Our Feelings

It had been one week since the new S4 took over. For the newly three members they are still getting used to their new position. At least they have someone who has experience.

Each of the members having their own job made their schedule a bit hectic. They rarely see each other since its all new to them. Even for their friend who became an admin and vice president, she is also busy to see them.

With a new school year starting each of the friends are trying their best to get used to their new schedule.

Especially a certain Rainbow Idol. Ever since the graduation of the old S4 members, she became extremely busy. Graduation day was the last time she saw a certain brown-headed idol. He was with his friends while she was with her. He congratulated her for becoming an S4 and officially made her his rival. But she never had the time to confess her feelings since she and he are busy.

She's been wanting to do it as soon as possible but something always came up.

Since she a S4 members, of course, she will have his number but still, she will rather say it face to face instead of through the phone.

When will I see him?

Luckily, she just came back from work. Part of her wants to call Subaru to see if he finished with his work but she couldn't since she didn't want to bother him.

Instead, she went out for a walk since she is not tired.

It's been awhile since I was able to relax like this. Is nice to take a break even though it's only been a week.

Deep into her thought, she didn't realize where she was. She looks around to see that she's by the bridge where the boys and girls section are separate.

A smile form on her lips since some of her memories came to her mind.

This is where I first met Subaru-kun. How embarrassed on our first meeting. But yet I'm glad we met. He helps me through this year and became someone important to me. I just wish I could tell him my true feelings.

She looks up to the tree as she felt a bit of pain in her heart.

"Subaru when am I going to see you?" she said out loud without a notice.

"Just look behind you, surprise," someone said.

Yume was surprised to see the man she was thinking is right behind her.

A blush was forming on her cheeks as she said his name, "Subaru-kun"

Meanwhile with Subaru, it's been non stop with work. After graduation he and the rest of M4 had been working on their idol career. There was hardly any time to relax. And since there was no time to relax then there was no time to see Yume.

He's glad that she achieve her dream but he wish he could of see her around at least. He knows that she's probably still getting use to her new position so he tries not bother her. But still he wants to see her even if is just for a minute.

Even though he has her number ever since she became a S4, he still didn't dare to call her or text her.

The only time he saw her was right after graduation, when she saw her with her friends. He only had time to congratulate her since they weren't alone. At that moment he wanted to confess but contain himself since there were people around.

After that she left with her friends. He didn't see her afterward.

It only been a week since I last saw her. I wonder how she's doing?

He just came back from a job. It's already late at night but still he didn't feel tire. He went to the M4 dorms to relax from a long day. As he was walking he thought nothing but Yume.

I wish I could call her right now but she may be busy or asleep. This is so frustrated not be able to see her. I really miss her smile.

He blushes at his last thought.

I want to let her know my feelings even if she does reject me.

That part cause a bit of pain in his heart. Putting aside those thought he saw that he was near the bridge that separate the boy and girl section.

From a distance he saw someone standing near the bridge. As he got closer he saw that it was the girl he was thinking.

He couldn't help to smile at the sight of her. It's seem that she didn't know his present right now so he took the chance to admire her a bit.

She looks cute in her S4 uniform.

After a few minutes he saw her look up to the tree as she said "Subaru when am I going to see you?"

Surprise at her words, he couldn't help to smile. To think that she's been wanting to see him as he's been wanting to see her.

"Just look behind you," he said.

She turn around full of surprise. He could see a blush forming on her cheeks as she said his name, "Subaru-kun"

Both idols are surprised to see each other this late of night. They didn't move one bit or said anything since they didn't know what to say.

They kept a fair distance until Subaru walked in front of Yume.

Being in front of each other just made each other nervous.

"Welcome home," Yume said as he look at Subaru.

"I'm home" reply Subaru.

They stay quiet for a bit longer. Yume knew he heard her when she said when will she see him. She couldn't help feel embarrassed that she quickly turn around to prevent him to see her flush face.

