Chapter XXV
A great crown, a heavy heart
Recommended songs : Sunday Girl - Where is my mind (cover)
2. Coldplay- Viva la vida
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*this is also inspired from the manga, but with a different touch up.
*song 1 plays*
His mind was as empty as his castle.
Surrounded by nothingness. The highest level of his spirit society, only flowing white light. But that was enough for him.
Because his heart was a wreckage. Chaotic feelings and incomplete emotional states…couldn't let him think at all.
Usually, when he was battling his own heart, his logic was the one which helped him the most. His ambition. But now, nothing made sense anymore…Because he has achieved his dream. Everything which he's planned succeeded at last.
There it was. In his own infinite castle, which could provide everything he wanted, the king was looking for something…
Searching for his own mind…in pure nothingness.
He decided to let go for a while. Let every feeling come and rip him apart, then clarify his self with a good dose of deep rumination.
Regret.
He hurt her. And now he's letting her suffer even more, trying in vain to resurrect him like the first time…The only thing he could do was to sacrifice his body, so that the process will end and she'll come back to normal. And now…
He knew. How she was crying near his dead body. It was painful to know that he still couldn't return and wipe away her tears.
It hurt. And there was nothing he could do about it. After all, he had to assume his role as the new God now.
But at least, the last thing he wanted before death was to…see her smile.
Nostalgia.
Hao remembered the first days they've met. It was certainly one thing which puzzled him somehow…An act of mercy which was unreasonable. In her green eyes he saw the first vivid sparkle when she held it in her hands. Because Rilury cared about that...
Tiny, little fish. So small, swimming in the vast river.
It was something he couldn't understand. A short slight smile appeared on his lips. Why is such an unimportant thing so bothering? It was probably extinguished by now. Or maybe…he chuckled.
That creature knew something he didn't. The only information which he, the omniscient king, didn't knew.
A way out.
Looking at the vast ocean of light…his eyes sparkled.
Melancholy
He missed those days. He missed her.
But time wasn't something he could play with. As for the material life…
He couldn't come back. Or at least not yet. The Great Spirit was a whole system he had to gain whole control of. Just like a tree spreading its roots in the ground to plunge itself. His spirit had to remain in the heart of essence for at least three years.
Just like a virus in a newly-parasitized host. It would take a period of time until the disease would install in the organism.
This comparison was unsuitable. He didn't know why it passed through his head. After all, he wanted to save the Planet.
At the cost of separation. Was it worth it? After all, nobody had fully sustained him from the beginning. He felt like a doctor trying to enforce his own medicine. And after a while, being surrounded only by people which declare that they are fully healthy, he starts to think…If he's the ill one.
Eliminate it. Combat this thought.
He couldn't. Where was the rational thinking? About the relative normality? The reality he could shape however he wanted? Then why, did he care so much…just now? Why hasn't he got any purpose now?...
Where was his mind?...
Why was his heart damaged so much?...
Hao lost this battle…for the first time.
Everything seemed to clarify itself now. A part of flowing translucent plasma was covered by his long brown hair strains, which were carried by mysterious hollow currents of air.
He was staring down with his musingly eyes. Seeming to be waiting for something….
Acceptance
It didn't really mattered what he was now. But how he felt like.
A miserable king.
Taken off the throne, by his own self.
At the pass of a sudden realization, his lips slightly curved.
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*song 2 plays*
"There is no future in this place…"
Yoh's voice echoed through his mind and hit a painful realization which he tried to get rid of.
After inviting his own brother in his society and offering him the chance to stay in this paradise…
He refuses him by saying this nonsense.
Such a pity, they've had an interesting talk and realized something he already knew: that they had in common much more than somebody would think. ..
Then why was Yoh still obsessed with living on Earth?...
Who was he tricking? Even Hao himself would think of this…
As a better option.
After a short relieving sigh, Yoh continues his explanation which he already knew.
"If we stay here we can say goodbye to a future in which we have a family and our own children. If we're dead, no paradise is good enough."
