The kiss was amazing and Rachel loved it. Rachel didn't expect it and that's what Cassandra wanted. Cassandra stopped the kiss after a while. "Where are you going?"
"I...um I was about to go home." Rachel was still bluffed about the kiss.
"Alright. I have another class and I'll be home at three. Come to my place."
"Okay." Rachel smiled happily at her and she needed to smile back at this happy face. Rachel turned around and left for the subway.
Cassandra stood there for a moment, before she turned around and walked back to the café to get her book and walk to school. She had one last class, but she couldn't concentrate on it, after the class some of her students gave her concerned looks and she knew they were talking behind her back, but that wasn't new. She didn't care, she left as soon as possible.
Today she decided to walk to the grocery store first. Cassandra knew she was just afraid to face Rachel but she needed to buy some food anyway. Cassandra left the store, took a cab and walked into her building. She checked for her mail and took the elevator upstairs.
At 2.47 she got really nervous, because she didn't know if Rachel would show up or not. The doorbell rang, while she unpacked her grocery and almost dipped the milk. She ran over to the mirror.
"What the hell am I doing?" She shook her head and opened the door. "Hi."
"Hey." Rachel just stood there.
"You changed." Rachel looked slightly irritated. "I mean your clothes."
"Well...um, yea my last class was yours, so I took a shower and...yah." Cassandra held the door, while Rachel still stood outside her apartment.
"You look great." Cassandra flushed and closed her eyes, she couldn't believe that just happened.
"...thanks." Rachel didn't know what to do and it got slightly awkward.
"What the hell are we doing here?" She opened her eyes again and looked right into Rachel's eyes, who started laughing. Cassandra frowned, because she doesn't know why Rachel was laughing.
"You're holding your door and I'm watching you. It's actually quite interesting you know." She didn't stop laughing and Cassandra still didn't understand what was so funny about that.
"I don't get it."
"You want to come outside and go somewhere?"
"No." When she answered, Rachel just slid into her apartment. Cassandra didn't mind, in fact she liked how Rachel slid in, right though the door frame and her.
"I remember the last time I was here." Rachel looked around the apartment again, it looked different with daylight.
"You do?" Cassandra closed the door and walked over to her kitchen to finish unpacking her grocery.
"Not all of it." She admitted. Rachel followed her and Cassandra could feel Rachel's eyes watching her. She had to fight the urge to jump over to Rachel and touch her and kiss her everywhere and she wasn't used to not getting what she wanted.
"So...-" Cassandra was sure what Rachel wanted to talk about.
"I don't want to talk about it." She didn't look at her.
"How do you know what I want to talk about, if I haven't said it yet?" This girl is going to make her crazy.
"I'm pretty sure I do." She closed the refrigerator.
"You can turn around and look at me while we're talking, you know." She swallowed hard and slowly turned around.
"Girl, this is really not easy for me okay?"
"You also can use my name." Rachel smiled at her.
"Rachel. I don't... Well I guess... Damn it... This is really hard."
"What? You're just standing there and not even looking at me. Can't be that hard."
"I'm your-"
"I know."
"-and you're my-"
"I know." Rachel smiled. "I don't care. I thought about our conversation in the café and I was wrong." Cassandra felt like she's been set up for some crazy show, where they trick people really bad.
"What?" She got angry, being so badly fooled.
"No! No, no, no, no, no!" Rachel walked quickly over to her.
"Not like that. I meant...well I said to you that I think I'm in love with you." She looked right in Cassandra's eyes and let her no choice to look away from those beautiful brown eyes. Rachel could have said anything right now when she just kept looking at her like that. "I know I am." Rachel had come so close, Cassandra could feel her heart pumping faster and faster. "I want to kiss you."
It was more a question than a statement and Cassandra opened her mouth to give Rachel permission, but closed it again, because she couldn't speak. Rachel came even closer and got on her tip toes to kiss Cassandra. It was the sweetest kiss she ever had. Rachel's lips were so soft, her lipstick tastes like passion fruit and Cassandra was completely overwhelmed.
