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Chapter 12

I was told my mother died when I was born and that my family consisted of only my father. My father, he was very strict about –well, everything. I was given tons of books to read while he was away in meetings or Shadowhunting. I was expected to read what I was assigned, sometimes a few chapters and sometimes the whole book. I was to give a verbal report once my father got back. If I behaved and did as told I was rewarded with a book novel or a new weapon. I did enjoyed the novels and of course the weapons –they were like new toys.

I was an only child so there was not much to do when my father was out. I would read, do my assignments, and train. My father wasn't one of those affectional parents. He would hug me sometimes when he had to leave and sometimes –on my birthdays –he would tell me he loved me.

I started to wonder if it was like this for other kids. I had never interacted with another kid. Did their parents leave them alone, for so long, too? Did they live on a cottage in the woods, isolated from everyone? Was this it? All those questions spun around my head constantly. But then, somehow I realized I was different.

I knew about the Shadowhunter's history since very young. And I learned that I was indeed too young. I remembered being told how to hold and throw a dagger correctly at the age of 6. My training begun earlier than for other Shadowhunters. My father taught me everything: history, math, English, different languages, demonology, angelology, the Gray Book, and of course, fighting. But he had started teaching me earlier than other Shadowhunters.

From that, and the novels I read I became aware of how unusual my life was. People lived in cities, in towns, not hidden and insolated in the woods. Parents took care of their children, not abandoned them for weeks.

I asked my father and he scolded me and doubled up my assignments ad chores, but that just made me more suspicious. I might have been just a child, but I was smart. One day, my father had gone to buy the groceries –he never took me with him – and I went through his things. I found a journal. I knew that journal, I had seen him write on it many times. I read it and my world crumbled.

He was not my father.

He had lied to me. I was not his daughter, I was his experiment. I was his "perfect combination". I was just ten. I remembered crying and sobbing. He had come home and found me sobbing in the floor. He had dropped the groceries he was carrying on the floor and rushed to me. He had held me close to his chest, rubbing my back thinking that it was happening again. But I had pushed him away and called him a liar.

His face had shown utter shock. Then I told him I knew the truth – he was not my real father and I was an experiment of his. He calmed me down, telling me that my parents were close friends to him and he had taken me when my parents died in a fire just after I was born. He said that he was my father even if we didn't share the same blood.

He told me that I wasn't an experiment to him. He said he had done what he did to make me stronger and the best Shadowhunter of my generation and of all times even. What I didn't tell him was that I had also read about the other two boys. I had told him I believed him. But I never did. And I followed him when he left.

And he led me to Jonathan.

CPOV

"Alec?" I called out.

We were outside the training room, the sun was up, high in the sky. Alec was practicing with his bow and arrow. We had already trained for an hour and a half inside the training room.

"Yeah," he said, not moving his eyes from the target.

"I don't want Jonathan to hurt you," I said, my voice cracking a little. "And we both know that I am the reason he tried to kill you."

"Clary," he lowered the bow and arrow and turned to me.

"No, let me finish," I said. "Maybe –," I took a deep breath, not believing what I was about to say. "Maybe we should stop seeing each other."

"Are you trying to break up with me?" He stared at me.

"It's for the best –"

"Because if you are, it's not working," he said and returned to his target.

"What do you mean it's not working?" I stood up from the spot I had been sitting for 20 the last minutes.

"It's not working," he repeated.

"I just broke up with you!"

"Not happening," he said, shooting an arrow right in the center of the target.

"Alec you can't just do that." I said, gapping at him.

"Well, we're still very much together." He shrugged.

"No we are not!" I said, getting more and more frustrated at the minute.

Alec laughed and continued to practice.

"Alexander Lightwood you are not my boyfriend, do you understand?" I was crying in frustration. I was being serious and he thought this was a joke? As much as it hurt to break up with him, I didn't want Jonathan going after him and hurting him again.

"Clarissa," he said, dropping his favorite weapon. He grabbed my wrists pulling me closer to him.

"Let go," I said, struggling to get away.

