Lexi rushed into the Sara's room like an unleashed dragon and Peebee behind her. Sara was already sitting on her bed expecting a tornado and praying to all kinds of gods of the Milky Way to protect her from making any mistakes which would make any of them suspicious.

Lexi was the first one in the room and she gave Sara that angry look like always. Sara just smiled. She missed Lexi so much, after what happened. They had not spoken since then, but this look felt cuter.

"Reckless again as I can see." Said Lexi in a cold voice and walked towards Sara.

"I promise, I'd planed to come to see you right after I finished that report." Said Ryder in her defence.

"Shut up, Ryder… Let Matriarch work right away would not kill any of those bastards on Nexus." Ryder leaned on a side a bit and saw Peebee standing near the door watching her closely.

"I need to agree with Peebee this time. Your life is more important than those …. fucking… madmen there. And you should finally realise it, Ryder." Lexi swore passionately which made Peebee laugh.

"I didn't know something like this could escape your mouth, doc…" Said Peebee still laughing. It was maybe the first compliment she gave to the doctor. Yeah, you would be really surprised, Peebee. Thought Sara. She followed Lexi's moves with side of her eyes but tried to fix her stare everywhere else than her face.

"Will you get rid of that shirt, or you need my help, Ryder?" Lexi sat next to Sara and looked at her with raised eyebrows. She was truly an excellent actor. The reality was, that she felt nervous being so close to Sara again, and especially under Peebee's supervision.

At first, Ryder looked at her puzzled... She completely forgot she was injured. Peebee watched that quite amused and had come closer. She had sit on the other side next to Sara.

"Feeling embarrassed in front of our beloved doc? I can help you…" Sara was too fast with her action as she got rid of her T-shirt. She would rather fight Archon now than look at any of them. Floor look as an interesting subject to explore.

There was a gunshot wound. Fortunately, the bullet went through her arm and she was not in any serious danger. Lexi sighted, trying to hold her screaming feelings on hold. What Peebee said made her furious… Not angry with Sara, though… She noticed how Sara was following the scratches on the floor and could guess what she was thinking about. They agreed this to be a one-time thing and Lexi knew that Peebee was somehow interrelated to Sara. More than a friend it seemed. Lexi did not need to be a genius to notice the guilt in her eyes.

"I'm getting tired of scolding you, Ryder… Once and for all, medi-gel is not enough for a gunshot. Ok?" Her voice was calmer than usual, sounded more tired than angry. She started to clean her wound. First touch was rush and cold...

Sara had bitten her lip in pain. She deserved it. For hurting two women she cared the most about. Guilt was overcoming her and adding some masochistic tendencies to her veins. She needed that pain of the gunshot, or Lexi's cold touch. Peebee was playful, but Sara was not sure whether she could sleep with her again. Not after every day being reminded that they all lived under one roof. She would rather die by loneliness than endanger her family.

"Hey, careful doc… Ryder is an ass but don't make it bigger, will ya?" Said Peebee watching how Ryder shivered… There was something strange going on. She could sense it. Why was Ryder so silent? Looked so embarrassed? Did not look at any of them at all? Especially Lexi?

"I'm sorry… it should be a bit better now." Lexi apologised to her? Really… what was going on here?

"That's... that's fine... it does not hurt so much... really" Even Sara raised her eyes to Peebee apologetically. This was fishy, and Peebee never liked theatre. Well, only if she had a control over it. While Lexi was patching Sara's wound, Peebee stood up and looked at them. It gave her more confidence to stand.

"Enough of this bullshit. You two are hiding something." Said Peebee in a high tone and both of them looked at her shocked at the same time. Yep, she was right. They both swallowed her bait… So, it was true. There was some strange secret between them which also included her person somehow. What it….. no way… NO!

"Wait a second…" Peebee's brain could work extremely fast, so they really did not have a chance to respond.

"You… you are the Asari, Ryder slept with…" Peebee pointed at Lexi… Lexi opened her mouth a bit, but there was nothing she could say. These were the consequences. She only looked at the side and sighted.

"Wow... I would… you really can exceed anyone's expectations, Matriarch… Seduce Ryder… No one would really expect that from you. Professionalism only until Ryder gets naked, huh?" Said Peebee with such a cruelty which surprised even her. Jealousy was spreading through her heart too fast. Surely, she would regret these lines, but now, she just wanted to find someone to shout at.

"ENOUGH!" It was now the pathfinder who raised her voice at Peebee. She was holding her injured arm.

"If you want to direct your anger at someone, I am standing right here. Leave Lexi out of it. I was the one who pushed, ok?" Her insides were trembling. She would rather lose them both than turn them into hating each other. She could now and only sacrifice herself "Both of you didn't know about I slept with both of you... So, I am the only one to blame."

Peebee was staring at Ryder with anger and pain mixed together. "You want to be hated, Ryder? You think it's that easy, huh? Helping everyone on this ship like some angel and then…." It was truly hard to transfer her anger on Ryder. It was easy with Lexi although Sara was right, and she maybe did not deserve it. But it was easier. Lexi raised and step a bit in-between those two.