But it was a little hard for Rachel to stay on her tiptoes, so Cassandra sat her on the kitchen counter. Their kiss got more and more steamy, Rachel had her hands buried in Cassandra's hair and she had her hands all over Rachel, touching her almost everywhere.
When Rachel broke the kiss apart, to breathe, Cassandra just kept kissing her, her cheek, her neck, her collarbone, but she didn't want to go further, so she gave Rachel a kiss on the mouth and let go of Rachel.
"That was...a kiss." Rachel was still out of breath.
"Yes."
"You're stronger than I thought."
"What?"
"You sat me up here so easily... I could never do that."
"Oh I see." Rachel jumped down and stared at Cassandra for a while, but she smiled and Cassandra couldn't help it but smile back.
"Can I have something to drink?"
"Of course."
"Where are your glasses?" Rachel started laughing, because Cassandra just stood there and didn't move.
"I'm sorry." She quickly got a glass and opened the refrigerator.
"Don't be. I think you're a pretty good kisser."
"Thanks." She gave filled the glass with orange juice and gave it to Rachel.
"What now?"
"I don't know. I told you what I want so I guess it's up to you."
"You're making me crazy." Cassandra passed Rachel and walked through her living room into her bedroom. She walked up and down in front of her bed. Rachel followed her into the bedroom and sat on her bed.
"I want to be with you. What do you want?"
"Me too." She stopped and faced Rachel.
"You could say it." Rachel teased her and she knew it, she made Rachel say it and now Rachel is doing the same thing.
"I want to be in a relationship. With you." Cassandra smiled happily at Rachel and Rachel gave her a kiss.
"Thank you." Rachel knew it was hard for Cassandra to say that. "I remember the last time we were here. After I showered." Rachel gave her a seductive smile.
"Not gonna happen." She got the hint and had to laugh. "We could watch a movie though. Or we could go upstairs, I haven't really practiced today."
"Nobody has, you weren't really being yourself."
"I wonder why."
"Don't blame me." She laughed and Rachel got up from the bed.
"I'll just watch you, while you practice." She left and Cassandra followed her upstairs. Actually Cassandra felt relieved, she was glad she let it happen and told Rachel what she wanted. She hasn't been so honest with somebody in a while and she was really happy how it turned out. Right now it seemed perfect to her. She followed Rachel upstairs. Rachel turned the music on and sat on her couch.
"You want to watch me?"
"Well, I already practiced and I don't have changing clothes packed, so yah." Cassandra walked over to Rachel.
"I can give you something to change into." Rachel laughed again.
"I don't think it'll fit, just pretend like I'm not here okay?" Cassandra raised both eyebrows.
"You don't need to practice. I'm sure we can think of something else." Rachel grabbed Cassandra's hand and smiled sweet.
"Oh god..."
"I was hoping you wouldn't give me names anymore." Cassandra was confused for about two second and smirked than.
"Funny. No." She turned around and let go of Rachel's hand, she instantly wanted to go back, but she wouldn't. Instead, she started warming up. It wasn't easy for Cassandra to concentrate, because she knew Rachel was watching her, she saw it in the mirror. And even if she had no mirrors Cassandra was sure she could feel Rachel staring. It only took her about twenty minutes before she stopped.
"Don't stop." Rachel looked disappointed and Cassandra had to catch a breath, but she knew it was not from the warm up.
"We're going out." She just simply said it and walked downstairs, to take a shower and get changed. Rachel turned the music off and followed her, Rachel knew she made it hard for Cassandra, but it was more fun that way. Rachel had no idea where her attitude came from, but it was interesting.
She walked around and thought that something was missing in the apartment, but couldn't figure out what. After a while she walked in the bedroom and waited for Cassandra to come out, but she got bored and went to her closet. Cassandra had really nice clothes, Rachel already knew that she had a great taste, but Cassandra had really nice clothes. Dresses, really expensive looking ones, and pretty blouses and shorts and everything actually.
Rachel was stunned about the large choice. She thought about trying something on, but she heard Cassandra turning the shower off and quickly walked in the living room, took a book and sat on the couch. She had grabbed one about architecture and was really interested once she opened it.