Hao had a slight ironic smile.
"…That's naïve…"
Of himself.
"Sorry." Yoh admitted his own weakness, think which Hao wasn't capable of doing so. This is why he wanted to be left alone again.
"I'm afraid we can't be together if that's what you think. It would be better if you never came back."
He didn't want anyone to see him in this state.
"…Dissapear."
"Nope."
His brother hasn't left. In his own society that he can control at will, his brother opposed.
It was too late.
"I'm not leaving, not until I help you."
His heart was already open.
"Don't tell me…"
That it was the perfect time…for the revolutionaries to arise.
The five elemental warriors showed up in the highest level of this society. The massive spirits used their powers to smash him.
The pungent shock of lightning.
The clear and bitter fresh ice.
The cold and hollow wind.
The warm and passionate fire.
Hao chuckled a bit inside. How strange. This could be related to a ritual of purification. But it was actually a last shaman fight, in which he'll indulge himself at the moment to take his mind off things.
And it should be clarified from the beginning where their place was.
"You know how to use well those spirits. And it is impressive, considering that you can do so only inside the Great Spirit." Hao said reappearing unharmed from the blast of attacks.
How foolish of them. They wanted to fight. But strangely, this was exactly what he needed right now.
A chance to remind himself of his power.
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Friendship.
It was something that he never really understood.
In this critical moment of their existence, they've bonded. They've confessed and apologized, and that short discussion gave them confidence.
Better put his hands together and pray? My, my…As naïve as always. Then, this should be the last goodbye.
Oversoul, Great Spirit.
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For some reason he couldn't explain.
Even if he ruled the world, he felt that the train was…stronger than him.
The black hole he made to absorb everything, including his own past, was useless. And once Opacho jumped in, it was clear that he still didn't want to let go.
The hole evaporated instantly.
His breath was panting. But he didn't know why. Perhaps just to cover up a self defeated smile.
It's funny how the presence of others made him feel…like a puppet on a lonely string.
But it was also quite annoying that everyone came to this place without his permission.
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Ohachiyo came back! And he also was with someone who he long awaited to meet again…
What the heck was going on?!
"So? How does it feel not to use Reishi first time in 1000 years?" Anna's biting words came like a cold fresh water on his head.
Hao stared in shock as his curse and ultimate power has vanished out of the blue.
"I'm surprised you haven't notice up until now. " Ohachiyo continued. "After all…" a slight satisfied smile appeared on his face. "..Your heart was already defeated before we even arrived. We are only here to make you realize this and make the best choice for yourself."
"What choice are you talking about?! I have everything I need already." Hao responded clearly bothered by everything which was happening…Around him. Inside him.
And he had no control.
As Ohachiyo said, Hao became again that little kid he met. With a kind heart and innocent confusion.
But still a child. And he needed to meet someone more than ever.
"It has been a long time. You want to see her, don't you?"
His borther's words brought a nostalgic gleam in Hao's brown eyes.
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"The…the legendary left!"
Everyone looked astonished as Hao was slapped in public by his own mother, after he denigrated the worthless humans which slaughtered her.
Some harsh words he pronounced with disgust.
"Happiness, anger, hatred…That's what being alive means." His mother said with kindness, as hugging him tight.
"You can't bring yourself to love if you can't be able to forgive first."
He realized, that what he let himself become a human. Or was one from the very beginning. All this time, he disgusted himself. He was among with the other people which hated him for his own ideals.
It was but one person…one person who made him forget everything…who made him wanting to start all over.
"Fine then…" he said, slowly detaching himself from his mother's arms. "But let's make this a little more private, at least."
The people was gradually disappearing, returning back to life.
He never really knew why he had been lying to himself this whole time. A choice was inevitable to be made, and his heart has already chosen.
To be continued...
No, seriously. I will update tomorrow, since it is almost done..The last chapter...
Of Book 1 !
That's right! This motha'fucca has a sequel (which will be included in the same fic) ! And hopefully I'll start writing it soon enough xD, but at the moment I am quite busy.
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