. Antonio braced himself against the bag as he started punching again. It really wasn't giving him the relief he wanted no matter how hard he went.

"What's going on?"

"Who knows? It's all such a clusterfuck. Things were good for awhile and now it's not."

"What happened?"

"The court case happened." He put both hands on his head and sucked in a few deep breaths. "And I told her that I still loved her and then walked out."

"Why?"

"Why did I tell her that I loved her?"

"No, why did you walk out?" Everyone knew that he still loved her, that was as plain as day.

"Because she was vulnerable and emotional and that's what got her into this situation with Roman. I didn't want to be that guy."

"You are not that guy. Don't ever say that." He shoved the punching bag at him angrily. "You cannot compare yourself to him. He was a violent prick and the difference between you and him, apart from the obvious is that you love her and want what is best for her and always have. Things didn't work out the first time, so what?" Antonio shrugged. "Doesn't mean you shouldn't try to make it work now."

"What if it is not want she wants?"

"What have you got to lose?"

"My pride, my self respect and the delicate state of my fragile male ego. Everyone knows she dumped me and then shacked up with Roman, how pathetic does it look if I go crawling back and she rejects me again?"

"Not as pathetic as you look right now wallowing in self pity, drowning in misery and pining over a woman you love but won't do anything about. You seriously suck the life out of the room sometimes with all your moping."

"Thanks man." Ruzek rolled his eyes and took a big swing at the bag. "Nice pep talk."

By the time lunch time came around Kim could barely contain her nerves. She had almost knocked over the glass of water that the waiter had bought to the table as she waited for Adam. Looking at her phone she was praying that there were no messages because she had an irrational fear that he was going to bail on her. The clock told her it was just midday and he wasn't late but god she wished he would hurry up.

"Hi." He leant over and kissed her cheek as he took his seat. He suddenly felt like he was on a first date back in High School and they weren't particularly fun experiences either. "Nice place."

"It's new, I think it's been open about a month."

"How was last night?" He ordered a beer and Kim just had a soda water seeing as she had to work later that night. She could have done with some alcohol right now to settle her nerves.

"Not too crazy. It's definitely starting to get colder at night though."

The waiter came back with his beer and the menu. Kim chuckled a little when Adam ordered. "What?" He didn't even need to look any further once he saw it on the menu.

"Somehow I knew you'd choose the Pork Belly."

Adam shrugged. "I am a creature of habit and I am sill on the hunt for Chicago's best Pork Belly."

"You haven't found it yet?"

"Nope." The banter was easy, then again it always had been. Even before they were actually dating they were comfortable with each other. "Still looking. Anyway, how's your week been?"

"It's been good, better and I feel like I am starting to get on top of things. I have decided to give up my place so I've been looking at a few places this morning."

"Anything good?" He was rolling the beer bottle in his hands, a habit he had when he was thinking about things.

"Not yet. It's slim pickings so far, well in my budget anyway."

They talked about nothing in particular until lunch arrived and Kim was surprised when Adam cut a corner off his Pork and dropped it on her plate. It was something he had always done, given her a taste of his meal when they were together. "What do you think?" he asked, as she tasted it.

"Pretty good."

Once their plates had been cleared Adam reached across the table and rested his hand on hers. He rubbed his thumb back and forth across her knuckles. "I'm sorry about last week. I wasn't fair to you that day, after the Court Case but I want you to know I meant it. Every word."

"You don't know how happy that made me. To hear you say that after everything."

"I don't know what it means for us though."

"I hope it means we are going to try." Kim looped her fingers through and caressed his palm with her thumb.

"Me too." Adam admitted. "It might take some time though. I don't want to rush you."

"See that's where differ. I want you to rush."

"I can tell." He winked.

Kim had a few more places lined up to look at that afternoon. Adam offered to go with her and it felt a little strange. Obviously the relator assumed that they were looking for a place together. Every time it was mentioned Adam looked a little uncomfortable and would mumbled that they weren't together. It left Kim feeling a little battered; he was making it quite clear that they had a long road to plough.

Adam hung around until Kim left for work, they had grabbed pizza for dinner after the apartment hunting was done and watched TV. For the first time in a long time they decided they didn't want to talk, that being together and searching for that sliver of normalcy was what they needed. Nights like this were pretty regular when they were together and it was nice to go back there again. "I just want to stay here." She was curled up on her couch. "With you."

"You need to go protect and serve." Adam kissed the top of her head.

"I am scared you will change your mind overnight."

"Not going to happen. I will see you tomorrow I promise." He sealed his promise with a long slow kiss before he left her to get ready for work. The temptation had been there when they got back to her place to fall into bed together but Adam had held back and Kim let him. One thing he knew, without a doubt it wasn't going to happen here, in this place with all the memories. His and hers. He had good memories here, it was the place they first got together and they had hid out here regularly in the early days. Kim's memories were mixed. Roman had destroyed this place for her.

It was almost midday when he woke. Grabbing his phone he had one message from Kim letting him know that she was home and going to get a few hours sleep. Before he had the chance to answer his phone rang. He assumed it was Kim so had to look twice at the number. He didn't recognise it.

He shot Kim a quick message. 'Something has come up. Sorry.'

Kim rolled over and peered at the clock when she heard her phone beep. The day was half done and she'd obviously come home and crashed and had slept for a solid five hours. Her heart sank at his message. He had promised her that he would still be around today; that he wasn't going to change his mind.

Kim kept staring at the message, trying to figure it out. It could be work, or perhaps he had changed his mind, she had no idea and that wasn't pleasant feeling. Moments like this did nothing for her anxiety. By the time Atwater stopped by and they headed out to grab a coffee Kim had gone through every single scenario she could think of and none of them were pretty. "I thought you'd be a work today?"

"Nope." Kevin muttered and that made Kim even more nervous. All this back and forth was seriously doing her head in. They were so close one minute and miles apart the next. Last night she finally felt that they were sorting it out and now he had disappeared again. She couldn't keep doing this. "Why?"

Catching up with Kevin suddenly didn't feel like a good idea. "I don't know. Adam was meant to come over and I haven't heard from him. He said something came up and I assumed it was work."

"Not that I am aware of. Maybe he's off books with a CI or something." Kevin shrugged. "Speaking of Ruzek. What's going on?"

"I don't know. It's back and forth at the moment. I think we are going to try and work things out, well that's what I thought last night but now I have no idea. Maybe he's had time to think about it and decided it's too hard."

"Nah, I think he knows what he wants. Don't jump to conclusions."

"I know. That's what got me into this mess. Making assumptions."

"And if it turns out that he's being a dick, I promise to personally knock him into next week."