I really wanted to get this out on Thursday but life and adult things took over but I have it now and it was twelve freaking pages long. This is by far the longest chapter I've written so far and it's leading up to a really important thing that happens between Dan and Sam :*...

Thank you to UnicornBlessing, BluBlush, and Danisnotonfire's Twin Sister for reviews on last chapter.

Enjoy!

Chapter 36

It took almost two weeks for the guys and me to finally start recording the videos that I reluctantly agreed to be in. Of course I wouldn't be showing my face but still, just knowing that Dan saw this as the lead up to me showing my face in a video freaked me out a bit.

Just before we started filing the first video, we had to decorate the gaming room. Phil left Dan and me to do that. We hung cobwebs over the back of the couch and on the walls. In order to get the cobwebs to stick to the wall, I had to climb up on the couch. The second I stood up, I almost fell. Dan of course caught me but somehow, one of his hands ended up on my butt.

"Uh, sorry." said Dan with his hand still there.

If he were to take it away I would probably end up falling on him. I managed to get my footing and Dan finally let go of me. Not only was that slightly awkward but I also kind of liked it. NO! Bad brain!

Nothing else exciting happened except we bumped heads because I moved to look at something that same time he did. Soon we were headed down to the lounge to drag Phil up so he could check out the decorating job. Of course he said it was good, probably just so that Dan wouldn't spend another hour trying to fix something.

The first video we filmed was Dan and Phil playing The Cellar Door. We were set up as they normally would but now that we have another to chair I sat in the corner where I couldn't be seen by the camera. I had my legs up in Dan and Phil's lap but once again they were out of the camera's view.

I suggested this game to Phil. When he looked it up he realized just form the start screen that Dan needed to play this game. Phil had it up but it was minimized while they talked to the camera. We wanted Dan to be…surprised.

"Hello Dan and Phil games Phantoms." said Phil.

"Phantoms?" Dan asked.

"Yeah, like ghosts." Phil replied.

"Phil, PHANtoms…" said Dan pointing out the unintentional pun.

"I didn't even realize I did that. It was a good one." said Phil with a smirk.

Dan shook his head and the turned back to the camera.

"Today we are playing, Phil…what are we playing?" said Dan looking over at Phil.

"We are playing a game the Roomie suggested specifically for Dan." said Phil.

Dan shot me a suspicious look.

"Well if it scares me, it'll scare her too." He said not braking eye contact with me.

"In case you couldn't tell by that, we have Roomie with us today. We managed to talk her in to being in spooky week. Roomie, say hi to the Phantoms." said Phil.

I leaned forward enough so that my hand would be in view of the camera then waved. Dan turned out the lights and we were immersed in to darkness. Phil waited for Dan to settle back down in his chair before speaking.

"Okay as I said before, we are playing a game called The Cellar Door." said Phil pulling up the game.

Dan jumped at the sight of a girl crawling towards the screen.

"Jesus…fffffffff. It almost looks like the girl from the ring. S-Roomie, I hate you." said Dan with his hand over his heart.

"No…you love me." I said with a shit eating grin.

"NO!" said Dan putting emphasis on the word to signify that he really meant it.

"Okay let's play." said Phil.

He pushed wakeup and the game started.

Dan read the little prompt at the beginning then they started to play.

"So its point and click and we have an allotted amount of time to collect all of the marbles." said Dan.

At almost a minute in there was a jump scare with a little girl peeking out of a door.

"Shiiii…it's too realistic." said Dan in a high pitched voice that made my ears hurt.

The guys had been playing for about a few minutes and they had found a few marbles and not many at all. After Phil got them miserably lost, Dan decided to go back to where they started so that they could do it in some kind of order. So from the starting room he went out. He then turned around and was faced with a door. You could go forward once without having to open the door. Once you got to that point, there was the option to go left. Then they were faced with a decision. Left or right. Dan of course decided on left first where they managed to get a marble. Then they went right. As soon and they clicked a woman came at them screaming. Dan almost fell out of his chair but caught himself on the desk before he could topple over. Even I jumped a little and I knew what would happen.

They played a little longer collecting one more marble. Phil found what looked almost like a safe. Dan clicked on it and it opened to what looked like a hole lined with bricks and what looked to be ashes in the bottom. After wiggling the mouse around a bit they found a pipe that could be clicked on. The second they clicked on it, it gave you a view of looking down the pipe. Moments later screaming started and a face appeared on the other end of the pipe.

