AN: Hello, I know that next in my rotation should be 'Painful Memories' but all I can do is think about this story so I apologize to anyone that was looking for the next chapter of that story. I'll try to get it up soon! Also this chapter is longer than usual, Its two chapters in one because I am going on a family vacation in like two weeks and I've picked up extra shifts at work (working seven days in a row kill me) so we can have extra money for our trip. So I have ZERO time to update until I get back. So the wait for the next chapters is going to be a little long, I leave for my trip September 9th and get back home the 16th so there won't be an updated again until after the 16th sometime. SO SORRY! Hope the longer chapter makes up for it!

Chapter Five:

CLARY

It was about 9:30 and the party was only just getting started, but I couldn't concentrate. My eyes and ears were constantly looking for Jace, Alec or Isabelle. Jace had called that afternoon saying that they weren't going to be able to leave until Alec got out of work around 6 o'clock. So giving the fact that it only takes two hours to get here, I was starting to freak out. In a desperate attempt to relax I had had consumed about three cup of 'fruit punch' that was heavily spiked and a couple of shots. I hadn't seen Simon since we got here twenty minutes ago and I was starting to feel like everyone was ditching me. My head felt thick, I hadn't drunk so much in such a short time before but my heart was racing and I couldn't help freaking out. I slowly brushed my hands along the short black shirt I was wearing; I was also wearing a red tank top. I never dressed like this, but I wanted to look nice for Jace. I had just poured myself another cup of fruit punch when suddenly an arm was thrown over my shoulder; I looked up into the handsome face of Jace Wayland. My heart thumped loudly in my chest as I stared at his goofy grin.

"Hey red." He said stealing the cup out of my hands and taking a swig.

"Yuck." He said placing the red solo cup back into my hands.

"Where's the beer at?" He commented looking around, I turned slightly and spotted Alec standing awkwardly behind him. Jace suddenly spotted the keg and was off, he was always so confident were ever he was. He was walking around like he owned the place and I couldn't help the tiny grin that formed on my face. Alec and I both followed Jace over to the keg; he got himself and Alec a cup before looking around.

"Is this the party Clary?" Jace asked taking a sip of his beer.

"Um, yeah but people don't really show up until like tenish." I replied with a shrug, there weren't many people around. I hadn't even seen Magnus yet and he was the one to get things going at parties.

"Who wants to play beer pong?" Jace suddenly shouted into the crowd and a few guys from the football team shrugged and soon people were heading outside to the table someone had set up. I slowly sipped my drink while I watched Jace and Alec dominate the game. After finishing his drink Alec was starting to loosen up and was having fun, Jace was already best friend with everyone. I smiled lightly when suddenly for the second time that night someone threw their arms over my shoulders.

"Ohh who's that cute guy?!" Magnus purred in my ear and I giggled.

"That's Jace." I said and Magnus scrunched his face a little.

"I thought you said Jace had blond hair?" Magnus asked and I stood confused for a moment before I realized that Magnus was looking at Alec. I laughed loudly earning a look from both Alec and Jace, but they quickly turned their attention back to their game.

"The dark haired one is Jace's best friend Alec." I said and Magnus smirked.

"I call dibs!" He said before leaving me.

"I call winner." Magnus yelled loudly as he walked towards the middle of the table, giving Alec a wink in the process causing him to miss his shot. I giggled before heading back into the house to grab another drink. I stumbled twice but tried to pretend like I didn't. I spotted Jonathan in the kitchen with some of his friends so I avoided them and grabbed something in a bottle from the living room. I glanced towards the couch and finally spotted Simon sitting on the couch, he was with someone and they were both laughing loudly. It took me a moment to realize it was Isabelle! I almost dropped my drink in surprise, but I controlled myself and quickly left the room not wanting to running there moment.

When I got back outside Alec and Jace were playing again Magnus and some boy I didn't know. I got next to Jace and smiled at him.

"Who's winning?" I asked as the other time threw there pong balls at the two cups remaining on Jace's side of the table. I glanced over and realized Magnus's team had four cups left.

"Them." Jace said as he grabbed a pong for his turn and took his shot. It landed in a cup and he high fived with Alec. I was starting to get a little bored and I secretly hoped that Jace lost just so he would stop playing and hang out with me. After a couple of more rounds Magnus won and he congratulated him.

