Fear. Fear is the answer to all questions. It keeps me alive. And everyone has a fear. Toby me Caleb Jake Susan Robert. All of us constantly inseparable. I was always told I had six fears. But that's not true. I'm afraid of 7 things. I just lived through one of them. Losing Toby. I had to live through it all. That text. I wasn't talking to anyone for two months. Was never responsive. Facing fear is only good in doses. 4 fears. Clostrafobic heights hitting people, and his father. I remember them all. We talked about them. I loved Feris wheels. He would always go up with me. Cause I was to annoying for anyone else to deal with. Toby had four fears. The day he gave me this bracelet. When he found out I had cancer.
"I have four you have 6. Bea, you cannot die on me. You got that! Together we are 10 when we're old. If we aren't still best friends, then you have to keep this bracelet. I have the same one. I will be buried with it and I hope you will too." Little did I know. He knew he was leaving. Wait. Ten six four. My head spins. Four. Toby. It can't be. That can't be possible. No way.
"Have you figured it out." He comes down stairs and smirks.
"Toby!" I cry out. I hug him, and I just stay there on his arms for I don't know how long."Tobias."
"I noticed your bracelet the first day. " he pulls up my hand. It's gold chain with a single charm. A ten. He shows his.
"Think it's time for you to go back to your friends." He smiles
"One question." He nods.
"Do you love me."
"Of course." He says. He kisses my forehead as I stay in his arms. "Of course I love you." He whispers in my hair.
When I get back to Shanna's there all awake. Oh crap. I try to slip in unnoticed hoping there still groggy from the morning and didn't notice I was gone.
"Can't slip in that easily." Chris laughs. I try to walk out. Never been good at long to my best friends. I get half way through the door before Marline and brook drag me back in the room.
"I don't wanna." I try to wiggle out of there arms. Eventually I'm pulled in the room by all four of them. They sit there expecting something but I don't give it to them.
"Can I go now." After a long silence.
"No of course not!" Shanna laughs like it's funny
"Where were you!" Brook asks.
"Nowhere." I say
"Four?" Chris says like she's testing the waters.
"No!" I denied it. Proud of my self
"Let me see your phone." Mar says but I hold it to my chest like its presence keepers me alive. I attempt to walk out again stopped again in my tracks.
"Your not leaving until you tell us where you were." Shanna says.
"Fine." I say " I went for ice cream." I say it guiltily. Like that's what I didn't want to tell them. "With my dad. He was only here for tonight so I went but I didn't want you to tell my brothers cause he's already gone again. I didn't want to make them feel guilty." Maybe I'm better at this living thing than I thought.
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