This time I was not expecting it nor did I know that it would happen. It jumped the living daylights out of me. I jumped back and screamed. Moments after I started screaming I knew I was doomed as gravity was pulling me down. Dan had also gone a little unbalanced. He had one hand on my foot almost as if to catch himself but he would have easily been able to right himself it hadn't been for the fact that the floor was attempting to greet me.

Because I had my legs in both of the guys laps and Dan and I were on either side of Phil, my fall coupled with Dan being slightly unbalanced and holding on to my leg, caused the three of us to crash backwards onto to the floor. Phil had no chance of saving himself. Impact with the floor was painful but because I fell sideways, I at least saw the floor coming. The guys were not so lucky when it came to viewing the impending impact. They were however fortunate enough that neither of them hit their head.

"Sa-Roomie…" Dan groaned from the floor.

Maybe we should tell them my name so Dan will stop almost saying that instead of Roomie.

"I'm sorry. Ow." I said.

"I think the fall scared me more than the actual game did." said Phil sounding kind of squished because had basically Dan pulled me onto Phil a little during the fall.

"Sorry!" I said really feeling bad for bringing them all down with me.

I barely managed to get off the guys without showing my face but all of the viewers got quite a nice view of my butt. Thank god I had stolen on of Phil's hoodies and had the hood pulled over my head. It helped shield my face in the process of me getting up. Soon we had all righted ourselves but in the process we ran out of time and the game was over.

"Well I guess that's the end of this spooky week video. See you tomorrow for another exciting game." said Phil with a smile.

"Yeah you're leaving. You are a terrible friend. Roomie is going to be just as scared as I will." said Dan glaring at Phil.

Phil just shrugged.

"The two of you will be okay without me. Just don't fall and break anything." Phil replied with a smirk.

"I'M SORRY!" I said making the guys laugh.

Dan reached over and turned the camera off.

"At least I this time I didn't fall out of my chair because I was scared." said Dan once we had made our way down to the kitchen for a snack.

"I said I was sorry." I said with a high pitched voice and a pout.

Dan came over and wrapped his arms around me from behind.

"We aren't mad at you. It was funny and the viewers are going to like it." He said with what sounded like a smile in his voice.

He then kissed the top of my head making me freeze. Before he noticed my reaction he had already let go and was walking out of the kitchen. Did Dan just really kiss my head? I felt my heart flutter and a tornado of butterflies start up in my stomach. All I could think was that I really had wished it had been my lips that he kissed. GOD DAMMIT SAMMIE! NO! You cannot think about your best friend like this. Bad brain!

The next day, Phil had left to go and visit family leaving Dan and I alone for the next few days. The Sunday before Phil came back, Dan and I reluctantly made our way up to the gaming room to film a video the both of us were dreading. With only two weeks left to film three more videos, we really had to get cracking on making this next gaming one.

Once again I had stolen Phil's bright yellow Adventure Time hoodie and had the hood pulled over my head. I really liked how the arms were a little too long and fell over my hands by like four inches. Dan had set the camera up so that it was more zoomed in that way I could sit a little closer. Dan turned on the camera and soon began.

"Okay let's just get this over with, yeah? So Phil has decided to leave Roomie and me alone to film this next video for you. As you can see from the title, we will be playing from where I left off in…Outlast. I am not looking forward to this." He said with a grimace. "Oh Dan, you should be okay, you have Roomie. NOOO! She's just as scared of this stuff as I am if not more."

"We will both be sleeping in the lounge with all of the lights on." I said to emphasize just how scared we would both be.

"The honestly in that statement." Dan said looking down at the computer and shaking his head while he starting the game.

"So I left off where we were turning on the generators before I died." said Dan opening the saved game that he had.

I instantly covered my eyes because I hate scary things. Anyway it took almost an hour for Dan to turn on all of the generators and turn the power back on. Dan was making his way up the stairs when all of a sudden I got a really foreboding feeling.

"Dan, I have a bad feeling about this." I said as he reached the top of the stairs.

"Of course you do, this is a scary game." said Dan not really taking me seriously.

"No Dan, I have a really bad feeling." I said as he was walking in to the computer room.

"I'm just going to unlock the door and get out of here." said Dan going to the computer.

Before his character could do anything he was grabbed from behind and the priest guy was shoving a giant needle in him. I let out a high pitched squeal at the same time Dan yelled. I covered my face with the sleeves of the sweatshirt I was wearing.

