Title: We're Not Done

Author: roxminallo

Disclaimer: I claim no rights in regards to the characters that Disney and Square-Enix own.

Rating: NC-17 with strong language and triggers including but not limited to depression and anxiety.

Pairings: AkuRoku, SoRiku

Category: Alternate Universe, romance, humor, drama, and yaoi.

Date Begun: August 3rd, 2013

Date Posted: September 29th, 2013

Date Edited: April 28th, 2016

Chapter Six: Making a Deal with the Devil

"I'm sorry sir, but visiting hours are over. I can't let you into the waiting room. Only immediate family-"

"My boyfriend is back there, and I don't know what happened to him. You are going to fucking let me back there, or so help me god I will kill you!" Axel screamed, feeling two bodies hold his arms back before lunging at the doctor.

"Sir! We can't let- Sir, stand back!" Three nurses rushed into the hallway to aide the doctor. One of the nurses stood in front of the rampant redhead before speaking.

"Sir, I would be happy to answer any questions you have, but right now he is in the process of having his stomach pumped. We are not to let anybody into the emergency room."

"H-His stomach pumped? What the hell happened?" Axel yelled, his vision blurring as he threw Kairi and Demyx off of his body.

"What the hell is going on?" Sora spoke, walking into the waiting room towards the three friends. "Kairi, thank god, you got my text," he spoke quickly, standing in front of the nurse. "Ma'am, they're with me, they're family," he spoke quickly, grabbing Axel's hand gently, already beginning to pull him to the waiting room.

"I want no trouble back there. You raise your voice once and you're out. All of you," the doctor spoke before walking away. Sora pulled the three of them down the hallway, leaving the hall empty.

"I don't know why he did it, but he had half a handle of vodka, his anti-depressant medication, and a couple of mom's Ambien," Sora sighed, leading the trio to the end of the hallway. "I found him in the bathroom covered in vomit. I guess he realized what he did and tried to throw some of them up, but the ones that were in his system put him to sleep," Sora spoke. "And he had a two inch gash in his right arm. They're keeping him overnight, and they're going to let him out tomorrow," Sora finished, looking back to the three friends before stopping. "Axe… A-Axe, it's going to be okay," he felt Axel's warm body press against his. He felt Axel's tears fall onto his cheeks, and he pushed away lightly to wipe at the redheads tears. "Hey, quit it," Sora paused. "They said that he is going to be fine," he spoke gently, his gaze shifting to Kairi and Demyx, color void from their usually vibrant faces.

"I-It's all my fault…" Kairi stuttered, snapping her face towards the emergency room door. "I-If I wouldn't have yelled at him, and said all of that s-stupid shit, this wouldn't have happened."

"I didn't think when I said those things to him," Demyx poked in, breathing heavily. Sora placed his hands over his face, and allowed them to wipe down the entirety of the length.

"Will you three shut up?" Sora spoke loudly, feeling the eyes of his three friends on him. "He's going to be fine," Sora paused, waiting for the three friends to stop the whimpering. "We may or may not be allowed to see him tonight; it depends on the condition after the pump. He might be too tired for all of the stress, but the doctor said he's definitely coming home tomorrow. Now listen to me," Sora spoke sternly. "I don't care that you yelled at him, or that you're sorry. All he needs when he wakes up, is for everything to be normal," he spoke easily. "Now, this might sound mean, but he may not want to see any of you," Sora sighed. "I'm not saying that you should leave, but I am saying that it's Roxas… Don't be offended when he wakes up. He has a way of pissing people off," Sora smiled gently, seeing Kairi's eyes slam shut, tears falling lightly.

"I do believe I said to stop that," Sora took his thumb, and wiped away the falling tears from her eyes.

"What did I miss?" Riku spoke, carrying three little bags of Famous Amos cookies and three bags of chips. Axel and Kairi turned around, eyes red and puffy, noses running. Riku cringed, and laughed lightly, attempting to brighten their spirits. He turned to face Demyx, whose hands were now violently pressing against his eyes at an attempt to stop the tears.

"I uh, I guess I caught you at a bad time?" Riku laughed lightly, feeling the blood shot eyes of the four members in front of him.

"Thank you all for coming, they're all finished and he's in his room," Ayumi spoke, entering from the long hallway. She immediately walked over to the three friends and pulled them into a tight hug. "Now you all know how I feel when you're upset. So put all of your frowns in the trash, and place on a smile," she joked lightly, happy when Kairi's frown slowly began to leave. She let go; placing both of her arms on Axel's forearms, and rubbed gently. "Follow me, sweetie," she guided Axel towards the adjacent hallway, away from the other friends.

"I-I'm sorry, I'm sorry. If we… If we wouldn't have been broken up, this wouldn't-"

"Axel, dear, please," Ayumi spoke, stopping in front of the large window that peered into Roxas's room. It was astonishing how she was able to hold it together. No matter what happened, she was always able to tackle the obstacle with a smile. She would only crack when she was alone, and when all was said and done. Of course, that's just what the rumor was. Nobody even knows if she had tear ducts, or a moral conscious for that matter.

