A/N: Hey guys! I am going to be taking a break from writing for a while. I am going out of town to watch my baby cousins, and I feel like my writing hasn't been very well lately. I think it's a pretty good time to take a step back. I probably won't post another chapter until the end of august because I will be gone until then.

Please enjoy the next chapter of Backstabbers Never Die!

Clary was sitting on a yoga mat in her Lamaze class with Isabelle sitting behind her. Most of the women had a husband or a boyfriend, and Clary had her best friend. She would have invited Jace, but she didn't think that they were close enough for him to be in the room when she gave birth. Izzy wrapped her arms around Clary's belly, resting her cheek on her shoulder.

"Now, breathe in and out. Now partners it is your job to help create a relaxed and calm environment for the mother." The instructor showed the class how to inhale and exhale to keep from getting winded during labor. Clary repeated the exercise, closing her eyes. The first half of this class they explained what giving birth was like and what to expect, which made Clary terrified to give birth. The relaxing techniques they learned immediately after that really helped calm her down.

"I don't get why we have to be taught to breath." Izzy muttered, sighing quietly. Clary shushed her, attempting to pay attention. "Are you seeing Jace tonight? He just got back didn't he?" She whispered with a smile.

"Iz, this is almost over, and I really need to listen. Shh." Clary put her finger to her lip, turning her attention back to the instructor.

"Now, labor can last a long time, and it is important to move around. If you stay in bed in those stirrups the whole time, you'll feel even more uncomfortable and even more stressed. Walking around the room or bouncing on an exercise ball it can advance birth and relieve pain." The woman explained, as she got to her feet. "Until next time, keep practicing those exercises with your partners, and I will see you next week." She grinned at them.

"Now you can talk." Clary glanced back at her friend, who was now standing.

"Here, I'll help you up." She held her hands out, and Clary took them, pulling her to her feet. "Let's go get some lunch." She smiled, leading the way out to the car. Clary hated driving now because she felt she was steering across her stomach. Isabelle drove them to a little café, where Clary got a sandwich.

Clary didn't realize how painful the whole process of giving birth might be. She knew it wasn't going to be pleasant, but she didn't realize that her entire cervix would be expanding. She kind of just wanted to keep little Jon inside of her now.

"So are you seeing Jace tonight?" Izzy asked, leaning against the table, which broke her scary thoughts.

"No, he gets in a kind of late, so I figured we would just get together with him tomorrow for dinner." She shrugged, ruffling her hair. She missed Jace. His trip had gotten postponed five days because of a political emergency, so she hadn't seen him in days.

"That's no fun." She wrinkled her nose at her, playing with her food.

"What about you? How's your love life going?" She snickered, changing the subject.

"I met someone." She sighed happily.

"Of course you did." Clary teased, winking at her.

"No, like I really met someone. I mean I met him a while ago, but he just asked me out the other day. I didn't even know he was interested in me like that, and he didn't even try to get into my skirt. At first I was offended, but he said he wanted us to get to know each other before we took that step. We've been on like 5 dates, and, I don't know, I haven't felt like this before." She explained with a small smile across her face.

"Really?" Clary bit her lip, knowing that Isabelle only really felt lust for guys.

"Yeah, I do want to get him in bed though." She smirked heavily with a glint in her eyes.

"Of course you do." She laughed.

OoOoO

There was a soft knock on the door late at night. Clary paused the TV, setting down her box of fancy chocolates. She waddled towards the door before peeking her head out to see who it was. She was mortified when she realized it was Jace, and promptly slammed the door in his face. She had a face mask on, she was covered in sweat from a hot flash, and her hair was sticking in every which direction. "Clary?" His voice was muffled, as he knocked again.

"I wish you would have called. I look like a disaster." She leaned against the door, feeling absolutely humiliated. No one had seen her this trashed before. She only let herself look like this because she knew Alec was staying at Magnus' tonight.

"I don't care. I've been in New York for a week and a half, and I missed you." He murmured, rasping his knuckle against the wood. "I can go if you want, but I really wanted to see you."

"Promise not to laugh." She sighed quietly, turning the handle. She knew her face was red under her mask, and her hot flash had made things even worse. He smiled faintly, leaning down to kiss her lightly.

"You look a little rough, but you are still in incredibly sexy." He smirked, cupping her neck lightly. She met his eyes, feeling like they widened with surprise. Whenever he calls her sexy, her stomach does a flip. She doesn't get it either. Cute, yes, but sexy?

"I'm going to wash this off of my face real quick." She scurried to the bathroom, quickly scrubbing her face. She couldn't believe that he saw her like this. She felt super embarrassed even if he said she was sexy. He was probably just appeasing her because he felt bad for her. She stared at herself in front of the mirror, and hated how she looked right now. She could see the layer of sweat on her skin with her hair sticking every which direction. She slid her hand over her stomach, feeling overwhelming fat. She huffed quietly, walking back into the living room. She sat up on the couch with him, tucking her legs under her. She picked up her chocolates, pressing play. She could feel Jace's gaze on her.

"What are you watching?" Jace asked, slinging his arm over her shoulders.