Alec let go of one of my wrists and used his hand to force me to look up. He pressed his lips to mines. He secured my waist with his arms and kissed me passionately. I kissed him back, because I just can't deny a kiss from him. Alec let go of my other wrist but I didn't try to push him away. He placed a hand on my back and the other on my cheek. I wrapped my arms around him and deepened the kiss.

Our lips moved in sync and in that moment nothing else mattered. How can I sat away from him? I don't want Jonathan to hurt him, but I don't want to stay away from him.

"Clary," Alec said against my lips. He looked up into my eyes. "I won't let Jonathan get between us."

"I don't want you getting hurt," my voice sounded frighten.

"We're Shadowhunters, we get hurt all the time," he caressed my cheek. "But we'll take down Jonathan."

"If something happens to you –"

"Nothing will happen to me as long as we stand and fight together." He extended his hand in front of him. "Will you stand with me?"

I placed my hand on top of his. "I will."

"We will be alright" he said, squeezing my hand.

"Hey," Isabelle called from a distance. She walked toward us before stopping and placing her hand on her hip. "Mom got news. We're going back to New York, soon."

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Turns out that the Clave had decided to let more Shadowhunters go, our families being one of them. Shadowhunters were needed to go back on the field, back to hunting and killing demons. I was glad we were going back home, I missed New York, but I wondered how things would change for me and Alec. I wouldn't be able to sleep with him every night like we had been doing. I immediately blushed and cursed myself for worrying about this.

I jumped at the sudden cold hand that pressed into my back. I nudged Alec in the ribs, he had slipped his hand inside my shirt. The others were still talking, we were in the back of the room. "Hey I called you twice, I had to get your attention somehow."

"Yes and touching me with your cold hands was at the top of attention grabbers," I rolled my eyes, shaking his hand off. He chuckled and pulled it back.

"Are you going to the institute every day?" he asked, getting serious and looking concerned.

"Hmm," I said, tapping my chin. "I don't know, what is there for me in the institute?"

"Your boyfriend," he said, sounding offended.

"And what is there for me if I visit my boyfriend every day?" I smirked.

Alec stepped closer to me, close enough to receive odd looks if anyone saw. Alec didn't seem to be aware of that, and if he was he simply didn't care. He slipped his hand inside my shirt again and traced my side with his fingertip, making me shiver.

"I would kiss you every single day," he whispered in my ear. "I could make you feel so good."

He kissed my neck and I let out a little gasp. His fingertips traced the band of my leggings. My breath caught in my throat, I squeezed my eyes close. "Alec."

"I could kiss you everywhere that beautiful body of yours," he went on. "And touch you in the places you want me the most." He kissed my neck again. His words and touches were making me feel hot and bothered down there.

"Alec," I grabbed his arm, "please."

"Please what?" he smirked.

"Stop," I let out, "you're making me feel –"

"Feel what? Come on finish what you were about to say."

I shook my head. Alec moved his hand up to my covered breast, I had to bit my lip to stop any noises. "Let's go to your house."

I didn't have to repeat myself, Alec grabbed my hand and we left quietly. The Lightwood's house was closer than Amatis, we arrived in 6 minutes. Once Alec locked his door he pressed me against it and attacked my lips. I was still aroused, I had been picturing many things on our way here. Alec grabbed my tights and I wrapped my legs around him. I rubbed down on him as he kissed my neck and bit on the flesh.

"Alec please," begged.

Alec carried me to his bed, laying me down carefully. He took our shoes off and pulled his shirt over his head. I couldn't help but stare. My head picturing him above me, making me moan and gasp in pure pleasure.

"Take my clothes off," I said.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes," I nodded. "I want to be bare to you."

"By the angel," he said under his breath.

Alec started stripping me from my clothes. I was aching from in between my legs, I was starting to feel wet. He left me in my bra and panties only.

"God you're so beautiful." He almost growled. "I want to make you feel so good."

His hands roamed over my body, my lace bra went off in no time. I grabbed onto the sheets when he took one of my breast in his mouth and played with the other with his hand. I was taking short breaths and I was feeling eager. "Alec, please. Alec I need you."