"You like architecture?" She surprised Rachel.
"I, well I just, no. Not really, But this one is pretty interesting." She looked up and flushed. Cassandra just had a towel wrapped around her body and Rachel quickly looked away.
"See something you like?"
"What?"
"I meant in the book."
"Oh...yes, these buildings are amazing. Where are they?"
"Some of them are real and some of them are just fictional."
"Oh."
"My brother made them."
"You have a brother?" Rachel looked up, she felt a little flattered, that Cassandra shared personal information with her. Cassandra still stood there, just watching Rachel.
"Yep."
"I didn't know that." Rachel quickly closed the book and looked for the author.
'A. July' was in big letters on the top of the book and Rachel wondered why she hasn't seen it before.
"I know. How could you."
"Yes. So he's an architect?"
"Yes. He's successful, he made this building."
"Wow." Rachel looked through the pages and found the building in the back of the book.
"That's amazing."
"Yep, my hole family thinks so, too." She sounded, Rachel wasn't sure, but the best way to describe it was jealous.
"So.-" Rachel closed the book, she felt uncomfortable talking about Cassandra's brother. "- where do you want to go?"
"We could take a walk or, well I don't know. What do you want to do?" Rachel liked the idea and smirked shyly.
"I like that." She got up.
"But you should put some clothes on first."
"Very funny. I just wanted to dress proper." She smiled and left into the bedroom. Rachel was totally excited that Cassandra's brother was an architect and opened the book again, looked for the building and read about it. Before she finished the page, Cassandra came out.
"I thought you weren't interested in architecture?" She smiled teasingly.
"Yea, well, it is interesting anyway." She finished the page, even though Cassandra stood there.
"You wanna go?"
"Okay." Rachel put the book back. "And you look amazing." Cassandra just raised an eyebrow and got her purse. She wore black jeans and a white t-shirt. They walked to the elevator.
"You do realize I still have to call you names and be mean to you at school, right?"
"Yes." She felt Rachel's simple respond a little irritating. "And I should still hate you in school."
"You hate me?" They left the elevator and walked outside the building.
"I did. I mean you gave me mean names and you're not exactly fair to me." Cassandra walked to the limousine in front and opened the door, before the driver could.
"I got that Henry." She smiled at him and waited for Rachel.
"I thought we're taking a walk?"
"Yes we will." Rachel frowned out of curiosity.
"Alright." Cassandra smiled happily. They got in the car and the left.
"So, you hate me?"
Rachel shook her head. "Schwimmer? I still don't get it you know?" Rachel sounded a little sarcastic to Cassandra.
"But you will."
"Would be nice. So where are we driving?"
"Central Park."
"It's gonna be weird right?"
"Walking in Central Park?" She was a little confused about Rachel's question.
"In school."
"Probably, yes."
"Hmm."
"I don't care, I think it's going to be weird anyway." Cassandra just shrugged and the fact that she didn't give much about what others think made Rachel smile. "We're there."
"How can you tell?"
"I know New York." She laughed, because Rachel quickly looked outside and had no clue until the driver pulled over. Cassandra got out of the car and walked over to Rachel's side, but Rachel already got out herself. She shook her head.
"I can get out of a car all by myself, but thanks." Rachel laughed
"Whatever." They walked over to the other site of the street. While they were walking Cassandra grabbed Rachel's hand and Rachel needed to look down to make sure it was really Cassandra's hand, because she couldn't believe it.
Rachel flushed. Cassandra didn't seem to mind, that people were staring, Rachel noticed she put on a smirk.
"You're enjoying yourself?"
"Aren't you?"
"Yes, of course, but you seem pretty happy about something." Rachel knew it sounded more like a question than an actual statement.
"I am." No further questions were asked for a while. Rachel just enjoyed Cassandra's company. After a while, Cassandra stopped walking.
"What is it?" Rachel looked confused around.
"I want to show you something."
"Okay, what?"
"I'll show you."
"Where is it?" Cassandra continued their walk. "You know you could tell me."