"He's okay," she smiled, catching Axel's eyes finally. "Now listen to me carefully," she continued. "I know all about what happened between the two of you."

"Ayumi, I didn't do-"

"I know you didn't," she spoke quickly. "Sweetie, I see the way you look at him. Christ, if Sora and Roxas's father ever looked at me that way, he'd still be here," she smiled. For the first time that night, Axel smiled gently. Wiping his own tears away, he looked through the glass and watched Roxas's chest rise up and down. He desperately wanted to hold him, and run his fingers through his messy blonde hair. He pressed his forehead against the glass, and shivered from the coldness.

"How are you going to convince him?" Ayumi asked gently, looking back to see Kairi, Demyx, Sora, and Riku conversing back and forth, neutral expressions finally gracing all of their faces.

"I… I've tried everything, I have no clue Ayumi," he sighed, slowly admitting defeat, before feeling a hand on his shoulder.

"You were always one to need help," she smiled lightly. "Leave it to me, sweetie."

A small pinch found its way into the crook of his elbow, as he felt the thin needle being extracted from his skin. He winced lightly, allowing his eyes to flicker and adjust to the sterile white light. The bed that he was laying on seemed to have a mind of its own, elevating and tilting his body to an upright position. Having his body bent delivered a sore, almost empty feeling in his stomach. He cringed, and let out a soft groan.

He swallowed lightly, squeezing his eyes and mouth shut as the saliva made it's way down his entirely raw and sore windpipe. Opening his eyes fully, he noticed a nurse in the corner of the room, moving back and forth to different machines and charts.

"Oh good, you're awake," she smiled brightly, her long brown hair braided down the center of her back. "My name is Aerith, I'm your nurse. Do you remember what happened yesterday evening, Roxas?"

Roxas stared forward, eyes sewn together as he shook his head from side to side. He saw the nurse in front of him sigh, before walking over to the railing attached to his bed.

"Your brother found you passed out in the bathroom. You had a hazardous mix of alcohol, anti-depressants, and sleeping medication in your system that we had to forcibly remove. That's why you're cringing when your stomach moves," she paused, sighing lightly. "We had to pump your stomach. We fed a tube through your mouth and into your stomach. Your throat will be sore for a day or two, and your stomach will be as well. Try to eat foods and liquids that are light on your stomach. I suggest rice, or broiled chicken, and water," she smiled lightly. "Sounds awful, huh?" She raised the chart, and began writing, Roxas's eyes finally relaxing.

He began to remember the start of the night. He shook his head side to side, realizing how stupid he acted. He's been drunk on his anti-depressant medication before, but never with that much alcohol, and Ambien in his system. He knew explaining to everyone that he in fact did not want to commit suicide was going to be difficult. He was just stupid. He wondered if they would even believe him at all.

"Your mother ran to the front desk to sign you out, she'll be back to take you home soon," the nurse smiled lightly, walking to the door. "And Roxas?" She spoke gently, waiting for the blonde boy to shift his gaze. "You have an amazing group of friends that care about you," she paused. "Almost brought the hospital down last night whenever they arrived. Weeping and screaming, it was quite the sight," she smiled, earning a small laugh from the blonde. He cringed immediately from the discomfort in his throat before re-opening his eyes.

"I don't want to see you here again, understood?" She smiled, winking lightly as she exited the room. He looked down at his body, noticing the blue hospital gown. His clothes were folded up right next to the bed on the stand. He looked down to the large bandage that covered his right arm, and he punched himself mentally for making such a stupid decision. Unfortunately, this wasn't the first time he had cut himself, but he hadn't done that in about three years. He sighed, shaking his head lightly from side to side.

"Sweetheart…" Ayumi sighed softly, walking over to the bed and placing her arms around Roxas's body lightly. "How are you feeling?" She asked genuinely, helping him stand.

"Just… Just turn around so I can change," he spoke softly. "And shut the door."

Ayumi laughed lightly, walking towards the front of the room to shut the door. She shut the blinds quickly, and waited with her back to her son. After two minutes passed, she finally spoke up. "Do you need help Roxas?"

"Absolutely not," he spoke, earning a small laugh from his mother. After another minute passed, he finally walked forward slowly. "Just take me home," he cringed, feeling the slight stabbing sensation in his stomach. He walked slowly, feeling his mothers arms wrap around his left arm, guiding him out of the room. Upon leaving the room, he turned left and quickly found himself in the waiting room of the hospital. He turned around slowly, watching the doctors and nurses quickly clear out his room and clean it to the sterile conditions that they were before he came. He sighed, scorning himself.

"Roxas…?" Axel spoke, standing up from the waiting room chair quickly.

Roxas's head snapped, finding his eyes meeting with the hypnotizing green eyes that made him feel like he was floating. "… What are you doing here?" Roxas asked bluntly, eyes wide.

"Axel stayed all night in the waiting room to make sure you were okay. Kairi, Demyx, and him came last night, but Axel decided he was going to stay," Ayumi added gently, watching her sons face morph away from anger. "Wasn't that incredibly thoughtful?"