"I told you! I told you I had a bad feeling! Did you listen to me? No!" I yelled hitting Dan's arm in a light punch.

"Ow!" said Dan looking over at me.

He could see the pure terror on my face and reached over pulling me into a hug. My face was now in the view of the camera so I kept it covered.

"I hate you for making me do this." I said, my voice coming out muffled because of the sleeves.

Dan just laughed at me. I hit him again and he let me go.

"Okay, so we've woken up in a cell and he took our clothes. Great!" said Dan going back to the game.

We ended up in a place that looked like a cell block in a prison except all of the cells were padded. That and there were a ton of people walking around. Dan's eyes went wide. He was being cautious because of the guy in the wheel chair that attacked him. He explored for a while until he found a crack in one of the cell walls.

He followed the path and then climbed up in a hole. When he turned the camera back on we were met with an inmate with his arms tied in a straight jacket but it was the background that made me cover my eyes.

"What the fuck!" said Dan after he yelled.

I heard one of the inmates telling Dan's character that he was sick.

"I don't get it, what did I do?" said Dan.

"You really didn't see what was going on?" I asked incredulously.

"I saw the guy with the scary face and jumped back down the hole." said Dan.

He had clearly climbed back up now but as if he did see what happened.

"He's the sicko that was butt raping the dead body. You walked in on some major necrophilia and you didn't even notice."

As my words hit him his face changed from one of confusion to one of disgust.

"Okay maybe I'm glad that I didn't realize that was going on."said Dan going back to the game.

I watched as he played a little longer until Dan found a message written in blood that said "follow the blood".

"Really! They want me to follow the blood. Of all the things to follow they want me to follow the blood?" said Dan.

"At least they didn't say follow the spiders." I said referencing Harry potter.

"Ha ha you are so funny." said Dan in a monotone voice.

The game ended when we had to go push an air lock and a big scary man with no pants killed us. I was on the verge of tears.

"Okay now that Roomie has been mentally scarred and I'm afraid to sleep, I think it's time to end this part of Outlast. Bye." said Dan looking just as scared as I felt.

"Hey Dan?" I said causing him to look over at me. "I hate you so much right now and I'm never playing a scary game with you ever again."

Dan just laughed at me and turned the camera off.

That night we both ended up sleeping on the couch in the lounge. I wasn't kidding when I said that. The lights were all on. Every single one in the house I think. One good thing about sleeping in the lounge with Dan is that the only way we can both fit on the sofa is I have to sleep with my head on one arm of the couch and Dan with his head on the other. That means no cuddling. I don't know if I'm happy or sad about that. Nope definitely happy. I am stronger than this crush.

Phil woke us up in the morning when he came home. Then he laughed at us knowing that we had filmed the video last night. We were put through much teasing, mostly me after Dan told him about the disturbing butt rape scene. My eyes are for sure scarred.

We took a few days off from filming, mostly because I had to work. That and Dan started an existential crisis about the video he wanted to film for his channel. It was the shortest one by far and only lasted a day or so before he finally decided to film his video. We didn't start the next video until Friday.

Reluctantly I followed the guys up to the gaming room and sat in my designated chair. I honestly don't think I'll be able to handle the rest of spooky week with the way we're going. I may have a heart attack first. Before long everything was set up and they guys were launching into their introduction.

"Hello Dan and Phil games… strait jackets?" said Phil ending it as a question.

Dan just gave Phil a look.

"That was terrible. I'm so sorry." said Phil addressing the camera.

Dan just continued his silence and shook his head.

"Today we are playing Amnesia: The Dark Decent and by "we" I mean me and Phil and Roomie!" said Dan trying to bring it back.

"I don't plan on falling this time." I said as I waved my hand in front of the camera.

I watched Dan smirk at the camera.

"Okay let do this." said Phil starting a new game.

The game began in a dimly lit corridor that looked to be made of bricks. There were subtitles across the screen so that we could read as well as hear them. I was thankful for this because I couldn't really hear what the character was saying. Then the view changed. It was a different corridor but what caught my eye was the subtitles down at the bottom. "My name is Daniel, I live in London". I looked over at Dan.

His face was priceless. He had wide eyes and his mouth dropped open. He held this expression for only a second before saying something.

"This is some shit. I don't like it." He said.

"That's actually the name of the character. I looked it up. I knew it would freak you out." said Phil with an evil grin.

