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Chapter 23: Choices

No matter how hard Blair tried she could not fall asleep. All she could think about was Georgina maybe knowing something more about Dimitri. Ever since G's nervous reaction to Serena's question, Blair was starting to wonder if Georgina had other motives for being back in New York. She did tell Dan that she was back in town anyway, but why would she be back in town for Dimitri if she was trying to stay away from him.

Blair shifted for the thousandth time in Dan's bed, hoping this new position would shut her brain down.

"Blair." Dan groaned sleepily next to her. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing." Blair whispered. "Go back to sleep."

"Something must be wrong. You are restless. What's going on?"

Blair shifted herself, turning around on her side to face Dan.

"I can't shut my brain off. It just keeps thinking."

Dan laughed and reached for her pulling her towards him. Blair happily moved closer and rested her head on his chest.

"What are you thinking about?" Dan asked softly, running a hand threw her hair.

Blair sighed heavily, enjoying the feel of Dan's fingers threw her hair.

"Georgina. Something she said earlier."

"What did she say?"

Blair paused wondering how to word it.

"Well, earlier, S asked G if she knew Ben and Dimitri served together in prison, and G got all nervous. It just has started me thinking."

"It wouldn't be the first time Georgina would be hiding something. I would be surprised if she wasn't." Dan chuckled.

"But my question is, why not just tell us, unless it has something to do with Juliet."

"You think she knew Juliet was going to be taken by Dimitri?"

"Well she did say that she is hurting for money today. What if she has gone to him for money?"

"True, but why would she come here then and act like she knew nothing? I mean what would she have to gain from being here? Wouldn't she just stay out of sight? We didn't even know Dimitri was Milo's father until she told us."

"I know I haven't figured that out yet. Hence the not sleeping." Blair answered in a huff. "Although she seems to be all over you."

"I said that I was sorry about that. It's just that Milo…"

"I know. It's not that, it's just things don't add up and I'm so confused. The past couple weeks have been back and forth, but I can't help but feel everything is related."

"How?"

"I'm not sure yet. I just want to sleep." Blair groaned.

"I think I could help take your mind off Georgina." Dan murmured, leaning forward and kissing her head.

Dan bent down and brushed his lips gently against hers. Blair turned slightly giving her more access to Dan's mouth as the kiss deepened quickly and became more aggressive. Dan turned them both over, pinning Blair to the mattress and settling himself between her legs, while Blair's hands ran through Dan's hair, down his back, and resting finally on his bum. She squeezed gently teasing, causing Dan to groan into her mouth and push into her. She gasped at the sudden pleasure, which only made her hungry for more. Dan pulled away out of breath.

"Blair… if we don't stop now I won't be able to."

"Then don't stop." Blair moaned wrapping her legs around his waist. "I want you."

"Blair…" Dan strained as Blair rotated her hips slowly against his erection. "What if everyone hears?"

"Dan…I don't care. I'm tired of waiting."

"You're sure?"

Blair answered reaching up and pulling Dan's mouth down, crushing her lips against his hungrily. Dan answered her need, taking control of her mouth. Blair was on fire. The way Dan was combining their kiss with his thrusts was sending Blair over the edge. All she could think about were the clothes that were in the way.

Dan broke away only to kiss down her jaw, resting briefly at the nape of her neck, only long enough to make her moan again, before continuing his journey slowly towards her collar bone. Blair frantically grasped at the buttons of her white night shirt, encouraging Dan's passionate assault.

Dan stopped long enough to help Blair with the last button and opened up her shirt, then eagerly leaned forward taking her left breast into his mouth kissing, biting, and sucking, then moved on to the right. Blair whimpered and arched her back, wanting and needing more.

Losing patience she reached up and pulled Dan's shirt off, then flipped him onto his back.

"Blair!" Dan laughed.

"Shhh! You'll wake up the loft!" Blair whispered slyly.

