More Sadness and a Discovery

"And that's how you find 7.234 multiplied by 2.67. Can anyone explain the estimation process to me?" Ms. Betalina explained. I shrunk lower into my desk, praying she wouldn't pick me. You see, I used to love to raise my hand and say the answers, because I knew they'd be correct. I don't know if that made Livvy jealous, but last Monday, I volunteered to answer a question and got it wrong, and she won't let me hear the end of it.

"Hmm, how about, Jake?" Ms. Betalina said. Everyone looked over to Jake. The guy with dark gray hair that was cute ruffled, and these deep brown eyes….As you can tell, I like him. No-I love him. But, as you can tell, no one pays attention to me. Jake glances at his paper, then says,

"7 times 3, which gives you 21, which is pretty close to 19.31478." I marvel at how he gets it right. Of course, so did I, but I'm not amazing like Jake. Then the thought of the Upcoming Fall Dance hits me. Would I have the courage to ask Jake? No, definitely not. But the more I think about it, the more I consider the possibilities. I end up writing a bunch of things I could say to Jake.

Ways to Ask Jake to the Dance

1. "Hi, since the dance is coming up, wanna go with me?"

2. "I like you a lot and wondered if you wanted to go to the dance."

3. "Are you going to the dance? If so, wanna go with me?"

4. "You're really handsome, do you wan-

I ended up erasing that one. Finally I settled on something.

5. "Wanna go to the dance?"

It was straightforward, and simple. The bell rang, I gathered up my books and my courage, the walked over to Jake as he was gathering his things.

"Hi Jake." I said, brushing my light brown hair out of my face. He looked up.

"Oh hey." He continued to shuffle with his books.

"Um, So I was thinking, you see," Then I remembered my notes. "Look, do you wanna go to the dance with me?" He stopped and looked up at me. His face was red. I was confused. Rage? Embarrassment? Maybe….love? Nope.

"Uh, I kinda already asked someone. Sorry." Then he walked away quickly. I nodded.

"Um, that's alright." I call after him, knowing he didn't hear. The laugh that announced Livvy sounded. I wipe my eyes quickly.

"Oh, hi Livvy." I say. She laughs again.

"Why would you ever think Jake would take interest in you?" I looked down at my worn out black chuck taylors.

"Can't you see he already loves someone?" I know that looking over at Jake will make my cry more, but I can't help myself. I see Jake hugging Zinnia. He tells her something, then walks off. Zinnia giggles, her orange ponytail bouncing.

"You're so ugly. I mean, look at that clothes! Why would Jake ever love you?" With that they walk away, leaving me in the math room. Tears splash onto my books, soaking through the cover, but I can't care. I look at Zinnia one more time. At her sparkly white top, and her light purple mini skirt. At her matching white and purple flats with cute little bows. At her glittery lip gloss and lotion that makes her skin shimmer. At her bright green eyes, so green they were like sparkling emeralds. I watched her walk off with Livvy. I follow them slightly, just because I'm curious. They meet Carina and Lyra at their lockers and exchange giggles. Livvy writes something on Carina's hot pink locker white board. I stand to the side and can just make out what it says.

"Bffs forever! Signed: Livvy,"

Then Lyra and Zinnia sign it too. Carina swings her locker closed and all the girl skip off giggling. It's time for lunch. I walk over to my own locker and slide my books in. Then I walk down to the lunch room and sit in the corner to watch Livvy and her crew snap selfies and swap desserts. My tears fall again. I watch them splash into the soup that I thought would stay warm until lunchtime. Jake doesn't like me, I bullied at school, my mother hates me, and my sister treats me like an outsider,. That makes me realize just how lonely I am. More tears fall. Eventually I throw away my book and walk into the bathroom, the place that I go to often these days. Here, my tears can fall freely. I cry until I can cry no more, then sit on the floor. Some might say that's bad but I don't care about anything anymore. I stand up and look in the mirror, like I do after I finish crying. The necklace I found is hanging from my neck, the charm dangling and sparkling. I like that necklace, it was like it was meant for me, and it made me feel special. I look at the cover of my Warriors book. The Sight. I can't help but smile at Hollypaw, Jaypaw, and Lionpaw. Their lives seem so happy in the enclosure of their camp, safe and secure. I sigh.

I wish I was a cat. I think to myself. I slump over the sink. My feet had begun to tingle, as if they had fallen asleep. I shook my foot, but it felt the same. Not like it matters. I keep staring at that book. My arms have begun to tingle too. I look up to see my hair blowing around my face, and I'm rising slightly off the floor.

"What's wrong with me?!" I exclaim desperately, but everyone's at lunch, and no one hears me. The I look into the mirror and realize my necklace is glowing a thick golden color. It flashes, then I drop. Except I don't know where I am. I look around. Gray and a blue walls that look very dirty…..the girls bathroom! I'm standing underneath the sink. I've shrunk. I look down at myself, and realize that I have paws. Light brown tabby paws. I run to the big mirror. I'm a cat! I'm a light brown tabby with white paws, ears, tail tip, and necklace is still around my neck. I look up. My eyes are blue. Very blue. So blue they're almost purple.

Just like the flower I'm named after..

I think. Then new thoughts interrupt me. What if someone comes into the bathroom? I frantically think of something. Footsteps sound down the hall. Panic flutters inside my chest.

"Oh, what do I do! I wish I was a human!" I was pacing around the bathroom, but suddenly my pacing stopped. I felt the tingling again. Soon, I flew upwards and was human again. It struck me. This necklace turns me into a cat at my command! I gasped in awe. I fingered the necklace around in my hand. I wonder what else it can do….

Hi everyone! I've been working on this for the past few weeks. Hope you like it!

Other Random Stuff:

*I'm still writing my other stories.

*I might update certain stories less often, like Warrior Cat Spies

*This is just something I thought of while I was in the shower...

*Bye! Meow!