Five months had passed and it was slowly dawning to Felicia that she was going through with this pregnancy.
She stood in front of the bathroom mirror holding her baby bump. "I can do this," said Felicia.
Felicia took a deep breath as the memories of her torture came flowing back to her. She nearly freaked out when Christine hugged her from behind.
Christine cradled her belly. "I didn't mean to scare you," said Christine kissing Felicia's cheek. "You weren't in bed I got worried. Are you alright?" she asked.
Felicia shook her head answering honestly. "No, I'm so worried about things I have no control over. I can't stop thinking about….how I was violated," said Felicia.
Christine kissed Felicia's neck. "Baby, you went through a traumatic experience no one expects you to bounce back in just five months. You're being so brave loving our baby boy. Part of me will never forgive Killian for what he has done to you, however, I cannot let that judgment affect my relationship with Rhaegar. He will be our son." said Christine.
Felicia turns to face Christine burying her face in her fiancee's chest completely breaking down. Her legs couldn't hold her up anymore, collapsing to her knees Christine just cradled her beautifully strong fiancee. She just let her cry on her chest picking her up she walked them back to their room where Felicia could cry in the comfort of their bed. Felicia cried violently clinging to Christine's shoulders.
Christine kissed her forehead. "Let it out, baby. It's going to be okay. All you need is a lot of time and love all of which I'm more than willing to give you." she said.
Felicia nodded. "I-I'm so-sorry….I-I…."
Christine smiled. "Shhh, you have nothing to be sorry about. I understand just breath okay. Take a deep breath and just think out of this tragedy we get to have our first child." said Christine.
Felicia slowly stopped crying. "You're the best fiancee ever. I….I would be lost without you," said Felicia.
Christine stroked Felicia's cheek. "I would be lost without you too. Now, let's go back to sleep we have a lot to do in the morning," said Christine.
Felicia nodded as she snuggled protectively on Christine's chest. Christine did not fall back asleep after that. She was very worried about Felicia as everyone has been. But not everyone got to see Felicia at night. During the day she put on this fake act that she's perfectly fine considering what has happened to her, but at night all her fears come flooding back to her causing her to break down in tear. Christine didn't know what to do or how to help. Regina has done her best to help her daughter during this but there is only so much she can help with.
Everyone in the Swan-Mills family feels like they're responsible for what happened. Emma feels responsible for bringing Killian into her life, Regina wishes she killed him the first time she saved Emma than the second time when he kidnapped Henry….Henry oh God poor Henry. Hearing the details of Felicia's torture he got away easy. His kidnapping was more of Killian trying to get Emma back but Felicia's kidnapping….it was like he was trying to make Emma feel bad for leaving him as if he were telling her "Look what you made me do love? If you had stayed with me than this pretty young he/she wouldn't have been hurt….this is your fault, Swan. Should've thought about that when you left with the Evil Queen." The town didn't help Felicia's situation either.
The next morning, Christine made breakfast for Felicia. They had a doctor's appointment to confirm the gender of the baby which they did not need but were going to get Rhaegar's first ultrasound picture. They had to get some more stuff to start baby proofing the house, as well as other essentials like bottles, a stroller, a high chair etc. things a baby needs. They also had an appointment to see Archie.
Felicia doesn't remember much of the day. All she remembered was leaving Archie's office holding onto Christine's hand tightly.
Christine stroked Felicia's hand with her thumb. "Babe, it's alright I'm not going anywhere you don't have to squeeze my hand so tightly," said Christine.
Felicia quickly lets go of Christine's hand. "I-I'm sorry….I just….oh God…." said Felicia on the verge of crying again.
Christine wrapped her arm around Felicia's shoulders. "You're so adorable. Why don't we hang out with Kayla and Eclipse today maybe that will help you feel better," said Christine.
Felicia didn't speak she just nodded letting Christine lead them the car driving to Kayla and Eclipse's place. Kayla and Eclipse had a fairly large house hearing about their future kids made them want to keep up with how many rooms they'll have. Christine's excited for them when they decide to have Lunetta meeting her was really fun.
Eclipse opened the door. "Welcome to our little castle," she said.
Felicia looked around. "This is really great. I'm loving what you did," said Felicia.
Kayla linked her arm around Eclipse. "I helped with designing the place," said Kayla.
Christine smiled. "How are things between you two anyways?" asked Christine.
Eclipse smiled. "Things are going well. Kayla and I decided it's best to just leave the past in the past," she explained.
Felicia nodded. "That's the best thing you can do. I'm happy for you two…," said Felicia.
Kayla nodded taking hold of Felicia's hands. "I know we don't know each other for very long but I know you'll be a great mother. Don't let what Killian did affect how you feel about your son. He's not the problem Killian was and now he is out of the equation you're free." said Kayla.
Felicia nodded taking Kayla's words to heart. "Thank you, Kayla," said Felicia.
Christine smiled. "Maybe we should go home. Get some rest." said Christine.
Eclipse nodded. "Call if you need anything."