Title: We're Not Done
Author: roxminallo
Disclaimer: I claim no rights in regards to the characters that Disney and Square-Enix own.
Rating: NC-17 with strong language and triggers including but not limited to depression and anxiety.
Pairings: AkuRoku, SoRiku
Category: Alternate Universe, romance, humor, drama, and yaoi.
Date Begun: August 3rd, 2013
Date Posted: September 29th, 2013
Date Edited: April 28th, 2016
Chapter Four: Absolutely Not
"He fucking hit you?" Kairi jumped off of the couch, immediately reaching her hands to Axel's face to examine the damage. She could already see a large red welt forming on his cheek. Axel pushed her hands away, walking further into the living room, Riku behind him.
"Kai, it's not a big deal…" Axel spoke, a small stutter to his voice. "Just stop."
"Do not tell me to stop. I have been dealing with this melodramatic bullshit for almost a week now. Neither of you have the right to tell me what, and whatnot to do. So no Axel, I will not stop. Why the fuck in the world would you let him touch you like that?"
"Do you really think I let him do this? I did exactly what you told me to do. I showed up at school, and I tried to drive him home so I could talk to him. Forgive me for laying a single hand on him. I forgot I wasn't allowed to do that anymore!" Axel yelled, throwing himself onto the couch.
"Do you know how that feels?" Axel asked, looking up at his sister, eyes red from all of the crying he had done on the drive home. "Do you?"
"Know how what feels, Axel?" Kairi asked, annoyed, placing a hand on her forehead to rub her temples gently.
"Touching the boy you are so in love with, just to be slapped across the face for it," he looked straight at her, no wavering or faltering in his glare. Kairi straightened up, placing her hand by her side, immediately softening her eyes. "I can't even touch him anymore, Kai," he paused, swallowing hard in an attempt to stop more tears from falling. "I can't look at him, I can't talk to him," he allowed his eyes to trace the tiling of the hallway floor. "Am I even allowed to think about him anymore?" He allowed his eyes to stop one a single spot of dirt that managed to squeeze its way into the grout. "And you know what the worst part is?" He shifted his eyes up, catching a hint of redness in his sister's eyes, signs showing that she was near tears as well. "The worst part is that I have been one hundred percent faithful to him, for the entirety of our relationship. One hundred percent. And there's nothing I can do or say to make him believe that," he finished, standing up ready to walk into the hallway to ascend the staircase. He felt a strong hand squeeze his forearm, immediately turning his head toward his sisters determined stare.
"I believe you, Axe…" Kairi puled his arm, bringing him closer to her body. "I see the way you two look at each other… You know how many people would kill to have love like that?" She smiled slightly, feeling Axel's arm slip away.
"What love?"
"Don't say that," Kairi snapped, letting her smile fall away.
"It's true though, Kai-"
"Okay I think we've all had enough," Riku spoke tiredly, eyes closed, as he massaged his temples. "If you think for a second that he doesn't love you, then you are so wrong," he reasoned. "If he didn't love you, this wouldn't hurt him so much," Riku paused, pushing his hand through his hair. "Now listen, I came to talk to you guys about maybe going easy on him."
"You're fucking joking, right?" Kairi spat, staring venomously into Riku's eyes.
"No Kairi, I'm not fucking joking. Both of you know that Roxas gets treated for high anxiety and depression, and I'm sure he's going through a lot of shit right now. He doesn't need you two flipping out because-"
"Because he hit my brother?" Kairi yelled, eyes wide as she shook her head. "Riku, with everything that's happened today, I have to politely tell you, to shut the fuck up," she spoke. "He doesn't want our help. I get it, that he's going through a lot right now, but we've tried to help him. This entire week. He doesn't want it," she finished, walking towards the kitchen.
"Well if you're not going to help, then stay away," Riku exasperated.
Kairi paused in the doorway and turned her head slightly.
"Make me."
"Have you talked to him recently?" Demyx sighed, placing an organized stack of cd's into the column that housed the holiday themed music. He followed Roxas slowly, wheeling the small metal cart through the narrow aisles of the record store.
"I've had no reason to," he stated plainly, not bothering to look into his friend's eyes as he organized the messy shelves of extremely outdated music.
"You've had plenty of reasons," Demyx reasoned. "Why are you being so stubborn?" Demyx pleaded lightly, stopping his job to look up at his friend. He leaned against one shelf, crossing his arms lightly as he awaited a true explanation. He didn't want some half-baked excuse.
"Do you think this is easy?" Roxas asked, coldly, throwing the cd onto the shelf.
