AN: Warning: Swears and non-con in this chapter! You've been warned.
Chapter eight:
Flashback (Clary's POV)-
It was recess and I sat with my arms folded around my knees, I was sitting in the corner of the play area. It was cold and I shivered a little as I watched my friends play. My teacher was shouting at Tommy, one of the kids that always caused trouble so she wasn't paying attention to me. I shivered again when suddenly Simon, one of my friends came over and sat next to me. I smiled at him weakly and he smiled back.
"What's wrong Clary?" Simon asked as he curled up like me to keep the warmth in. It was January so it was very cold in are play area, even with are thick hats and mittens on.
"I dunno, I am just sad." I said not sure how to put my feelings into words. My daddy left just before Christmas and I hadn't seen him since. Christmas had been very sad and Jonathan barely talked to anyone anymore, he was so mad at mommy for sending daddy away. Simon looked sad for a moment as well.
"Why are you sad?" He asked after a moment and I started to cry a little.
"My daddy left and I miss him." I finally said and as Simon leaned closer and wrapped and arm around my shoulders hugging me.
"I am sorry Clary, I know how you feel thought I haven't seen my dad in a really long time." Simon said and I finally stopped crying and looked at him.
"Where did your daddy go?" I asked quietly and he looked a little down for a moment.
"Heaven, my mom said he's in heaven. I won't see him again until it's my turn to go." He said quietly and I looked up at the sky for a moment. Feeling maybe just a little better because at least my daddy wasn't in Heaven.
"You're my best friend Simon." I said after a moment and he smiled brightly and so did I.
-End Flashback.
The rain was pouring down my window, it was almost seven in the morning and the sky was dark grey, the sun not able to break threw the summer storm. I wiped a stray tear from my face trying to get a grip on myself. Simon and I had stayed up almost all night talking about everything. I didn't describe anything to horrible, trying to keep him from going straight to my mom or the cops. He went from angry and wanting to kill Sebastian with his bare hands to sad. He hurt for me, and I understood that but I wished more than anything he didn't know. I ached inside with all these feelings, I was usually so good at keeping them buried inside but lately it wasn't working. I sucked in a deep breath as I looked at Simon on my bed; he was fast asleep having fallen asleep around four in the morning out of pure exhaustion.
My back ached from sitting on the floor curled in a ball. I stretched my back slowly as a yawn escaped my lips. I was tired but I couldn't seem to fall asleep. Too much was racing through my mind and my head was throbbing. My face felt stiff and heavy from all the crying. And something Simon said kept running through my head.
-Flash back to the night before
"Clary why haven't you told your mom or gone to the cops?" Simon asked as tears pooled in my eyes and fell down my cheeks. My breath felt caught in my throat as I tried to form words.
"If I told anyone my mom would never let me come back and then I would never see Jace again." I said quietly and he looked a little aggravated at my answer.
"So you're telling me you let your step brother rape and abuse you just so you can see Jace." He said a little angrily and I looked away from his piercing stares just nodding my head.
"That's crazy Clary; no one is worth that kind of suffering." He said trying to plead with me to tell my mom.
-End flashback.
Everything he said last night was totally true; suffering like this just for some guy was insane. I knew that but I couldn't seem to say the real reason why, which I only figured out last night when Simon found out. The real reason I didn't want people to know was shame. I was ashamed that I let this go on for so long, I was embarrassed and I was more than sure everything would be blamed on me. I took in a shuttered breath as I decided to take a shower. I left the room slowly and quietly wiping the tears from my face quickly. I shut the door behind me and sucked in a deep breath when I turned from the door and there stood Sebastian. He was standing there wearing the same thing as yesterday, clearly only just getting home now. I looked at him another second before turning from him and walking to the bathroom. I walked quickly and confidently. But as I knew he would he grabbed my upper arm just as I was about to walk through the bathroom door.
"Not now." I replied angrily as he shoved me into the bathroom and shut and locked the door behind him. I tore my arm from his grip and glared at him.
"Sebastian I am DONE with this shit okay, I am your good damn sister this is NOT how you treat someone. I am NOT your plaything. I am a fucking human being and I am done being USED by you. I need you turn the fuck around and leave this room now. I also need you to leave me alone or I am going to tell my mom what you do to me." I spat angrily completely done with what he does to me, not even caring if I get another beating like last time. Simon knew now, what more could I do? He laughed quietly before rushing towards me and slamming me into the wall behind me knocking the breath out of me. He roughly grabbed my arms and pinned them to my sides with his own.
