A/N: Hey guys! I'm sorry about the long wait for this. I have had it typed up for a while, but it has been taking me forever to try to edit it. Now it isn't perfect. I just got tired of reading the same four sentences. Thanks for all the reviews. I think you'll like the end of this chapter!
Clary giggled violently when his lips trailed across her neck, when his nose nuzzled hers. She turned his face, giving him one of the sloppiest kisses against his mouth. He moaned softly, moving to straddle her hips, as he fingers went into his lush hair. She ran her hand down his lean back, making her groan with want. "I really wish I wasn't wearing a diaper." She panted, letting her tongue go and explore his mouth.
"Please talk dirty to me." Jace laughed, moving his mouth to the skin on her neck.
"You are so weird." She snickered, angling her neck for him.
"I never said I was normal." He cupped her cheeks in his hands, planting his lips on hers once again. She held onto his bare waist, trying not to get completely lost in him. It was a very easy to abandon everything and just worry about the man that was over her, the man that loved her. When they got home from the hospital, Jonathan had cried for hours, which broke her heart. He finally dozed off, and Clary laid him in the crib successfully. Jace had grabbed her hand, tangling their lips together the second the baby was all tucked in.
Clary pulled away from Jace when Jonathan's cries came over the baby monitor.
"We should get him." She was huffing for breath, looking towards the door.
"I can get him." He kissed her once more before climbing out of bed.
"Good that means I can catch my breath." She stretched her limbs across the covers, hears Jonathan's screams get closer. Jace handed the baby to her, sitting next to her. "What's wrong, sweetheart?" She patted his back lightly, sticking her pinkie into the baby's mouth. He started sucking on her finger for a second before he started to scream again. "Why do you think he's crying?" She asked Jace, settling back against the head board. He shrugged his shoulders. "Seriously, why do you think he's crying? If you want to be his dad, you need to know how to take care of him." She explained quietly, handing Jonathan over to him. Jace cringed slightly, which made her a little nervous, but he needed to know how to be a dad. This is the only way he can learn.
"Well, he isn't hungry because you fed him thirty minutes ago. His diaper isn't full or we would smell it." He adjusted Jonathan in his arms, cradling him against his chest. "He might be cold?" He suggested, feeling hesitant about his idea.
"He could be." She agreed, unwrapping Jonathan from his blanket.
"Why are you taking his blanket off if he's cold?" Jace asked, as Clary laid Jonathan across Jace's chest and draped a blanket over the babe's body.
"You can heat him up with skin to skin contact." She smiled, as Jonathan's cries slowly subsided. She baby nuzzled his cheek into Jace's chest, making her sigh with happiness. They looked so adorable together. "He also probably wanted some attention." She kissed Jonathan's head, lying next to him, which was snuggled against Jace's torso.
"I know you probably don't want to talk about this, but what are you planning to do if Sebastian walks free?" Jace asked, running his fingers through her hair.
"You're right, I don't want to talk about that." She stiffened, rubbing Jonathan's back lightly.
"What are you going to do?" He murmured, playing with a lock of hair.
"I'm leaving the country." She let out a small sigh, shaking her head, as she sat up. "I could be in the same country as him if he's not in jail. He's too dangerous. I can't let him anywhere near Jonathan." She placed her hand on her baby's back, silently promising to protect him from his father.
"I understand." He rubbed Jonathan's back lightly, turning his eyes to the now sleeping baby.
"Will you go with me?" She asked softly, biting her lip.
"I don't know." He blew out slightly, shaking his head. "I want to." His gaze found hers again, and she could see that he wasn't sure.
"I understand." She huffed, putting her hand to her face. "I need to be able to not worry about Sebastian. I wish trails didn't take so long. He deserves to be in prison, why does it take 6 months for him to get put there." She laid next to him, wrapping her arm around his thick bicep.
"I don't know." He kissed her forehead, moving his arm around to put his arm around her. "I helped give the DA the evidence against him for the embezzlement. There is more than enough to convict him." He explained, tangling their hands together. She sighed heavily, not wanting to think about her ex-husband.
"I know." She looked up at him, kissing him lightly.
She pushed those thought out of her mind, focusing on her nuzzling baby. He was her life force right now. He kept her sane through everything because she knew that she had to be strong for him. He is a defenseless little boy, and she needed to protect him from the evil in this world. She needed to do for him what she couldn't do for her brother.
She wished that Jon could see her son. They didn't always get along, but they were family. She was so scared about what had happened to him for months, and she was completely crushed to hear the man that she brought into their family had killed them. The worst part was that Jonathan hated Sebastian. Jonathan tried so hard to get her to not marry him, but she did anyways. She should have listened.
"Are you ok?" Jace breathed, pressing his lips gently to her head.
"I'm fine." She inhaled a small breath, not wanting to drudge all of this up now. She had been holding back everything dealing with her brother for months, and now that her little boy was here and named after him, it was hard to not think about him. It was hard to not think about how she blamed herself for his death.
"You're not." He stated quietly, urging her to talk to him.
"I'm just thinking about my brother. I wish he was still here." She stroked Jonathan's little head, wondering if he would grow up to look like her brother.
"You never talk about him." Jace craned his head slightly, trying to see her face without disturbing Jonathan.
