So I'm supposed to do disclaimers but ya know I'm not feeling it so don get mad if anyone is reading this.
Two weeks later
I have and apointment today so I'm gonna miss school. How much of it I don't know. Tori can't take me so Caleb desided to take the day off for me.
So confesson time I have breast cancer. Not much anymore but that's my my breast are small. They had to remove it. They are growing back and that's what's worrying the doctors that I may forever have stage one cancer as they grow back.
To be honest I'm scared. Only Christina knows other than my family. Well and Toby. But I think I'm almost ready to tell my friends.I found out a month before he left and I cried in his arm for hours. For so long I thought that was why he left for
/millitary school. He might have had the same feelings he had for me as I had for him just to young and to dumb to express it. I though he was scared to loose me by forse so he did it my choice. I could never tell. I will never tell. By the end
/of the appointment I am crying. I will forever have breast cancer. Having my breast surgery every year after Christmas. It will be in major cancer unless it figures out how to spread but my whole life it hasn't and I havethat trust in god. When I
/get home I'm not feeling up to go backs to school with four and everything. So I layin bed. I hate to go all Taylor swift on ya but I wrote a song about it. I get my emotions out by writing songs drawing and just regular writing. After that I draw
/a feather. It blends out with my signature at the edge of the freatherr to not take away aboving it I print italisised. Once ... Once I didn't have to change schools once I had Toby once I had the thought that I might find Toby at this school.
/Once I didn't have the burden of breast cancer. Once I didn't. I cry in my pillow till I fall asleep lisening to burn.
"Jon tonight we are having the neighbors I met yesterday here. So try to get ready. For me" I'm woken up by tori"sweet voice and a shake awake. I sigh but get out of bed because I know that I look like crap. Wheeling sweat pant and a sports bra with a
tear stained face. What and entrance. I clean myself up and put on some legging and a quitch jersey. Awaiting the new neighbors arrival.
"Beathere here!" Tori yells up
"Tris!" I exclaim running spun the stairs. I hear an "oh crap" and see Four right in my view.
"Nope nope! Is all I can repeat as I turn around.
"What's wrong" Tori askes
"HIM... I already had a bad day I can't deal with that. THING." I walk up the stairs
"It's a long story" four says shepishly.
"Not really." I yell as I slam the door. I Change into my pajamas. And continue crying. Listening to Alexander Hamilton on repeat.
"Thanks for making me explain that's to my per-" Four waltes in cutting himself off when he sees my tear stained face. "Did I make you cry!" I can hear the symapathy in his voice but I don't take the bait.
"No I don't cry over dirt bags." Is all I can say not wanting to swear. "Leave me alone there's a reason I did not go to school. And it wasn't because of you." I continue to Lissen to music.
"How does a bastard-" is all I can say befor I her foot steps
"You don't need to call him that in our house even if he is... oh you listening to Hamilton." She walks out and I have to laugh at Fours face. She closes the door .rats my only way out.
"Time to leave." I say
"I'm not leaving till you tell me what's up" he stands his grounds.
"Then you leave?" I question already on the brink of tears.
"Sure. If that's what you want." He sighs. I wonder why.
"I have breast cancer. I just found out I will never get past stage two but I will forever be in pain." Tears spill out my eyes
I lean onto Four. I feel like what happened when I was crying into Toby shoulder that night on the same mattress. I Camry for a while and then recover myself. I take a breath and try to look put together. As much as I could I realise in a sports bra and
sweatpants. Suddenly he's not Toby anymore and j feel self concous. So I throw on a hoodie.
"I'm gonna tell the rest of themwhen the time is right. " I sigh "but that has to be soon. Thank you and I'm sorry." He looks kinda dumbfounded
"I'm sorry you shouldn't be. But take into account. If a guy wants to check you out that's sorta meant as a compliment." He laughs out
""Do you really want to tell me that?" I see him stitch his eyebrows together.
"Deal" he says