A/N: Hey guys! I couldn't help myself! I love this chapter. Just please don't hate me.
Clary was nervous about leaving Jonathan with Isabelle for the night. It had been two days since the trial, and Jace had a special evening planned for them. She was excited to spend some time not constantly worrying about her son, but if anything went wrong with Izzy, she would feel like a horrible mother. Jonathan was a couple months old now, which Clary couldn't believe. He still seemed so small, but she knew that he had grown so much.
Clary stuffed the last of Jonathan's things into a diaper bag, sliding it over her shoulder. She could do this. She could leave him just for the night. "You ready?" Jace asked, holding the car seat with Jon in it.
"I think so." She forced a smile, biting her lip.
"Great." He kissed her cheek, leading the way out the door.
Clary followed him, feeling her nerves grip at her. Jace secured Jonathan in his car seat, while Clary climbed into the passenger seat. Jace was doing so good at taking care of Jon, and it made her heart sing. He was made to be a father.
Clary gulped thickly when they pulled in front of Isabelle's apartment. "We can do this another time if you want?" Jace offered, noticing her hesitation.
"No, you planned this whole night and I don't want to ruin it." She slid her hand over his, sighing softly.
"Separation anxiety is normal." He kissed her knuckles, looking thoughtfully at her.
"I know." She squeezed his hands, taking a deep breath. "Let's take him inside." She climbed out of the car, lifting the car seat from its structure, so she could carry her son inside. Isabella was a very capable woman, and she could be trusted with her most precious belonging.
They knocked on Isabelle's doors, which was flung open soon afterwards. "If it isn't my favorite nephew!" Isabelle exclaimed excitedly, taking the car seat from her, as she gestured for them to come inside. "How are you two doing?" She asked with a smile.
"Good." Clary grinned faintly, as Jace tossed the diaper bag onto the couch.
"I'm so excited you two are getting out and having fun. I'm sorry I couldn't watch him after the trial. The boss put me on the late shift that night." She apologized, lifting Jonathan out of the car seat.
"It's ok. It gave me some time to prep for our date." Jace grinned, putting his arm around Clary's waist.
"You two have fun. Don't worry about a single thing." Isabelle assured him, cradling Jon against her.
"So, you need to feed him every 4 hours, even in the middle of the night. He should fall asleep around 7 after you feed him. Until then have him lay on his belly because he spent most of today on his back. When he falls asleep, he needs to on his back though." She explained, feeling even more nervous now.
"Got it. Anything else?" She asked.
"You should have plenty of diapers, the pumped milk is in the cooler section, and if you need anything please call me." She took a deep breath, biting her lip. "Is there anything else?" She asked Jace, gazing up at him.
"He has a couple changes of clothes if he spits up on himself." Jace added, humming softly. "Oh, he has diaper rash right now, so when you are done wiping him, you need to rub on this ointment." Jace shifted through the diaper bag to grab the ointment, so Isabelle would know what it is.
"Gross, but ok." She nodded. "Now get out of here." She teased, shuffling them out of the room.
"Ok, ok, let's go." Clary stepped back towards the door, feeling her heart crunch in her chest. She paused, wondering if she should do this. She loved her son so much. She was nervous about him leaving her side.
"Come on." Jace smiled encouragingly at her, leading her out of the apartment. Clary stopped outside the door, staring at it even though it was closed. Could she really leave her son? "Take your time." Jace murmured, leaning against wall behind her. She glanced back at him, thankful that he was giving her some time.
She never imaged leaving her son with a babysitter would be so hard. She already missed him, and he was less than a few feet away. He was the cutest baby she had ever seen, which made it even more difficult to walk away. She knew that she would see him tomorrow, but she had never expected this to be so hard. She knew that she needed to leave. She didn't want to be one of those overbearing mothers, so she took another step back, taking a shaky breath, as she turned away from the door. "I'm ready." She stated as calmly as she made her way to the stairs.
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Clary looked curiously at the window, as they pulled up into a familiar park. She bit her lip, remembering the picnics that they had there when they first started dating. She hadn't been there in a few months. It was a little chiller then normal, but she figured she would be fine.
She went to open the door, but Jace told her he would get it. She smiled widely, as Jace opened the door for her. He held his hand out to help her out of the car. "Why thank you." She giggled, leaning against his arm.
"Your welcome." He kissed her head, leading the way down a path. The sun was beginning to set, which made Clary a little anxious, but she knew that Jace would be there to protect her. She weaved their fingers together, as Jace pulled her through the path. They entered a small clearing, and she gasped quietly.
The entire area was surrounded with Christmas lights, adding a soft romantic hue to the area. There were candles in mason jars scattered about a blanket that was laid on the ground, flickering with gentle flames. She pulled him against her, brushing their lips together. He smiled against her mouth, sliding his hand over her behind to bring her even closer to him. She moaned softly, drawing away from him.
"You are amazing." She breathed, pushing up to kissing him one more time.
"I know." He chuckled, squeezing the flesh of her behind again. She flinched slightly at his touch, but it was purely from surprise. Jace never touched her with wild abandonment before, and she found that she liked it. She took a shaky breath, taking a step back.
"Did you bring food?" She questioned softly, sitting on the blanket. She felt hot. Hotter than normal when they made out, and she never wanted him more. He sat next to her, pulling out a small bag. He grabbed a container, taking out two sandwiches. "Thank you." She inhaled a deep breath, taking a bite.
They ate silently, but they were perfectly comfortable together. He drew her between his legs, letting her lean back against him. He was warm and firm behind her. She sighed softly, sinking against him. He put am arm around her waist, trailing his lips across her neck. She dropped her head to the side, enjoying the feeling of his mouth.
"I love you." He breathed into her ear, nipping at her earlobe. A shudder went through her body, as she squeezed his knee.
