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A/N: Tada! Here's the new chapter!

Okay, so I really need a beta reader who can combat with my serious punctuation and grammar blunders on weekly basis.

After reading the chapter you will notice the dramatically improved punctuations, for that, all the credit goes to ThePsychoVamp- she's simply awesome. A great writer with equally awesome personality.

Thanks!

1.) ThePsychoVamp for helping me with this chapter.
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Chapter 3

EPOV

"Anyone who loves in the expectation of being loved in return is wasting their time." – Paulo Coelho

I was still shocked and somewhat dizzy when Alice carried me home in bridal style. And after some lectures, I was forced to feed by Esme; I just couldn't get over the disastrous call with Jacob. I am mortified and utterly terrified about confronting him. I need some time, anything before that meeting; I need to compose myself before clearing things with Jacob.

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I still don't know what to do. I haven't talked to anyone after coming back that day, and it's been a week since that disaster. I just can't decide anything. Everyone, including Bella, have tried to talk to me, but to no avail. I just can't talk about it, so instead, I stay locked up in my room. I know perfectly well that I am brooding and, trust me, I am not very happy about this, but it's not easy even for a century-old vampire to overcome embarrassment like that. Considering the mood and situation around me, I am pretty sure that Jacob hasn't revealed anything to anyone, and while I should be glad about that, the truth is that I am not.

Yes, I was freaked out about Bella, but I am losing it with Jacob.

Is he ashamed of me? I don't want him to hate me anymore than he does already. Sigh. This is really fucked up. Why is my life this complicated all of a sudden? I wished to have a mate for more than a century and when I finally got my wish, I landed up with none other than my mortal enemy. Talk about the tragedy... I prayed for my mate to be more human, and voila… He is human. Well, fifty percent human. And to add in to my extraordinary luck, he's a male. And on top of that, according to his lineage, he's an alpha male- well, more aptly an alpha wolf. But doesn't that makes me his bit… umm submissive. I know that it doesn't matter seeing how repulsed he is by my existence, but a man can dream can't he?

God is definitely punishing me.

I was still brooding when my door burst open. Wow… I didn't hear anyone coming. Is something really wrong with me? I guess I am freak even as a vampire.

"Stop it, Edward! I can't take your depression anymore. More appropriately, we can't take your locked up brooding anymore!" chastised an angry Jasper, followed by a chorus of yeses emitted by my family.

"Please, let us in, Edward. We are going crazy with your emo shit," he said, using that 'big brother' voice while drilling me with his eyes. How does he do that? It's like I can't help but feel ashamed when he's like this.

"Edward, are you listening to me?" he asked calmly. Shit! I am in trouble.

"Yeah… I mean, sorry, I will join you all in a minute," I said.

"Ok, but come fast," he said sternly with a nod.

Groaning, I got up and changed my clothes after a blissful shower. I went down and settled myself on the couch. Strangely, no one was around, so my mind started wandering again and I was once again lost in my thoughts. A tap on my head brought me back to our hall, where all my family members sat on their respective places, with their analyzing stare on the not so normal family member: me.

"Are you alright, son?" asked Carlisle while caressing my face. He is truly like a father- a loving father.

"Am fine," I said, straightening up.

"What's going on. Edward?" It was Esme.

I looked up to find Esme staring at me with a concerned face. "Everything is fine, mom," I said with the intention of easing her mind. It didn't work.

Instead, her face hardened and with an angry voice she started, "Edward Anthony Mason Cullen, if you don't want to get grounded for eternity then spill whatever it is right now. And don't you dare lie to me," she finished. I was thoroughly embarrassed and ashamed of my behavior. I should have told my parents when this all thing started instead.

"I-I am sorry, mom. I was just confused and wasn't sure what your reactions would be, I was…" Scared. Esme finished my line in her mind, and I nodded, looking in her eyes. I wanted her to understand this.

"Fucking say it, Ed," Jasper said. He was struggling with all the out of place emotions in the room.

With a resigned sigh, I stated, "I am in love with Jacob Black, grandson of Ephraim Black. He's my destined mate. " But my parents weren't fazed in the slightest way by the news. They looked like I have just told them something regular. I mean, come on, you are supposed to look at least a little surprised by my huge revelation. Did they know about it already? Nah, it's not possible. Maybe they are in shock, but then again vampires can't go into shock.

"Umm… are you in shock?" I asked stupidly. As usual, Emmett started sniggering, with my other siblings following behind. Even Carlisle cracked a smile at my silliness. But everyone got quiet with Esme's glare.

"Why did you asked that, honey?" Mom asked in her usual soft voice.

