AN: I had so much fun writing this! Almost as much fun as reading your reviews :) I know Dean's logic doesn't make much sense but when does it ever. Something I wanted to talk about; I know Sam is moose but he always seems like a rabbit to me. Go back to any emotional scene (it's really obvious in the scene where Dean is confessing what Hell was like) and you will see the telltale nose twitches and flares and just a lot of movement from the nose region. I swear he's just a cute little bunny rabbit. Do you agree?

"Goodbye Sam"

Sam shook his head, "No, Dean. You can't give up not like this. You're gonna be fine. I'll make sure of it!"

Dean was slightly aware of Sam's presence as he spoke to him and then to his phone giving their location and Dean's condition. Sam was the only reason he was still fighting. He wished Sammy would leave him alone. Let him rest. God, how he wanted it to be over. To never have to deal with any of this shit again. He was ready to die. But he couldn't leave Sammy.

His little brother was everything. Dean could remember Sammy's first laugh like it was yesterday, the joyous noise still brought a smile to his face. It was the most beautiful sound in the world. Suddenly, he was painfully aware that he may never hear that laughter again. He had to keep fighting he had to. For Sammy. He told himself his brother needed him. His brother could not possibly be ok without him. And he definitely did not want little Sammy thinking any of this was his fault.

Dean sucked breath into his lungs with a new sense of urgency. It wasn't that the welcoming nothingness was any less appealing than before. He still longed to let go. But his bitchy brother was once again ruining his life. Well, death. The thought of Sam ruining anything made Dean laugh, and he saw through hazy eyes his brother whipping around to face him at the noise. But it was six year old Sammy's face he saw, full of hopes and dreams. Dreams of a life he'd never get to live. Maybe, he'd failed his brother. Maybe he was holding him back.

The ambulance arrived and Dean felt himself being lifted onto a stretcher and carried into the vehicle. Maybe it was time he set Sammy free. Sam would mourn for a while, but Bobby would be there to help him through it. And eventually, maybe in a couple of months, maybe not for a few years, Sam would forget about him. It would be hard but he would do it. And then he would have the life he deserved. He'd go back to Stanford, become a lawyer, meet a girl, fall in love... The whole shebang. And then he could finally be happy

The image of Sam's happy face was front in center in his mind as he prepared to let go.

Unfortunately, Sam had other plans.

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Sam drove along at a steady pace behind the ambulance. Following it to the local hospital. It was called the Happy Hills Hospital. Funny. Sam couldn't remember the last time he'd been to the hospital for a happy occasion. His nostrils flared as he thought about how stupid he was for leaving Dean in his previous state. How could he have been so dull! And now Dean was... he was... giving up. Dean was giving up! How could he do this to him! What did he expect Sam to do just roll over and let his brother die! He clenched the steering wheel tighter. He wanted to punch Dean so hard... but even more he wanted to hug his brother, to tell him everything was going to be fine and actually mean it.

They arrived at the hospital and Sam was herded to a separate parking lot, while the ambulance containing his brother disappeared from sight. He took a deep breath as he pulled into the first parking spot available. He just hoped Dean hadn't given up completely.

Endnotes: So, I'm sorry for this chapter and for all the ones to follow about my lack of accuracy when it comes to hospital procedure. I should really know this stuff because my dad is a radiologist and I've been to the ER many a time for my chronic migraine but I guess I've just never payed that much attention. Anyway, I will do my best. As always please review and follow, cause I really appreciate it. Also, let me know if you also noticed the rabbit thing cause it's been bugging me for a while!