"I know. I've kind of been avoid talking about him. It's just hard." She exhaled a long breath.
"Yeah." He agreed. "I'm here when you are ready to talk about it." He assured her, making her chest lighten.
"I know." She smiled faintly at him, sitting up. "We need to move Jonathan." She murmured, as his little hand grasped onto her fingers. "He might get a fever soon."
"A fever?" Jace furrowed his brow slightly.
"Skin to skin contact with someone other than the mom for more than 30 minutes can give a baby a fever." She carefully tucked the blanket around Jonathan, pushing herself into a sitting position.
"Interesting." He hummed.
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Clary set the baby tub in the sink, feeling a little nervous to give Jonathan's first bath. Jace had gone to work, leaving her alone in her apartment with Jonathan. She made sure the tub was safe before scurrying over to the baby. She gathered Jonathan in her arms, kissing his temple. She tested the water for the third time, making sure it wasn't too hot for him. She stripped off his onesie, and she placed him in the tub.
"There we go." She cooed, rubbing his little belly. She saw his lips curl up slightly, as she scooped up the water in her hands, getting his shoulders wet. "I wish I could see you open your eyes." She smiled, squirting some soap into her hand before scrubbing it with him. "I hope they are green." She breathed, wanting some part of him to be here.
He splashed his hands in the water, making her giggle softly. He was so cute. She couldn't get over how adorable this baby boy was. All the pain, and labor, and the blood was worth it. Her heart swelled, watching him squirm around. He hit his fist against the water, causing a big splash, a he moved his head around.
She gathered him out of the tub, quickly toweling him off before he got too cold. He was so tiny. She couldn't get over it. She kissed his little feeties before rubbing him with lotion before getting him dressed. She looked back at her baby boy's face.
She saw that his eyes were open, and she gasped with relief when she saw the green. She put her forehead to his, feeling herself relax so much. He wasn't all Sebastian's. He was hers too, which made her so happy. All she wanted was his eyes, and she got them. She held him in her arms, squeezing him as tightly as tightly as she could to his body.
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Clary rolled out of bed at 4 am when Jonathan started screaming. She crawled out to her feet, shuffling across the room to pick up her baby boy. She patted his back, bouncing him slightly, as she made her way to the rocking chair. She pulled down her tank top, trying to get him to latch. He was currently cluster feeding, which was driving her crazy. She has gotten a full 10 minutes of sleep tonight.
"Come on," She groaned, trying to get him to eat.
"Clary, seriously, I have a deposition in the morning." Alec poked his head into her room, ruffling his hand through his hair.
"I'm sorry. He's not eating. I checked his diaper and obviously doesn't want attention because I'm holding him." She muttered, adjusting Jonathan's jaw. "Could you help me?" She felt slightly defeated.
"Yeah, what do you need?" He walked into the room, touching Jonathan's head lightly.
"Can you shove my boob into his mouth." She wrinkled her nose, looking up at him. "The nurse helped me at the hospital, and said if I had issues to do that." She explained, knowing it was extremely awkward. She was just glad it wasn't Jace. He hadn't seen her breast yet, and she didn't want the first time he saw them to when he was shoving her nipple into her infant son's mouth.
"Will it make him stop crying?" Alec sighed, moving around her.
"Yeah." She nodded, looking up at him.
"Ok." He hesitantly grabbed her chest, doing what she explained to do. Jonathan finally latched on, and Clary exhaled a relieved breath.
"Thank you." She looked up at him, starting to rock back and forward in the chair.
"No problem. Never thought I would touch a woman's chest, but, hey, life is full of surprises." He snorted, making his way out of her room.
"Good night." She called after him, relaxing against the chair. She didn't like how breast feeding felt, but she was so tired. Jonathan was even more exhausting when he was out of her belly then when he was out. She stroked his head lightly, humming softly. His hand came free from his little blanket, and he held onto her, which made Clary smile more then she thought it would.
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Clary had gotten into a routine over the last week. Jace would come over after work, and he would get started on dinner and watch the baby, while she would jump in the shower. When she got out, they would eat together, and Jon would be on his tummy for a little while. Lastly, Jace would take Jonathan, holding him in random places in front of the tv. She would take a breath, clean the kitchen, and make tea.
She wiped off the kitchen counters, seeing Jace lying on the floor with Jon on his belly. She smiled lightly, loving the image in front of her. Jace adored her son. He didn't need to come over every night, but he did anyways. He brought over a few suits and pjs, so he could spend the night and help her. She didn't deserve him.
Her heart warmed so much whenever he took care of him. It made her so happy to know that Jonathan would have a father in his life, and she was so happy that she wouldn't be raising him alone. She sighed happily before gathering her mug. She shuffled back into the living room, climbing on the couch.
Jace's face was turned to the television, while his hand circled Jon's back. Her baby was nuzzled up against him and fast asleep. "Jace," She murmured, trying to force away a grin.
"Hmmm…" He hummed, turning his head to her.
"I love you." She breathed, smiling faintly. She saw his lips curl up, and he reached up to squeeze her foot because he couldn't reach her hand before he turned his gaze back to the television. She bit her lip, loving the lazy smile that was sprawled across his face.
A/N: They are in love. I love them so much. We have a few more chapters left, so this are going to get a little crazy soon. You have been warned.
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