"This is not okay. It makes it too real. The emersion is too real." said Dan a little too dramatically.

The guys were just talking and then I heard Dan read "Follow the liquid trail."

"The liquid trail? It means the blood. Follow the fucking blood. You have to be fucking kidding me. Follow the blood. That is blood. Nothing good comes out of following the blood. Just look at what happened in Harry Potter. They followed the blood and got attacked. Yesterday we followed the blood and some guy with no pants on killed us and probably butt raped us." said Dan.

I understood why he was freaking out this time but I couldn't help the laugh that escaped my lips. We had to follow the blood in Outlast. We were still not over the trauma of the last game we played. I watched as Phil played. Eventually I just started to zone out. I wasn't very interested in the game anymore. I just kind of zoned out until I heard them closing out the video.

"I doubt we will make a series out of this but we will probably play in our own time. I hope you enjoyed this even though I didn't really get all that scared because we all know why you little shits watch these videos. You want to see me utterly crap myself." said Dan.

"Okay I think we should order pizza." I said after Dan turned off the camera.

That's exactly what we did we went down to the lounge and ordered pizza. When it came we just hung out and watched whatever Phil had put on.

During the next couple of days, Dan and Phil started in on editing the videos that were already filmed. We still had two more and I had to look for the recipe I wanted for the baking video. I knew what I wanted to do but it took a while to find the right recipe.

Then I had to go shopping for all of the ingredients. This video had somehow turned into my baby. That and Dan planned on putting it on his channel which kind of made me feel like it had to be really, really good. I wanted to make it worthy of being on his channel. It had to meet both mine and Dan's expectations. I'm a dork. I know.

It was a few days before Halloween and we planned to do both of the videos in the same day. That left us two whole days to plan for the Halloween party we had been invited to. Well Dan and Phil were invited but Dan asked me to go as his "date" because he didn't want me to spend Halloween alone. Phil asked me to text Emily to see if she could come as well.

I didn't know what she had planned on going as but I was still waiting for my costume to come in the mail. I was starting to get anxious about the whole thing. I was worried that I wouldn't get it on time.

The day the guys started posting the videos is when I really, really started to get into the Halloween mood. They had posted two so far and now we were going to film the baking video. I had all of the ingredients in my room so that Phil couldn't secret eat anything important. I know how to keep my shit in hiding.

I was currently up in my room changing into a pair of leggings I didn't care if I got dirty and a black t-shirt that said "BOO!" in while lettering across the front of it. This was as Halloweeny as I would get before actual Halloween. That and it was the only thing that I had that could even be considered Halloween related.

Once dressed I made my way down to the kitchen where the guys had been setting up for the video. I grabbed the ingredients and brought them with me. If Phil somehow managed to get anything out of the bag without me noticing I swear to god I may actually have to murder that boy. I dropped the bag off in the kitchen and then made my way to the bathroom where I had left the stuff for my face.

Last year for Halloween I was a zombie. I had a friend in Uni who is now a makeup artist and she got me some things and I had some leftovers. I had been saving it this makeup but I knew I wouldn't be able to hide my face in this video. The guys and I had bought a few masks for this exact reason but I felt like none of them were good enough. I needed something to hide my face because I didn't have anything to hide behind or any way of staying out of view of the camera unless I sat beside it. Which in all honesty is probably what's going to happen anyway because it really isn't big enough for the three of us.

Anyway, the guys didn't know I was doing this. They thought I was just going to wear a mask like planned so I knew they would be surprised. This excited me even more. I managed to make my face almost completely unrecognizable. Over half of it was completely covered in a prosthetic and latex paint. I added one white and one black contact. I looked fucking creepy.

When I was sure that I was sure I was done, I texted Dan to go ahead and start the video and I would be up in a few minutes. I opened the door and his voice carried down the stairs. I slowly made my way up and then waited outside the kitchen for my que to come in.

"So this spooky baking video was thought up and everything by Roomie. We actually don't even know what the recipe is or what we are even making so we better go find Roomie. Roomie?" I heard Dan say.

I popped out from around the corner and Dan's face transformed into one of horror. I successfully scared the shit out of my best friend. Phil wouldn't have even looked over if Dan hadn't let out that girly scream he does when he gets scared.

"I guess were going to have to put a in that there are jump scares." said Dan before I even came into view of the camera.

I slowly made my way to the front of the camera and just waved.

"Wow Roomie, I didn't know you could do stuff like that. Will you do mine for Halloween?" Phil asked.