"I just wanted to make sure you were okay…" he paused, adjusting the shirt that was strewn across his torso. "I'm… I'm sorry if this makes you upset," Axel shoved his hands into his pockets, adverting his gaze towards the ground rather than the intoxicating eyes of his love.

"… I'm fine," Roxas replied gently, no venom laced into his words. Feeling a small nudge from his mother, he walked forward slowly, closer to Axel.

"T-Thank you…" he said gently, watching as Axel's face rose to match eye to eye. Roxas was rewarded a beautiful smile, which immediately caused him to blush and walk back to Ayumi.

"Axel, why don't you come home with us and help Roxas feel better?"

"M-Mom, n-"

"That's okay Ayumi," Axel said lightly, hating himself for turning down such a tempting offer. Roxas didn't want him there anyways. "I promised Kairi I'd be back. I'll talk to you soon," he finished, taking a step out of the room before turning around.

"Let me know if you need anything… Just say the word, Rox. It's done," he spoke, looking straight at Roxas smiling lightly before walking out of the hospital.

Ayumi looked down at her son briefly before being pulled slowly out the door.

"I don't want to hear a word from you," Roxas said dryly, almost expecting the inevitable cackle from his mother.

"Here you go, Rox," Riku smiled gently, handing a small steaming bowl of dinner to Roxas, who was propped upwards on the couch. He had a thin blanket over him, while the television mindlessly played another episode of Drop Dead Diva.

"Thanks," he replied emotionlessly, before shaking his head and grabbing Riku's arm, stopping him from walking away. "Seriously, thank you."

"You don't need to thank me, Roxas, you're my family," he smiled, sitting down on the coffee table lightly.

"Get your ass off of my coffee table, you ungrateful child," Ayumi piped up from the kitchen sweetly, earning a laugh from both twins.

"You know what I mean though… I've been…" he paused, stirring the concoction of broiled chicken and white rice with the metal fork. "I've been awful this week… And despite that, you guys pulled through," he smiled. "All of you. So… thank you."

"Okay sweetie, I think we've had enough telenovela-worthy drama to last us through the New Year," Ayumi spoke softly, sitting on the opposite side of the couch. Sora, Riku, and even Roxas laughed lightly at her joke, Sora and Riku finding each other on the loveseat adjacent to the couch.

"I don't want to eat this, it makes me feel like a sick dog," Roxas spoke lightly, placing the fork harshly into the ceramic bowl.

"Get used to it, Rox. Mom made enough for three meals a day for the next week," Sora laughed lightly, watching Ayumi's smile mischievously curl at the corners. Roxas sighed, placing the bowl on the coffee table in front of him.

"I need to talk to you guys, and I need you to believe me," he spoke easily; watching as all three sets of eyes examined his expression. He sighed, shaking his head lightly back and forth. "What happened last night, wasn't a suicide attempt," he spoke slowly, making sure that the three believed him whole-heartedly. "I promise, all three of you, that I just wanted to get really drunk and pass out, I didn't want to die…" He shifted on the couch, so that he was better facing the three others before continuing. "I was stupid, and I can promise you that I'll never do something like that again." Ayumi sniffled lightly on the other side of the couch, which surprised the other three in the room. She never cried.

"I want to believe you, Roxas," she sighed, shaking her head from side to side. "I really do. Do you know how worried we all were?" She asked, turning her body to face Roxas. "Why did you do it? You could have talked to me, instead of turning to alcohol and medication, why did you do it?" She spoke softly, a small tear forming in the corner of her eye begging to fall down her porcelain face.

I really fucked up.

"… Mom, I-I'm sorry, I won't do it again," he answered quickly, voice hitching with a few tears. In his seventeen years of living, he can't remember ever seeing his mother cry once. Not even when his father left. In fact, he had taken that news harder than she did. "I… I don't have a reason mom, like I said, I was stupid," he paused, wiping at his tears gently. "But I promise that it wasn't a suicide attempt… I won't do something stupid like this again," he pleaded, looking towards Sora and Riku who now had their gazes towards the ground.

"I was so worried," Ayumi spoke, the tear finally falling from her eye.

"Let me make it up to you, Mom, I'm sorry," he spoke quickly. "I'll do anything," he pleaded, watching a small smile grace her face.

"I'm so glad you said that Roxas," she smiled brightly, clapping her hands together, her face completely dry as if she hadn't cried. Roxas's mouth dropped, knowing that he in fact, had been played. Of course the three believed him, they had no reason not to.

"But since you offered so nicely to make it up to me, and because you are in deep, deep trouble for giving me gray hairs," she spoke sweetly, "you can make it up to me by talking to Axel," she paused. "Tomorrow."

I am finally back on track with where I left this story, three years ago, and am now ready to move forward. I hope everyone likes the new format, and the small changes I made. I should be posting one to two chapters a week from here on out, and this puppy should be finished within a month or two.

Please, please, please leave a review. Even if you didn't like it, please leave a review so I know what to change. Thank you everybody, and I hope you enjoyed.

Rox