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freethinger1993 - I'm really glad that you like my story. Sam and Dan my kiss sooner than you think. All with Dangirl shall be revealed soon. things will happen soon.
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This is my last chapter before I go on break so I guess I'll see you December 31st for the next chapter. But remember, I am posting a special Christmas chapter on the One-shot story thing. So if you don't want to miss anything, be sure to follow that.
Enjoy and see you December 31st!
Chapter 31
I willingly followed Phil into the kitchen.
"Are we actually going to make something? Can't we just order out?" I pleaded with a laugh.
"No. I'm cooking. You are sitting and keeping me company. Now sit." said Phil pointing to the counter.
I planted my butt on the counter where Phil motioned. Now I don't often have the urge to drink alcohol but right now, I could totally go for a glass of wine.
Phil must have seen me eyeing the bottle on the counter because he was soon pouring me a glass. I took it graciously. The first sip is always the worse but after a few it tastes much better.
Phil and I had been in the kitchen for twenty minutes just laughing at anything and everything. Then something crossed my mind.
"You know, three years ago, I would have never imagined that we would be here now." I said.
Phil smiled and looked down at what he was cooking.
"Yeah, I hated you." said Phil.
"What? You hated me? I mean I knew you didn't like me but hate?" I said letting my voice go high.
"Okay not hate just strong dislike. Sound better?" Phil asked.
"Much." I replied.
The conversation subsided and I was left to think. I thought back to when Dan and I first started to be friends.
"Wow Dan, you're on fire today." said Phil.
"Yes Phil, and you are amazing." Dan replied.
Of course the first thing to come to my mind was that they were gay but just before Dan and I left I realized that it seemed like Phil really didn't like me. Other subtle hints about Dan and Phil's YouTube thing were dropped and they too went right over my head.
As time went on, Dan and I started hanging out more and more. After knowing each other for three weeks, he invited me over to the flat.
Phil didn't seem too happy about the fact that Dan trusted me that much. I didn't understand why but I figured it was because, well, we had known each other for three weeks. We were still kind of strangers but Dan and I had grown really close in a short period of time. It was just so easy to talk to him and he must have felt the same way.
The first time I was over, I heard them arguing in the kitchen.
"I don't think it's a good idea for her to be here. You haven't even known her for that long. How do you know she's not some psycho killer?" said Phil.
"Phil, she's not Brooke. I like her. I like spending time with her." said Dan.
His voice then went into a whisper making it impossible for me to hear anything else. Not that I wanted to hear any of it in the first place but at least I knew for a fact that Phil didn't like me.
A few minutes later, Dan joined me in the lounge. I pretended that I didn't hear them talking about me in the kitchen and Dan acted like nothing happened as well. Dan and I played Mario Cart all afternoon and I did not see Phil once.
A week later was the adventure to the lake. I still can't believe Dan and I jumped into the lake in our underwear.
The next incident where I knew for a fact that Phil didn't like me was a couple of months into the friendship. Dan had forced Phil to come and sit in the lounge with us while we hung out because he wanted to spend time with both of us.
I was cracking jokes and just being dumb and Dan was losing it. He had his arms wrapped around his stomach and I was trying really hard not to be doubled over from the one's he was telling. Phil just sat across from us with a straight face. I could have sworn it was the straightest I'd ever seen. Once I thought he was going to smile because his lip twitched but I was wrong.
Months went by and the more time went by, the less I wanted to go over to Dan's because of the way Phil acted towards me. Not only did it not make me feel very welcome there, I understood not wanting someone you don't like to be over at your flat all the time.
Dan and I had been friends for around eight months when the first and last fight Dan and I ever got into happened. It was the only real fight Dan and I had had. Of course we had arguments but five minutes later we were acting like it never happened. This time was bad.
See up until this point, Dan still hadn't told me what he actually did at the radio or anything what so ever about YouTube. Eight months in and I didn't know.
It started two week before the big shebang.
I'd been texting Dan to hangout because we hadn't seen each other in almost a week. That was like a month in friendship time. We would make plans to hang out and then he would cancel last minute and say something at work came up. Other times he would ignore his phone completely.
In my frustration with the whole thing I decided to take a drive. Of course I forgot my iPod to listen to. I had to listen to the radio.
Sometimes I wonder if I hadn't forgotten my iPod, would he ever have told me. He would have had to eventually.
Anyway, I turned on the radio and the first station I landed on had a lady's voice saying what I assumed was and intro or something.
"On radio one." said the voice.
I almost slammed on the brakes in shock to hear what came on next. Dan's voice coming out of the radio. I couldn't comprehend what they were saying but I caught a snippet.
"Be sure to watch the live stream…"
I made it home as fast as I could. I needed to see with my own eyes if this was actually Dan. I mean I was positive it was him but I think I was in denial. I wanted it to not be him.
