Chapter 7: Blue like the Universe…
Scott was still in a coma. That was the news from Harry and it did not help to cheer her up. At least he was stable. Sara was standing in front of the SAM Node and thinking. SAM told her that there is a new memory waiting for her to unravel. She was curious and at the same time resistant to the knowledge her father prepared for her. Why all that hiding? She remembered Lexi mentioned something like maybe he wanted you to be ready. But ready for what? She sighted and walked in. The room was darker, light coming only from SAM. The blue colour, however, reflected a different figure near him. It was Lexi, talking to the SAM Node.
"I apologise SAM for calling you a set of codes. I didn't mean it. I was just worried." Said Lexi looking at the shape which resembled a human heart.
I know, Dr T'Perro. I apologise for causing you any distress. SAM's voice was now the only one resonating in the room.
There was a console next to SAM which was being set up to welcome another artificial intelligence. The one Sara saved on Voeld. She made Angara angry with that decisions, but Sara felt differently for those like SAM in a way. They were not a simple technology. They were her equal… and SAM, he was a friend. She did not take him only as a device. SAM knew that as well. He always tried to make Profile transitions with the outmost care to her body.
She was observing Lexi looking at SAM. This place was familiar. She still remembered a touch of Lexi's hand when she nearly died and her voice shouting TAKE HER TO THE SAM NODE… it saved her life. She was there than, informing her that taking SAM from her body would kill her instantly. Being with her in the same room felt like déjà vu.
Lexi turned and Sara could see her face, her skin reflecting all the shades of blue in the room. Sometimes she felt that Asari were truly daughters of the Universe. Their skin being a part of its never-ending cycle covered by small stars. For Sara, they were perfect and one of the most beautiful creatures, the Milky way galaxy could give birth too. Suddenly, she felt like in love. Lexi was so beautiful. Her white dress only emphasised the aura of magnificence with which she filled the space. She was looking at her silently, possibly shocked by the Sara's presence in the room. Ryder felt strong urge to touch her, to explore that star-like skin, to kiss those blue lips and tender her shapes with her fingers. They were only few steps apart but it felt like miles away. She wanted to say aloud how beautiful she was, but could not move or utter a word.
Lexi was similarly strangled from any movement or speaking. She did not expect Sara to come here and it was hard for her to react after that incident in the med-bay. She was still touched by what Sara did and said, how she expressed her feelings. How she just wanted her forgiveness as her whole survival depended on it. And now, she was there, staring at her in a strange manner. Sara's eyes were deep and she could feel like cold shivers were running through her body. She knew this look. After 275 years, she knew it quite well. And that terrified her. Sara wanted something from her. Something she could not give her. But, why she was so silent? Lexi wanted to scream. It was so hard to focus on anything in particular when those blue eyes scanned every part of her body. It was nearly as feeling her fingers on her skin.
Asari were sensitive to energy. Their biotic capabilities were developed on that basis. That they could gather energy in the space and form it into a deadly field. But, that was the violent form the energy could take. Asari could also sense a change of intensity. Sara's energy was reaching her like an invisible embrace and slightly touching her own personal aura. It was like making love through comm. The interaction minimised on fantasy and desire for the other being. No touching, only dreaming and focusing own energy on the other. Yes, Lexi felt that focus on her body in this manner. Surely, Sara did not realise how strong her energy was. How seductive… Lexi's soul was shaking like a little bird in a cage. It was vulnerable to this seduction, it sought tender touch and care. Ryder had no clue how vulnerable Lexi's heart was. How many times it needed to break before she completely closed it from others and focused its passion only on work. Because of Victoria, because of disrespect… Yes, Ryder had no idea and despite the unknown, she found a way how to touch it through every barrier Lexi built over those long years.
It could be seconds, it could be minutes they were standing and only looking at each other. SAM did not try to interrupt the conversation, but it was Lexi's body which finally moved. Her lips were shaking. It took enormous amount of energy to resist this calling and temptation to be loved, even if it would be only for a moment… She walked towards Ryder and looked at her. Lexi could only smile. It was a weak smile trying to say hello without words, because words would make her scream. Lexi walked further…
Now there had come the second where Lexi was passing next to Ryder to the exit. Ryder still could not move, she felt Lexi being the only substance in the room. Her body nearly followed her automatically. But the only part which moved was her hand. Only slightly, her fingers touched for a less than a second Lexi's hand. It nearly looked like an accident. Accidental touch. But it felt like explosion for that short period of time. Sara closed her eyes to digest the chemistry moving through her veins.
Lexi left the room, but she could still feel her presence. Inside her heart.