Surprise at her action, Subaru knew that she felt embarrassed since he heard what she said before.

He's happy that she wanted to see him. So instead he decided to tell her that she also wanted to see her.

"Hey, um I also wanted to see you," he felt a bit embarrassed when he said that.

Yume turn around when he said that. He saw a blush on his cheeks which made her giggle. But curiosity took over to why he wanted to see her.

"Hey, why did you want to see me?"

Subaru blush grew bigger when she ask her that.

"Um...well it just been a while since I saw you and so I wonder how you're doing since your a S4 now."

"Oh, well I'm still getting use to it but don't worry I'm doing fine," she answer him. Trying to hide her disappointment.

Both idols knew that this is their chance to confess to each other but didn't know how to approach it.

With a bit of courage Yume made the first move by holding his hands. Looking straight at his eyes she decided to ask her who she was for him. She wanted to know if she was someone important to him.

"Who am I to you?"

Shock with her question, Subaru took the chance to tell her his feelings. Holding to her hands, Subaru look straight to her eyes and answer her question.

"Your Nijino Yume. The one I like to tease around with by calling you Tomato or Boil Octopus. The one who fell from the tree because of a careless mistake. The one who intrigues me from our first meeting. The one who I saw from my own eyes all the obstacle you had to go through to become the idol you are now. The one who is really optimistic with a cute smile. The one who made me question my own feelings because I thought I didn't have time for romance. You're my rival, my friend, and maybe my girlfriend…."

He took a deep breath before looking at Yume. At this point both of them are red as a tomato.

He didn't let go of her hands just yet. He notice that she didn't object of them holding hands still. With determination he decided to ask her the same question.

"Hey, who am I to you then?" looking straight at Yume.

Heart beating fast, she didn't expect for him to ask the same question. After hearing Subaru point of view of her. She felt both happy and nervous.

Happy because the guy she likes also likes her back. Nervous because of telling him her feelings but also what does the future brings for them.

"Subaru-kun, you are Yuki Subaru-kun. The one that I couldn't stand at first because you kept calling me Tomato or Boil Octopus no matter how much I kept telling you my name. The one who tends to show up the right moment whenever I feel like giving up. The one who gives me useful advice that I still use and will still use now that I'm in S4. The one that I'm grateful for everything you've done. You are also my rival, my friend, and I also want to call you my boyfriend…"

Their hands are still connected, their eyes lock to one another. Their hearts are beating fast. Both of their faces stay the same shade of red. No one said a word. Wanting this moment to last.

However, this moment can't last long. Before Subaru can say anything Yume had started talking.

"But I'm scare…" she let go of his hand and turn around. She didn't want him to see her expression. He had the right to know about her doubts.

"I'm scare of what the future may bring to us. You're graduating soon. At first I was scared that this was going to be a one sided love. That you weren't going to return my feelings. Then I got scared that you were going to leave Four Star Academy and study abroad . But now that I know you have the same feelings…" she turned around to face Subaru once again but refuse to look at him just yet, "I'm scare that we may not have time for each other. Your Subaru Yuki from M4, a famous idol group. I just became a member of S4. We're going to be busy with our idol career. Plus I still want to beat you in becoming the First Star Idol."

Still refusing to look at him, Yume waited patiently for Subaru to say anything. To her surprise she heard a bit of laughter.

Looking up she sees Subaru laughing. Annoy with his laughter she decided to ask him why.

"Hey why are you laughing?" her red face just made him laugh a bit more.

Calming down a bit from his laughter, Subaru face Yume before she got even more annoy.

"Gomen, is that all of your doubts are similar to mine."

He kept looking at her making sure not lose eye contact.

"I thought that you weren't going to return my feelings. That I'm facing a one sided love. But I'm glad that isn't the case."

Slowly Subaru went closer to Yume.

"And about me leaving. You shouldn't worry since I'm staying here to continue being part of M4 because…" He hug Yume before continuing, "You were the one who help me decided to stay here."