"Great game." Jace commented and Magnus smirked, his eyes flashing only looking at Alec.

"Jace, Alec this is one of my friends Magnus." I introduced them and they all nodded. Jace then turned to me and smiled.

"Want to dance?" He asked randomly and I smiled.

"Of course." I chugged the rest of my drink and tossed it into a trashcan on our way back into the house. A few people were dancing in the living room at this point; it was a lot later and very packed. I noticed Simone and Isabelle were gone, but I didn't mention anything to Jace. I turned slowly and started to slowly sway my hips back and forth in front of Jace, not touching his hips but very close. I couldn't see his face but he must have been okay with it because he pulled my closer until we were touching. My stomach was filled with butterflies as I danced with Jace. I had never danced like this before; I sure as hell wouldn't be doing it now if I wasn't so drunk. I hoped I didn't look as sloppy as I felt. I moved my hips to the time of the music and Jace placed a hand on my waist and we started moving together. I leaned closer until my back was pressed against his stomach and almost every inch of us was touching. I closed my eyes and moved my hand back until I was touch his neck, he moved his hand from my hip to my stomach. We swayed like that together for two songs not really changing our beat. Jace had placed a few slow kisses on my neck and I was sure things were going to happen tonight when suddenly we heard someone cough loudly next to us. I opened my eyes slowly and there stood Jonathan glaring at us. I sprung away from Jace and he stood there sheepishly.

"We were just dancing." I said quickly, and rather loudly.

"Yeah sure." Jonathan murmured staring death daggers at Jace.

"I have to pee." I finally said just to get away from this embarrassing moment. I rushed away from the two boys and made my way to the bathroom realizing I really did have to pee. After standing in a line for almost ten minutes I finally did my business and was eager to get back to Jace. I hoped he wasn't angry with me for bailing on him and leaving him with Jonathan. I got back into the living room and I stood at the doorway looking for Jace. I finally spotted him sitting on a couch leaning very closely to a blond girl talking to her. She laughed at that point and he smiled at her. My stomach dropped as I stood there awkwardly watching Jace flirt with some random girl. Suddenly Simon was standing next to me.

"You won't believe what I've been doing all night." He said next to me, I could tell by his voice that he had a goofy grin on his face.

"Clary you okay?" He asked when I didn't respond to him, slowly his eyes must have spotted what I was looking at and he grabbed my arm and started dragging me away, upstairs.

"Oh Clary, I am sorry." Simon said when he shut the door to a random room. I didn't say anything for a moment trying to absorb everything I just saw. Suddenly I burst into tears, very upset and being drunk wasn't helping.

"I like him so much Simon and it's like he doesn't even notice me!" Tears we falling fast as I was blubbering, Simon pulled me into a hug so I started to cry into his shoulder.

"It's so unfair." I whispered as all my emotions overwhelmed me. I went through so much at my dad's house just to see him and sometimes it felt like it was all for nothing. After a few minutes of crying Simon pulled me away a little to look at me.

"Let me go get you some water, to help sober you up a little." I nodded as I watched him walk out of the room. I slowly turned and sat on the bed wrapping my arms around myself, wishing that maybe for once I could be the girl that gets the guy.

JACE

"I have to pee" Clary was suddenly gone and I was left standing awkwardly with her brothers glaring at me.

"What do you think you're doing with my little sister Wayland? What are you even doing here?" Jon said and I rubbed the back of my neck.

"Um, she invited me and we were just dancing like she said I swear!" I said putting my hands up in surrender.

"You better treat my sister with respect or I will kick your ass!" Jonathan said pointing a finger at me before leaving me alone. I let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding when he was out of my sight. I stood for a moment wondering if Clary really went to the bathroom or was just trying to run away. After a couple of minutes of being bumped by people I walked over to a couch to wait for her. I was slightly tipsy at this point, but not drunk. I only had a couple of beers while playing beer pong. I looked over as someone sat down next to me; she had blond hair and was fairly pretty. But I was waiting for Clary, but I didn't want to seem rude so I said hello.

"Hey." She replied back, throwing her blond hair to the side, smiling at him.

"I am Kelly, what's your name handsome?" She said and I grinned back cheekily.

"Why you guessed it, Handsome is my name." I replied back and she let out a small laugh.