"Just Friends. The only funny part is the brothers though." She shrugged her shoulders, leaning against him. It felt good to be held by someone again. She missed his arms coiled around her, keeping her secure and safe. She picked up one of her chocolates and bit it before dropping it back in the little box.

"I thought you aren't supposed to eat chocolate?" He questioned, looking curiously at her. Clary stared at the box, feeling tears well up in her eyes. She felt horrible. She sniffed heavily, as tears rolled down her cheeks. "I didn't mean to make you cry. I just thought you weren't supposed to have caffeine or something." He rubbed her back, hugging him to her when she started sobbing.

"I feel awful. I am hot. I am tired. My back hurts. Today has just sucked, and I thought chocolate would make me feel better because it used to make me feel better. Now it just gives me heartburn, and I am still eating it." She cried into her hands, gasping for breath. "I am so sweaty. I feel like I'm on fire. If I wasn't pregnant I would take an ice bath or something because it is like I am covered in flames." She dropped her hands, gazing pathetically at him. Jace got to his feet, and Clary's head fell. She thought that he was finally done with her. She has so much baggage to deal with; she didn't understand how he could be interested. She heard him open the fridge, which made her realize that he wasn't leaving. He placed something cold on her neck before tugging the pony out of her hair. She sighed softly when he pulled her hair up into a pony tail.

"You're ok." He kissed her head. He walked around the couch, sitting next to her. He pulled her into his lap, keeping her close.

"Thank you." She rested her head against his chest, as he rubbed her arm.

"I missed you." He whispered, kissing her temple. She snuggled into him, nuzzling her head into his neck, as she closed her eyes. She listened to his heart, as she let herself calm down. She had been getting all worked up, but now it was all released and she could relax.

"What was happening in New York?" She questioned softly, wanting to know about him.

OoOoO

Clary woke up early the next morning, and Jace's arms were coiled around her. He held her protectively, which made her smile. He was still fast asleep, and she turned in her arms to face. She traced her fingers along his cheek, making his squeeze his eyes shut slightly. She smiled, sliding her nail down the curve of her nose.

She was a mess last night, but he made it all better. She found herself being much happier around him, which surprised her. She was happy without him. She didn't need him to be happy, but she found herself smiling a lot more when he was there. He always knew what to do to make things better. He told her how to help her back. He put an ice pack on her neck. He called her beautiful when she needed it the most.

He worked hard, and he was a good person. She felt like that was kind of rare these days. She needed to do something for him because he has done so much good for her. She curled her fingers to his chin, feeling the stubble that appeared. She wondered what she should do for him. She pursed her lips when she realized that they never did anything that he really wanted to do. They just went out to meals really. She was going to have to figure out some things that he liked because he deserved to be given just as much as she gave him.

"Clary, why are you touching my face?" His eyes were still closed, making her blush slightly.

"Because you have a very handsome face." She whispered, pecking his nose lightly. He smiled sleepily, pulling her closer to him. "Thank you for coming last night." She breathed, rubbing his arm.

"I needed my dose of baby kicks." He placed a hand on her belly, making her snicker quietly.

"You've never really said how you want to be involved with my baby." She muttered, glancing away from him.

"I don't really know." He murmured, slipping his hand under her t-shirt onto the skin of her stomach.

"That's ok." She breathed, sliding her fingers over his. "I was just curious if you wanted to just help or did you want to be like his dad." She felt a little vulnerable talking about it, but she needed to know before the baby came.

"I don't know." He kissed her lightly. "I just feel like I need to be around a little more, you know? I feel like the second I say that I want to be your baby's dad everything changes, and we aren't ready for that." He whispered, moving his hand to cradle her cheek. "I mean it's only been a few months." He circled his thumb gently across her skin, looking at her with kind eyes.

"I understand." She nuzzled into his hand, feeling slightly disappointed by his response.

"I have to go soon." He sighed, glancing over at the clock.

"Right, you have work." She murmured, as their eye contact broke.

"Yeah." He exhaled a long breath, seeming like he didn't want to leave. "I'll see you tonight at 7 for our date. Good luck meeting with attorneys today." He slanted his lips against her own, making her body drift closer to his. His hand slid down to her hip, squeezing it lightly. She whimpered softly, wanting him to kiss her into oblivion. He is so good at kissing. "Bye." He bumped her nose lightly with his before climbing out of her bed. She watched him grab his things and head out the door. She rolled onto her back, staring up the ceiling.

OoOoO

A few hours later, Clary was sitting in the defense attorney's office. She was one of their lead witnesses in Sebastian's trail, which made her overwhelmingly nervous. Alec went with her because he is still her attorney, and he was worried that they would badger her. "Alec, what's something that Jace likes to do? I want to do something for him, but I don't know what to do." She asked, pursing her lips. She knew that it was time to work, but she had some free time before the lawyer came in.

"I don't know. He's a pretty basic guy." He shrugged, leaning back in her seat.

"That isn't helpful." She muttered, crossing her arms.

"He likes boats. He used to have one, but then it got destroyed in a storm." He explained with a faint smile. "I sued the crap out of the harbor for not properly storing it."