The dark haired boy got off me to slide his pants off, leaving him in only boxers. Once he was back in the bed he started to kiss my neck, I gasped as he pressed his thumb to my clothed clit. He started to rub and make circles, making me gasp and grip the sheets.

"You're so wet for me," Alec whispered. His dirty talk aroused me more. "I want to make you feel so good. Do you want me to make you feel good? Do you?"

"Yes please," I breathed out.

"I'm going to make you feel so good baby."

"Alec," I moaned and squeezed my tights unconsciously.

Alec parted my tights and started making trails of kisses up my tights. He took his time to kiss, nibble, and bit on the flesh, leaving red marks. My skin was crawling with anticipation. My mind raced with thoughts of what he would do next and how would it feel. My tiny gasps could be heard in the room, as well as Alec's kisses.

I gasped, gripping the sheets tighter when Alec pressed a kiss to my clothed folds. My lips parted as he continued to place kisses all over it, I moaned when his nose rubbed against my clit. His lips traveled up to my lower stomach, his thumbs hooked on my panties and he slowly pulled them down. The cool air hit my wet folds making me shiver and bit my lips. The anticipation was eating me alive, my eyes were squeezed shut.

"Open your eyes baby," Alec's breath ghosted over me, making me shiver.

I did as I was told, I opened my eyes and looked at Alec who was only inches away from the place I needed him to touch me the most. Alec's blue eyes stared back at my green one as he pressed his lips to my folds. I gasped, he continued to press kisses and started rubbing my clit with his thumb.

"Alec," I moaned when he inserted his tongue inside of me. Moans, groans, gasps, and grunts left my lips as Alec thrusted his tongue in and out of me. He rubbed his tongue against my clit making me moan louder. "Alec, oh god, oh."

"You can be as loud as you want baby," Alec said. I whimpered at the loss of his touch. "No one is here."

Alec continued to pleasure me with his tongue and his thumb. I couldn't think straight, I had never felt this much pleasure in my life. I had never been this exposed to anyone or touched this way. No one had ever made me feel this way.

"Alec!" I cried as I felt something built up. Noises continued to burst from my lips, Alec didn't stop. I arched my back and cried out Alec's name, a wave of utterly pleasure went through my body. My legs were shaking and my head was thrown back. I was in pure bliss.

I collapsed back, breathing heavily. A layer of sweat was covering my body and my face felt hot. Alec kissed my shoulder, smoothing my hair and smiling at me.

"That," I said, still a little out of breath, "was amazing."

"I'm glad you liked it," he smiled before kissing me. "You look so beautiful."

I blushed and then noticed he was still hard and blushed a darker shade of red. Would we go all the way? The question started running through my head.

"We don't have to go all the way," Alec said, as if reading my mind. "I like making you feel good," he kissed my neck.

"And what are you going to do about that?" I blushed as I glanced at the tent in his boxers.

Alec blushed a little, "I can take care of it myself."

"Can I –can I help?" I stuttered.

"You don't have to," Alec said.

"But I want to."

"I can't say no to that," he kissed my lips, moving his hand up my thigh.

I pushed my body up and turned us over so that he was underneath me. I placed my hands at either side of his head and deepened the kiss. I was a little nervous because I didn't really know what to do, but touching his body, being this close to him, and kissing him felt so right. I loved the feeling of our skin touching.

I sat on top of him, enjoying the passionate kiss and the closeness of our bodies. Alec moved his hand to my back and pulled me closer to the point where my chest was pressed against his. I moaned against his lips at the sensation of our bodies flushed together. I pulled away, breathing heavily. I began leaving a trail of kisses from his jaw to his neck, biting and sucking on the skin.

Alec's breath was uneven, he seemed to be enjoying it. I brushed my hand against his erection, he moaned softly. I decided to tease him a little more, kissing my way down his body and brushing my hand against his erection every now and then.