"Yes." There it was again, that smirk on Cassandra's face which Rachel liked more and more. She liked everything more and more about Cassandra. "I want to show it to you. You should be more patient."
"I am patient."
Cassandra laughed loud. "No, no you're not."
"I am!" She felt a little offended by Cassandra.
"I guess you can wait then?" Cassandra looked in Rachel's eyes and Rachel knew she had to wait, even though she hated it. "It's not far away." Rachel grumbled something, but Cassandra couldn't understand it and just kept walking.
They walked out of the park, Rachel assumed they must have been walking straight trough it.
"You want a coffee?"
"You're trying to kill my patients right?" But Rachel nodded and they walked into the next Starbucks. Cassandra got their coffees and gave Rachel one.
"When I was in college I didn't like coffee." They left the coffeehouse and Rachel noticed, that Cassandra didn't hold her hand anymore.
"In high school I got up very early and I started drinking coffee."
"Yea I started drinking coffee on Broadway." Rachel almost choked her coffee, she wasn't sure how comfortable Cassandra was talking about Broadway.
"Oh." They walked a few more blocks and turned around a corner when Rachel saw it.
"You want to show me Broadway? You know, I've already been here." She laughed a little.
"Not exactly."
"Okay." Rachel was not really comfortable walking down Broadway with Cassandra whose dream was Broadway once too. She quickly linked arms with Cassandra, she didn't want to hold hands when Cassandra obviously didn't.
"It's right over there." They had been walking on Broadway for a few minutes. They passed into a small street and stopped in front of a small theater. It was still open and looked lovely.
"What's this?"
"This is where I had my first Broadway show."
"Wow." Rachel didn't know what else to say. "I've seen a poster of you on another theater. It was closed so I took it." Cassandra looked at her in disbelieve.
"You stole my poster?"
"Well, I wouldn't consider it stealing...the theater was closed."
"That's...unusual." They laughed a little.
"I liked it and I'm sure nobody will mind."
"You want to see a show?" Cassandra saw how amazed Rachel looked at the theater.
"What? Now? No. I'm not proper dressed." First of all she didn't want Cassandra to pay for their first 'date' and secondly she didn't want to remind Cassandra of her career.
"Okay."
"I have to go home." Suddenly Rachel remembered, that Kurt was waiting for her. Cassandra looked a little confused. "Kurt is waiting, he... He made me talk to you." Rachel confessed unwillingly.
"So you didn't want to talk?" They continued their walk.
"Yea I did, but I was... You know... I needed some encouragement."
"So you were a coward." Cassandra just teased Rachel, but it made her flush anyways.
"Whatever." Yes, she was and she knew it.
"You want to go home?"
"Not really."
"And he wanted us talking to each other?"
"Yes, I mean we talked and he-"
"Whatever, just call him and tell him we're talking."
"It's rude to interrupt other people."
"I know, I'm sorry, but you're just talking so much." Cassandra saw the hurt look on Rachel's face. "I'm sorry. Call Kurt. Tell him we're talking. I'm sure he'll be fine. That's what he wanted right?" Rachel got her phone and dialed.
"Hi Kurt-" They stopped walking. "-I'm sorry-" Cassandra heard Kurt talking. "I know, I know-" he sounded very upset. "-I told you I am sorry."
"This is unbelievable." Cassandra couldn't stand this any longer and grabbed Rachel's phone.
"-been waiting for hours!"
"This is Cassandra." Rachel tried to get her phone back.
"Oh." He stopped yelling in the phone.
"Yah. What's up?"
"Nothing. So...you two are like together?"
"Right now, yes." Rachel looked pretty curious about their talk.
"I meant-"
"I know what you meant. I guess we are."
"Okay."
"Alright. Do you wanna talk to Rachel now?"
"No, no I'm fine. You two have a good time."
"Yap, we will."
"Bye."
"Bye." They hung up and she gave Rachel her phone back. Rachel looked wondering.
"What did he say?" She finally asked.
"He wished us a good time."
"Didn't he want to talk to me?"