"Sebastian had a boat, which means I have boat." She bit back a grin, knowing that it was a perfect idea.

"You know everything is going to be fine with the trail." Alec placed his hand over hers, making her relax a little bit. "You don't need to do this if you don't want to." He assured him.

"No, I need to." She took a shaky breath, feeling her stomach churn.

"Lilith is a vicious lawyer. Remember when she threatened you. I just don't want her to get you to accidently say something that would get him off the hook." He explained.

"I can handle Lilith, and you'll be sitting at the table that day, won't you? You can object." She said hopefully, as the lawyers walked in.

"Yes, your lawyer can be on the panel when you are being questioned." The defense attorney walked in, sitting in front of them. Clary felt her baby do flips in her belly, which just confirmed her nerves. "Now, we are going to need to prep you. We have a lot of questions to go through today. Are you ready to start?" He asked, moving a paper in front of her.

"Yes." She nodded, inhaling a small breath.

"When did Sebastian begin disrespecting you?"

"I mean, I guess he always did. There was never really a specific time, and I let him get away with a lot of things because I didn't think I could do better than him. I realized that he was disrespectful about a year ago, but it's always been there." She explained, feeling foolish for not noticing sooner.

"All we want you to say is that he was always disrespectful, but you noticed it a year ago."

"He was always disrespectful, but I only noticed it a little while ago." She repeated, feeling her stomach churn a little.

"Good." The lawyer smiled at her.

OoOoO

Clary pulled at her jeans and t-shirt, as she stared in the mirror. Today had been such a long day, and her body felt needy. She wanted to be filled up so bad, but she wasn't married anymore. She was with Jace, but they had a long discussion about sex. They both agreed that they should wait. Now she wants him so much, and she wants to feel completed. She tried to shake that feeling off, but it wasn't going away. She ran a brush through her hair when there was a knock on the door. She felt tense and frustrated, and she knew how it could be relieved.

Clary opened the door, slamming her lips against Jace's. He didn't even hesitate, as he picked her up to set her on the table by the door. Alec's things clattered to the ground, but Clary couldn't bring herself to care while Jace's tongue was thoroughly shoved down her throat and vice versa. She moaned heavily when his hips landed in the space she wanted filled up. She gripped his hair tightly, keeping him firmly against her body. His hands played with the hem of her shirt, which made her draw away. She lifted her arms up, letting him remove the piece of cloth before planting his lips to her neck. She whimpered, letting her head fall back against the wall. He felt so good. She clawed his shirt off, pulling his mouth back to hers, as she held onto his back tightly before fumbling with his belt. Once it was free, she slipped her hand into his pants.

Jace's hips rolled into her hand, as he shuttered, dropping his head on her shoulder. She grinned deviously, liking the way he began to uncoil, but then he took a few steps back, staring at her with bewilderment. "What?" She chewed on her lip, wondering why he drew away from her. He looked like he was enjoying himself.

"You just..." He trailed off, putting his hand in his hair. "I thought you wanted to wait." He murmured, inhaling a deep breath.

"I-I know, but I just I want to have sex so bad right now. It was like everything in my body wants sex. I am so turned on all the time, and I want you inside me." She whined, shrugging her shoulders.

"Clary," he looked sympathetically at her. "It's just your hormones." He picked up his shirt, walking back over to her.

"I know, but I really want to. Why can't we? I don't see why it matters." She hopped down from the table, spreading her fingers across his abs.

"You specifically told me you wanted to wait, and I feel like I'm taking advantage of you if you only want to have sex because of the hormones." He held her cheeks in his hands, as he looked down on her. "I want you because you want me, because you love me, like you said before." He kissed her head lightly, hugging her to him.

"Why are you being so difficult?" She groaned in annoyance. She knew she was being irrational, but all of her nerves were on fire and full of want. "I throw myself at you, and you don't want to do it." She drew away from him, heading straight to her room. She slammed the door behind her, knowing that she sounded like a child. What was she doing?

"Clary?" He knocked quietly, leaning against the door.

"What?" She snapped, sitting with her arms crossed on the bed.

"Open the door." He spoke softly. She sighed quietly, creaking the door open slightly. "You are beautiful and amazing and super pregnant. I don't want to take advantage of you." She didn't respond. "Are you mad at me?" He murmured, sounding disappointed.

"No." She huffed, feeling angrier at herself now. She cased her eyes down, as her face filled with heat "I think I should spend the night alone tonight. I am feeling really worked up, and I don't want to snap at you again." She murmured, biting down on her lip.

"You sure?" He questioned softly.

"Yeah, can we do dinner tomorrow?" She suggested, scratching her tummy lightly.

"Of course. I guess I'll be going." She hated hearing the hurt in his voice, but she knew that she was all worked up. She didn't want to fight with him. Now she definitely needed to do something with her. He was so patient with her, and she didn't deserve him.

A/N: I just realized that we don't know all that much about this Jace. I will be remedying that because now their relationship is kind of shifting. She is officially divorced, and she doesn't need to do a bunch of stuff for the trial so I am going to try to focus on them.

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