"I love you too." She reached one hand up to ruffle his locks.
"I have something for you." He whispered, pressing his lips to her ear once more.
"What is it?" She grinned, turning her eyes up to his.
He slid an opened jewelry box in front of her, revealing a diamond ring. She sucked in a large breath, feeling her stomach drop. He was proposing. He was proposing to her. She knew that this was going to happen, but she had no idea he was going to do this so soon. She was shocked.
"Now," he cleared his throat, hugging her to him. "Will you marry me?" He asked, moving to get on one knee in front of her.
"Yes," she smiled widely, wrapping her arms around his neck to kiss him heavily. She tackled him to the ground, straddling his waist. She was surprised at her enthusiasm, but honestly, she was more in love with Jace than she could ever image. He gripped onto her hair, deepening their kiss. She felt like they were trying to swallow each other. She wanted to be impossibly closer to him. He dragged her shirt over her head, sliding his hands over her bare skin. His fingers found the clasp on her bra, expertly removing it.
She sat up, inhaling a deep breath. He hadn't seen her breast before, which made her stomach clench with nerves. These weren't how her boobs normally looked. They were almost raw looking from the breast feeding, and she wished they were back to their normal soft self. One bonus is that they are much bigger than normal.
Jace's hands stroked just underneath them, causing goosebumps to rise on her skin. She unbuttoned his shirt, lying across his torso. His heat rippled off of him, as their lips moved sloppily against each other. He propped himself up slightly, getting the last of his shirt off, while she grinded against him. He groaned loudly, squeezing her behind once again. She moaned loudly, as he flipped her onto his back.
"I love these boobs." Jace massaged his fingers over them, dipping his head down to do a lot more than that. Clary let her eyes fall shut, while Jace worshiped her chest. It had been so long since anyone really appreciated them.
"I want to be with you with every fiber of my being." He breathed, kissing between her breast. His breath gathered around her skin, warming her even further. She closed her eyes, imaging what it would be like to be that intimate with him.
"I do too." She whispered, playing with his hair. "I'm just not quite ready." She murmured, as he propped his head against hers.
"Ok." He brushed their lips together gently, sinking further between her legs. Their pants kept them separated, but she wanted them gone just as much as he did. She was not going to give up her convictions for this though.
He sat up right, running his hand through his lock. She appreciated the way his muscle coiled when he moved. She panted heavily, propping her hand behind her head. They both tried to catch their breath, while they stared at each other.
"Where did the ring go?" He furrowed his brow, looking around their heap of a blanket.
"I don't know." She breathed, propping herself up slightly. In all the excitement, she must have knocked the ring out of Jace's hand.
"Crap," He muttered, moving away from her. He searched the ground, trying to find the expensive ring, while she pulled on her shirt. "It's right here." He cheered victoriously, crawling back over to her. "Give me your hand." He smiled widely, kneeling in front of her.
She held out her left hand, and he slid the ring onto her finger. The weight felt comforting on her hand, as she gazed at the diamond ring. It was beautiful, but not over doing it. She grinned broadly, turning his eyes back to his.
He cupped her neck lightly, crushing their mouths together again. She snickered against his lips, as they fell to the side. Their legs lazily tangled together, while they enjoyed each other's presence.
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They arrived at her apartment building, and they walked down the hall together. Jace had his hands stuffed into his pockets, as they silently stopped at her door. He cupped her cheek lightly, circling his thumb across her cheekbone. She leaned into his embrace, feeling at ease. She didn't want to have a long engagement she decided. He tangled his fingers together, holding up her hand to see the ring on her finger.
"I can't believe we are here." He whispered, locking his eyes with hers.
"It's just my apartment." She smiled faintly.
"That's not when I meant." He breathed, and she knew what he meant. He couldn't believe they were engaged and in love. "I love you." He bumped their noses together, making her chest warm.
"I love you too." She pushed herself up, so their lips could meet. "Let's go to bed." She started to unlock her apartment door, but Jace stopped her.
"Is it ok if I stay at my place? I just- I really want to be with you, as in have sex, but umm… I know you want to wait, and I'm going to struggle with that tonight." He stammered, shaking his head. "There is nothing stopping us tonight. Jon isn't there. You aren't wearing a diaper anymore." He chuckled, wearing his nerves on his sleeve. He was never nervous. It made her smile though.
"I get it." She looked up at him, feeling slightly disappointed. "Honestly, I didn't know you even had an apartment anymore." She teased, poking his belly.
"I would rather be here with you, but I think tonight I should be at my own place." He sighed, playing with one of her curls.
"I know. Good night." She pecked her lips lightly.
"I can pick up Jon tomorrow, and then come here in the morning before work." He offered, tucking a strand of loose hair behind her ear.
"Thank you. Sleep tight." She kissed him once more before retreating into her apartment.
She shut the door behind her, seeing the emptiness that was her apartment. She knew she probably needed some alone time because she hadn't been completely alone in a while. Alec was staying at Magnus' tonight. She leaned against the wall by the door, slipping off her sandals before striding into the kitchen.
She grabbed a glass, filling it up with water. She needed to cool down a bit in general. She turned around, sipping her drink.
Her heart froze when the light in her living room flicked on. Her glass slid from her hand, and she felt like time stopped, as her eyes locked with Sebastian's. She could see the fury in his eyes, as he cocked his head to the side. She moved her hands behind her back, slipping the engagement ring from her finger to put it in her back pocket.
"Clary," He rose to his feet.
A/N: Hey everyone! As I said before, please don't hate me! I had to do this. I have been planning this for months and I am so excited to get to this point. I have one chapter left and then the epilogue.
The more reviews I get the faster I will want to write the last chapter. I wrote this one in a day and a half, so maybe the last one can come just as quickly. ;)
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