"But most people call me Jace." She smiled brightly at me and I smiled back slowly trying to rain myself in, I was too much of a flirt for my own good. I was here to spend time with Clary and it wouldn't be right to flirt with random girls. I looked up suddenly thinking I saw a flash of red hair only to see Simon dragging Clary up the stairs. Thinking something might be wrong I said goodbye to Kelly and quickly rushed up the stairs after them. I saw a door close behind them and almost opened it when I suddenly heard Clary start talking and I hesitated.

"I like him so much Simon and it's like he doesn't even notice me!" I heard her sob and my heart clenched a little, was she talking about me? Had she seen me talking to Kelly and thought I was flirting with her? Which I was a little but I flirted with everyone. I heard her mumbled something else but I couldn't hear what it was she said. Simon didn't say much of anything but then he suddenly said he was going to get her some water and I quickly darted down the stairs not wanting to get caught eavesdropping. I made it down the stairs without Simon seeing me. I spotted Alec talking with Magnus and almost went over to talk to him but he was blushing slightly so I didn't want to ruin a moment. But I did finally see Isabelle for the first time sense we got here.

"I fuck up." I said to her as I walked over with pathetic look on my face.

"Tell me something new." She said rolling her eyes slightly.

CLARY

After my crying fest we all left the party soon after. I acted like nothing was wrong when I saw Jace but he seemed a little put out for some reason but I chalked it up as nothing. We all went back to Simons house and went to bed. Alec and Jace slept on a full air mattress, while Izzy slept on a twin one while I slept in bed with Simone. It wasn't a big deal we had been having sleep overs since forever. We all woke up in the morning with different stages of hangovers. I had a splitting headache while Alec had thrown up. Izzy was a royal bitch and all Simone did was whine about everything. Jace on the other hand seemed perfectly fine. After taking showers and all getting ready for the day, we left. I had brought the few things I was bring to my dad's with me to Simone's so we didn't have to stop at my house. I had said goodbye to my mother yesterday. The drive back was pretty quiet all of us tired and not feeling well. We stopped for McDonalds at one point but after that the ride was silent except for the music. I drifted in and out of sleep the entire trip. Suddenly I snapped awake and realized we were about ten minutes from my dad's and I was starting to panic, suddenly remembering how pissed Sebastian was at me. I started sweating thinking about all the threats he gave me the last few times I had saw him. It didn't help that he hadn't done anything to me in a while so I knew it was going to be extra brutal, and I knew he was pissed I got a ride with Jace instead of him by the lack of text back when I told him I didn't need a ride. We slowly pulled into Jace's driveway and I was trying to act cool, but I stumbled out of the car and landed on my knees.

"Shit." I muttered as Jace rushed out and helped me up.

"You okay?" He asked and I nodded.

"Yeah just being hung over and clumsy." I remarked and he nodded.

"See you later?" I asked slowly, even thought I was a little made at him for flirting with some random bimbo last night. But I knew I still wanted to see him regardless. He grinned back.

"Of course, I'll text you sometime tomorrow." He smiled at me before turning and heading towards his house, Alec and Iz waved before following Jace into his house. I slowly turned and started very slowly heading towards mine. My stomach clenched as I realized both Susan's and my dad's cars weren't there, but Sebastian's was sitting in the driveway. Apparently I wasn't even going to be able to take a nap before something happened. I thought about turning around and just hanging out at Jace's for a while, but I knew Sebastian knew I was here and if I didn't come in now everything was going to be much worse later. Once I got to the front door I decided to make a run for it. I threw open the door and slammed it shut then I started booking up the stairs as fast as I could. I thought I made it as I wrenched opened my door and slammed it closed locking it behind me. I leaned against my door with my eyes closed breathing heavily.

"Nice try." I heard a voice and my eyes snapped open to see Sebastian mock clapping, while he sat on my bed. Suddenly he was standing in front of me, pressing his entire body against mine.

"You just keep racking up the punishments don't you Clary." He whispered in my ear before leaning down and biting my neck. I yelped and tried to shove him off but he wasn't having that and he pinned both my hands at my sides.