"You're hilarious Clary, your little speech. I fucking own you little girl and you know that. I am not going to stop and you're not going to tell anymore. I have my mother on my side and she will gladly tell everyone how she caught us more than once and how you begged for it." He whispered this harshly in my ear and I turned my head away from his and looked to the side, at the floor. My heart was racing and I just wanted him to go away.
"What will you say when they ask why it took you so long to say anything." He asked bitterly and I turned and glared at him.
"I'll say I was afraid of you." I asked staring straight into his eyes challenging him. He looked fearful for a moment before laughed quickly.
"It won't work." He said before pulling me back from the wall only to slam me back into. I gasped as the wind was knocked out of me again and he took his chance and started pulling my pj pants down my legs.
"Please I don't wanna." I finally said when I could breathe again. He ignored me as he got the pants off my legs, and then tore the underwear off my body shocking me. He pushed me against the wall with his entire body before leaning real close to my ear, whispering into it.
"You need to remember who is in charge little girl." He said before turning and biting down on my neck as the same time as he roughly jammed two fingers inside me. I gasped loudly as he started to pound his fingers into my flesh. I cried out quietly as he started to use his thumb to rub circles around my clit. My dry opening quickly becoming wet. My heart was racing as I felt shock waves of pleasure roll up and down my body.
"You can't tell me you don't want this Clary, your dripping wet." He said huskily as he started kissing up and down my jaw. I couldn't seem to form words as I used my hands to try and shove his chest away from me.
"Stop." I said weakly as he continued his assault on me, thrusting his fingers in and out and rubbing my clit. I hated to admit that it felt good and I was pissed my body was betraying me like this. I was gasping and trying to stop the feeling flowing threw me as he abruptly stopped and quickly unbuttoned his jeans and torn them down his legs along with his boxers. He suddenly picked me up by my hips and plunged me down onto his thick, hard cock. I gasped as waved of pleasure continued to run up and down my body. My legs wrapped around Sebastian's waist so I wouldn't fall and my arms around his shoulders. I buried my head into his neck so he would see my face as she lifted my hips up and down on his cock. He was breathing heavily and so was I as he suddenly pulled me off his dick and spun me around and forced me to face the wall. He spread my legs and shoved his cock back inside me. My face was against the wall and my hands were pressed against the wall as well keeping me in place as he picked up his relentless pounding. He suddenly grabbed my hair and pulled my head toward him causing me to involuntary arch me back, making my ass lift up causing a deeper angle for him. He leaned forward and started sucking on my neck again and then suddenly it was like I was exploding. Shockwaves of pleasure ran through my body as I jerked threw my orgasm. Moments later Sebastian came to his own completion coming inside me. He grunted a few times before pulling out of me and pulling his pants back up.
I still stood with my face against the wall breathing heavily. My chest heaving up and down as I watched Sebastian out of the corner of me eye. He turned to leave only to stop at the doorway.
"Yeah Clary, that really looked like force." He comment harshly before unlocked the door and leaving. My heart was thumping in my chest as I finally slid down the wall to the floor, curling up into a ball. I started sobbing as I realized what just happened and how I didn't fight nearly as hard that time and that it actually felt good. I sobbed for being so stupid and I sobbed for feeling like a worthless person.
Six days later-
It was time for Simon and I to leave, my dad was dropping us off. I had somehow got Simon to agree not to tell anyone right now. I said Sebastian was going to college far away and I would barely see him and that I didn't want to go through the whole court process. He reluctantly agreed, but claimed that if anything happened again I was to tell him and then we would both go and tell my mom. It hurt to know that I was already lying to him because something had already happened since I told him but I couldn't let anyone else find out. I was glad to be spending the weekend at my moms, to get away and clear my head. Plus I was excited to see Jonathan since I hadn't seen him since his graduation in June.
-Sorry this chapter is so short and that I totally cut Simons trip out! I was planning on having Simon find out at the end of the week but it just came out then. If anyone wants to see Simon and Isabelle's date just let me know! I decided not to add it to the story but I could put it up as a one-shot. Big things are coming up in the next chapter (that's why this chapter is so short), really excited! A little bit of Clary at home next week then some big changes for Clary! Can anyone guess what's going to happen?