"I-I thought you would be shocked and disgusted with me after my revelation." I confessed honestly.

With a sad smile Esme rose up from her seat and in an instant, I was engulfed in her arms, before she whispered, "I can never feel like that for my baby boy. How can you even think like that Edward?"

"I am sorry." That was the only thing I could think of and with that, everyone joined on our hug. I felt loved and cherished.

After that, everyone demanded the reason behind my locking myself up the stunt and I finally shared everything with my family.

"After coming back, I just couldn't decide what to do next," I finished, and I can't describe how uncomfortable I was feeling due to the muteness around me.

"Shit dude! That's a fucked up situation." Emmett broke the silence.

"I know." I sighed.

I was still processing all these things when I heard the deep rumbling of Bella's ancient truck. That thing should be kept in Museum. As usual, everyone stiffened. How I didn't notice the strain Bella brought to my family. I guess I was so occupied with our destructive relationship that I just ignored my own family. I can read minds, but still, I didn't even realize the struggle my family was going through. Rosalie told me that we were not compatible, that our bond was volatile, codependent… I- now, I can see what she meant by those harsh words. She wanted me to see the truth, the ugly truth.

Suddenly, I felt anger bubbling inside. Confused, I looked up and realized that Jasper is projecting his emotions. No… Bella's emotions. Sometimes Jasper loses control over prominent emotions. Being an empath is not cool like many would think.

Two seconds later Bella entered the hall, with that tantalizing fragrance of her blood, Jasper left the room due to the hunger- my hunger.

With a sigh, I got up and turned towards the stairs, but Bella was too impatient and blurted out all the things in front of my family. Well, I am lucky for once.

"Edward, how could you lie about Jacob like that and what is this 'I love you' thing? Why would you do that? Is it some kind of a joke? I knew there was something when you started pulling away… That's why I asked for the breakup. Was Jake the reason? Are you suddenly gay? How could you lie about Jacob's love life…? I never thought you, out of all people, would pull something like that, for… for just to keep me away from Jacob… It didn't work by the way. I asked Jacob and let me spell it for you: HE IS NOT G-A-Y- Gay!" She was shivering and gasping after finishing her little speech.

It took her few seconds, but she really looked pained after realizing her mistake… Well, yes, you just shouted about our secret breakup and other –very personal- things, honeybunch.

"Relax, I told them everything," I stated dryly. Bella looked as surprised as my family members did.

'What are you planning, Edward. Please think properly before doing anything,' whispered Alice in my mind.

I blocked other's thoughts out of my mind, including Alice's for as long as I could.

"Wh-what?" Bella asked after processing this.

"Are you really this slow… I mean, seriously, how difficult is it to understand that I told my family about our breakup?" I scoffed, and with a smirk continued, "...and about my love for Jacob."

Everyone, including Rosalie, were giving me that 'unbelievable' look.

"So you're admitting that you lied to me on purpose?" she asked with glistening eyes.

I sighed and said, "Yes, I lied to you because, I want Jacob and you are the pathetic little human who is in my way," I said with a sneer.

"You are really disgusting, Edward! How could you use me like that?" she shrieked with tears streaming from her eyes.

"I am disgusting? You are the one who always slings along with a group of vampires. I never forced anything upon you, Bella. And if I remember properly you are the one who always forced herself on me. I mean, how can you not realize that someone is not interested in you?" I finished while slumping back on the couch.

"You know what? I am a fool who thought you loved me, a pathetic girl who wanted to have a fucking fairy-tale. I can't believe you used me all along. All that drama with Jake was just so you can talk to him. Right!" She was giving me the same hateful glare that Jacob gave me when he realized I am really a bloodsucking monster. "You are unbelievable, Edward, a sick bastard, a MONSTER." With that, Bella turned and left the room with no other emotion than hate and disgust. I don't need Jasper to know this. I am happy he's not here or he would have suffered just because I made a mistake, but now I probably have fixed everything. Bella will never think of me or about our damned relationship ever; she can live a happy life with Jacob now.

With Bella gone, all my defenses broke down and I was bombarded with the thoughts of the people around me. They wanted me to explain what just happened, most prominent amongst them was Alice's:

'Edward, you know this will affect you greatly. Please don't do this.'

I want peace right now. I think now is a perfect time to use my other curse.

'I want them happy, and they can only be happy without me Ally.' I whispered to Alice.

I know it was short in comparison to other chapters but don't worry as the story will start from here and you may get to read more Jacob/Edward chapters.

Again I will request you to rescue Repercussions from my poor writing and be the beta reader the story. PM me if interested.