(WARNING ABOUT TO GET DARK)

"We are going to have some fun, aren't we?" He mocked me before letting go of one of my wrists to grab my hair. I grunted at the pain as he forced me from against the wall towards my bed. He was pulling so hard that I was almost hovering off the ground. Spots were fluttering my eyes at the intense pain but it quickly ended as he flung me towards the bed. I landed in a heap and quickly curled in on myself not wanting him to hurt me. He was on the bed in a matter of seconds and he started trying to rip at my shirt and pants, I started flaring my arms and feet everywhere but he punched me in the stomach, knocking the wind out of me. I sat gasping for a second, trying to get my breath back. In that time he was able to get my shirt off me.

"Stop!" I wheezed when I could finally breathe but he didn't even say anything while he attacked my chest, trying to work the bra off me. But I wasn't going to make things easy for him so I started to claw at his face with my fingers. I scratched him good and he screamed in pain while I tried to scamper off the bed. He recovered quickly and lunched at me, knocking us both to the floor. I scream in pain as he punched me square in the face three times. I must have blacked out for a second because when I slowly came to he was roughly yanking my underwear off me. I groaned and weakly tried to push him away. I was in so much pain my face felt like it was on fire. I was so surprised that he hit me in the face, he normally tried to make sure people wouldn't be able to see the bruises he gave me but it felt so swollen already that I knew I was going to have to make up something.

"STOP SQURRMING." He bellowed while punching me in the head again, spots filled my vision and I stopped moving because it hurt so badly. He was able to get my bra off and his pants while I laid there and cried, sobs racking my body. This was so brutal and humiliating, I just wished to die in that moment. I would honestly rather die than let him do this to me again. But of course that didn't happen and soon he was inside me, pounding me with brutal force. I screamed at the top of my lungs as he tore threw me. He placed a large hand over my mouth and I screamed into his hand. He stopped suddenly and pulled out of me before forcing me to sit up.

"Suck it." He said and I looked up at him, only being able to see him with one of my eyes, the other so swollen I couldn't open it. I shook my head but he roughly grabbed my hair and I gasped and he quickly shoved his penis into my mouth until I was gaging. I tried pushing him away from me but he was so strong. He kept a hold of my hair while he moved his penis and in out of my mouth at a fast pace, making sure I gaged every time. Finally he stopped and threw me to the ground.

"Turn and get on your hands and knees." He commanded and when I didn't move he kicked me in the ribs. I screamed before doing what he said, scared of what he would do if I didn't. He got onto his knees behind me and placed himself inside me again, moving in and out faster and faster. I tired holding my pain in as he grabbed my hair again and forced my back to arch. He pounded into me for what felt like hours. Finally he leaned forwards and grabbed one of my breasts with his free hand and squeezed until I screamed, then he came inside me with a loud grunt. Once he was done he pushed me away from him before getting up and grabbing his clothes.

(END DARKNESS)

"Clean yourself up, you look disgusting." He commented heading towards the door, he unlocked it and opened it before turning and looking at me.

"Oh and you better think of something good to tell everyone about your face." He threated before leaving me alone in my room. I couldn't move for what felt like a long time. Everything hurt, my face my stomach and I was sure he broke one of my ribs when he kicked him. This was the most brutal he's ever raped me, even more so then the first time. I slowly, clutching my rib, got up and headed towards the bathroom. I took a very slow and painful shower. Everything hurt and I washed quickly wanting to get out of there and get into bed. After brushing my teeth, taking some aspirin and slowly putting on some clothes I curled up in my bed and just cried. I didn't know what I was going to tell people, and I honestly didn't know how I was going to last this summer if this is what Sebastian was going to do to me. I fell asleep quickly out of pure exhaustion.

JACE

Alec and Izzy had left a couple of hours ago, and I was just laying on my bed wondering what to do about Clary. I had always had a crush on her, practically since I first met her. But she lived two hours away; I had never tried anything with her because I didn't feel like a long distance relationship would work. I sighed once again wishing Clary lived here, because she would already be mine. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and scrolled threw my numbers until I landed on Clary's. I clicked the call button and put the phone up to my ear, I didn't know what I was going to say but I just wanted to talk to her. It rang and rang but she never answered, I wondered if she was still angry at me. I ended the call without leaving a voicemail and then clicked until I got to a text message.

'Hey call me back red.' I wanted to add that I missed her but that seemed stupid so I didn't add it. I clicked send and then pushed my phone back into my pocket. I hoped this summer was going to be as great as the last two, all year I waited for this summer just so I could see her.

AN: Hope you guys liked and didn't think it was too dark! Let me know what you think.