"It was a mistake, Peebee. And it happened only once. It's not true I didn't know what was going on between you two. I knew…" Said Lexi in a calm voice although her heart was trembling. It was not completely true, she just guessed. And it was not true that she perceived it as a mistake.

"I'm sorry, Peebee. I haven't realised how much you feel for Sara. I was just… lonely… that's all." Sara looked at Lexi with sad eyes... No, Sara, please don't look at me like that. It breaks my heart. Lexi thought.

"Yeah… right… what? No, No, no.. don't, don't take me wrong... I don't have.. I'm not attached to anyone... well, maybe a little. But that all was just sex, right? Like you two had... only sex.. right…. I don't care… I just…. bye" Lexi's suggestion that she might have fallen for Ryder made her anger disappear. The urge to run was back. And she really needed to run back to her escape pod, to her sanctuary, back to her plush fluffy Geth. It was only a moment when Peebee disappeared.

"Fuck…. FUCK…" Said Sara angrily and moved her hand so wild that her wound nearly opened. Sara fainted back on her bed and hid her face in her hands.

"I'm so sorry Lexi… This should not have happened… I'm so sorry to you both…" Sara was broken. This was too much, but she could not cry, she could not let herself let her feelings go. Last time she did, it hurt two most important women in her life.

Lexi was watching Sara there on her bed. Her hands were shaking. She did not really feel betrayed as she knew that Sara had commitments. She felt guilty partially for Peebee and partially for Sara. This was the reason why she did not want to start anything and hide her growing interest in Sara's well-being behind her walls. She should had been the responsible one and not let this drama happen. What they will do when Sara breaks again? What the crew would think if Peebee refused to talk to Ryder? All of that would lead to questions. One thing which united her and Peebee was their shared care for Sara.

Something broke Lexi's pride and she sat next to Ryder again. She gently touched her back, getting back into her role as a psychologist and her doctor. There was a question she needed to ask although it was breaking her heart. Sara raised her eyes to Lexi. The pain she could see there made her feel even more miserable.

"Do you love her, Sara? She cares for you beyond a simple friendship." She asked quietly.

Sara could not believe Lexi asked this here out loud after all of this drama. She was thankful in a way that she stayed, but this question… She would rather see Lexi angry than this. She looked back on the floor.

"I don't think so… no… I would die for Peebee, but I couldn't return…. I could not return her kiss after…" She looked at Lexi again. "after that night..." Sara was looking directly in Lexi's eyes, stripping herself from any defences. It did not matter.

Lexi bit her lower lip. That answer was harder to process than the question. Sara, however, continued.

"That doesn't matter now, anyway. I don't deserve any of you after this. Not even your friendship. Nothing." Lexi looked at her, she needed to do something before Sara would get back to that black hole she was once again.

"Look, Sara. Whoever you love or not…" That was a very bad formulation… she quickly continued… "Surely, you are not going to lose me…" Never, Sara… "I'm your doctor…" and I love you… "and I'm sure Peebee will forgive you. She is just going through a hard time, but when you two speak again…" Or, maybe, kiss… "It will be ok…" She tried to smile and gently touched Sara's arm… Yes, she was her doctor… That came with responsibility…

Sara smiled and touched Lexi's hand. She did not deserve any of them. Both were there for her when she was so down... It happened so many times she could not count. "Thank you… I believe you are right…." She looked at Lexi when she perplexed their fingers.

"I would die anytime for you too…" Lexi's breath deepened by that look. "I don't think, however, that I could come back to what was before".. meaning friends-with-benefits type of relationship. "it just hurt people I care about too much. And I don't think I deserve Peebee either. Not after being so blind to her feelings…" She kept staring into Lexi's eyes, wanted to tell her that she felt her heart turning more to her than Peebee, but that just deepened her guilt. Lexi held her hand for a while, but needed to leave Sara before something else happened.

"I will talk to Peebee. Please, get some sleep." Lexi stood up. Sara's wound was ok now, it would get healed. "Now…" Said she in a stricter voice and uncovered the bed.

"Get in…" Sara obeyed without any objections uttered out loud. Lexi looked in one of the shelves, searching for sedatives she prescribed to Sara for her nightmares. When she opened the first shelf she saw a picture of Sara and her family. How did it end up in a shelf and was not on the table? But that was a question for another time. She also noticed a package and got two pills.

She sat close to Sara who was now in bed and handed her the pills. "Here, take these…" Sara raised a bit to obey and swallowed the medicine.

"Lexi…?" Sara closed her eyes...

"Yes, Sara?" There was a silence at first…

"Could you please stay here with me until I fall asleep?" The voice was broken and very lonely. The urge behind it was strong and terrified. It surely took Sara a lot of courage to ask her.

"Of course, Sara." Lexi raised her hand and tenderly touched Sara's head. "Good night…"