I kept my face expressionless and just nodded. I was trying to be creepy.

"So what are we making today?" Dan asked draping an arm around my shoulder.

"Monster Eye Cookies." I said trying not to smile.

I didn't want my makeup to move too much. I needed it to last for a while.

I started listing off the ingredients and handing them to Dan. Who threw them to Phil. I was going to tell them directions while the guys actually made the cookie.

"Okay Roomie what do we do first?" Phil asked.

"Beat butter, vanilla, egg, and cream cheese until fluffy." I said standing in front of the camera them moving off so I was out of view and out of the way.

When they were done, the guys looked up to me.

"Mix the cake mix in." I said once again in the view of the camera before going back to my spot.

When I saw the guys were almost done with that I stood in front of the camera once again.

"Divide the dough into four equal sized balls and separate in different bowls."

The guys did as I said and then I went over and added three drops of food coloring to each of the balls. One pink, one blue, one green, and one purple. Dan was explaining what I was doing in the close up cam.

"Now mix them." I said now out of view of all of the cameras.

Then we have to wait thirty minutes while they chill." I said still off camera.

These contacts were really starting to bother me.

"Phil, how in the hell do you deal with contacts on a regular basis. This things hurt." I said while Dan was putting the dough in the fridge.

"You get used to them I guess." He replied.

When the cookie dough was all in the fridge, the three of us made our way into to the lounge and watched an episode of the anime the guys were currently watching. It was only twenty minutes so that left us sometime to just talk.

"Sam, why didn't you tell us you were going to do this instead of the mask? This is fucking cool." said Dan.

I shrugged my shoulders because I honestly didn't really know why I didn't tell them. It might have been so that I could attempt to scare Dan but really I had no clue.

"Yeah, I want mine done now." said Phil with a small pout.

I couldn't help but smile at him.

"I would have loved to have done your makeup Phil but I didn't really have enough. This is just what was left over from last year." I explained.

I hadn't spent Halloween with them because I had gone out with some friends from Uni that had been trying to get me out of the house for ages. When I finally agreed, they told me that we were going out on Halloween. I didn't have plans with the guys but I really wished that I had.

Soon we hear the timer go off signaling that it was time for the cookies to be made into actual cookies. I led the way to the kitchen. Dan turned the camera back on. Phil with iPhone in hand made his way to over to the fridge with Dan. They pulled out the dough and I from my spot beside the camera told them that all they needed to do was roll them into balls and dip them in powdered sugar before putting them in to bake.

I watched at the guys did all the work. I kind of like this whole bossing them around thing. Now I know why Lily can be so bossy sometimes.

"Bake at 350F for ten to twelve minutes." I said once the last ball had been rolled and powdered.

The guys just smiled not wanting to get in the argument about now that I was in a place that used Celsius, I needed to convert over but I flat out refused. Dan had made a little chart telling me the conversions for when and if I ever cooked in the over.

We just kind of hung out in the kitchen until the cookies were done. Of course at least five minutes of that time was taken up by a cooking rave because what's a baking video without one. When the timer went off and Dan pulled the cookies out of the oven I knew it was my time.

"So how exactly are we supposed to make these into monsters?" Dan asked.

I pulled out the last ingredient that I hadn't told the guys about yet. The candy eyes.

"Remember they are called Monster Eye Cookies." I said putting emphasis on eye.

I went and added about five eyes to each of the cookies. And then when I was done Phil did a once over of all of the cookies with the close up cam.

Of course all of the actual directions will be in the description of the video in case we didn't explain anything right." said Dan.

"Can I eat one now?" Phil asked from the corner.

I nodded and he went for a blue one. Dan grabbed a green one and I went for a purple one. We all took bits at the same time. I couldn't help the smile at the moan Dan let out when the first bite of cookie hit his tongue. I snorted. I actually snorted in laughter when he held out the noise and then made his voice go higher.

"These are so good." said Phil from the other side of me.

I do have to admit that they were pretty good. I didn't think they would come out this well what with the guys cooking them and all but they were good. The guys ended the video while I just stood there and munched on my purple monster cookie and stared at the camera.

A thought came to mind and an evil smirk grew on my face. I inched closer to Dan until his shoulder was only inched from my mouth. I opened and bit down on his shoulder. I didn't do it hard but Dan jumped and then screamed.

"AHHH I've been infected. Phil help!" he said playing along.