"He seemed kinda glad you got yourself talking to me." She knew she was teasing Rachel and had to laugh. Rachel looked confused and a little hurt, Cassandra just hugged her. Rachel liked it, she liked Cassandra, in fact she loved her and she's aware of that, but she couldn't say it yet, instead she kissed Cassandra. When they broke apart after a moment Cassandra smirked at her. "What do you wanna do now?"
"I'm getting hungry."
"Me too, great idea. You want dine out?"
"I'd rather not, I would cook something, but the last time...well I ended up smoking. Can we order?"
"Okay." Cassandra called someone, Rachel assumed it was her driver, because she told him where they were. They walked two blocks, hands holding, before they saw the limousine pulling off right next to them. This time Rachel was quick enough to open the door herself.
"Thanks." Cassandra quickly moved in and started laughing inside after Rachel joined her with raised eyebrows. "You know what I'd like to do?"
"What?" Rachel wasn't looking, that's why she didn't see it coming. Cassandra cupped her face, looked gently in her eyes and kissed as passionately as possible. Rachel loved this kiss, it had something, she couldn't quite tell what it was, but she felt something was special about it. She ran her fingers trough Cassandra's hair, while she was still holding Rachel's face.
She wanted to touch Rachel, badly, but she figured it would be too soon. But the again Rachel seemed to think otherwise, she quickly removed her fingers from her hair and tried to move them down. Cassandra pulled away, because she needed to breath and she wanted to give Rachel more time.
Very quickly Rachel sat on her lap and kissed her again, she didn't want to stop the kiss, so she just stopped touching other parts of Cassandra than her hair.
"Rae-" Cassandra tried to speak, but that's not what Rachel wanted. "Rach-Rachel... We're there." Cassandra heard a little moan escape Rachel's throat.
"Can't we just stay in here?"
"Sure we could-" Rachel wasn't stopping to kiss her, Cassandra grabbed her shoulder and held her away. "I really enjoy, making out with you or whatever, but you wanted to eat and we can continue upstairs."
First Rachel seemed like she didn't like the idea, but then suddenly her expression changed and she smirked. Rachel got up from her lap very slowly and very seductive and that made Cassandra almost groan in frustration.
She was really frustrated, but she wanted something special for Rachel. Rachel quickly left the car and waited for Cassandra.
"Are you coming? Or do you want me to come back?" She really wanted Rachel to come back on her lap and kiss her, but she got out anyway. They kissed in the elevator and since Rachel couldn't get enough, Cassandra carried her inside and sat her on the couch.
"You wait here, I'll order food, what do you want?" Rachel smiled seductively and put her finger in her mouth. "God girl, you're driving me crazy!" Cassandra quickly walked to the kitchen to order some Chinese food.
She ordered some vegan stuff and it did not sound tasteful to her, but whatever. "I didn't know what you want, I almost ordered everything vegan." She walked back into the living room, but Rachel wasn't there, the bathroom door was open so she wasn't there either.
Cassandra walked in her bedroom, and what a surprise, she found Rachel on her bed, but not posing or anything seductive like she had assumed. Rachel was reading and it was almost sexier than when Rachel actually tried to be sexy. She leaned against the door frame. "I ordered-"
"I know, I heard you, thanks." She looked up and smiled at Cassandra.
"What are you reading?"
"Principles of Quantum Mechanics." Rachel had to smile, it was one of Cassandra's and Rachel had no clue what it was about.
"Oh you got the easy one." Cassandra was very sarcastic. "So what do you think?"
"I think I am not going to be a physicist when I'm grown up."
"That's too bad."
"Why do you have books like these?"
"I find them interesting."
"You can read this?" Rachel sounded doubtful, while she showed her a page with formulas.
"You want me to explain that to you?" She walked over.
"Oh god no." Cassandra smirked.
"When you change your mind let me know."
"I don't think that's ever going to happen."
"I have fun books you know?"
"Like-" Rachel a few books laying next to her. "-this?" She held up a book. 'Thinking, fast and slow' by Daniel Kahneman .
"You have an eye for the easy ones. When you finish this one, you can't tell me, I haven't read it yet."
"Very funny."