She took her shirt off and then took advantage of her position and bent down and kissed Dan's chest, while slowly rolling her hips. Dan moaned and tried to sit up—tried to kiss her but she firmly pushed him back down with a grin and continued to kiss down his chest, moving her hands lightly over his skin, teasing, in her descend.

When Dan felt Blair's hands grasp the top of his boxers he couldn't take it anymore and over powered her, rolling her back onto her back again.

"No fair." She smirked.

"This will be over fast if you keep that up."

"Keep what up?" She teased.

Dan suddenly felt Blair's hands trailing down his bare back and slightly breech the top of his boxers. She could feel Dan's heart hammering as she slowly pushed them down and brought her feet up to push them the rest of the way down his legs, all the while staring directly into Dan's brown eyes.

Without breaking her gaze, Dan copied her action, sitting up and slowly pulling the last item of clothing down her legs. Blair could feel her heart pounding and stomach tighten is anticipation. Dan bent down and kissed her gently then leaned back, his eyes asking for permission. Blair nodded.

She gasped as Dan entered her fully. He paused a moment letting her relax around him, then began to thrust slowly. Blair marveled at Dan's tempo. He seemed to know exactly when to slow down and speed up, teasing her and thoroughly taking her to the edge. Just when she was starting to feel her walls tighten, Dan shifted his position, penetrating deeper.

"Oh God! Dan…" Blair whimpered and eagerly rose her hips up to meet his thrusts chasing her release.

She didn't last long and shattered completely under him giving herself over to the bliss that lit her body. She almost didn't even notice Dan come almost instantly after, clasping on top of her.

Blair wasn't sure how long they laid there, and she didn't care. The moment was too perfect, and both of them wanted it to last forever.

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In the morning, Serena couldn't help but notice a change in Dan and Blair. The tension that had been between them the past couple days had seemed to vanished. Serena watched observantly from her bar stool at the kitchen as Dan showed Blair how to work the waffle maker. Blair seemed uncharacteristically carefree and light and Dan couldn't seem to take his eyes off of her.

Serena felt a little relieved when Ben came out of his bedroom, and greeted her with a sweet kiss, before heading over to the coffee pot. He looked over and saw Dan gently tickle Blair's side teasingly, as she tried to pour the batter into the waffle machine, making her giggle. Ben turned and nodded at them in question, and all Serena could do was shrug, but deep down inside she knew, but she wasn't going to bring it up.

"Where is G and Milo?" Serena asked Blair. Blair turned around surprised as if coming back to reality and smiled at her best friend.

"G, Milo, and Dorota went down the street to get syrup. We were out." She smiled.

"I can't believe you let G leave the loft B." Serena said surprised taking another sip of her coffee.

"Eh, Dorota can handle her for 5 minutes, besides I took G's phone and passport before she left just in case." Blair smirked.

"Of course you did." Serena laughed.

"Did you talk to your mom?" Ben asked Serena changing the subject.

"Yes. She wasn't happy that I couldn't tell her why I needed it, but I think she will get the money for us. I mean it's my money, but I can't make withdrawals that big until I'm 25."

"I hate this. I hate that you have to do this." Ben shook his head, the guilt flooding his face.

"Ben you wouldn't be in this mess if it wasn't for everything we put you threw. Please, just let me help you get Juliet back."

The night before, Ben had returned to the loft upset, telling Dan, Blair, Serena, and Georgina about what Jimmy had said. Plans had altered and changed, due to Serena feeling it was best just to give them the money.

"How do we know if you take the money tonight that he just isn't going to keep a hold of Juliet and demand more?" Dan asked.

"Yeah I agree with Humphrey. You can't just give in S, they could take advantage." Blair added.

"What else could we do? We don't have any leverage!" Serena answered helplessly.

"Dan makes a good point though." Ben sighed. "Dimitri is desperate enough for money. If he thinks it's this easy to get money from you, what's to stop him from demanding another 100,000."

"We could use our Georgina and Milo situation as leverage." Blair suggested shyly.