Once home I went on the site and what I saw made the denial disappear and I burst into angry tear. My best friend lied to me about something really important.
This was back when they had the request show so of course in my anger I called in. Now that I think back on it, I really shouldn't have called but my judgment was impaired by my anger. I also didn't actually expect for them to pick up my call.
Knowing my luck they did.
"Hello, what's your name?" Dan asked.
"Hi my name is Sam. I'm just calling to ask for some advice. What would you do if you found out that your best friend had been lying about some really important things about them? I mean you're supposed to be able to tell your best friend anything and if they can't trust you enough to tell you something as small as what their job is, how can you ever trust them again." I said somehow managing to keep my voice even.
"I would make them grovel and beg for forgiveness." said Dan with a smile but I could hear the underlying fear in his voice.
"Okay. Right." I said and then hung up.
I was so mad that I wanted to yell and cry but instead I choose to make myself even madder. I wanted to know what else Dan hadn't told me. I googled him. YouTube was the first link.
"Danisnotonfire? What the fuck?" I whispered to myself.
I watched a few videos and Phil featured in a few. I clicked the link to Phil's YouTube and watched a few of his. Let's just say I fell into a rabbit hole of watching my best friend's secret life that I didn't know about.
An hour in, there was a knock at my door. I knew it was Dan. I was so angry that I ran to the door. Of course I assumed it was Dan but I didn't expect to see Phil there too. It didn't stop me from saying what I needed to say to Dan though.
"I can understand not telling someone at first. Hell even after a month in, but you have become my best friend. I share everything with you and I thought you did the same too. You lied about what you do at the radio and you didn't even tell me about YouTube. I'm disappointed and sad that you felt you couldn't trust me enough to tell me this one little thing."
"And you," I said turning on Phil. "You have been anything but welcoming to me, but you could have at least told me. Did you ever think that maybe I don't want your fans to know who I am?"
Dan looked shocked that I was just telling him off and Phil looked down at his shoes looking very ashamed.
"I've watched a few videos by the way, but they just make me angrier with you. Looking at you makes me angry." I said starting to close the door.
"Wait, Sam, can I at least come in and explain?" Dan said holding the door open.
"No Dan. I can't let you in right now and I'm not just talking about my flat." I said and then closed the door before he could say anything else.
I made my way back to my room. I couldn't look at my computer because Dan's face was up on the screen. I couldn't listen to music because Dan and I had such similar taste in music that everything that I would have listened to would have made me think of Dan.
Now that I think about it, I acted like this was a break up. I think this is when my feelings for him started to manifest because not two hours later my eyes were glued to the computer screen. I binge watched all of Dan's videos. Then I watched some of Phil's.
I remember thinking that the Phil in his videos was the Phil I wished I had met. It made me sad that he disliked me so much.
It took me all night to watch every video and then I ended up passing out cuddling with my laptop (my one true love). The next morning I was awoken by a knock on the door.
I contemplated just not answering it but in the end I did. It was probably the best decision I have ever made.
I opened the door to find the last person I would have imagined, Phil. In my shock I just kind of stepped aside for him to come in.
"Hi so I felt like you need an explanation of why I've been acting the way I have towards you." Phil started explaining as I led him to the kitchen.
"Do you want anything?" I asked trying to be polite even though he had a coffee cup in his hand.
"No thank you. Oh, and I grabbed this for you." He said handing over the coffee.
I took the lid off and found my favorite coffee inside. This meant more to me that ice cream ever could have. I took a long haul of the coffee and then looked back at Phil.
"Okay, let's go in the lounge and you can explain." I said.
We made our way to the lounge and before we even sat, Phil was talking.
"About a year and a half ago Dan and I befriended a girl named Brooke. She was sweet and kind and she had a lot of common interests as we did. The three of us became fast friends. We told her a lot about what we did for work. What we didn't know was that she already knew. She pretended the whole time that she didn't know who we were. She knew who we were, what we did and she didn't befriend us on accident." He said.
"She thought that we would get her started and then we would introduce her to our friends who had more subscribers. It turned out that she was only using us. She didn't even like out videos." He continued.
"And you thought I would do the same." I said guessing at the point of this story.
"Yeah, but you didn't know and I feel terrible for how I've treated you." He said.
I couldn't help myself. I pulled Phil into a hug.
"Ever since we met, all I've wanted is to have you not dislike me." I said while still hugging him.
"You have no idea how hard it was to actually not laugh at you jokes. I wanted to be your friend so bad but I didn't want another friend to turn out to not be a true friend." said Phil.
After our little heart to heart, Phil and I just hung out and watched movies all day. Turns out I have just as much in common with Phil as I did with Dan.
It was getting late, like almost midnight, and Phil was getting ready to leave when there was another knock on the door. This time, on the other side of the door I found Dan. Phil was the first to speak.
