This is a very, very, very happy chapter. I promise.
-Do you have any idea how happy I am when I'm with you? –the blonde asked, smiling. Victoria snuggled closer to her on the bed. Their lips collided softly and hungry for each other.
-After I fought with Conrad last night I couldn't think of anything else but you. I needed you, Lydia. I knew that the moment I hugged you all the madness and chaos in my mind would disappear. –a tear rolled down her cheek. Lydia wiped it off. –I… I just want to thank you, because I don't know where I would be if you weren't here for me. –the brunette buried her face in her neck, without mind all the hair in her face. Feeling her perfume was like a dream.
-I'm always here for you. – Lydia whispered, wrapping her arms around her, pulling her close. She imagined the tighter she hugged her, the more she expelled all the sadness off her tiny body.
Not a single thought crossed Victoria's mind in that moment. That's when she finally felt peace. She was exactly where she needed to be. She inhaled deeply, feeling a mix of the smell of lydia's hair and the scent of the salty ocean air that blew in from the window. In that second, she realized there was nothing more in that world that she wanted to do besides being with her right then and there.
As if a spark of light had shone in the end of a tunnel, a breakthrough happened in her soul, when she realized her happiness had to come first. For years she'd let herself come after the needs of her husband and son. She hadn't been living her life, but theirs. It was time to stop.
But how? How would she break the chains between Conrad and her? How would she set herself loose from his tyranny and start living a life worth living? She didn't even know how long it would take to divorce him. She didn't even know what to do on that morning. Hell, she had no idea what, on earth, she would have for breakfast.
-A penny for your thoughts. –the greeneyed woman whispered, caressing her arms.
-I just wish life had a manual sometimes… -she laughed, with sad eyes.
-Who doesn't! –they giggled a bit. –We are gonna be fine, Victoria. Somehow, I just know it.
Looking at her eyes, she desperately wanted to believe her, but all her demons seemed to scream and laugh inside her brain that nothing was right and would never be ok. But, for a brief second, the light coming in through the window and shone over Lydia's face and that made her feel a desire for her. It was stronger than anything she'd felt before for her. She just looked so amazingly beautiful.
It was like all the love she had always felt for her best friend had intensified and become something more. All the sentiment she'd had for her since the first time the blonde had kissed her, suddenly grew into a perfectly defined love. Victoria Grayson was in love with a woman.
That's when she was sure it was worth hanging on to hope. She would not give up. She would not allow herself to sink into an ocean of misery. It was time to fight.
Smiling, she kissed her intensely, letting all that she felt flow freely, for the first time in her life. She wanted her. She was ready to make a move and close the gap between their bodies, but the giant roar that her stomach made reminded both of them they needed to eat. Victoria knew she needed waffles for breakfast.
They made their way downstairs, Lydia served herself a bowl of cereal with milk and Victoria started preparing her own plate.
-I'll wait for you in the living room. –the blond said, going out of the kitchen and sitting on the couch. The light from a beautiful sunny day illuminated the whole room, giving it a happy vibration.
In the kitchen, Victoria finished making her food. Voraciously, she ate it before reaching the door. She was glad no one had been around to see that shameful scene. She laughed at herself alone. She was done with it. Done with trying her best to keep up with everyone else. She would do what she wanted, what felt right to her and only her. If she wanted to stay with Lydia, she would and there was no voice in the world that would convince her that it was wrong to do that. There would be no voice in her own mind telling her not to do that anymore, because she decided to listen to her heart and set it free from it's chains.
She ran out of the kitchen and opened the door, roughly. The blonde jumped on the couch, scared by the loud noise the door made when it hit the wall. She held her bowl, careful not to spill any milk. The brunette, held the doorknob starring at her, smiling widely.
-Hi… -she said.
-Hi… -Lydia said, smiling with her mouth full of cereal. She put the bowl down by the table. –What is it?
-I love you too… -Victoria walked inside, closing the door behind her and set on the couch by Lydia's side. She caressed her friend's arm, feeling her soft skin - I need you…
Lydia stood speechless. Her heart beat a thousand miles a second and she could feel excitement bursting inside of her.
-Oh my god, Victoria… -she swallowed and covered her mouth with her hand. –I'm so happy to hear you say this… -she held her hand. - I love you so much!
They hugged tightly for what seemed like and eternity, never wanting to leave each other's embrace. When, Victoria, finally, let go of her arms, her face stood inches from Lydia's. Their noses touched lightly and their eyes were closed. Their lips brushed for a second, but Victoria, suddenly stepped back.
In that moment, she was completely taken by a profound desire to do more than just kissing her best friend. Even if she didn't know how that would go, she didn't mind and was sure the blonde wouldn't mind it either. For the first time, she felt a sexual desire for a woman as much as she had felt before for a man, so it scared her for a second. But, looking at her green eyes and her beautiful golden hazed face, enlightened by the sun, she felt calm and knew deep in her heart that she could trust her.
She lifted her hand, pulling Lydia's bangs behind her ears and kissed her. There was no hesitation, no holding back. They were pure desire. Lydia pulled Victoria closer, holding her hair on the back of her neck. Victoria moaned, holding her hair as well.
The brunette felt like she was liberating herself from all the years of imprisonment in her own mind and in her marriage, so she just didn't think anymore. All she did was feel and touch more and more. Her hands went down to Lydia's chest and she experienced the sensation of touching someone else's breast that she never felt before. It was all new to Lydia too, so she moaned inside her mouth, as a rush of adrenaline went through her whole body.
Lydia grabbed Victoria by the waist and pulled her to her lap. Putting her legs around her waist, they could feel each other in places they never did before and the sensation was driving them crazy. The blonde lowered her hands, touching Victoria's most sensitive spot, making her moan over and over again, as she teased her, moving her fingers in circles. She was impressed at how much knowing her own body made her aware of how to touch another woman.
The brunette carved her fingernails on her neck, still holding her hair. She bit her lips and started moving her hips back and forth. All she knew was that she wanted Lydia inside of her, somehow. As if she was reading her thoughts, she slid her hands under her dress and inserted her fingers inside.
The sensation of being in Victoria made Lydia feel like she finally had her to herself. The woman she loved was right there, all hers. No one else's.
Victoria slid her hands inside Lydia's shirt, touching her naked breasts, making her moan too. On fire, she made her hands go even lower, touching Lydia's clit. They were both starting to get louder. Opening their eyes, briefly, they starred at one another's expressions, smiling. They kissed, breathless.
Victoria felt her touching all the right spots and as it all became rougher, she knew she was close to climaxing. Tilting her head back, she opened her mouth, allowing every sound to come out unrepressed. She moved her hands between Lydia's legs, making her close to coming.
As Lydia felt Victoria's body trembling over her, in an orgasm, she climaxed herself.
-Oh God… -The brunette whispered, as she collapsed over her on the couch, burying her head on her neck. Breathless, the blonde put her arms around her, laughing.
-I didn't know this would be so good… - Victoria laughed at her comment.
-I feel so safe with you. –she whispered against the blonde's sweaty neck.
Victoria lifted her head to face her. Lydia's forehead touched hers.
-You are safe with me. You will always be. I promise. – she pulled in, pressing her lips against hers. They laid down on the couch, with almost every body part touching each other and slept for hours.
Victoria last thoughts before falling asleep were "I'm free… I'm finally free."