With each decision

"Free will Delta-Eleanor's Gift to you , and with each decision, you twisted her into your own image."

"You made a monster out of me father. You left me in doubt. Didn't you want me to be like you? I knew I could save you; but if you felt regret, if you wanted me to chose for myself I would have to let you go, to let you die. "

Even as I tell him this, I have my doubts. Father has changed since coming back from the dead. I have also changed coming back from the dead.
Neither of us have bloodless hands anymore.

Father has always valued my safety more than my happiness. Oh, he tried sometimes, but he wanted to save me, more then he wanted (needed?) me happy. It makes sense in Rapture.

But will the surface, be anything like Rapture? The adults came from there, after all. They made Rapture to leave the surface. To create a utopia.

Living in the crumbling remains of a Utopia, I've had to wonder sometimes, if Rapture is the utopia, what is the above world really like?"

I wonder if I'm wrong, and if I will still need ADAM on the surface. To know how to fight. Will I regret it? Will I regret not taking this opportunity to have my Father's ADAM with me someday?

Can I ever leave him behind? I wonder, lowering my ADAM extractor towards him.

He knocks the extractor away for him, and rather than feeling graceful he chose to try to follow what I had asked for, I feel betrayed.

He was leaving me I had brought him back. After I had killed Mother, left her on the floor, dead. Was it revenge, or practical protection. Was it for him? Once she had suffocated me when I lay sleeping. In return for that lesson, I had held her down and away from the air, until she had expired from lack of it. Her corpse lay on the floor, where I had discarded it.

Had I really asked him to leave me, to go die for my sake, at his first look at the grey sky above us.

How could I leave him. I'm still a little sister.

I still need my Father.

"The Rapture Dream is over, and in wakening I am alone. Mother I left behind, and you chose to die, rather than have me follow you. "

I drop my extractor and grab his hand, pulling him to the water's edge. Ten years ago, I might have pulled him like this to get the next angel.

There is no sun today. Soon I will lose my last tie to Rapture, family, my life. Nothing to hold me back, yet also, nothing to keep me from floating up above the ocean into the sky. It's lonely.

But I am strong. Father has given me everything I have asked for, in the end, and I have not thanked him yet.

"You gave me the greatest gift of all. Something I have never had. My freedom."

At that, his helmet turned to look up at me.

"There is no name for what I am, but the world is about to change. I thought we would seize it together. "

My wishes came true, and the price was far steeper than I had ever imagined. I lost everyone. I now have nothing to lose now, and everything to gain. The idea of seizing the world together with Father, was still not an unappealing one. We wouldn't be alone. But I made a wish, he made a choice, and I will not take anything back. We have decided on this.

Even if it was the hardest thing I had ever done.

"Yet as I sat there with you, I wondered If even I could be redeemed."

Once I watched him shoot himself in the head in front of me, on Mothers orders. I remember struggling, crying out "NO!"

Yet, I watched him die again, and I did nothing to try to stop it.

I still felt it.

"Your sacrifice gave me hope."

"But father wherever you are... I miss you."