Not letting go of his embrace, Yume close her eyes to enjoy this moment. Curious about what he said. She asked him "How did I help?"

Still holding onto her, he respond to her question. "The day we went to the cafe, where you thank me for all the advice I given you. Somehow, after hearing your gratitude it just made me feel that I belong here. Remembering everything you went through and seeing you overcome those obstacle just made me want to see you grow even more. If I left Four Star Academy I wouldn't be able to see you grow. You don't know how much I worry when you went through your problems alone. But relief when you overcame them because I was able to see you smile again. I wanted to be close to you incase you had to go through something like that again. To help you when you need it and to see you smile after finding your path again. And to get you to notice me, not as a rival or a friend but something else. But I guess I shouldn't worry about the last one."

Still not letting go of her, Subaru just hug her tighter.

With both of their feelings finally express Subaru can't help to wonder what are they now.

Letting go to face her, he saw her cute face blush. He couldn't help but to smile.

As for Yume, she also wonder what is their relationship now. She look at Subaru smiling making her blush even more.

"Um...Subaru-kun are we dating?" still looking at him, she saw a blush appearing on him. She couldn't help to giggle a bit.

"I want to say yes but I want to know if you're ready?"

"Ano this is all new to me." not wanting him to see her blush, she put her face down.

Understanding her feelings Subaru knew what the best decision.

"I'll wait for you."

Looking at him, she was surprise on what he said.

Knowing what she was thinking Subaru decided to answer her curiosity.

"I'll wait until you're ready. I'm not saying that my idol career is more important. And I'm not going to use the same excuse that I don't have time for romance because with you I know everything will be okay. But you just became a member of S4. I know that something you been aiming for. I want you to first focus your role as a S4 member. Don't worry I'll still be here to help you when you need me."

He kept looking at Yume, touching her cheek. A smile was forming at his lips.

"Beside I need to make sure my rival doesn't beat me to the top."

A smile form on her face. She's glad he understood her. To be honest these experience is all new to her. Being part of S4 is a dream come true. But falling in love is something she never expected to happen to her. Especially with the guy in front of her. When she first came to this school she only had eyes on S4. She knew nothing about M4 especially him. She never knew how great of an idol he was until she saw him perform. But before that she never knew how great of a friend he can also be. She declare him as a rival because he is one of the few people that can bring the best out of her as well being a top idol. He always knew her dreams and supported it. Even when she was having trouble with the mysterious power and not knowing who is supporting her after Koharu left. She is sure that he was at the sideline watching her. And now he supporting her with being part of S4.

"Subaru-kun, I'm not going to make you wait for long. Is true I'm not completely ready to form a relationship but I still one day want to be your girlfriend. So please wait for me?"

With a gentle look on his face, Subaru hold her hands and said "I'll always wait for you but I do have one favor to ask."

"What is it?"

"Allow me to take you out for a date once in awhile. I mean I know we might be a bit busy but I still want to take you out. So can you please accept by request?" Subaru said with pleading eyes. He waited for Yume to answer patiently, as she thought on his question.

Yume thought about his request. Even if they aren't an official couple yet it wouldn't be a bad idea to go out once in awhile. But there is one problem.

She held his hands tighter and look straight into his eyes.

"I'll accept to your request but I have one condition" she let go of his hands before continuing. "Lets keep it a secret from our friends and the public"

Subaru look at her when she said that. He couldn't really understand why she would want to keep it a secret. So, he decided to ask her.

"Why?"

"Because, I know how much your friends tease you about me…," she saw Subaru blush when she said that. She giggle before she continue, "so imagine how they would be if they knew about our type of relationship especially since we decided to wait. But also I don't want my friends to find out just yet since…" she turn around before she continue. "One of my friends has a crush on you. So, I'm not sure how she will take it if she ever found out about our feelings toward each other. But also I want to able to go out without any disturbed by anyone. So can we keep it a secret when ever we go out on a date?"