This was going to be turned into a thing. I knew it was.

"Sorry Dan," said Phil throwing up his hands and stepping around me. "You're on your own now."

"Phiiiiiiilll." Dan screamed.

He and I both fell on the floor in a pile of giggles.

"Go put more blood on your face and come back and say something. It'll be funny." He said.

I got up and made my way to the bathroom and put fake blood all over my mouth and then swished some around in my mouth to make my teeth go a little red. When I was done I ran back up to the kitchen.

"Okay what should I say?" I asked Dan and Phil who were standing outside the kitchen.

"I don't know, just wing it." said Dan with a smirk.

I went in the kitchen and got really close to the camera. What do I say?

"He tasted much better than a cookie." I said with an evil smirk and a wink.

I managed to hold it for fifteen seconds before bursting out in laughter. I could hear the guys laughing from just outside the kitchen. I couldn't help but laugh harder causing me sink down to the floor.

"I'll be in the lounge editing you two wanna clean up in here?" he asked.

"Yeah do what everything you can to not have to clean." said Dan with a smirk.

Dan stepped over me to turn the camera off before extending a hand to me. I grabbed hold and he pulled me off the floor. I was still laughing a little when I bumped into his chest losing my balance a little. His hands automatically wrapped around me to keep me from falling over. I looked up and our eyes met.

The sensation of drowning was almost instantaneous. I could feel where one of his hands was at the small of my back. His other hand traveled from my back to my hip and then up to my rib. The feeling of his hand gave me goosebumps in the best way. My lips were tingling with the urge to touch them to his. I bit the side of my lips in anticipation. I watched as he broke eye contact and looked down. I took this as a chance to look at his lips. I could feel myself leaning in.

"Hey Dan!" said Phil from the lounge.

Dan and I jumped apart. I couldn't look at him. There was a sudden air of awkwardness between us and I now completely hated myself for the way I reacted to him. I probably scared him off. When I looked up again I was now alone in the kitchen. I could feel my heart beating out of my chest. Dammit Sammie! You fucked up good this time. You just almost kissed your best friend.

I pushed everything to the back of my mind. I couldn't think about it right now. I knew that if I did angry tears would start to pour. Instead I got to cleaning the kitchen. I had just finished loading the dishwasher when I hear someone come into the kitchen.

I turned and was met face to face with the one and the only Dan Howell. My best friend. The guy I just tried to kiss. My throat closed up and I felt my heart sink. He pointed to the camera and then went to take it down. I slowly made my way out of the kitchen and down to the bathroom.

The reflection in the mirror scared me until I remembered that I had zombie makeup on. I peeled off the latex makeup and the prosthetic. The sensation was almost as satisfying as pulling off fake eye lashes but I couldn't really get much enjoyment from it. All I could think about was the fact that I just tried to kiss Dan.

If Phil hadn't yelled, I would have. I would have kissed him without a second thought. No, I can't keep thinking about this. It needs to stop. I just need to keep my distance from Dan for a bit. Then I won't get the chance to kiss him. You need to pull yourself together. You still have one more video to film with them. You don't even have to sit next to Dan. Phil will be between you two. Phil. I don't know if I want to hit him for making me come to my senses and not kiss Dan or hug him… for making me not kiss Dan.

I scrubbed the makeup off my face while I talked myself into doing the video with the guys. I really had to push all of my feeling towards my best friend to the back of my mind. I made a decision before leaving the bathroom. No matter how awkward Dan acts, I'm going to act as normal as possible. I'm going to act like what happened back in the kitchen never happened in the first place.

I opened the door and put a smile on my face. I made my way up to the lounge where the guys were most likely importing the footage of the baking video so that there would be room for the gaming video that we now had to film. I entered the lounge to find them at the table. I went and sat next to Phil.

Dan didn't acknowledge my presence and just kept doing whatever it was he was doing on the computer. Phil looked over and gave me a smile. I returned it halfheartedly. The three of us sat like this until the footage was all safely on the computer and the card was empty.

"Who's ready to film the last spooky week video." said Phil excitedly.

"I'll just be glad when it's all over." said Dan in reply.

I made a noise of agreement. Time to do some major acting. Yah know acting like I didn't just almost kiss my best friend. No! Don't think about it. Locked in a box. Stuck in back of mind. Never to return!

The three of us all got up and begrudgingly, at least on my part, made out way up the stairs to the gaming room. We took the same three seats we've taken in all of the other spooky week videos and I prepared myself for the on-coming scary game.

