"how did you remember?" i ask feeling fairly stupid .
"how could i forget?" she says lightly with a little laugh. how could i forget?
"all that counting" she jokes yet my mind still reals back to when we first met and how eager i was to grow up.
"but why now? we didnt do anything last year" i say and her smile drops the slightest bit
"well things were a little hectic last year. i wanted to but i just didn't get the time" she says, clearly noticing the fact that we havent been spending too much time together.
"tell me about it" i say looking down trying hard to keep my noise flat.
"anyway" viola says shaking her head, her familiar warm smile back. "i have something planned just for the two of us"
"what?" i say and i can feel myself smiling at the thought of some alone time with viola finally.
"well come with me and youll find out" she says taking my hand and leading me out of the stable doors.
"were not going on angharad?" i ask trying to figure out where shes taking me.
"no i just wanted to give her some apples" she says simply which makes me smile even more. viola leads me right to the edge of town to a small cluster of trees and straight through them. we carry on going all the way to the rivers edge where i see a small blanket laid out with a basket.
"whats this?" i ask as she sits on the blanket near the waters edge and i sit next to her, looking across the river.
"ben sorted it all. said he thought we should have some time to our selves" she says shrugging and picking up the basket.
"its beautiful here" i say taking in our surrounding as viola unloads what evers in the basket. it appears to be sandwiches.
"isnt it" she says grinning at me and handing me a sandwich. "i didnt even know it was here."
"i walk past it a few times but never think to go inisde" isay still looking high above us into the tree tops where birds sing and flutter around.
"i dont get to see anythong other than whats outside the windows at the house of healing. same view every day for two years" she says sighing.
"itll be over soon" i say partly without meaning to and she looks at me with a questioning look. i dont say anything more in fear of her chnaging her mind soi just eat my sandwich and she does the same.
"ive missed you" viola sighs quietly but i know exactly how he feels. "we've both been so busy we haven't had any time to our selves since he war"
"weve got now" i say with a shurg and she smiles.
"yeah" she says and i feel myself smiling back.
"im glad" i admit
"me too" she says and i see her hand so close to mine and i just have to take it in my own so i do and viola twists our fingers together and we both shit there staring at our intertwined hands, my heart beating fast and faster and a thought comes to mind, something i havent thought of doing but have thought about every day for two years and i know viola sees it in my noise from the first time but we carry on staring at our hands.
"Todd..." she starts to say but i cut her off by pressing my lips to hers. its the first time in a long time but it feels just as good, deep down in the pit of my stomach theres a fluttering that rises and spreads through me right to the tips of my fingers. viola presses into it more and i feel it slightly leading towards something more, something that im not sure if its good or bad but something i think i want just the same. i press back, making my way onto my knees and viola does the same until our bodys are pressed together and i wrap my arms around her somehow pulling her closer, never letting out lips part. i feel her hand on the back of my neck like when she first kissed me and im only dimly aware of her other hand pulling at my top because it viola viola viola and my noise is pouring with my love for her, the way i havent seen her properly in so long, where this may lead and the way i kinda want it to and i pull back too quick suddenly scared of what viola may want too. she looks at me confused for a moment, her delicate finger tips touching my check and slowly trailing to my jaw as we both catch our breaths and her eyes are darting all over my face and i can tell shes reading me.
"viola, im sorry, i didnt know..." i start but im so embarassed and confused and dizzy and loved up that i cant get a single word out right but she just shakes her head and smiles sligh
"its okay todd, i wanted to too" she says quietly and i see in the way shes holding her self close to me, the way her hands touch me, in the way she was pulling at me that she means it and i suddenly feel so stupid, so much so that i want to pull away and give viola the chance to be with someone who will go that extra mile and wont stop because hes slightly scared. but i dont because i also want to be with her, and do it all with her so much so that im selfish enough to take all her chances she could have with other people and keep them all for myself only to never use them.
"no todd" viola says shaking her head and i realise that i was so wrapped up in feeling stupid that i forgot to even try and cover up my noise.
"i want you, only you and all of you" she says so softly it gives me a strong urge to kiss her again.
"i want you too" i say so quietly im not sure she even heard it but my noise hums it loud and clear and out in the open and all she does is slightly nods her head and kisses me.
Sooooo im guessing you could have guessed what todd was thinking about the whole time (winky winky face) and if not then im guessing youre too young or just dont jump to the dirty mindedness like i do but oh well if not im sure youll figure it out later on in the story.
i have quite alot of ideas for this story but its very jumpy so youll have to bare with me on this one as it is my first draft and first story. id also like to try a lil collaboration later on in the story so just pm me if youre interested or just want me to ad any crazy (or not so crazy) ideas to it and ill try my best!
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okay im done now for a few chapters.
goodbye friends! - (hopefully friends and not people who actually hate me)