"I see your reason. It'll be nice not to have anyone to disturb us when we go out. But I'll be honest about something. It might be hard not to show any affection towards you especially if some guy tries to flirt with you. I'm not sure if I'll be able to contain my jealousy."

Subaru only look away after he admitted of his jealousy. He felt embarrassed after saying those things.

Yume only look at him as he turn his head to the side. She couldn't help to smile after saying that. She made Subaru look at her before saying "Hey, you know my true feelings and I know your feelings too. Please trust in those feelings. We're going to experience this together. Right now as 'friends' and rival and later as.." she blushed before saying, "a couple."

Subaru smile fondly at her. Her positive attitude always shines through her. The way she thinks and how confident she is are one of the things he fell for her.

Subaru hug Yume not able to contain his emotion. Yume hug him back since he also can't contain her emotion.

They stay like that for awhile. Until Subaru said something.

"I'm going to trust on you and these feelings. But please trust in me also. I know our idol career may prevent us in certain things but I know we'll get through this together," he kept hugging her not letting go.

He could feel Yume smile even without looking at her. Which made him smile too.

"I'll trust you but remember up on stage we are still rivals. Lets help each other to grow further into our idol career. I still want to be the first star idol." she felt a chuckle from him as they kept hugging. She couldn't help to giggle.

"I wouldn't want it any other way. We'll compete to be number one but we'll help each other grow."

"Well now that our feeling are out can we just enjoy this moment" Yume ask as she let go of Subaru's hug.

Subaru smile at Yume as she waited for his answer.

"Sure but first you need to forgive me for something,"

Yume tilted her head and said, "What is it?"

"This," Subaru had lean in to kiss her on her on her lips. Yume was in shock that she didn't move a muscle. After a few seconds she gave in to the kiss. After a while they let go of each other. Both of them blush hard but yet they didn't look away from each other.

Yume eventually said "You stole my first kiss," she look at Subaru with an annoyed face even if she wasn't annoy. She just wanted to tease him a bit.

"Gomen, I couldn't contain myself but if it helps that was my first kiss too." Subaru kept blushing but still smile at Yume.

Yume was a bit shock that she was his first kiss. A popular idol like him save his kiss for someone special. This made her blush even harder. Subaru saw her expression and couldn't help to chuckle.

"Next time I kiss you like that," he look straight to her eyes, "It will be when we're officially a couple"

Neither of their face had calm down. Both of them are still blushing but yet they are enjoying the atmosphere they created.

"Like I said before, I won't make you wait for long" Yume said.

"I know you won't but either way I'll wait for you as long as you want me too,"

She only smile at him. Feeling joy in her heart she couldn't help to contain her excitement.

Subaru is glad that he had the courage to tell her, his true feelings. He's willing to wait for her because he wants to support her as she is a member of S4.

With a final thought in his mind, he grab her hand and led her somewhere before going to their own dorms. Knowing what he was thinking, Yume let him lead her to have a moments together before it was time for curfew.

They enjoy each other's company until time ran out. Knowing that tomorrow they will have to act normal until they are ready to make it official. But not the less they will trust each other and the feelings that they have for one another.

They know everything will turn fine as long as they have each other. Since this isn't a one sided love but instead a new journey for the both of them.

This is the end of the story but don't worry I decided to write an epilogue. Since it can't really and like this.

How was this chapter?

Please tell me what you thought

The epilogue will take sometime to write it. Since I'm not sure when they'll be an official couple. But I have a bit of an idea. I'm hoping by the time the epilogue comes out I'll have my new story ready to publish. Title Battle of the Idols as the main focus will be M4 having a rivalry between an idol group call DearDream. Not only for first place but also the heart if the girl they like.

Please be patient for the epilogue and the new story.

Thank for reading.

Ps. If you want to know who DearDream are watch Dream Festival