"Hello Dan and Phil games marshmallow ghosts!" said Phil excitedly.

Dan chose to say nothing about Phil's name for the subscribers today. Instead he just shook his head a little.

"Today we are playing a game called Spooky's House of Jumpscares." said Dan with is infamous smirk. "So expect me to shat myself today."

I had to bite my lip to keep myself from laughing.

"By the way Roomie is no longer a zombie. We found that all we needed to do to cure her was make her fall in love. As a result, I am no longer infected with her Zombie disease." said Dan.

I don't think he realized that it insinuated that we fell in love with each other and no way in hell am I pointing that out. Phil on the other hand just looked over at Dan giving him the same look that Dan normally gives him when he says something that is unintentionally suggestive. Once again, I was holding back my laughter.

"Roomie is also here with us and we have super glued her chair to the floor so it won't tip over." said Phil.

"How many times do I have to apologize for that? I'm sorry for making you fall over. I didn't mean to take you down with me. If Dan hadn't grabbed onto my leg, I would have been the only one to fall. Therefore it's not totally my fault." I said in a high pitched whiny voice that annoyed even me.

The guys just laughed at me.

"I wish I was still a zombie so I could bite both of you. Now I have no excuse to cause you physical pain." I said my voice going from high pitched and whiny to murderous.

They just laughed harder at me.

"I hate you." I said to the both of them.

I stared them down until they stopped laughing but when Phil looked at me the giggles overcame him once more. Finally after a good fifteen minutes of the guys laughing at my expense, they stopped.

"Okay so let's play this thing." Said Dan.

The first thing that happened was the voice of a little girl started going off. The game looked really pixelated but everything in it was utterly cute.

"Just…just go. I like her." Said Dan going thought the first door.

The door made a loud creak. He just kept going. I stopped paying attention after the first few minutes because nothing happened. Then there was a loud noise all of a sudden. It happened to be a cute noise instead of a scary. Dan jumped anyway. The guys went back to playing and I somehow managed to just space out.

I thought back to what happened in the kitchen. I guess somethings just can't be locked away but I still wasn't going to let it affect my friendship with Dan. If I closed my eyes and tried really hard to remember, I could almost feel Dan's hand on my ribs. I could almost feel the gentle circles he had been rubbing into my back. I could almost feel his breath on my face. It smelled like hot chocolate and cookies. I licked my lips remembering how when he exhaled, the air from him mouth brushed across my lips almost as if it were preparing them for him lips to lean in.

Part of wished that I had just kissed him like I so badly wanted to. What if it just felt weird? Then I would know that I just liked the idea of him. Then we could just continue to be friends. Yeah it would be weird for a little while but we would get over the awkwardness and just go back to before.

Oh who am I kidding? I know it would feel amazing. I know I would fall for him even more. I know things would never be the same between the two of us. I lo-like Dan a lot. It would just make things worse. I need to stop trying to talk myself into kissing him. It'll only lead to bad things. Things I don't think I'll be able to handle.

"Well that's Spooky's house of Jumpsacres. I hope you liked it. If you missed them, click here to watch the previous spooky week videos. Thanks for joining us for another spooky week." said Dan bring me back to reality and out of my head.

"Remember that when you turn a corner there may be a happy spider that pops out at you." said Phil with a smile.

"You do know that that is nightmare inducing, right?" said Dan.

Phil just shrugged his shoulders.

Dan turned the camera off a few seconds later and turned to Phil.

"Well I guess we have some editing to do fi we want to get these up on time." Said Dan.

"Yeah." Phil agreed. "Sam, are you going to keep us company while we edit?"

I shook my head. "No I have a thing I need to do tomorrow. Oh and I'm expecting a package. It still hasn't come yet so if it comes while I'm out, will you let me know?"

"Sure." Phil answered.

Dan was trying to avoid eye contact. I don't blame him.

The three of us parted ways. Dan and Phil down to edit and me to go to bed. I wasn't kidding that I had some stuff to do tomorrow. Things like helping Emily find a costume and a much needed haircut. The blonde strip had to go. I was getting so sick of it. It was time for a change. Nothing as drastic as Em but just something…different.

I went to bed that night with thoughts of what ifs running through my head. I hate that I couldn't just forget it. I hate that I had to continue to bring it up to myself. I hate that I'm in lo-that I have a crush on my best friend. Things need to change.