Dan turned and frowned in reply, to which Blair smiled nervously.

"Blair…" He started.

"They'll be perfectly safe Dan." Blair assured. "I'm just saying that we have a connection that could work in our favor. And besides I already gave my word to G that I would help her disappear after all this."

Blair regretted it as soon as it left her mouth. She saw Dan struggle with her last sentence.

"What did you have in mind?" Ben asked curiously.

"I'm exactly sure yet, but I think we should talk to Georgina. The other day when Serena asked her if she knew you and Dimitri served together she seemed to know more than she was letting on."

"You really think that was something?" Serena asked Blair.

"It's worth a try. Besides she told Dan in the beginning she was in New York anyway, I just wonder what for."

"It's worth a try. At this point I'll try anything." Ben laughed before taking another sip of his coffee.

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Georgina knew something was up the moment she, Milo, and Dorota returned from the market. She walked in to find them Ben, Serena, Blair, and Dan in the kitchen, suddenly quiet with her arrival.

"Hey guys! We got the syrup and I even picked up some cinnamon and sugar cuz I know S likes that." Georgina smiled at Serena.

"Umm, thanks G." Serena smiled awkwardly.

"You're welcome." Georgina beamed walking into the kitchen putting her bags onto the counter. She tried her hardest to ignore the heaviness in the air, but she knew she wouldn't be able to for long. As if an answer to prayer Milo started to cry.

"Awe baby! Mama is here!" Georgina diverted to Milo's stroller.

"G I'm sure Dorota can take care of Milo." Blair suddenly spoke up. "Dorota?"

Dorota immediately took Milo out of Georgina's arms and as if she knew she wasn't wanted, took off for the back bedroom. Georgina turned and forced a smile at Blair.

"Did you want to talk?"

Blair smiled politely at her and motioned at Serena, who hopped off her bar stool and offered it to Georgina. Taking the hint Georgina sat, as Serena took her place next to Ben.

"Do you remember yesterday when S asked you about Dimitri serving with Ben?"

Georgina swallowed nervously at Blair's question. She had a feeling where this was going.

"Yes. What about it?"

"Well S and I can help but feel that you know more than you're letting on G. And since we are in a certain situation here, you can understand how we want to know all the facts."

Georgina looked nervously at Dan at Blair's words, then suddenly deflected her eyes at her hands when she saw Blair's glare looking between her and Dan.

"G. Whatever it is you can tell us, but we kinda need to know everything before we jump in head first here." Serena tried to sooth gently.

Blair rolled her eyes. She didn't like the way that Georgina had been looking at Dan.

"I did know about Dimitri serving with Ben. I've been keeping tabs on him for safety reasons, but the reason I was in New York…well its kinda personal." Georgina finally spoke at a whisper still looking at her hands.

"Georgina, in normal circumstances we would understand, but your past history doesn't really inspire us to have sudden faith in you." Blair said impatiently

"I was seeing a lawyer." Georgina answered softly.

Ben, Serena, Blair, and Dan all looked at each other confused.

"Why were you seeing a lawyer?" Dan asked.

"I was finalizing my will." Georgina answered making eye contact with Dan again. Blair rolled her eyes- again.

"Seriously. You expect us to believe this? That's so dramatic Georgina." Blair sighed.

Georgina's gaze flashed dangerously to Blair.

"Have you ever had a contract out on your life Blair? Having a baby changes you whether you want to believe that or not! What would happen to Milo if anything happened to me? I'm all he has! And there I was trying to figure out who would get custody of Milo if anything happened to me and …" Georgina stopped suddenly catching herself before she said anything more.

Blair didn't like where this was going.

"And what G?" Serena asked.

Georgina hesitated before answering.

"And then Dan text me, and I thought it was a sign."

Blair's heart dropped at Georgina's word and she looked up at Dan, whose eyes were wide with surprise.

"What kind of sign?" Blair asked, trying desperately to sound civil. She already knew the answer but wished and prayed that she was wrong.

