I hope you all like this! I wrote this with a lot of love in my heart! for the ones who like to listen to music while you read, I suggest listening to Give it all by Foals, cause it's what I listened to when I wrote it, so that's kind of the whole vibe of the chapter
A cool breeze blew through the window of Lydia's bedroom. The cold air woke her up. Groggy, she sat on the bed looking for her heated blanket. The sight of Victoria's figure sleeping beside her dissipated the sleepiness from her mind. Wrapped under her recently found covers, she watched her chest rising with her every breath.
Resting her head on her knees, the blonde thought she could stay in that moment for the rest of her life. She felt safe. Judging by the light outside, it was probably before 6 am. The first rays of sunshine were coming up and slowly the air was turning hotter. It would be a beautiful sunny day.
Lost in thought, she just starred at this beautiful scenario happening at the beach.
-Morning… -Victoria spoke and, even though she didn't turn around, Lydia could her a smile in her voice.
-Hi. –she whispered. They starred at each other, not daring too say another word. They both feared anything could break the peace around them.
Victoria rose, sitting beside her best friend, leaning her head on her shoulder. That simple gesture made Lydia's heart melt, but that was, shortly after, followed by a tension on her shoulders as she wondered what was happening with her life. Victoria, also lost in thought, asked herself what was she doing in her best friend's bed.
-Lydia… - The blonde held her breath, preparing herself for a serious conversation about things she wasn't ready to talk about and didn't understand yet.
-Yes…-her voice barely making a sound.
-I'm hungry. –Relieved, she laughed out brunette smiled,understanding why. "She's in love with me…" Just by looking at her green eyes, she imagined what kind of emotional hell she was going through in her mind. If she was already confused about what she felt after one kiss, she figured Lydia's mess was far worse.
At the kitchen table they discussed the new art exhibition at their favorite museum. Distracted, they didn't even notice time pass by. It was almost nine o'clock when Victoria rose from her chair.
-I should go… The kids are probably waking up by now. – Lydia nodded in comprehension.
-And Conrad, of course…-she looked down, noticing a sting of jealousy in her own soul. She thought it was funny how much one can feel and not even be aware. "The human soul is far more complicated than we think…"
-No, he's traveling. Again. – Victoria's lips formed a thin line. For a moment, Lydia thought she saw them tremble. It wasn't news to anyone that he cheated on her. Everyone in the Hampton's new it. Maybe, even she new it, but seemed to neglect it. Instinctively, the golden haired woman got up and held her face in her hands.
-Victoria, I'm so sorry… -tears rolled down the brunette's soft, white cheeks and she let her forehead touch her friend's.
-Let's not talk about this, please.
-Ok. – she wrapped her arms around her. Afraid of the response, she didn't ask when she'd be seeing her again. Maybe this wouldn't go any further. Maybe they would just remain as they were before she declared her love and kissed her. Maybe Victoria would feel weird after coming back home and would never want to see her again. Maybe this was goodbye.
Unexpectedly, Victoria gave her a smooch, interrupting the cascade of terrible thoughts that were rushing through Lydia's brain.
-I'll see you at the fundraiser tonight? –the dark haired woman smiled and headed to the door.
-Yes! –the blonde mumbled, feeling her cheeks burn red. The front door closed and she was left alone in her living room solemnly illuminated by the sun coming through the porch. Her heart beat a thousand miles a second and she felt tingles from head to toe.
Throwing herself on the couch, she laid there staring at the sealing, unaware of the gigantic smile decorating her features. Even though she did not understand the path her life was taking, on that moment, she didn't care.
Outside, Victoria walked towards the manor.
-What the hell am I doing? –wondering, she stared at the ocean. After closing her eyes, she remembered the kiss she gave Lydia just before leaving. "Why did I do that?" her heart filled with anxiety, but as she looked back at the beach house, it calmed. Whatever the reason was, she was happy she did it and wouldn't let anything take that away from her. It wouldn't matter the doubts stirring in her mind or whatever way this "thing" with her best friend would go. She was done with the loneliness. And especially done with the self-reprehension.
For too long she endured her own conscience accusing her of all the terrible things she did in the past. She was too accustomed to inflicting guilt and torturing herself for everything. Now, her husband was, almost certainly, cheating on her, leaving her alone all the time. But, suddenly, one of the people she loves most in the world kisses her and it feels amazing, like she's not all alone afterall. Someone was still capable of loving her. She's not letting that go. Enough was enough.
"It's time to cut out the chains." Victoria decided. No more guilt from now on. No more oppression.
Once again, someone was feeling something for the first time that morning in the Hamptons. Victoria felt hope.
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