After a long debate in my mind I decide to stop thinking too much about it and just act. Without giving Alec a warning, my hand slipped inside his boxers and found its way to his member. I gripped his by the base, earning a gasp of surprise from Alec. I flickered my wrist, Alec hummed and let his eyelids shut.

I really had no idea what to do, I just improvised and did what I thought would feel good. I ran my thumb across the head, Alec bit his lip, I repeated my action and then began plumping him with my hand. Alec's breath quicken as I picked up a peace. I kissed and sucked on his neck as my hand worked on Alec's lower region. I kissed my way down and licked a stripe up his member, Alec let out a throaty groan and threw his head back.

"Does that feel good?" I smirked, my breath hitting his erect member.

"Y-yeah," he stuttered.

"Good," I said and went back to the work in hand –and mouth.

I continued to stroke him with my hand and would lick the head every now and then. I picked up a pace, watching Alec's face, which was masked by pleasure. His lips were parted, his brows furrowed, and there was a slight layer of sweat forming on his forehead. He was breathing heavily, grunts and pants coming out of his mouth, the sight of him was making me aroused all over again.

"Don't stop," Alec panted out.

I kissed the tip and let my lips linger a little longer. I trailed kisses up his body until I reached his neck. I kissed and bit down on the flesh, listening to his rapid breathing. Alec's member was twitching in my hand and for the looks of it he was coming close to finishing. I quicken my movements and sucked hard on his neck.

"Clary," Alec gripped my arm.

His head was thrown back and he came into my hand. I gave him a last slow stroke and removed my hand. I grabbed some tissue that was on the shelf next to his door and cleaned my hand. I crawled back into bed next to him.

Alec wrapped an arm around him, pulling me closer to him and I pulled the duvet over us. We stayed like that for as long as we could, sharing kisses and cuddling, until it was time to face our daily tasks.

JPOV

I threw the dagger, it went flying straight to the center of the target, like it should. I had spent most of the day training, trying to clear my head but thinking of the girl that haunts me in my slee

"Lily," I said the name out loud.

The name sounded so familiar to my tongue yet foreign to my mind. My heart ached at the, somehow, memory of her voice and her golden appearance. I don't remember ever feeling like this. My mind was a blur of images from my childhood, and for the first time I was not alone, Lily was with me. Lily was someone important in my life, someone who I wouldn't have just forgotten one day.

I grabbed another dagger, but dropped it as I felt a sudden burning sensation in my chest. My chest was burning just below the neckless Valentine had gave me when I was younger. I felt my head get foggy and I reached out to the table for support. I felt dizzy, everything was spinning around and the burning in my chest was taking something from me. I tried to rip it off my chest but my hand felt numb, my effort was useless, I passed out before I could close my hand around it.

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I woke up feeling disoriented. There was a sadness resting deep in my chest, but I brushed it off. Since when did I feel sadness? I got up, stretching my limbs as I went. As confused as I was –from waking up on the floor when I didn't even remember falling asleep –I decided that if I was already in the training room I might as well train. I grabbed a dagger and threw it across the room, it perfectly hit the center of the target.

If only that was Jace or Alec, they'd be dead.

End Of JPOV

I collapsed in the arms of the man who had taken care of me since the day he found me, almost dead and lone. I screamed in frustration, even cried. I heard reassuring words from my second-like father. The green man rubbed my back and let me cried on his chest.

"I am guessing the block has been resorted?"

"I connected with him last night," I cried. "I was sure it would work again but the block is there again."

"You have done an incredible job."

"But it's not enough," I said. "I don't know where he is."

"Lily, you need to get some rest, we'll talk more later."

HOLY SHIT WHAT JUST HAPPENED?

1. CLALEC being hot at its finest

2. That necklace is a no no

3. Yes mystery girl had her appearance

4. Some of you lovelies can tide some stuff up, just read carefully and you'll find a present.

This I short I know but I was gone for too long and I'm afraid most of you won't even read this anymore so I'm just trying to see if I still have active readers. If I do I'll keep writing but if not I might just stop.

All the love xx

Karimebane