Instead of answering Blair, Georgina looked at Dan again.

"I was going to talk to you in private about it first Dan, but I just couldn't find the right time and…"

"You want me?" Dan asked holding up his hand to stop her. "I'm not even his real father. I have no tie to him."

"Dan you are the only real father that Milo knows! He would be safe with you." Georgina begged.

Blair felt sick. All the thoughts that she had ever had of Dan and her having a future was suddenly tarnished. If Dan would ever end up with Milo, and she stayed with Dan, she would end up a mother to Georgina's baby, and that thought was too much. She felt like Georgina was not only asking Dan but asking her, not that Georgina seemed to notice—she was only addressing Dan. Blair felt her anger flash in that realization. She looked up at Dan who seemed to be struggling to answer Georgina and that made Blair even more upset.

"Georgina…I…." Dan managed to get out.

"Of course when I realized you were with Blair, I had second thoughts." Georgina said interrupting Dan.

Dan looked at her in shock, not knowing what to say.

Whatever self-control Blair had been using vanished abruptly at Georgina's insult and she felt humiliated that Dan didn't say anything in her defense. She flew out of the kitchen.

"DOROTA! We are leaving!" Blair screamed, scrambling around for her purse and jacket. Dorota came rushing out with Milo and handed him over to Georgina.

"Blair?" Dan yelled flying over to her. "Blair? Please look at me? Talk to me? What's wrong?" Dan grabbed her arm and which pissed Blair off even more. She ripped her arm out of his grasp and shoved him.

"Just get out of my way Humphrey!" Blair sobbed. Dorota looked nervously between the two of them as she helped Blair with her jacket.

"Blair? What's wrong?" Serena tried asking moving towards her best friend.

"No just stop! I just want to leave!" Blair cried trying to move past Dan, but he wouldn't budge, planting himself in front of the loft door.

"No! Not until you tell me what is going on! Please just talk to me!" Dan demanded.

"It's the fact that you don't know what's going on Dan! Why would you even think about making a decision like that without talking to me?" Blair sobbed.

"What? Blair…" Dan started.

"I don't want to hear it Humphrey! It's clear to me that you don't see us long term and you never did!"

"That's not true Blair! It's a hell of a lot to take it! I'm sorry I didn't react the exact way you wanted me to react! I'm human! I'm going to make mistakes! But that doesn't mean that I don't see us having a future!"

"Dan you would have known exactly what to say without having to think, if you knew for sure about our future…but you don't know…do you? You didn't even defend me…" Blair choked off, tears streaming down her face.

"Blair…" Dan started painfully reaching for her.

Blair pushed past him, ripping open the loft door open and screamed for Dorota to follow.

"I'm sorry Mr. Dan." Dorota sighed sadly before following her young employer.

Dan watched Dorota leave, and then collapsed on the couch, running his hands threw his hair. He felt the tears stinging the back of his eyes but fought to keep control, remembering Georgina, Ben, and Serena in the room. He felt like his heart had been ripped out of his chest and the pain was unbearable. Was Blair right? Was the fact that he didn't defend her or know the answer immediately proof that he didn't imagine a future for them? Of course he did. They hadn't talked too much about it but he couldn't imagine his life without Blair now. But why didn't he say that?

Milo. The sudden thought of Milo drove another knife into his already wounded heart. He realized that he felt guilty, because a part of him did want to sign Georgina's will for custody, and that part of him feared Blair's reaction.

Serena walked slowly over to the couch and sat next to Dan. He felt her hand on his back. He knew she was trying to comfort him, but didn't want her to comfort him, he wanted Blair. He wanted Blair to be there to comfort him, to tell him everything was going to be alright. Dan shrugged a shocked Serena's hand off his back and flew angrily off the couch towards his bedroom, slamming the door.

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Oh my…haha a lot has happened in this chapter. Wonder what will happen next? ;) Stay tuned!