"I'm not saying this is easy, I'm just saying that maybe you can-"
"Fuck off, Dem," Roxas sighed out, not wanting to listen to another word the other had to say. "You don't know Dem. You don't know anything about what's going on with me right now, and you don't know anything about this. You're in, your perfect little world of a relationship. Nothing's ever wrong with your relationship. It's always perfect this, perfect that," he choked. "How would you like it he cheated on you?" Roxas stared, ready to rip Demyx down to his own level. He waited for an answer, studying the shocked expression on Demyx's face. "You wouldn't like it at all. In fact, you'd be worse off than I am. You wouldn't be able to take it. You'd lose yourself, be a puddle of tears," Roxas threw the rest of the cd's onto the shelf, before dragging the cart to the next aisle. "But that won't happen, because your relationship is just so fucking perfect," Roxas spoke, anger lacing the words. He didn't bother to continue looking back at Demyx, he knew he had crossed the line; he didn't want to see his face.
Demyx stared forward, allowing his eyes to study his friend. He closed his mouth, shaking his head lightly back and forth as he followed him through the aisle.
This wasn't Roxas.
"I heard you hit him."
Roxas stopped pushing the cart through the aisle. "… What?" Roxas shot, before turning to Demyx.
"You heard me," Demyx stared straight forward, not faltering. "Everybody already knows about it. I can't believe you Rox. Here I am, no. Here we all are, trying to help you. And you go and lash out onto the one person who has always been there for you? Do you know how much that hurts him?"
"You don't know anything Demyx, just shut the fuck up," he spat, dragging the cart along with him, trying to get away. "I didn't ask for you to be here. I don't need your help, you all should go fuck yourselves and leave me alone," Roxas fought, straight into Demyx's eyes.
"You don't mean that," Demyx shook his head lightly, his voice soft. "This isn't you Roxas," Demyx began walking away, back towards the stock room.
"You don't know what I'm going through!" Roxas yelled, echoing through the tiny store. He watched as Demyx stopped dead in his tracks, not even bothering to turn around.
"I didn't say I did," he sighed. "I merely said, you better watch yourself. Or you're going to be missing a lot more than just Axel." Finished, he walked into the stock room.
Roxas slammed his fist against the cart, the sound of metal rattling loudly through the small store, earning a gasp from the younger girl working behind the counter. He gaze her an icy cold stare before returning to his job.
The bell attached to the front door chimed, signaling a customer. Roxas didn't bother to move his head. If the person needed anything, then he would help. Until then, people just needed to leave him alone.
"H-He doesn't get another break for twenty mi-" the girl behind the counter stuttered before continuing. "N-No, it's fine. It's fine! R-Roxas, your shift's over!" Yuna stammered, before motioning to the front counter. Kairi perched herself on one of the two black bar stools in front of the register. The look in her eye matched that of Roxas's, causing his anger to multiply.
"Roxas, outside," she spat.
"Calm down, I need to get my stuff."
"Get outside, now," she seethed, turning her body towards the door, exiting just as fast as she came in. Roxas grunted, walking behind the counter to retrieve his jacket and bag before making his way out of the building. Upon opening the door, the icy air of fall hit him briskly, freezing his nose on impact. As the door shut behind him, he felt a pair of hands grab, and then throw him roughly against the red brick walls that held up the record store.
"Kairi, what the hell?" Roxas yelled, feeling the multiple blows that were given to him. He grabbed her hands gently, tossing her off with enough force to send her back a foot, but not enough to hurt her.
"What is your problem?" Kairi screamed. "Huh?" She stared at him, anger ridden in her eyes. "Fucking answer me!" She punched Roxas straight in the sternum, knocking the wind out of him immediately. Roxas gasped, hands on his chest as he attempted to catch his breath before pushing the redhead back one last time. This time, she landed on her butt.
"You fucking hit him? Who the hell do you think you are? Don't you ever lay a hand on him again, or so help me god I will kill you," Kairi spat, screaming out her words louder than ever before. Roxas stared, immobilized by her voice.
"I didn't-" he gasped before being cut off.
"You what? You didn't mean to hit him?" She laughed, pushing herself up to standing. "Of course you didn't Roxas, of course," she wiped her pants off before continuing. "You know… You are really something Roxas. Just look at yourself. You've actually convinced yourself, that you're in the right. That everything you're doing is because you're hurting…" She mocked him, walking right in front of him. "You're a piece of shit. Hurting not just the one you love most, but the people around you equally. You have no right to ever lay a hand on anybody," she paused. "You have no right, to hurt the people that want to see you succeed," Kairi backed away, shaking her head lightly.
"You have no right, to call yourself my friend," Kairi spoke gently, wiping the tears in her eye before they fell. "Who do you have left Roxas?" She asked, in a completely honest and caring tone. "Honestly," she paused. "Who do you have? You've scared everybody off that wants to see you get better," she hiked her purse onto her shoulder. "I know you're going through a lot other than Axel… But enough is enough, Rox. Until you pull whatever it is you're dealing with together…" She stopped, wiping a few tears from her eyes. "Don't call me."