"So I guess you want to talk, I'll just…"
"Oh no you don't." I said grabbing Phil's sleeve. "If I have to stay for this, so do you."
Phil took of his jacket back off and I let Dan in. Out of habit he took off his jacket and kicked off his shoes by the door. I led the two into the kitchen.
I had a feeling I would need some sort comfort food. So of course my go to comfort food was the only thing I could think about. Pancakes.
The guys sat at the table while I went over and started getting all of the ingredients ready for them.
"Okay talk." I said looking back at Dan and then continuing to make the pancake batter.
"I had a good reason not to tell you-" Dan stated.
I cut him off.
"Uh Dan, I already told her about Brooke." said Phil.
"Oh. So you're not mad at me anymore?" Dan asked
I contemplated throwing the frying pan at him but I thought better of it. I didn't want to break anything.
"No, I'm fucking pissed at you. You are… were… are my best friend. You are my best friend. The fact that you thought for one minute that I would be anything like that girl mean you don't really know me. It would mean you know nothing about me. Half the time I want to disappear, why in the hell would you think I would want to try to get famous off you or something like that?" I said trying really, really hard not to yell.
"I don't know why I didn't tell you. Maybe because I was scared you wouldn't want to be my friend when you found out I was some weirdo who makes videos in the internet. Your my best friend, besides Phil of course, and I didn't want to lose you." said Dan.
I stopped my pancake making and walked over to Dan.
"Just trust me. That's the biggest reason it hurt so much. You are literally my only friend here. I just want you to trust me. Can you do that?" I asked.
Dan looked down at this hands as if her were contemplating my question.
"Yeah. I can." He finally answered.
"Good because I have something for you. I'm been meaning to give it to you for a few weeks now but I could never remember to give it to you." I said grabbing a draw string bag off the counter. "Like I said before, you're my only friend."
"Hey what about me?" said Phil cutting me off.
I just gave him a look saying don't be dumb.
"Therefore if I die I want someone to be able to find me or if I somehow get lock in the bathroom, knowing my luck it could happen, I want to have someone to call to get me out." I said.
The guys looked confused so I handed Dan the drawstring bag. He opened that bag and dumped the contents into his hand.
"A key?" He questioned.
"Yeah, to my flat. I told you that I trust you. But don't think all is forgiven because I gave you this. You have to make up for it somehow." I said with a smile.
Dan stood and hugged me.
"As long as you're still my friend, I can handle that." He said.
I stepped back and there was a couple seconds of awkward silence and me being completely uncomfortable with awkward silences had to fill it.
"Are you hungry? I asked.
"What are you making?" Phil asked.
"Pancake."
"You mean American pancakes. The fluffy clouds of syrupy joy pancakes?" Phil asked with wide eyes.
I couldn't help but giggle a little.
"Yes Phil, American pancakes." I said.
"Well I guess we have no choice but to stay. I know I won't be able to pull Phil away from the pancakes." said Dan.
I turned back to the pancakes while Phil and went to pick out a movie. This was the first of many midnight pancake sessions. Where I would make the pancakes and the guys picked a movie and then we stuffed our face and fell asleep on my couch.
I did end making Dan earn his forgiveness. He helped me design my blog. I had forgiven him way before that but shh, don't tell him.
"Hello, earth to Sam." said Phil breaking me out of the memory. "You're supposed to be keeping me company not staring off into space."
"Sorry, I was just thinking about the YouTube fight thing and how we became friends." I said sliding off the counter.
"If it weren't for you, I would have gone crazy by now what with the whole crush thing. Thank you." I said hugging Phil.
"What are friends for?" Phil replied hugging me back tightly then letting me go.
"So, did you ever talk to that Hope girl?" I asked sitting back up on the counter.
Phil finished up with the food while he told me about how Hope had a boyfriend. When it was done we took the food and made our way to the lounge and sat at the table. While we ate Phil edited the video we filmed this morning.
We sat laughing at ourselves for a while. Phil decided to keep the bit where I tackled him in because you couldn't see my face and because it was funny. Phil kept playing that bit over and over in slow motion. I laughed so hard I swear I could have peed myself.
Phil and I were sitting at the table editing until almost two in the morning. Phil tried to make me go to be because I fell asleep at the table a couple of times but today was so fun that I didn't want it to end.
In the end, I decided that I really should get some sleep. I had to finish my blog post about Tanya's products. I had to post it tomorrow so I needed to hurry and finish it.
I think I fell asleep while climbing the stairs because I still don't remember how I got to my room.
P.s. I didn't get a chance to read it over before posting it so if there are any mistakes, I'll come back and fix just don't yell at me. I also feel like there are parts that are forced but I really wanted to get this up for you guys. I'll probably come back to it later.