"I mean I have fun books, novels and actual funny books from comedians."
"Okay." Rachel looked waiting. She rolled her eyes and got a book about modern humor from the living room and tossed it over to Rachel.
"There you go." She grabbed the other books and walked back to put them in the bookshelf. She walked around and turned some music on and cleaned up a little. She almost didn't hear the door bell rang, but quickly walked to the door and paid the delivery man and took the food. She walked in the bedroom to tell Rachel.
"You're enjoying yourself?"
"This book is more fun to read and I do understand what it's about." Rachel laughed a little embarrassed.
"Food's here."
"Great." She jumped up from the bed and quickly followed Cassandra in the living room.
"I thought you might want to watch some TV while eating?"
"Yea, sure." Rachel sat on the floor right before the small table and Cassandra sat on the couch. She turned the tv on and zipped a little through the programs and wanted to stop at the history channel.
"What do you want to watch?"
"I don't know."
"I assume you don't enjoy history channel, so just say something."
"I don't know." Cassandra rolled her eyes and was glad Rachel couldn't see it, because she was sitting on the floor. She handed Rachel the remote and if Rachel didn't enjoy infomercials she had to change the program.
Cassandra looked through the boxes and put the first one back, because this was definitely vegan and took another one which was with chicken so she ate it. Rachel flipped through some more channels and stopped when she found a talk show. Actually Cassandra didn't enjoy TV, but this show was quite funny.
They ate in silence and Cassandra assumed Rachel liked the vegan stuff, because she looked through the boxes and ate some food.
When Rachel was finished she stood up and started cleaning.
"What are you doing?"
"I wanted to clean up after eating." Rachel sounds ironic, because it was obvious what she was doing.
"You don't know where to put it."
"I'm sure I can handle it."
"Alright." Cassandra shrugged and watched Rachel, she had to laugh a little though, because she knew Rachel wouldn't find her trash. She just continued the show.
After a while, when Rachel didn't come back she got up and walked in the kitchen.
"Put it all in the bag." Cassandra put some boxes in the bag and had to fight the smile, Rachel was sweet to offer cleaning up. "Outside on the end of the floor there it is." Cassandra walked outside her apartment and showed Rachel the refuse chute.
"I would have figured it out."
"Probably." Rachel laughed.
"Alright I'd never found that." She admitted it.
"I told you."
"Yes, yes you did." Cassandra walked in the kitchen to get some wine for her, not for Rachel, but when she returned to the living room Rachel wasn't here. So she put the bottle down on the table and walked, once again to her bedroom.
"You know, we don't have to watch TV."
"I'm sorry. It's just... I want to read your books."
"All of them?"
"Yea, well not right now, but yes." Rachel didn't exactly know why, but she flushed.
"Alright." Cassandra left the bedroom and Rachel got a little confused by that. But when she returned with the bottle of wine, a glass and the book from Daniel Kahneman , which Rachel had chosen earlier, she understood.
"You're drinking wine in bed?"
"Usually I read on my couch, but since you seem to want to stay in bed." She laid next to Rachel, it was a little weird, because usually she had the hole bed for herself, but it was nice to share it with Rachel.
After about two hours reading in silent she noticed Rachel was about to fall asleep. She said nothing and continued reading with a little smirk on her face. When she knew Rachel had fallen asleep for a little while she slowly got up and put Rachel's book on the nightstand, took her phone and called Kurt.
"It's Cassandra. Rachel fell asleep, you wanna come a get her?"
"Oh hi, I don't know... I mean she could stay over at your place, since you're together, right?"
"I guess she could." That's not what she expected, even though it was logical somehow.
"Alright." He hung up and Cassandra walked back. She thought about undressing Rachel, but that would be too weird and Rachel probably would wake up. That's why she just covered Rachel with a blanket and changed into a tank top and boxer shorts and slipped into the bed. It felt unusual sleeping next to someone and it took Cassandra awhile to fall asleep, because she heard Rachel breathing. She was almost asleep when Rachel suddenly turned around and put her arm over Cassandra's stomach.
"Oh god..."